TRAP NERD CHRONICLES. [VOL. 1.]

[PROD. MEEJ. X JAYREWIND]

I laid my head against your shoulder.
…That led to legs upon my own.
In that bed-
I slept beside your body once we intertwined souls.
…That night I left my heart at home.
Left your taste all on my palette-
Left your scent all on my clothes.

I’ve got glasses but I’m still blind.
I hit that hoe while I was with you but you still mine.
You saw me talking to myself, thought I was still fine.
I had you held up on a string-
It was a thin line.

I’m still walking but I’m dead-
They called me Rigor mortis. 
Make his body Fall like Autumn-
From the TwinUzis on me.
Rick & Morty.
I know them phony niggas hating-
But don’t know my story.
But I know they can’t relate-
So I hold my glory.

I laid my head against your shoulder.
…That led to legs upon my own.
In that bed-
I slept beside your body once we intertwined souls.
…That night I left my heart at home.

I’m glad we said it’s all over.

And now my mind is all over.

MIND ALL OVER. | (RIGAMORTIS.) [PROD. MEEJ. X JAYREWIND]

(LYRICS.)
Oh lord, forgive me again.
Repentance for all of my sins.
I’m tryna become a better man. 
…But how can I be what I don’t understand?
Moved outta Ruston but if I still lived there, I’d prolly have hoes out in Destrehan. 

Follow me to my end, you can take my hand.

Curly headed nigga.
I’m ready to die, I’ll pull the trigger.
An eye for an eye; I beg to differ.
I look to the Sky and I swear I hear her.
Awake in the night; my vision clearer.
This hoe not my type but I’m still with her.
It’s ice on my neck-
It’s ice on my ears.
My body’s prepared for The Coldest Winter.
I wish that my heart was the same as my body-
But I must admit that it’s never bitter.
My soul is decrepit-
A born sinner.
I was raised up neglected-
It made a winner.
He reach for my neckless-
I’ll kill him.
I’m leaving him breathless-
I’m reckless despite my wisdom.
My momma was stressing-
I promised that I’d learn my lesson.
Distressing on all my Denim. 
I’m labeled a blessing-
Yet I use my gift as a weapon.
My enemy’s seen in reflection.
If she call, I beckon.
A soul tie is not what I reckon.
But I swear I’ll respond as soon as she messaging. 
But I know that’s highly unlikely-
A Saturday night at a party-
Surprising.
My brethren beside me-
I used to never get invited.
I mix up the BB with Gucci-
To her, it’s enticing.
But if I let her in-
She’ll tear me apart.
A part of me knows I deserve it.
Her eyes are to compare to serpents’.
Slut, I ain’t nervous.
I’ll never be fooled by your service-
I should be focused on purpose.
These intimate moments I cherish-
She love when I hurt her when making it-
Soul in the furnace.

…Timmy Turner.
Trigger finger itching nigga.
I been wishing for a burner.
Stood on that block-
It was something to us till it wasn’t.
My cousins and I were the servants.
Malik told me that I’m the chosen.
Lil C told me; “Brudda keep going.”

She said she love me, I told the hoe give me a reason.
I only think bout her when cheating.
Less than a woman-
I laid with the devil; A demon.
She only want me for my semen.
God wrote my life with an ending that I think is soon-
If a choom run up on me, we sleep him…
…Stay with a 9-
I just hopped on the 9.
Momma told me;
“Be careful.”
I’ll be home at 10.
I could go back on the onion and hit for a 10 and I bet that she’d still turn me in. 
I know some hoes on the go tryna blow me like wind-
It depends.
Imma let them know when.

And if they really want, they can bring a friend.

Oh lord, forgive me again.
Repentance for all of my sins.
I’m tryna become a better man. 
…But how can I be what I don’t understand?

WHAT I DON'T UNDERSTAND. | (ASYLUM.) [PROD. MEEJ.]

(LYRICS.)
If you’ve never been to Hell, I can show you where it is.
On my wrist is worth a bail-
Pray Lil C ain’t serving bricks.
Suck me thru the cell-
Made that lil hoe drink my kids.
I got green on me like Kale.
Pack in the mail it came thru quick. 
I pray Jesus writes in Braille. 
I think I lost my first sense.
Think she took my soul-
She gave it back I want it rinsed.
On that block we took a risk.
I made an oath and balled my fist.
I try my best to just forget-
I look to God and make my wish.
One to the head-
The whole city want me dead.
He made it happen for em.
Ducking the feds-
I’m tryna cuff these hoes.
She throw it backwards on me.
I see red-
They wanna watch me fall.
I can’t stand on it.
When she said-
That it’s all my fault.
I wanted matrimony. 
Not your twin-
Please, don’t call me homie.
I know niggas I got pictures with that act like they don’t know me.
All you niggas phony.
I can tell-
This hoe way too horny.
She not afraid to show me.
She don’t want me-
She just want my seed.
I’ve never been this lonely.
And I can pass finally.
She hate me for a reason-
Let my past define me.
Will I ever on this path-
Find peace?
Every single one I had-
A dime piece.

If you’ve never been to Hell, I can show you where it is.
I’ve been back for a few months-
After my last I said I’d quit.
I’m so bent about this hoe.
I sit and sulk while she get rich.
As I lean against this sink-
With a blade against my wrist;

I look at my reflection and I wonder if she thinks about the moments that we shared and if they’re missed.
My regret is strongest weapon and I reckon Contradictions led Complacency to me-
I let it win.

