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im not saving face i just expect em all to hate me
why i even care, there aint nobody that can save me
nothing is enough too far behind the dreams im chasing
ive been lost in the background fading

you kick me when im down then say you wanna fuckin talk?
couldn't have been right, i guess it wasn't what i thought
so keep my fuckin name out of your mouth until i rot
you'll never see my face again i knew i wasn't wrong

i gotta pay for my actions
intimate details become a distraction
i wont permit it, i'll give no reaction
i lay in emptiness, life's no attraction

i wont lie, i dont really try enough to settle all the spite
the hatred in my heart and the envy in my eyes
get me back inside ive been driving all night
i can see the sunrise

brush it off, i really get what i give out it hits me 10 fold
like a mirror shinin back reflecting inners of my mental
nah its not you it's only me, maybe you could get it
if you saw just what i see

life is no attraction (jolst)

i know i cant stay here ft. shiki xo *cxld blxxd*

prod. flesh

lyrics: 
shards of glass and all of that i'll bet you
like a culdesac i'm turning back to get you cause there's 
x2

feel like i'm on the run, i run
no pain that i'm leaving behind
i'm just having fun, no rush
so young till i run out of time
every second that i waste goes away and it never comes back 
mind it race, keeping pace, cause it's never so bad
and all this space that i take up won't ever last 
cause our nature reclaims us, turns us to ash

wind to my back, if i jump i'll fly
move along, pushing tracks, i can walk don't need a ride because
i'm done giving up, though my body's been tried
i'll be safe from distruption, objects collide
i got more control on my own two feet
when the crash breaks bones i'll reclaim my seat
i'd rather go through it alone than sacrifice my peace of mind
i'll take that road another time 

feel like i'm on the run, i run
no pain that i'm leaving behind
i'm just having fun, no rush
so young till i run out of time
every second that i waste goes away and it never comes back 
mind it race, keeping pace, cause it's never so bad
and all this space that i take up won't ever last 
cause our nature reclaims us, turns us to ash

r.o.o.t

[Non-Profit]
Mixed/Mastered By Me
-
Produced By https://soundcloud.com/nciku
-
(Lyrics)
perfect for me 
I'm always crying in the cold nights
this is something we gotta talk about 
but some days just get harder 
i don't wanna do this no more
i want you , you want me 
we're such a perfect match 
i know we won't collapse 
don't get bored of me 
i know that I'm too much 
i'm trying to be perfect

it's always silent in the cold night 
the weather is so cold without you 
and i love you 
don't want this to end 
I'll hold you till the end
just notice that i care 
i trust you with my heart
i just wanna be there 
i just love you way too much

i love you (nciku)

@slaughter-tone-records
Stream "Codeine" On ALL Platforms:
https://open.spotify.com/track/0wyJc55zB7AnCdiTfarfL3?si=11ccf9a4b07a407d
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ctOeI0sEhmA
Prod. Ceejous & itsdeyflo

Codeine (ft. IBleedIcare)

taylor swift cover
very personal 2 me
hope u enjoy
<3

august (cover)

i'll make this my own if it kills me

credits:
@jolst
@toobears
@punkworldthreat
@x1fern
@fantasycamp
@ejcarrmusic

lyrics:
autumn skies, sober lies, where the time gone
i want u in my life while i can love
i still try all the time to get off of
all the shit that i had ‘fore i lost ya
i know im in despair, subtle from over there
i’ll get outta ur hair, know i leave u impaired
all the time, u and i, know its all love
i still repair what i can cuz i gotta

i forget to eat but know im doin fine on my own
terms are settled and im spending all this time all alone
i been free, in the trees, hope ur proud of me
know it aint perfect but this life is moving hourly
send me condolences, its just sobering
i cant move forward with all this pulling
my life isnt backwards but im losing track of
the days in the month, i can’t handle a rut like this

entirely
up to what i can see
i’ll make this my own
if it kills me

autumn skies, sober lies, where the time gone
i want u in my life while i can love
i still try all the time to get off of
all the shit that i had ‘fore i lost ya
i know im in despair, subtle from over there
i’ll get outta ur hair, know i leave u impaired
all the time, u and i, know its all love
i still repair what i can cuz i gotta

