youth on the diagram? reference to Parties are for Losers?

-THIS IS NOT MY WORK, I JUST WANT TO LISTEN TO IT, SONG IS BY FERRY-

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC8Brf3y0cLrxdn-Fv2P1BvQ
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If found this, I am uploading this because I want to listen to the song however the artist, FERRY has not posted it on soundcloud at time of posting this.(Which I mean is like an hour after it came out on youtube ) Go support FERRY and their music as it is some of the best I heard. THE SECOND I SEE FERRY UPLOADS THIS SONG TO SOUNDCLOUD THIS WILL BE DELETED, I DO NOT WANT CREDIT FOR THIS SONG I JUST WANT TO LISTEN TO IT

also ferry if you see this I seriously love your music and art and wish you only good times to come!

COMFORT ZONE -  By FERRY

"The Russian noun for "zone" is of feminine gender."
-original video description 

song belongs to Ferry not me! go check it out on YouTube to support them
https://youtu.be/P5QjHq9g0oA
LIKE A DOG is now out on Spotify! support Ferry by listening to it there! https://open.spotify.com/track/6dvbvlqV5sVyA3s8o16GRh

LIKE A DOG - FERRY FT. NEKOMURA IROHA

LYRICS:

i never wanted
to fade away, yet here i am
oh just another troubled youth on the diagram
“do you like me?”
“why don’t we just get out of here?”
and for another night I lose myself and disappear

i say it’s awful
the smoky gray crumbling view
just makes me want to break away, run away, but you 
say it’s normal
and so we keep tumbling through
and every day i’m hammered by this dire dejavu

on a night like any other
my mind started to wander, then i froze - 
out from the flickering shadows
she arose

the loser looks in the eyes of the monster 
the room is caving in, it’s okay, it’s okay, i say
and just like that it turns into a girl, hey
a friendly baseball bat comes to save the day 
eternal rest never seemed to be closer
than in that passing moment, but quickly my fear was gone
a lapse of reason, i figure, can be pretty fun
and so the party goes on and on

i always wanted
to feel like i hold my own reins
my future’s on the rails of freight trains, not daisy chains
she is laughing
“that’s such an uncool thing to say”
i miss the trashcan as i throw my cigarette away

i don’t know what else i can tell you
“you know, opening up is not that bad”
i think this music will surely
drive me mad

the loser looks in the eyes of the monster 
at last he doesn’t need to pretend or to force a smile
oh i don’t know if i’m lying or living a lie
the monster’s humming a lullaby 
“oh what’s the use of escaping the future
when you can mold it into whatever you please”, she sings
and i don’t know if it’s something she really believes 
my sadness seeps through my clenched teeth

the loser looks in the eyes of the girl and 
the room is caving in, it’s okay, it’s okay, i say
and just like that she turns into a monster
there’s nobody to show up and save the day 
eternal rest never seemed to be closer
than in that passing moment, but quickly my fear was gone
and even though all this mindless self-indulgence was fun
the party ends at the break of dawn

Parties Are For Losers

happy valentine's day uwu
i decided to atually put up the little remix i made about a month ago of this very cherry, somewhat obscure russian lovesong. it was originally supposed to be a cover, but there was no instrumental for it and yeah! i ended up creating a more grating version of the original hahah 
one day i will stop using flslayer. one day.

original song: "сердце получает нож" by ploho
english lyrics, art, remix: me

【Eleanor Forte】heart gets the knife【Ploho remix】

sorta flubbed this one but i'll do better next time i promise

LYRICS:

Once again I was left in the dust
Destructive ones like me fold when there is nothing to bust
I couldn't see
Past the bright facade - layers of rust
It's not like I'm saying goodbye
Hey, why are you smiling still, cool guy?

"This world is a cruel place to people like you,
I'll keep you safe"
Said the prison guard, digging his grave
And so I craved
Every single meeting with you the same to say
"How are you? How was your day?"
So

"Um... listen, it's gonna sound weird, but..."
"What is it? You're hitting on me?"
"NO!"
"It's just that...Those parties you love..."
"Yeah?"
"I want you to take me to one"
"Huh?!"

So a boyish constitution
Gets to lead a revolution
Everything about you screams "a bad idea"
Yet the walls around my sheltered heart
Begin to break and fall apart
Your smile is brighter than the most relentless sun

"This world is a cruel place to people like you,
I told you so"
I won't give him that, damage control
Won't help me then
Ah, I wish I felt nothing at all
But I'll take that blow, take that blow
I'll take more!

