listened to this and accidentslly texted her “so u just gon leave me like my mom did??”

Beyond fix

1. manic episode of random structure, transposed vocals and off-tone instrumental to simulate something is wrong

2. panic, anxiety attack simulation through heart beat sounds and sampled breathing. everything that makes me lay awake at night.

3. the aftermath of a panic attack and the thoughts of realization and sorrow post episode

4. a conversation between friends of their hardships and inner thoughts about the situation they've been thtough

hysteria

https://open.spotify.com/album/3SI8w3VumyOXFMudRoBlFU?si=l7Bh5V_nRemYKYL9r3DRRA

gun2myhead

Edited together snippets of the unreleased song known in the community as Pick My Side

ericdoa x midwxst - Pick My Side* *deermix*

ericdoa - trust me i know* (test 003) [extended HQ]

ty all for listening <3

lyric video: https://youtu.be/GsjHHHKKw7w?si=ZwmPjWpGS_8zgf0p

they told me things will get so much better in time
and im starting to think that maybe it was a lie
but you wouldnt ever care
just to give it a try

pls just talk to me
do you want me dead right on the street?
cause i
cant take this shit anymore
but i
cant stand being ignored
but you
you left me alone for hours
shouldve gave you money instead of flowers
but i didnt think that far ahead
i guess im not that mature yet

ive never been the tallest guy to you
but all ive done is try to reach that height
but im terrified of us two
you could break my bones
rip my skin
and id still run back so its cool
you always said things would get better
in time
maybe thats
just another one
of your stupid ass lies

im so tired of our miscommunications
i stay alone in my room anxiety keeps on killing me
my heart is beating outa my chest
so i lay these words right to rest
when i think about you all the time
i get scared of whats coming next

they told me things will get so much better in time
and im starting to think that maybe it was a lie
but you wouldnt ever care
just to give it a try

i guess im not that mature yet (p. nowhere valley)

kurtains - violent w/ ericdoa (pitch corrected)
- Cover art by me <3
- CDQ Glaive version https://soundcloud.com/glaiveunrlsd/kurtains-violent-w-glaive

kurtains - violent w/ ericdoa (GLAIVE VERSION IN DESCRIPTION)

01) a poem by me (Prod. Muchi)

if you ever feel like you are not enough
dial 988 (USA)
dial 116 123 (UK)

-

i wish you'd tell me that its over
i'd run right back and win her over
i hate you but dont hate yourself
i'd help you but cant help myself

you keep talking to your friends
about the person that i am
or the person that i was those years ago
think that love is just a scam
wish i was another man 
and build my name up off the ground like heroes
(oh)

look at you
look at you
look at you now
those scars on your hands meant i let you down
look at you
look at you
look at you
and it all comes back here

trying my best but im down on my own
closing my door cause you'll never come home
crying alone cause i know its my fault
please dont let go
dont go

ive been trying hard to move on
always got a point to prove on
what happens if i say how i feel? (say it)
pushed me to the side its not real
all that i said was a joke
cant get the words out ill choke (what are you sorry for?)

why would you assume that?
i grew up
you knew that

i wish you'd tell me that its over
i'd run right back and win her over
i hate you but dont hate yourself
i'd help you but cant help myself

you keep talking to your friends
bout the person that i am
or the person that i was those years ago
think that love is just a scam
wish i was another man 
and build my name up off the ground like heroes
(oh)

look at you
look at you
look at you now
those scars on your hands meant i let you down
look at you
look at you
look at you
and it all comes back here (faces in 2D)

trying my best but im down on my own (on that plastic screen )
closing my door cause you'll never come home (and inverted dreams)
crying alone cause i know its my fault
i grew up
you knew that

heroes

crossfire

-

im so damn pissed
pissed huh
pissed off
did some dumb shit
expect me to give a fuck

everywhere i look
reminds me of who i was
everything you took
you could keep it just because
everything i was
isn’t everything i am
got some bad luck
you might think i give a
damn

please can we get into that
you got me caught in the crossfire
and you didn’t know how to act

