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land of the deaf

april // albums

tsubi club - burbank house (Neanderthal Remix)

Written by Daniel Bernas, CMTEN, and flatroom !!
Additional production done by ssoh

Blood sugar (feat. CMTEN and ssoh)

guitar by will rhead

when it's all said and done
when i leave home and no one's round
will you save me a seat to the sun?
to somewhere i could never be found
i don't wanna let go
oh i don't wanna leave home
i made my momma cry
i told her i'd call her on the phone
i'll kiss my cats goodbye
i'm sorry i left you all alone
oh i don't wanna leave home
oh i don't wanna leave home
i'll do all the things you taught me
i'll try my best, i'll be a man, won't hate my body
stand on my own two feet
i'll make it through twelve weeks
i'lll make it back with my own hands, i'll make you proud of me

proud

album artwork by Dweebra
chorus drums by @ssoh
synth solo by Shifting Perspectives

KILL YOUR COMPETITOR

songs to get off my chest

september 29th, 2023

SPOTIFY:
https://open.spotify.com/track/7fZt4NgRWOU9kGjnosd4T0?si=GllKBZ8hS0qIde6AxDjtFA

p. den

ill be gone
in october
tell me will you miss me by then?
or will i be another one that you will
pretend i never happened in the first place

you always make
mistakes
so i make them to
grab you by the waist
and your heart
imma
cut right through
but somehow you ripped me apart
when i needed you
tearing at the seams of my heart
till you ripped right through

ill be gone
in october
tell me will you miss me by then?
or will i be another one that you will
pretend i never happened in the first place

you got cuts on your wrist
they cant see from a far
ill kiss all of your wounds
ill heal all of your scars
in a hundred of years
will you still love me ?
cause when i see your face
it is you that ill keep
your such a pretty mess
when i call out your name
you get fluttered by words
that he’d never say
when you say that you love me
do you mean it every time ?
cause im scared of losing you
i feel at home by your side.

ill be gone in october

it doesn't make much sense to miss you
after all i fucked it up
it doesn't make much sense to miss you
when we've already spent a year apart
i love you, not in a romantic way
its just in the feelings that i hide away
i know i left you but i tried to stay
i wanted to tell you but my mind went blank
i'm so afraid i don't have time to change
if i find the words i swear that i'll explain
and i'm so sorry if i'm kind of late
tried to sleep, i spent the whole night awake

it wouldn't make sense to miss me
after all i fucked it up
it wouldn't make much sense to miss me
i'm nothing but a waste of space in your heart
i'll always think about the days we spent
stuck but wishing everything would change instead
i know that nothing ever makes much sense
putting puzzle pieces in their place i guess
i woke up feeling like an anxious mess
i don't need my heart so you can take my chest
spend every day tryna replace what's left
maybe in another life we'll still be friends

close enough

feat. Brooke Elise

MUSIC VIDEO: youtu.be/oi7Zz4BQzjE?si=9OlulE9wfAJCfYvT
Website: www.anxietyattacksmusic.com/
prod/mix/master: Anxiety Attacks!

LYRICS:
As I grow up, all the things that used to help me 
They fade away, why am I so empty

Count the leaves on the ground as they fall, it reminds me the seasons change
I see my family growing old, and I start to feel everything
Sometimes I wonder why it's so hard to let things go
Some things I can't control
I've never felt so far from home, I don't even know where I still belong

As I grow up, all the things that used to help me 
They fade away, why am I so empty

I know it's all been done before, I still get lost along the way
I've been told to let it go, hard to know if I'm okay
I'm always running around, think it's best to just ignore it 
I don't wanna sit too long and feel the weight

As I grow up, all the things that used to help me 
They fade away, why am I so empty

Spotify <3

empty

Champ

Windows

I Just Do!

Sweetness

In My Eyes

Intro

(reupload, original got taken down) a rendition i did of @tsunamibitchclub's song laced up a while back. originally on twitter but i decided to upload it here now. i never got around to finishing it but i had fun working on it nonetheless.

https://x.com/ihatejue/status/1824136631487717478

tsubi club - laced up (jue rendition)

@100signs x @graveem1nd 
w. @clay0127
prod. @chewy
cover. @chewy

the worst plugg

join the #100signs discord discord.com/invite/teRyvrNgQP
background photo @zzoos , cover by @qlein
produced by @chewy @tillamookbay
vocals by @qlein @gr0lth @sinefelt

@qlein
(i am not the one)
hold up i gotta go i gotta flow
you dont wanna tell me this shit i gotta go
out of curiosity do you feel fine
posted wit @100signs i hear signs in this bitch
running out of luck i might go die in a ditch
will you live a whole life tryna abide to some shit
will i live a whole life tryna hide from the shit idk idk

I am not the one for you
i am not the one
what do you see in me
i hate that i hate myself
i think im better off gone
im not strong enough for this