"So dear, are you having fun?"
"Ah, sorry for spiking your guns"
"You mind if I join you now?"
"Oh it's okay, I'm calm--"
"You know I really hate this town"
So

When a boyish constitution
Gets to lead a revolution
Everything about it screams "a bad idea"
I won't ever bear my foolish heart
I'll paint my face with blood and dirt
The chain has broken, I've no right to feel this hurt

Once again I was left in the dust
Destructive ones like me fold when there is nothing to bust
I couldn't see
Past the bright facade - layers of rust
It's not like I'm saying goodbye
But just in case, I wanna tell you I --

"There's a stupid thing I used to say -
"Pathetic ones like me lose before we join the game"
- That's really lame!
So tomorrow I'll see you again"
"Then don't you dare flake on me, I won't let you get away with ditching this time!"
Don't leave me behind again, cool guy

【vflower】FALSE DISPOSITION【VOCALOID Original】

This song is pretty simple in terms of music, but I had lots of fun making it (the lyrics especially)! 

LYRICS:

Oh what a tragedy, a terrible woe
The only hope of our society - what a blow! -
Has fallen dead struggling against a terrible foe!
“Okay, I’m gonna call the ambulance”
“Please, no”

City wrapped around the borderline
Seems to be set on crushing every dream of mine
Well, screw that! I won’t settle for a boring life
I have no ammo but an ambition to fight
Hey, tell me, sister, why you feel no discontent
You’re working 9 to 5, but that just can’t be it
Expensive taste in clothing, oh I have you on lock -
How many office ladies always carry a glock?

But ah, crap, no, I had it coming
I got in trouble again, but now it isn’t funny
I could really use a Prince Charming now
Or anyone if they could help me somehow

And a hero busts onto the scene
The cutest, coolest boy that I have ever seen!
I guess not all is lost for this pathetic place
Oh god, okay, he’s not that strong, oh no, come on, guys, not his face-

Hey, are you okay, are you there, hey
Blink 3 times if you hear me, alright? 
“Eh?”
Awful, awful, it may be too late 
“Say, you sure messed him up”
“We didn’t fight!”

So you say you ran away from home?
I guess it’s common in this god-forsaken hole!
You know my household’s also pretty shit and all -
My older bro’s a loser and my mom is a whore!
“Woah”
How about you live here for a bit?
“I never said that, I don’t even know you, kid”
Come on, he saved my life, I could’ve gotten killed!
I’m gonna feed him, walk him, let him stay, I plead!
“Ugh...”

Oh, boy! We’re gonna do great things
(I don’t know what that entails, but that’s another story)
Anyways, you wanna go out with me?
“Okay” 
I knew that we were destined to be!

Team Buster busts onto the scene!
The coolest rebel kids the world has ever seen
Both you and I are lost in this pathetic place
At least that way the fear doesn’t hit like a mace
And now you ask me, “Do you want to run away?”
My mind is racing - what am I supposed to say?
“If nothing holds you here then you don’t have to stay”
I want to say “okay” - I’m ashamed, but I’m suddenly afraid 

I may not know anything at all
And something tells me this is out of my control
I guess in retrospect I could’ve figured that
At least that way the shock wouldn’t hit like a bat 
And spastic light specs brighter than the bluest skies
Begin to dance around as panic clouds your eyes
And you can call me dumb, impulsive and unwise
But there’s no way I’ll stand here and watch, paralyzed

Who would’ve thought! No, really, this is quite a scene
The cutest, coolest boy that I have ever seen
Turned out to be a monster mutant death machine!
“I wouldn’t call myself-” “You will not turn him in!”
“I see you kids sure love being dramatic, huh?
I think you should calm down before you go too far”
Okay, I think I need some time to take this in
“I think I just lucked out” “Oh, you did?”
“He most definitely did”
Well then, I guess it’s good nobody got hurt in the end!

【Yuzuki Yukari】Punch It, Punk!【VOCALOID Original】

LYRICS:

Ah just another day, another routine check to do
For you it’s nothing new
I see how they avert their eyes as you wait for the cue
Hey, is that fear or hatred I feel seeping through?
I see we’re ready to
Begin, funny thing is I that can’t help but feel sad for you 

Let’s count to 10, breathe in and breathe out
Let’s go to a happy place
My heart is about to
Collapse, reduced to waste
“Hey, what’s with the holdup?”
I’m pulled away

Your cold breaking point
Was reached as the shackles
Were cracked and destroyed
Your heart is in shambles
But that’s all okay
I’m sure you will pull through
Because being used
Is really uncool!

