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life time

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I know life is getting hard and you just keep it to yourself 
wanna blow your fucking brains have it splatted on a shelf 
know I'm not the only one that's always crying out for help
wanna tear apart my heat bitch I'm doing it myself 

I don't think i wanna die but lately 
i bin thinking bout my life plz save 
plz save me 
plz save me 
plz save me

plz save me 
plz save me 
plz save me

i know life is getting hard and you just keep it to yourself 
wanna blow your fucking brains have it splatted on a shelf 
know I'm not the only one that's always crying out for help
wanna tear apart my heat bitch I'm doing it myself

march 26 2021

spotify

Crying Out For Help [Johnnyfriend]

swag song wit @liledy8
shoutout @marrymeproz for beat
and leo for art and youtube visualizer www.instagram.com/leo_sleepyxx/

all plats

monsters w/ edwrd [proz]

@threedimensionsapart

lyrics
red stains my sleeves im bloody
wash off my hands got muddy
deep cut scars plague my body
burned more than our bridge im sorry

ive dug my hole keep hopin
pins keep my doors from closin
you shut me out im open
i shut me down im copin

cant stand my own skin im rippin off of my face
i been pullin all my teeth and i been losin my brain
i keep rollin the dice for a game i dont wanna play 
always screamin out my mind i neeeda break out these chains

i think im someone im not
act like a zombie every time that we talk
i feel im startin to rot
fuck can u atleast tell me if its over or not

cant stand my own skin im rippin off of my face
i been pullin all my teeth and i been losin my brain
i keep rollin the dice for a game i dont wanna play 
always screamin out my mind i neeeda break out these chains

chains

produced by: dskeep & Ziro.beatZ
written & performed by: luvstorm
mixed & mastered by: luvstorm 

lyrcis:
i wanna slam my head
against the ground
wake up still drunk, like
baby what now?
oh
like we get too fucked up
we've been fucked up, lately!
know i love you
but you drive me crazy
oh

we've been, we've been running around
like i need, i need, i need to sleep somehow
like we've been doing so much
i've been burnt out lately
put me six feet down in my grave now baby
we can trvael the world, go where you want baby
feeling sick your stomach, ill hold your hair back baby
oh
you know i need your love
are you coming with me to the hotel?
whats up?
now baby tell me what you're talkin 'bout
see the words are comin' out your mouth 
but i can't hear a thing, bae the musics too loud
we've been drinking too much
shits about to go down
now she's pulling my hand, 
i think she wanna go now, like 
ooooo
ooooo
ooooo
ooooo

i wanna slam my head
against the ground
wake up still drunk, like
baby what now?
oh
like we get too fucked up
we've been fucked up, lately!
know i love you
but you drive me crazy
oh

slam my head

@55depths
@silentcxbin
@failure404
produced by me.
EP art by cxbin!

off of the COGNIZANT EP with silentcxbin!

lyrics:
(dth)
you think you know me
but you knew me
face it
while i'm lost in the darkness
and tracing my own chalk outline on the pavement
you must be dreaming
to think
that i'll take this
while i listen to you
exposing the truth in your own self hatred

is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

(epitomeoffailure)
i know you know that i can't stay
these racing thoughts have been
plaguing my brain
oh how i wish things would
stay the same
now i'm in pain
i have seen better days
i remember when things were simple
now every day just feels like a struggle
to know my place
and where i belong
when half the time
i don't know what's going on

(cxbin)
if i fall will i land?
well take me back to eden
place your bet
draw your hand
but still there never even

okay ya your walking now
okay ill just go on bout
don't wanna sit and pout now
don't wanna be around now

sell my soul
the scripture already written
don't think twice
but maybe i should listen
fucked up now
can't get out the kitchen
shoot at me 
got plenty ammunition
unload rounds in me
in my chest
keeps me down
from doing my best
i'm a stupid fuck
its all in my head
well that's what you wanted right?