@grolth
I think I’m going crazy
Heart fluttering fucking around
I’m hoping maybe
You will say “yes” x2

@sinefelt
yea
ik im in ur head
ik u want me dead
and it'll never end (4x)
bitch, i couldn't evr switch
ur fucking useless
said id do it then i did (4x)
whoa, i hope u hate urself as much as i do
u wont evr replicate me no matter how hard u try to
bitches been talking shit i just sit there n i crack a smile
first year qlein & i been in the cut n passed them all by miles

@qlein

I am not the one for you
i am not the one
what do you see in me
i hate that i hate myself
i think im better off gone
im not strong enough for this
x2

did i put u in a fucking bad mood
i only did what i fucking had to
fuck me wish i fucking had you
put me in a bad mood in a fucking bad mood

@gr0lth
Like who the fuck you (@zzjay) think you talking to?!
I waited too long just for your bad news
But Ima rip off of qlein and say I had to
Learn my lesson submit to good values

@sinefelt
like who the fuck is @zzjay talking to
talking shit on gang @100signs running up on you
im feeling awfully new
I can feel it in my gut that we goin up soon
everyone can see that though
I guess that's old news..

@qlein
(I am not the one)

FIRST YEAR (HEROINE, MICHIMANI)

you just had to be there

sweet dreams, tux

my submission for cut2static song wars

lyrics:

heartbreak saturday morning night
inquires, injuries, i'll be alright
outlaws like me said "such is life"
they prophesied over me, i'll be alright

the first in too long, went outside
a mirror, i wanted to throw up in fire
every part me was so loud (except)
my desire to scream, unexpressed in the quiet

couldn't even spare one day for every month
couldn't even spare 2 weeks but i'm still fucked
i was never upset at you, and i'm still not
it was always "i never could live with you gone"
and now i can't think straight when you're up
and now i can't fucking sleep at all
a pathetic shell of who i was
of a man that did nothing for you
i'll die a man that did nothing for you

newsflash, something don't sit right
i meant not to be overt, i promise i tried
outlaws like me said "such is life"
they sculpted me into something i despise

the first in too long, went outside
watched myself and the last half year fall in real time
i think i would rather die than watch you lock
falling apart at a life that could have been mine

couldn't even spare one day for every month
couldn't even spare 2 weeks but i'm still fucked
i was never upset at you, and i'm still not
it was always "i never could live with you gone"
and now i can't think straight when you're up
and now i can't fucking sleep at all
a pathetic shell of who i was
of a man that did nothing for you
i'll die a man that did nothing for you

outlaw

the cycle repeats
with @1crusafix
prod @lynyou @rhekdens

L:
run ur mouth again bring the blade in
u dont like me say it 2 my face then
catch u in the dark no escaping
heartbeat dropped i know u dont wanna face it
(x2)

tell me more about it
i wanna hear ur story
i would never doubt it
i wanna hear ur voice
wanna hear u shout it
always been my choice
always been about it
(x2)

C:
yea i love my brothers n we going up
n yo bitch she said she love me said i am her crush
u cant catch me with no gun cuz i keep it clutched
put my clothes on then i leave cuz im in a rush
tell that bitch she dont know shit
feed that boy them bullets ima empty out the whole clip
n i love this money swear 2 god i love this motion
im a real mf i wont code switch

L:
run ur mouth again bring the blade in
u dont like me say it 2 my face then
catch u in the dark no escaping
heartbeat dropped i know u dont wanna face it
(x2)

heartBeat

im all for it
im all for it

i was on my way up
bitch i got it all now (lets go)
i don't care bout the price
i see whatever it's gone now
oh you got status?
are you ready to fall off with that shit?
ya r u ready for it
i just need some time to think of it
we have none in common
dont go acting like it
oh yeah 
said you had me, you aint got the option
i swear we have nothing
don't leave me forgotten
if i could have it
i won't be a problem

im saying you don't know at all
you hate the way i talk
why do you hate it all?
i'm out of it, lost
you say there's something off with me, i can't even respond
so baby do you hate me
do you think im pretty oh god
bitch i hate it
i want you to save me
i know you want to take it
you won't get a taste
saying that i'm dangerous
but you won't see me break

yeah see me break
i know how you feel, and it makes me ache
they all wanted me but i can't be taken
can't be taken
give or take, i'll still end up dead

i was on my way up
bitch i got it all now (lets go)
i don't care bout the price
i see whatever it's gone now
oh you got status?
are you ready to fall off with that shit?
ya r u ready for it
i just need some time to think of it
we have none in common
dont go acting like it
oh yeah 
said you had me, you aint got the option
i swear we have nothing
don't leave me forgotten
if i could have it
i won't be a problem

We Have Nothing

My debut album You Will Only Get Older comes out on March 8th. For real this time ;p