This brave new world unfolds its bright self right before my eyes
“Hey, don’t you realize
That this life is not fit for the likes of you and I” 
That is a lie
Say, what’s the point of breaking free to isolate ourselves again
Are you afraid of pain? 
It’s a shame 
Real shame that you believe they’re all the same

Just breathe in and breathe out
Oh it’s gonna be a blast
My heart is about to
Excitedly combust
Oh, I’ll prove you wrong
Even if through this cheesy song

To say “what’s the point of risking and trying”
Is really uncool, but I would be lying
If I told him that the thought has never crossed my mind
So I held in my spiteful sigh 
"Don't tell anyone - I'll keep my mouth shut too" 
Hah, what do you mean? I've nothing to hide, "You 
don't need to play dumb," 
His gaze pierces through me 
"I knew what you were from the beginning" 

My cold breaking point
Was reached as the shackles
Were clasped on my joints
My heart is in shambles
This isn’t okay
But surely you’ll pull through
Because giving up
Is really uncool!
But what’s this you say?
The merciful lie that
I lived till this day
Has crumbled to dust and
There’s no other way
Cause some things are simply
Meant to be contained
And one of them is me

So are you happy to be proven right?
I only hope he won’t lose sight
Of his own future clear and bright
Please take this song as my goodbye

【GUMI English】KT's OFFICIAL GUIDE TO COOLNESS【VOCALOID Original】

LYRICS:

“Two do the job, the third one is witness
Don’t shoot the guards, no need for guns”, check this
“Don’t go across, the longer road’s safer
Watch as the bolt’s trajectory wavers” -
Learn in by heart, now the hardest part comes when
Staggering doubt paralyzes you and then
You fall apart like a house of cards, might as 
Well disregard it as a cursory mantra

Ah, my head feels heavy once again
I wish I could dissolve myself in this rusty air
It’s getting harder to act like I don’t really care
I’m sorry but these earnest words of yours are just too much to bear

Я вижу тебя, дымка стелется над
Розовой дугой предрассветного
Далекого, как в детстве, свечения
И с наших рук земля осыпается, черная земля осыпается
Обернутая в синее полотно, она идет за мной бледным призраком
Туманы над водою - дымка предрассветная стелется
Седым покровом ровным над тихою, над тихою рекою

(TL: I see you, the haze lingers above
The pink arc of breaking dawn,
A light just as distant as it was when we were children
And dirt, black dirt is spilling from our hands
Wrapped in blue cloth, her pale ghost follows me
Fog on the water - the dawning haze lingers
Like a gray duvet, above a quiet, quiet river)

(Transcript: Ya vizhu tebya, dymka steletsa nad
Rozavai dugoy predrassvetnava
Dalyokava, kak v detstve, svecheniya
I s nashyh ruk zemlya asypaetsa, chyornaya zemlya asypaetsa
Abernutaya v sineye palatno, ana idyot za mnoy blednym prizrakam
Tumany nad vadoyu - dymka predrassvetnaya steletsa
Sedym pakrovam rovnym nad tihayu, nad tihayu rekoyu)
  
I’ll draw a circle in the sand
Drive myself around the bend
In a desperate attempt to hold onto your battered hand
Rocked to sleep beneath the snow
She is bathed in youthful glow
"Strong enough to let it go" he says, but, darling, I don't know
This isn't my first time sinking lower than the low
How hard can it be to never let it overflow
Oh, I've gotten used to being haunted long ago
All I need to hear’s a simple "hello" 

Right through the arc of breaking dawn
Through the haze and through the maw
Of the grinder; I won’t find her, but I’ll guide you through them all
No more circles left to find
In the windmills of this mind
Rest your members 
Now, remember, dear, you’ve always been too kind
Oh it’s nothing new, the visionless leading the blind
It’s easy to say, “why don’t you leave it all behind”
And this moral compass is forever misaligned
All I need to hear is that you’ll be there by my side
(But you can never know that)
“Too strong to die”  
(Or was that me again?)
I know that
(There has to be some hope that’s)
Just out of sight

I won’t let myself lose it again 
And now my only hope is that one day you’ll understand
I’ll wrap the chain
Round my heart and her hammering neck
And save what’s left, though I know that
One day this weight will come to break my back

Once again we were left in the dust
Self-hating ones like us crack when we betray someone’s trust
So if you must
Shield your heart with these layers of rust
The sun will rise, until then I’ll
Be waiting for you on the other side

【Iroha feat. KYO】THE MILL【VOCALOID Original】

LYRICS:

Channelling love through the noise of sinful thoughts becomes a
Challenge with no guiding voice to pave the way, you say
This safe existence’s lacking in joy,
But as opposed to what? The world that 
Just wants to play and break you like a toy?