(dth)
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

tough w/ epitomeoffailure and silentcxbin

feat my twin fr @6vz @heroinediaries
prod @bleachcraft & glacies

lyrics:
[heroine diaries]
I've been up for too long, Perkies keep me so strong
In love with X, yeah, I know they do me no wrong
This life shit gettin' too long, put my pain in this song
Death soon see, yeah, I'll be going, yeah, gone, gone

[viizzi]
We ain't playin' Minecraft but I make her bedrock
Talkin' shit on friiidgedeath get hit with a head shot
I'm serving up slit wrists, we gon' make him dead drop
Bitch, I meant to say drop dead, I'm causin' blood shed

[heroine diaries]
It's not enough, need Fentanyl
Not Tylenol, Addys got me up
It's up it's stuck, don't test your luck
They clinging on, your time is done

[viizzi]
Your time is done, your time is up
Shawty slidin' through and she fine as fuck
She said that she want the crew, I guess that's cool with us
That shit really nothin' new, so I won't make a fuss about it

[heroine diaries]
I'm drownin'
If his fit wack we gon' get to clowin'
I think I'm in love, these Perkies they surroundin'
I'm a take more 'cause, damn, this shit astoundin'

[viizzi]
I feel like a monster, 'cause nobody wants me
You stab me in the back and then you came back to haunt me
You drained my energy and then proceeded to taunt me
I'm sick and tired of everything it's getting exhausting

[Outro: heroine diaries & viizzi]
I've been up for too long, Perkies keep me so strong
In love with X, yeah, I know they do me no wrong
This life shit gettin' too long, put my pain in this song
Death soon see, yeah, I'll be going, yeah, gone, gone
We ain't playin' Minecraft but I make her bedrock
Talkin' shit on friiidgedeath get hit with a head shot
I'm serving up slit wrists, we gon' make him dead drop
Bitch, I meant to say drop dead, I'm causin' blood shed

gone (feat. viizzi) (prod. bleachcraft & glacies)

i wanna live in my dreams but i cant fall back asleep...

this moment |☆ spaceboyry ☆|

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/6MZLcjqQlWXy3TJ2uQmi3G?si=lo1YXkIbRCG9fILAOnuybw

lyrics:
oh my god 
i just stopped giving a fuck
one night one text we fell in love
all those long talks 
she don't care what i want
i can't hold back
shawty singin along 
i-
i-
i don't wanna go
i've been fucked up 
and she don't know 
i can't hold back
what is that for
i'll scream fuck you
from the top floor

look down on you from the top floor
got the drip I ain’t talkin bout Tahoe
I’m wasted on the daily
so jaded I been faded
wasting all my time
by taking all these lines
I can’t see the signs
to which slip I define
alone it’s unknown
oh my god I just stopped giving a fuck
just met you but I’m falling in love
hope you mean it yeah I’m calling your bluff
one look one kiss shawty that’s enough

oh my god 
i just stopped giving a fuck
one night one text we fell in love
all those long talks 
she don't care what i want
i can't hold back
shawty singin along 
i-
i-
i don't wanna go
i've been fucked up 
and she don't know 
i can't hold back
what is that for
i'll scream fuck you
from the top floor

hopeless (feat. gab6)

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more music soon
lyrics:

I can't tell you
How am really feeling inside my head
Cause I just met you

Like oh
Every day is getting harder on the edge of giving up and thinking I should just go
Run away and just go home
You should leave me for dead cause I'm so fucking sickening
Eating razors for breakfast to feel a thing
If I kill myself, you can take everything
When I look in your eyes, my mind circling

I can't tell you
How I'm really feeling inside my head
Cause I just met you
And you want to stay just as friends
But I just can't forget the way you picked me up
And I'm stuck telling myself that I'm not enough
For you

I can't tell you
How am really feeling inside my head
Cause I just met you

Like oh
Every day is getting harder on the edge of giving up and thinking I should just go
Run away and just go home
You should leave me for dead cause I'm so fucking sickening
Eating razors for breakfast to feel a thing
If I kill myself, you can take everything
When I look in your eyes, my mind circling

just met you

just met you [siemspark x thislandis]

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more music soon
lyrics: 
Oh no we ain’t really talk much
But when I saw you baby, I was feeling starstruck
You say you miss me then you go out, got me fucked up
It’s getting harder wish i had you right now
I don’t really wanna do it but i gatta leave town