Dead Man Walking.
Telling Tales, I feel like Lee.
I succumbed to lust-
Condemnation; Part of me.
And I failed myself-
I lost my life at only 17.
Let the flames melt my soul-
I lost my light in ‘23.

2023. [PROD. MEEJ. X JAYREWIND]

(LYRICS.)
Dead Man Walking.
Devil on speed-dial-
I can hear her calling.
Batman Robbing.
I had feds on the scene-
Schemes seen in comics. 
Red on my jeans-
She my mini-me.
Make her sing like a Robin.
Slut, get on your knees.
She can take the whole thing-
Pleasing me with nogging. 
She don’t wanna leave.
Mike Amiri Jeans-
MX1 for the pockets.
Demons follow me.
Life’s a novelty-
But it seems I don’t want it.
I can barely breathe.
Suffocate my thoughts-
Angels reading me the options.
Deep within my dreams-
I can see my sister.
She been telling me to stop it.
…She been seeing that I lost it.
She been seeing that I’m hurting.
My uncle in basic-
I hoped that he’d make it.
Now that nigga in the service.
They asking me;
“What’s the latest?”
I just went to sleep in hell-
And woke up burning.
I wonder what went wrong?
I hit the hoe for some months.
Suddenly, I’m annoying..
Got great power like Toby.
BB Belt wit the Orange-
Lamb truck, it’s Foreign.
I wanna die on this Hill.
I’m at the top like Hank-
Drac’ sing like Lauryn.
2 years ago-
I died on that field.
Still got up next morning.
Girl that I knew back then had to deal with her ex-
He passed.
She struggled with mourning.
…While I struggled with learning.
How to be better for her.
How to better for them.
To a fault, I’m down to Earth.
I admit that I’m hitting a curve.
…But I know I’m better at worst.
The light at the end of the tunnel was false.
My wings burned off-
I’m Cursed.

ICARUS. | (DARK LIGHT.) [PROD. MEEJ.]

(LYRICS.)
They say love is war and never peace.
Black and White my diamonds like a barcode.
She’ll never wish me Well unless it’s Fargo.
Take a peak and come and see how far I go.

Two-Face hoes all around me.
Imma put a Dent all in her like I’m Harvey.
She don’t love me, look like Lori-
She a Hottie.
She think I’m a Joke-
But ride me like a Harley.

I know she gon kill me as soon as she find me.
And my death will make her happy;
So delighting.
She said she love the way my blood looks in this lighting.
That ain’t no woman, that’s the devil.
So inviting.

One of my old hoes-
Met my new hoes.
Wait a minute-
I been here before.
This a loophole.
Need me?
No, she Independent like a JUCO.
Knee deep.
Sticky like a syrup-
Call her Fructose.

Shake it-
Go shake what yo momma gave.
Take it-
Take it how I tell you, bae.
Fake it-
Tell me that you love me, bae.
Hate it-
Hate the way I show it, bae.

I think that you think that you too good for me-
It’s crazy, cuz you ain’t.
Hate it-
Hate the way I show it, bae.
You would take my all from me and give me no exchange.
I wish that I never even lived to feel this pain.

Two-Face hoes all around me.
Imma put a Dent all in her like I’m Harvey.
She don’t love me, look like Lori-
She a Hottie.
She think I’m a Joke-
But ride me like a Harley.

———

My biggest red flag is I think every woman looks better with me.
Hoe, you better be ready to cheat.
And you better get wetter for me.
I’m not supposed to be here.
I’m supposed to be still in the streets.
I got a good one at home but those hoes make me ready to leave.

This a letter for her and for me.
And I promised that I’d kill myself again-
So many times.
Every year, every week.
And even through all of my negligence-
You view me as somebody worthy to keep.
And even though we not together, you wish that we were. 
But that’s up to me.

My biggest red flag is I think every nigga just wanna compete.

…This a letter for him and for me.

And the last thing that I wanna do is put you in the same situation as me:
The baddest hoe waiting on you every corner and you don’t know if you should keep. 

As I swim through this water, it’s water my neck-
I might flood out the whole pool.
Wanna play her, Sudoku.
Hoe, go do what I told you.
As I walk through this hallway, these chains on my neck make me feel so invisible.
It’s so funny the way that I used to feel- 
I used to feel so Invincible.

I’m at the Omni.
It’s hoes in the lobby-
I wanna get bodies tonight.
I hope that they let me inside.
I hope that she shut up and ride.
I’m at the Omni.
It’s hoes in the lobby-
She wanna get bodied tonight.
She want me for soul ties.

…Or maybe that’s all in my mind.

TWOFACE./OMNI-MAN. [PROD. MEEJ.]

(LYRICS.)
13 when I made this beat-
Had more on BET.
Please no photos-
This not TMZ.
Lil hoe not cuffing me.
Freaky slut-
Rubbing my PSDs.
Loan meat like PPP.
Super Soaker-
Wet like FeFeFe.
She way too Boujiee to keep.
Im in the top floor suite-
I ain’t even reap the amenities.
Plain Jane Watch-
Prezi.
It’s all white like The Kennedies.
Phone on DND-
Diamonds on my neck.
She blow like TNT.

Donkey Kong-
Flip that-
Du soleil.
Pockets fat, Rick Ross-
Rosze.
I got a Snowbunny hoe-
She my lil Bhabie.
She Bhad-
Made her sing like Coldplay.
All in her mouth like Colgate.
I got racks like Sweepstakes.
I turned to a Monster-
I’m building my Future.
She eat it up like a Cheesecake.