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you said it too many times 
to everybody else it’s got no meaning left 
I don’t wanna close the distance 
I just wanna close my eyes until I can’t see 
Nothing but the stars in the sky 
light pollution ruins every single sight every sight
living Midwest life on the east coast 
It’s gotten old at this point I don’t hold it close 
I’m unabashedly bashing my own head in 
want something new I’ve got no answers left in 
I’m unabashedly lashing out in spite then 
what’s left to do that’s not over stretchin
I’m not accepting this 

(Decks)
i’ve been having a hard time adjustin
i don’t want it to amount to nothin
you unravel the spite and corruption
i know im stuck, whats the point in reduction
i, been holding on
nothing falling past the point
i took too long
i saw the problem with the story
all along
i wouldn’t have done that if i knew
how i was ending up
why? a troubled thought
gotta leave this fuckin town
i been here too long
if i heard what u had said
i wouldn’t be movin on
all the stars are burning out,
all my wishes gone
its far too often
my conscience
makes me regret the topic
i’m too anxious
over nothin
is this why im still stuck here?

murder the man but not the memory
east coast, now i know thats where they’ll bury me
far along the shoreline
i cant sit and waste my time x2


I just wanna close my eyes until I can’t see 
Nothing but the stars in the sky 
light pollution ruins every single sight every sight
living Midwest life on the east coast 
It’s gotten old at this point I don’t hold it close 
I’m unabashedly bashing my own head in 
want something new I’ve got no answers left in 
I’m unabashedly lashing out in spite then 
what’s left to do that’s not over stretchin
I’m not accepting this

unabashedly bashing my head in ft. decks (Irby)

Engineered by floret
mastered by floret
produced by floret & venus
written by floret 

lyrics:




i can't take it back when i was younger
yell out the top of my lungs like i'm bolder
fresh out the streets like you think you know her
dumbass and freak your such a loner
fuck up you feen you are a loner
head out the door just like your father 
drugged out in need just like your mother 
fuck up and feen you are a loner 

from the tree tops run me down
burn this place straight to the ground 

cause loves not real and i know why your lying 
fuck up past and i know why your crying 
why your crying why your crying 
write my life like your the author 
life has so much more to offer
spoken lies like your own father
wrote my life like im the author 
know that life so much offer
offer,offer 

take it when you tell me that young again 
say that were better of just as friends 
i've been broken down just meet me in the end
what did father say when you gone now
i dont wanna say this im in love now
break me down you fall in love
100 times you blame your mom
like i guess ill never be like me again 
what you do spite me blame my friends
take this pill youll be dead again 
hate everyone fuck your friends 
its over its over

from the tree tops run me down
burn this place straight to the ground 

cause loves not real and i know why your lying 
fuck up past and i know why your crying 
why your crying why your crying 
write my life like your the author 
life has so much more to offer
spoken lies like your own father
wrote my life like im the author 
know that life so much offer
offer,offer

love is dying

Produced by @irby314 & @jolst
Mixed by @decksmusic
Additional vocals by @prodhorosha
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
Wounded at a young age
Had nobody I could turn to
It’s sickening the things you did
And how I learned through
The example you set
I thought I was a black sheep
Turns out I’m just like the rest

Of my family tree
Rotting from the inside
Branches devoid of leaves
So please
Don’t ever idolize me
These eyes have seen more pain than you would believe

I’ve got a damaged brain
There’s not much can be done
After all I’m just a product
I’m my father’s son
I can’t cope with this all on my own
I kill myself slow
Insisting all the while I’m not suicidal
It’s hard to match expectations I put on myself
I took a step
I took two steps back
How will I know when it’s bad enough to need help
I thought I was a black sheep
Turns out I’m just like

My dear old dad
He was the man of the house
He wasn't often around
Guess what that makes me now
As if the world’s against me
I only rely on myself
Turns out I’m somebody else

Listen on Spotify!

Black Sheep (Prod. irby & Jolst)

self_worth (idly blare)

spending my time on a melody
whats that, tryna stab me in the back
ur way too late, plus ur ignorance it smacks
ur bad,  what the hell happened, to that, that, that.

i dont wanna mess up
gotta chase, chase that, on my back
ur gonna latch, latch, latch, yeah ur wack
so i wont be down bad, will we last, sorry to ask

i dont wanna do wrong
I DONT WANNA WRITE A SONG
about how bad i was then
can we let it go, damn.

big choice, big mouth, oh my god
i dont wanna deal with ur shit, on my lawn
im getting tired of it all
wanna end it all
i thought we were friends
but, nah, no noo!

you were such a good guy
18 yeah you'd look me in the eye
we were tight, hanging out into the night
oh my, guess that i was blind

*NEVER HAD A GIRL THAT WAS MINE*

you made me feel like i had home inside
yeah right, its fake, why'd i try
pleased on, then said goodbye
blocked me out, well i guess it was a good try

