estrogen and the doldrums (demo)

hopefully i die tonite + mental (miharu)

AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6QgdJQWQV4

(cboy):

 i just wanna feel again
everytime i walk thru the door i feel my throat tighten
air is radiating in my lungs
feel like im poisoned 
getting up so early none of this was ever really planned
same old shit like everyday 
i wake up just to go to bed 
i dont have a purpose so i tried to fit you right in 
none of it will even really last cause im worth nothin 
i dont have a purpose thats what i say for attention

ill say what i want cause i know noones listening
i started taking medicine then i got addicted
i dont even really know if i can ever fit in 
cause i got so much free time im 
spitting nonsense

(owtiss):

i've been chilling living in different realities 
every time u open up it always saddens me 
what goes on in ur head
dont know what i could say
always bearing the pain
i wish i could relate
i dont know a single thing about u
cant help but worry that just what i do
cuz u kno that i always care about u
but idk what i should do

(cboy):

i just wanna feel again
everytime i walk thru the door i feel my throat tighten
air is radiating in my lungs
feel like im poisoned 
getting up so early none of this was ever really planned
same old shit like everyday 
i wake up just to go to bed 
i dont have a purpose so i tried to fit you right in 
none of it will even really last cause im worth nothin 
i dont have a purpose thats what i say for attention

Purpose

purpose w/ owtiss (MaxOTT)

@midwxst
Song originally produced by @youngkimj
@saycarbine

Midwxst - Underfire (Elxnce & Carbine Remix)

prod @lynyou @trustt @omgisai
video / visualizer: https://youtu.be/W2jl_vXwRsc

lyrics:
@lynyou
yea it dont really feel the same no more nah
yea getting tired of the lies i been bored yea
i just say im fine then i move on
then i go keep crying til it turn dawn
(x2)

yea i closed my eyes i can still see the tv
say u dont like me but u really need me
yea the trophys mine ima win u gon see me
ima take whats not mine feeling greedy
(x2)

@trustt
close my eyes and i still see you there
but i still stay walkin round im the man yea
but you dont really know that yet
so you dont really know a thing about me
runnin round the town with my head fucked up
i cant find my phone think im boutta throw up
i said fuck all your friends and fuck what you heard
yea fuck all your friends they belong in the dirt

closed my eyes i can still see the tv
say u dont like me but u really need me
yea the trophys mine ima win u gon see me
ima take whats not mine feeling greedy
(x2)

@lynyou
yea it dont really feel the same no more nah
yea getting tired of the lies i been bored yea
i just say im fine then i move on
then i go keep crying til it turn dawn
(x2)

yea i closed my eyes i can still see the tv
say u dont like me but u really need me
yea the trophys mine ima win u gon see me
ima take whats not mine feeling greedy
(x2)

need me

8/23

lyrics:
you only call me when you're drunk
you only text me when you're high & all alone
and after all these years i'm stuck
and i'll come over with the message from my phone
cause you told me
it's not what it seems
but it could be
you're pulling the strings to control me
just a puppet and the master
and i'm wrapped around your fingers
is it obvious, i'm falling for you
need no audience to tell you the truth
i'd do anything just to make you mine
oh, this time
oh, this time
and it's obvious i live in a dream
where everything is not what it seems
and i'd do anything just to make you mine
oh, this time
oh, this time
oh, this time
oh, this time
you told me
it's not what it seems
but it could be
you're pulling the strings to control me
just a puppet and the master
and i'm wrapped around your fingers

puppet master

난또거짓말을할수밖에

produced by @ilypvc @jeu4k
cover art by Nvy https://www.instagram.com/nvytattoo 🤍

미안.. 난 너를 좋아한 적 없어
걍 좀 꺼져.. 이쯤에서 어서 빨리
미안해 사실 안 미안해 ㅋㅋ
왜냐면 내 행복 위해서 너가 불행했음 좋겠어
미안.. 난 너를 좋아한 적 없어
걍 좀 꺼져.. 이쯤에서 어서 빨리
미안해 사실 안 미안해 ㅋㅋ
모두 거짓말.. 널 싫어할 수가 없어 ㅜㅜ

yeah i hope you think about me
너와 같이 wanna sit next to you right here
ive been trying, but i cant stop being a liar
never imagined, 너가 떠날 줄 말야
받았어 꽤나 많은 사랑 그런데 너만
내게 주질 않아서 now i feel like fallndwn
그럼에도 난 떠나야 했어 i cant slow down
너를 사랑하지 않아 ive been lyin out
너가 없으니 매일이 악몽 같애
저지른 잘못을 전부 새겨 my tats
ive been taking on those pills cuz i cant stand ya
now i cant pretend 싫어할 수 없어 왜

Spotify

liar (´꒳`笑)

prod me 🗣 📢

Lyrics:
Geekin, stress out
매일이 쉽지 않아
방구석 히키 아싸
변하기 쉽지 않아
Crazy outside
모두가 화가 많아
It's pandemic outside
물고 뜯지 날

bla bla, They are talk too much
I don't give a -
제발 니 일에나 신경써
날려 원 투 Punch
모두의 기대를 깨 부숴
빈말 따윈 집어치워
내 맘가는대로

Make a louder noise noise noise
did you hear my voice voice voice
I'm in Rage mode mode mode
We are problem boys boys boys
Make a louder noise

I'm a walking on a chaos
New wave 일으킬 내 Virus
서로가 서로의 마이너스
OMG 매일 새로워 난
밤새 Drinking all night
기분 최고로 High

Hey, What you doing man?
난 꿈을 향해 zoom in
마치 우리가 
이 세상속의 주인공 처럼
전부 내 손안에
break it up 그냥 break it

이젠 지쳤어 걱정 집어치워
I can't lose control 넘어 질 수 없어
자꾸 신경쓰여 벽에 막혔어
소리쳐 그 벽을 향해서

yeah make a louder noise
난 반항 하겠어 damn
조금 잘되니까
쟤넨 화났어 what
맘에 안드니까
날 죽이려 들어
모순적인 인간
넌 불쌍해 보여

That's not Okay
난 아직 부족해
포기하기엔 일러 raise me up
이제 시작된
나만의 story에
써내려갈게 올려 Maximum

I don't wanna be loser
애매한건 싫어
Can't waste my time
시간이 없어 난
I don't wanna be loser
애매한건 싫어
Can't waste my time
시간이 없어

Woah Woah
Woah Woah
Woah Woah
Woah Woah

Geekin, stress out
매일이 쉽지 않아
방구석 히키 아싸
변하기 쉽지 않아
Crazy outside
모두가 화가 많아
It's pandemic outside
물고 뜯지 날

bla bla, They are talk too much
I don't give a - 
제발 니 일에나 신경써
날려 원 투 Punch
모두의 기대를 깨부숴
빈말 따윈 집어치워
내 맘가는대로

Make a louder noise noise noise
did you hear my voice voice voice
I'm in Rage mode mode mode
We are problem boys boys boys
Make a louder noise

Make A Noise

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