Cause i don’t really got much going on here, now your distant
If you said you want to try again, I’ll be back in an instant
Feel like you’re playing with me i don’t know
I lost myself, but when I’m with you, I don’t feel alone now
Feel like you don’t want to talk break silence
I know we both been through a lot so we should dial it down
feel like a creep got no ID you know I’m dialing
you play my heart like it’s a game of fuck I need it right now

We were on the phone last week
Last time you said you’re sorry
Fucked up blood on my sheets
do you remember laying down feeling my heartbeat?
money drugs and pain It’s all the same shit you don’t wanna know
like why you getting mad that I don’t text or try to call your phone
I know you never said it but your actions that’s what made me know
made me know I gotta go backtrack

Oh no we ain’t really talk much
But when I saw you baby, I was feeling starstruck
You say you miss me then you go out, got me fucked up
It’s getting harder wish i had you right now
I don’t really wanna do it but i gatta leave town

Cause i don’t really got much going on here, now your distant
If you said you want to try again, I’ll be back in an instant
Feel like you’re playing with me i don’t know
I lost myself, but when I’m with you, I don’t feel alone now
Feel like you don’t want to talk break silence
I know we both been through a lot so we should dial it down
feel like a creep got no ID you know I’m dialing
you play my heart like it’s a game of fuck I need it right now

break silence

break silence [siemspark x ayoleybeats]

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more music soon
lyrics:
This side of town
I promise baby it's not bad on this side of town
I made it out of the struggle and I'm just needing you now
No, I was gone for a minute, but I'm still holding it down
Oh no, no no no

I know it's hard and I've been losing my patience
Let's take the car and drive with no destination
When it's just you and i my heart gets to racing so fast
So tell me will it be the last time I
Get to feel alive
Lonely nights I cry
Need you by my side

I promise baby it's not bad on this side of town
I made it out of the struggle and I'm just needing you now
No, I was gone for a minute, but I'm still holding it down
Oh no, no no no
I promise baby it's not bad on this side of town
I made it out of the struggle and I'm just needing you now
No, I was gone for a minute, but I'm still holding it down
Oh no, no no no
I promise baby it's not bad on this side of town
I made it out of the struggle and I'm just needing you now
No, I was gone for a minute, but I'm still holding it down
Oh no, no no no

this side of town

this side of town [dercept & thislandis]

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more music soon
lyrics:
Like oh my
I don’t wanna talk about the bad times
Sitting in my room I’m thinking why I
Why I Gotta be like that
Wishing I was fucking happy when I went to bed
But I be thinking of the worst I’m in my head again
I’m over thinking and I’m starting to abuse the meds
I’m losing sleep and I don’t wanna fall apart like
Oh my
I don’t want to talk about the bad times
Stuck up in my head I’m thinking why I
Gotta let my mind take over everything I do instead

I remember we were 16
Saying we would be together till we’re 6 feet in the ground
Now I wonder do you miss me?
Cause start to hit my phone when your friends don’t come around
I know you probably think I’m crazy just for saying this
I think that we should try again come join this life I live

Wishing I was fucking happy when I went to bed
But I be thinking of the worst I’m in my head again
I’m over thinking and I’m starting to abuse the meds
I’m losing sleep and I don’t wanna fall apart like
Oh my
I don’t want to talk about the bad times
Stuck up in my head I’m thinking why I
Gotta let my mind take over everything I do instead

oh my

oh my [dercept x 5head]

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more music soon
lyrics:
Don't wanna make another sad song
But that's the only thing I do
When I'm speaking on my mind
Can you tell me will we last long?
You're brokenhearted, I am too
Maybe we should stay together cause I hate I

Wake up in the morning feeling like I don't wanna go
Tired of waking up and being treated like a typo
Nails for breakfast just to feel a thing get caked and die slow
Time to meet my maker, take this knife insert in my throat
Drugs keep me alive for feeling dead
I hope and pray to God today that I get out of bed
Oh my god this fucking thoughts and feelings won't get out my head
I think that you should let me be and go and leave my soul to rest

I really thought this was forever so don't tell me it's not
I got lost in the lifestyle
Left behind us a time flies
You promise me, it's not a girl this feels like the end
So much more than the romance, I'm losing my best
I've been staring off the edge and it's so tempting
Every single day it feels like god is testing me
Just let me breathe