*now i feel used and abused
like a tool, always such a fool
i never let friends go, they all move on by
guess its just the man, inside*

i dont wanna mess up
gotta chase, chase that, on my back
ur gonna latch, latch, latch, yeah ur wack
so i wont be down bad, will we last, sorry to ask

i dont wanna do wrong
I DONT WANNA WRITE A SONG
about how bad i was then
can we let it go, damn.

its clear to see that you are just the problem
everybody who u knew is gone, and ur so awful
never meant to try
now im outta line

for caring about friends
why did you pretend.

used and abused (prod. dead spyro x 2001)

prod. wisssery

i think im dying
i dont want violence
i wont sleep, wont close my eyelids
smiling thru pain and dont like it
i did what i could to bite it

u saw the same thing i did
cant lie, i still miss ur lips
my blood seeped thru ur dress
and i think this aint depression
and i think i learned my lesson
oo-
cram it in first,
dont grab ur purse
yeah..
oo!

if i cant lie
then i cant try,
yeah
if i cant smile
then i can lie </3
o - o 
i couldnt care much more than i do,
breaking down my boundaries to make it up to u


( who said im not depressed? )
( im fucked up by thursday next )

who said im not the best?
i know ive been depressed
im in over my head
talking always kills me..

this ain't depression

prod. metlast x sor
mix: me
master: teddyboi (@yoimn3ver)
art: my girlfriend <3

lyrics:

close, but i can’t finish it
just know, that i don’t wanna be close tonight
when im at home, i feel the pain sink in
bottle after bottle after bottle down my throat 

know, that i can’t let go, this simply
of something that took time to put together
but clearly these bonds have been severed

don’t get too close, you’ll let the pain in
frost lands on my nose, it’s come im shaking
she knows, that she shouldn’t get close
but it’s freezing 

3 in the morning
i should be sleeping but im not
this anxiety has got its grip on me
this is something you won’t see
cause you’re caught up in a dream
so far away from the disease
im begging im down im on my knees
for someone to save me
but no one’s here lately 

close, but i can’t finish it
just know, that i don’t wanna be close tonight
when im at home, i feel the pain sink in
bottle after bottle after bottle down my throat

know, that i can’t let go, this simply
of something that took time to put together
but clearly these bonds have been severed

don’t get too close, you’ll let the pain in
frost lands on my nose, it’s come im shaking
she knows, that she shouldn’t get close
but it’s freezing

now you see me
now you don’t
now i’m gone and missing
you shouldn’t have gotten close

close (metlast x sor)

candlelight w/ VITO

produced by sorrow bringer

mixed by me

mastered by teddyboi

art by my lovely girlfriend <3

lyrics:

(go away from me now, i don’t wanna see your face)

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
cause the damage is already done

you took advantage and had your fun
don’t you think the time has come
for you to let go
the soul owes no bonds so lose control

but the memory won’t fold 
i’ve been losing sleep and growing old
it’s been fuckin weeks and it’s been cold
my rooms been stinkin’ foul from the mold

everybody ask me how
how i even do this
frankly i just push along and don’t think i’m an artist
faintly i’ll just make a song and don’t think i’m a above this

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
enemies always start out as friends

once dear to me 
it should’ve been clear to see
but in this fog i couldn’t recognize your face
the feeling of the shock it put me in my place 
i hate the taste 

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
i know you think that you can erase and or amend
but you can’t so just accept

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
it’s time this ends

(random mumbled gibberish lol)

go away (sorrow bringer)

beat prod by: cxrter x wisssery
written and performed by: @reject333 x @darkfurei

ouu im rlly sorry + @darkfurei (p. cxrter x wisssery)

shoutout to @kennyorlando for helping me finish this <3


[safeatlast:]
so cold
waiting for sum1 to hold
me as i try to get warm
get me away from the snow
at least thats how i used to feel

take me back to winters in toronto
take me back to drowning every minute in the bottle
take me to when i could be proud of myself oh
take me back to feeling sumthin other than the sorrow

AND I MIGHT FALL APART BENEATH THE TREES
THAT OVERLOOK THE SPOT WE USED TO MEET
I PROMISE THAT UR EVERYTHING I NEED
SHOULDA NEVER WORE MY HEART UPON MY SLEEVE

[Kenny Orlando:]
i wish it was easier than following my heart
cause its given me nothing but nightmares and problems
one minute im drowning 
the next second im all in
im sinking 
im falling 
right down to
the bottom
take me back to the time 
where we were doing fine 
both of us 
where the love was 
can you take me back to the city
where everything felt so pretty 
AND I HATE THAT EVERYTHING’S BROKEN
WISH I COULD TAKE BACK 
AND MAKE IT ALL PERFECT 
THE DAYS PASS
ITS KILLING ME 
FILLING ME 
WITH THIS COLD AND DARK HOLLOWNESS

[safeatlast:]
AND I MIGHT FALL APART BENEATH THE TREES
THAT OVERLOOK THE SPOT WE USED TO MEET
I PROMISE THAT UR EVERYTHING I NEED
SHOULDA NEVER WORE MY HEART UPON MY SLEEVE

fall apart

fall apart w/ Kenny Orlando (king theta)

i’ve been called dramatic
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candlelight w/ VITO

Flowers for You

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