last week took the shit outta me
i gotta go 2 times just to cover the fee
i cannot handle 2 lives, yet thats what i lead
i need to calm down what the fuck has got into me

i need to slow down, slow down
le-le-lemonade gonna make me slow down
i cannot pretend i aint on my own now
know that its okay i can do alone now

spotify & apple

entirely [jolst x punk]

prod. tracyxo x joshbae

see me blowing rainbows
i dont care bout you hoes
im on my ten toes
ran around this dome
(if we're talking bout it,)

i dont give no shit about a ciggarette pack
i dont care about frozen time
uh huh?
i dont care about golden why?'s
uh huh
this shit bothers me
i dont wanna deal with the shit in my head
i just wanna smoke white runtz till im dead
thoughts come up from the bottom of my mind
aye, i gotta climb back up, i gotta wake up
i dont wanna be late!
i dont know what to say :(
i dont wanna be anyone i try and replicate
5:00 am, waste of time, oh my god..
6:00 am, and im tired as fuck

it still wont wake me up
thc in my gut
faded or nothing bruh
this preroll is all for us
we're living like we're still dumb
who am i kidding?
no one does it better than you.
no one will bother me anymore
dont lie
dont try
dont cry to me anymore
i painted the walls exactly like i wanted to
the stripes i made were pink and blue for you
will you be okay..?

(you were only a momment away)

dont, even bother
coming back.
im sorry,
but im not.
I'M TIRED OF THIS COLD WAR!
I'M TRYNA HELP MYSELF AGAIN!
I'M TRYNA BE ANYONE

up,
i gotta wake up ')
DONT WANNA BE LATE
I DONT WANNA BE ANYONE I TRY TO REPLICATE
FIVE AM WASTE OF TIME OH MY GOD
SIX AM AND IM TIRED AS FUCK
AND DONT WANNA WAKE UP.
ah...
ah...
can you run that by me once again :(?
ah..
ah
i dont know, how else i will-
(find some comfort in my home again)
THIS ROCKING CHAIR DONT FEEL THE SAME
THE PORTRAIT FELL AND SOMETHINGS CHANGED

the portrait fell, & something changed

music vid https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdMxIrKfnmo
prod tykun

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

and I just wanna leave it all in the past tense
No one used to hit my phone now it's all mass texts
They try to tell me Josh you can hook up with a bad bitch
and I'm like no she can just stick to using her lovense, fuck sex

And I got nothing to lose and I got nothing to gain
And all this boredom & cluelessness driving me insane
Feel like absolutely nothing when I'm not using my brain 
And I wanna go outside but no one hanging out today

Tired of being lonely no matter where I go
And I wanna move out then I'm like hell no
One little thing will turn me off and it's no longer a goal
I just hope that I will keep on getting stronger I suppose

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

And all these artists around me they tryna make an image
Sorry I'm not with y'all I don't do this all for business
I respect my boundaries and push myself to the limits
After performance I celebrate with a shake, like I'm grimace

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real
Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

flower field (tykun)

lyrics:

you might see me 
light up on a bright screen
and when you do don’t you dare make that phone ring
i can see through, any thinly veiled excuse 
i could do to you, anything you do to me too
i’m not breathin, anytime i’m with her
lungs collapse any time that she speaks a word
sick to death of only bein in the background
finally gone and i don’t ever want you back now

blissful liar
face our hearts
while we still observe

you might see me 
light up on a bright screen
and when you do don’t you dare make that phone ring
you had a chance and now it’s good luck to find me 

you might see me 
light up on a bright screen
and when you do don’t you dare make that phone ring
i can see through, any thinly veiled excuse 
i could do to you, anything you do to me too
i’m not breathin, anytime i’m with her
lungs collapse any time that she speaks a word
sick to death of only bein in the background
finally gone and i don’t ever want you back now

r.o.o.t

flesh golem

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