I remember when we'd sit in my room
And talk about the life that we wanted to build, me and you
And I've been glowing up and things are starting to change
But it seems you might not be coming with me

Wake up in the morning feeling like I don't wanna go
Tired of waking up and being treated like a typo
Nails for breakfast just to feel a thing get caked and die slow
Time to meet my maker, take this knife insert in my throat
Drugs keep me alive for feeling dead
I hope and pray to God today that I get out of bed
Oh my god this fucking thoughts and feelings won't get out my head
I think that you should let me be and go and leave my soul to rest

typo

typo w/ fridvy [johnnyfriend]

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lyrics:
Know I hate it how you paint me as the bad guy
Every day I'm contemplating, should I take my own life
Know this life ain't what it seems like on the outside
Can't believe I thought our love would go and last a lifetime

Know I hate it how you paint me as the bad guy
Every day I'm contemplating, should I take my own life
Know this life ain't what it seems like on the outside
Can't believe I thought our love would go and last a lifetime
You told me every day
How you don't give a fuck
I told you I don't wanna talk
Don't wanna fall in love
You wanna play my heart
Stay flying like a dove
You wonder how I'm living take a look inside my cup

Fuck it I don't wanna die like that
Alone out here out in the hills
Call back
You know I hate it how this life so sad
So don't ask me how I'm doing
No I won't call back
You said that the love we had would last forever
I'm sitting here I'm in my room I'm missing us together
Make up stains be sitting on my chest my sweater
Make up stains be sitting on my chest, my sweater, my sweater

Know I hate it how you paint me as the bad guy
Every day I'm contemplating, should I take my own life
Know this life ain't what it seems like on the outside
Can't believe I thought our love would go and last a lifetime

Know I hate it how you paint me as the bad guy
Every day I'm contemplating, should I take my own life
Know this life ain't what it seems like on the outside
Can't believe I thought our love would go and last a lifetime
You told me every day
How you don't give a fuck
I told you I don't wanna talk
Don't wanna fall in love
You wanna play my heart
Stay flying like a dove
You wonder how I'm living take a look inside my cup

life time [siemspark x 5head]

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lyrics : 
You said a lot to my face
Like I know, I'll never be perfect
When I'm gone, don't come to my grave
Cause you had me thinking maybe you'd be my person

Wake up and I realize that it's not like that
I got 30s I got 40s in my palm a bag
When I pull to the store no, I don't check no tags
Now you hit my phone you begging can I live like that?
Like no
Fuck it I don't want to seem like I'm the bad guy
But I might kick you to the curb, and please don't ask why
You made mistakes and you made one too many white lies
Fuck you the day I die don't get no goodbye
You said that night I had nothing to worry
You hittin two like your vision was blurry
Fuck you and fuck all those guys
And fuck you and all of your lies

Go back, go back to the day that we met
And act like nothing ever happened to come dead now
Go back, go back and I'm begging forget
That we even ever met up out at square one
Can't believe I let it happen three times done games
Can't believe I went and listened like you know my pain
Can't believe I put an effort and time
Can't believe I thought that you would be mine again

Wake up and I realize that it's not like that
I got 30s I got 40s in my palm a bag
When I pull to the store no, I don't check no tags
Now you hit my phone you begging can I live like that?
Like no
Fuck it I don't want to seem like I'm the bad guy
But I might kick you to the curb, and please don't ask why
You made mistakes and you made one too many white lies
Fuck you the day I die don't get no goodbye
You said that night I had nothing to worry
You hittin two like your vision was blurry
Fuck you and fuck all those guys
And fuck you and all of your lies

lies

lies [dercept x max flynn]

City of Demons is a raw, emotional journey through the streets of Montreal, told through the eyes of a sixteen-year-old caught between survival and self-discovery. With lyrics that bleed truth and a voice that echoes the struggle of youth in a chaotic world, Joshua Aidan Caminsky lays it all bare—pain, loyalty, heartbreak, and hope. From the glow of city lights to the darkness of addiction, betrayal, and broken dreams, this album doesn't just tell a story—it lives it. This is the sound of a generation fighting for light in a world that often forgets them.

break silence [siemspark x ayoleybeats]

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