Channelling love through the fear of being torn apart by
Crowds of your barbarian peers, the human filth around us
Wants to trample all that is dear
Under the guise of watchful reason
But no, of course, I’m being too austere

A thousand years ago it was a tepid autumn day
A lock has sealed this door,

But no more 
Blinded by the sun,
You spin the barrel of a
Fully-loaded gun
“If there’s no winning 
Might as well just have some fun”
I want to scream, when will you
Get it through your skull
That I will not
Let you drown
“The light is gone -
The thought keeps running through your mind,
But fearing life is easier than fighting, right?”
Oh please, just hide
Behind this back of mine and save your helpless spite
Knock on the door - access denied

Channelling love through the smoke and cheap substandard spirits 
Laughing, you got off the hook, but you keep dancing in its
Shadow, now I overlooked your playing buddies with a monster
I fostered hope to reclaim what you took

And in a thousand years I’ll see a tepid autumn day
And only think about
Its grace, but

Blinded by the sun
You play roulette still with a
Fully-loaded gun -
A disappointing image
Always on the run
Oh I believed that you could 
Change your ways somehow
But you just keep
Crashing down
“So are you done?”
Your quiet voice is filled with spite - ironic, right?
Why don’t you get out of my sight
“Oh, you’re too kind”
The day goes up in flames
You know, I really tried
Knock on the door - access denied

Everything will pass
The edge will dull -
I know what’s best for you, and after all
A day will come,
Warm and bright, when I
Tear down these dismal shelter walls

【vflower】STRIKE 3【VOCALOID Original】

Despite my best efforts, Kyo's English is still really muffled. But hey, that's what the following section is for!

LYRICS:

So, I see, I found myself pinned up against another
Impenetrable wall
No, it won’t take long at all
Short talk and go
Don’t look so shocked, come on

It’s fine
And even though I think this could be our goodbye
There’s defiance in your eyes
Ah, of course, it must be pitiful to see
Someone with a face like this, even if that somebody is me

Laugh, surely, you know the moves
To disgracing, beating, mixing trash with blood and dirt
And even so, I wouldn’t mind at all
But enter Mother Mary robbing me of my cathartic resolve 

It’s a dead-end endeavor, it’s time you understood
That this whole situation won’t bring you any good
Oh, I know that your heart's beating faster than it should
But I can’t let you in - wouldn’t even if I could

So, I see, I found myself trying to win another
Inconsequential fight
Hah, my bark turned out to be much harsher than the bite
Alright,
Sometimes life doesn’t give a damn about how hard you try
But forgive my helpless spite
What’s the point of this self-pity? 
It’s not pretty - 
Being part of bleeding hearts, just wasting time,
Waiting for a sign

Hey, hey, is this weird or what?
This familiar feeling ties my insides up in knots
It’s silly - no, Occam, bring out the saw
Cause I’ve got some doubts to cut before I grasp onto this thin straw

It’s a little suspicious, I’d like to know some more
Maybe we’re not as different as I believed before
Has it been a month, really? One week turned into four
Call it my wishful thinking - I see an open door 
It’s a dead-end endeavor, of course, I understand
Seems the devil has found business for my idle hand
It’s unlikely, you tell me - I tell you, it connects
Call it my wishful thinking - I call it common sense

It’s a wicked endeavor, I’ve always understood
That this whole situation won’t bring me any good
For a moment my heart's beating faster than it should
But I can’t let you in, even though I wish I could
I’m not one to see people as means to meet an end 
But some ventures require a sacrificial lamb
This particular troubled youth on the diagram
Found his footing in saying 
“I need, therefore I am”

【KYO】Occam's Razor【VOCALOID Original】

LYRICS:

dawn can’t break when the sun has burned to a crisp
there must have been some supernova i missed
my ultimate snapshot - “sky overcast”
go out with a whimper, not with a blast

you open up your eyes, open your up arms, open your everything
lay all your holy vows and unholy charms - all of you before me
and so you run, and so you run, and so you run like a stray mutt 
after a mutt- 
after a muttered confession of love

the haze
lingers above
the pale dawning arc

day can’t break when the sun has burned to a crisp
there must have been some supernova i missed
my ultimate snapshot - “sky overcast”
go out with a whimper, not with a blast

to scour the blackened, soot-covered earth
to cry out my name in violent birth
to settle for naught and settle the grudge
when there was no jury, i was the judge
open up my eyes, open up my arms, open up everything
lend me your dying vows and undying charms, i can still hear you sing
see you there standing calm by the open window in the living room
and all the light in the world converges on you

【KYO】Occam's Razor【VOCALOID Original】

Ferry

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