called you
please do not take your time
you know that i want you
wanted to make you mine
but you didn’t know me
and that’s not your fault
please can you hold me
and never let go

im so damn pissed
pissed huh
pissed off
did some dumb shit
expect me to give a fuck

everywhere i look
reminds me of who i was
everything you took
you could keep it just because

im so damn pissed
pissed huh
pissed off
did some dumb shit
expect me to give a fuck

everywhere i look
reminds me of who i was
everything you took
you could keep it just because
everything i was
isn’t everything i am
got some bad luck
you might think i give a
damn

please can we get into that
you got me caught in the crossfire
and you didn’t know how to act
—

crossfire

self prod

when i cross ur mind will u look both ways
stand ona other side cant read ur face
too much on the line gotta win this race
cant feel my eyes off the novocaine
living like suicide i can feel no pain
tell me how u feel inside when u live wit no gain
lot on my mind i cannot, yeah

stay by my side when i wake up tomorrow
play bout my life not living tomorrow
k on my mind when i wake up tomorrow
no time to cry worry bout it tomorrow

every day that i live a decision
better stay out the way out my business
if ima aim ima shoot wit precision
keep to myself and act like i aint did it
in the whip wit the windows all tinted
i pray to God every night that im sinning
why they get mad what i did when i didn't
how can i trip bout a bitch i aint missing u
i sip dusse i sip henny
like its water i drink plenty
bad bitch feening buy her fendi
just to shut up she resent me
i get too much i get dizzy
count my moolah im too busy
aint gon do ya so get busy

when i cross ur mind will u look both ways
stand ona other side cant read ur face
too much on the line gotta win this race
cant feel my eyes off the novocaine
living like suicide i can feel no pain
tell me how u feel inside when u live wit no gain
lot on my mind i cannot, yeah

shit get too turnt im outta control
they do u worst its taking a toll
if i fuck up nobody will know
i cant find it tell me where to go

SPOTIFY !

#tmrw

what is there left to do

li.sten.to/tansea-tmwyw

Lyrics:
Stuck in the past I'm a soldier
Split memory I don't even know you
I can't see myself when I'm older
But the party still breathes when it's over

I went through with idle hands, oh yeah yeah
I'm not a victim by chance, oh yeah yeah
But I'll change
For you

Tell me what you want from me
What is it cost for you honestly?
Tell me what you want from me
I tried my best and it's still my bad

Tell me what you want from me
What is it cost for you honestly?
Tell me what you want from me
I tried my best and it's still my bad

(I tried my best and it's still my bad)
(My bad my bad)
(I tried my best and it's still my bad)

Tell me how to breathe again
Because I've been losing effort
It's been getting harder every week
Just to regret her

Got me in circle
Right besides me
Besides me
I cant think of anyone who likes me

Treat me like I
Didn't know her
Said she loved me but she gave the cold shoulder
I've been losing grip on everything now that I'm older

But I might win again

It's always ones that's throwing stones at me
That sin again
I let her leave and do her thing
Cause' I make dividends

I'm used to letting money in
Cause' I can't let her in
I can't you just do your thing
Just for the hell of it

It's always ones that's throwing stones at me
That sin again
I let her leave and do her thing
Cause' I make dividends

I'm used to letting money in
Cause' I can't let her in
I can't you just do your thing
Just for the hell of it, for the hell of it

I came through with idle hands, oh yeah yeah
I'm not a victim by chance, oh yeah yeah
I know it's hard for you to stand, oh yeah yeah

But I'll change
For you
But I'll change
For you

Tell me what you want from me
What is it cost for you honestly?
Tell me what you want from me
I tried my best and it's still my bad

Tell me what you want from me
What is it cost for you honestly?
Tell me what you want from me
I tried my best and it's still my bad

(I tried my best and it's still my bad)
(I tried my best and it's still my bad)
(My bad)
(My bad)

(I tried my best and it's still my bad)

tell me what you want (p. me)

Nearness - Acoustic Folk Music

FORWARD (prod. lovin beats)

the sunrise

thank you for the support
sorry for not dropping recently

heres a gift ig, its kind of shit though

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