produced by phixel
mixed/mastered by phixel
backing vocals by maeEXO
sample: https://soundcloud.com/snowblowerr/hillcore

notes: first song in two months! so very excited :D this is definitely one of my best songs, and its a long time in the making :) i started making this in june, and finished it around mid-august when i added maeEXOs vocals at the end of the song. some inspirations for this song include porter robinson, jane remover, blackwinterwells, and tons of others ^^ enjoy

lyrics:
i dont wanna die, i got so much to do
i promise i'll try, try out something new
don't wanna be scared of the whole wide world
scared to get my throat slit, scared to watch it unfold
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)

[maeEXO: there is no one]

i feel like that baby bird that you saw dying on the ground
trying to scream and trying to cry but i can't do it out loud
and your friends all lied and told you i'd be worse if you helped
'well, the maggots got to eat too" is what you told yourself

tell me what you were thinking
have you no empathy? not a drop, not an inkling
if you wanna seem nice don't act like you hate me
it's really not difficult to see things and say things (say things)
tell me honestly, did you even feel a bit of pity on me
when you looked down at the ground and you saw me
i was vulnerable and i was sobbing

(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)

[maeEXO: no one, there is no one, no one, there is no one here]

the maggots need to eat too - Single

the maggots need to eat too

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prod @01kon

lryics:

you don't wanna talk that's fine
every time we call, end up on the phone all night
i think after all, every time we talk, we fight
i do nothing wrong, but i'm gonna say ur right

cuz we end up in these cycles
kiss me in between the eye rolls
my girl laughs in my face when i spiral
i know imma be a virus when i'm viral
i'll go bet all of my money on a dice roll

got no bands on me
no chance imma live til i'm 30
take a picture imma beg u not to show me
i've been drinking because no one's gonna know me

break down but i won't apologize
i get scared of what i realize
pack my things and make another life
hope my visage breaks out of your mind

sorry everyone who's ever known me
i just prayed to laura put my money on a pony
sorry everyone who's ever known me
i just prayed to laura put my money on a pony

and it hurts me every time
i feel your name run through my mind
i wish that we could both rewind
i think that i should stay inside

i bite my tongue
you bite your lip
you say we're done so i might just dip
the fight is done, the table's flipped
and no one won on a sinking ship

i-i-i don't wanna talk it's fine
because if we call it'll put me in your mind
i think after all i know that i crossed the line
and it's not your fault, i just wanna make it right

cuz i wanna break the cycle
i make jokes and you make eye rolls
i go way too far and then we spiral
i know every little thing has all been my fault
maybe some day i will seek revival

pony (prod. 01kon)

✱ track 5

~~lyrics~~
(take it out out out
in the bath room room
keep it in your phone case 
keep it close to you
take it out out out
in the bath room room
keep it in your phone case 
keep it close)

i wish i fuckin worked right
i wanna take walks on the westside
without feeling like i might die
static tearing out the night sky
i wish i fuckin worked right
i wanna take walks on the westside
without feeling like i might die
static tearing out the night sky

i don't wanna wake you
i don't wanna bother
i don't wanna fake it
it's obvious i'm not her
caught in my obsessions
or just being honest
i'm a disappointment
say it's not ironic 

i get kinda scared to talk sometimes
feel like i'm faking my whole life
and all the stupid shit that makes me cry
thinking i should let it pass me by
better people wrote all my best lines
and they're out there living their best lives
i'm so caught up tryna make up lies
out of people tryna have a good time

sometimes i wonder if they hear me
i'm quiet but i feel like i'm screaming
see how long i can live without breathing
and if i get it just right i can push those feelings
right down, forget about it
go out, get fucked up, shouting
"i'm alive for now because i found a way to kill myself"

i don't wanna wake you
i don't wanna bother
i don't wanna fake it
it's obvious i'm not her
caught in my obsessions
or just being honest
i'm a disappointment
say it's not ironic 

i get kinda scared to talk sometimes
cause i know i'm taking my own life
why am i always so afraid to die
if it's not even the first time i tried

facedown, pavement, i'm not fucking playing
facedown, pavement, i'm not fucking playing
facedown, pavement, i'm not fucking playing
facedown, pavement,

everything✱

idiot

Mentally ill breakcore

pretty much just a cover of 70% by underscores https://soundcloud.com/underscores/70p

ask a couple questions asking bout a couple corners say I may have cut a second going off and on I’m lost 

last a double weaponize your ignorance and say that you’re not feeling it when every fucking person I know knows that you don’t care about the cost

had to take a right turn guess I gotta relearn
all the federal evidence I notarized was false

i'd shave em off like sideburns infertile like brightburn
scarred my ventral lobe the lavender is rubbing off

Bloodsugar (ft. CMTEN & ssoh) [Album version]

IT'Z NYOT ME!! (ft. Shifting Perspectives)

sweet dreams, tux

When The Stars Go Blue

This is my second album where I have bundled up all the cover songs I have done and shared privately in the past few years.

Kiss Me

original song written and sung by Nathan Della Rovere Goldsmith Freeman 

Wish You All the Best

My debut album You Will Only Get Older comes out on March 8th. For real this time ;p

sweet dreams, tux

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