suicidal thoughts

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shes in love with the concept
as if were all just how she imagined
cos were in love i just dont know it yet
well tell me how am i supposed to see the magic
cos i dont believe in it no more
but i wont tell her
cos i always imagined
its easier if she thinks she won
so imma let her

and she said
i dont think i love you no more
you never seem to call me lately
girl i dont think you know me at all
cos i never thought id have to say this
but i dont love you
and i never did look at us
burning down in flames for kicks
but just know
im not singing for your xo
im just singing cos its over

came and went like the summertime
was that a sunset or sunrise
looking back like whered the time go
so much for trying to keep this moving slow
cos i dont believe in her no more
but i remember

how we talked shit like we knew what we wanted
and i still remember what she said

i dont think i love you no more
you never seem to call me lately
but i dont think she knew me at all
cos i never thought id have to say this
but im no liar and i never hid anything
you shouldve seen it coming to this
just know
im not singing for an ex tho
im just singing cos its over

i think you think too much of me

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crybaby (prod. lederrick x lil peep)

Sad Song - We The Kings Ft. Elena Coats Nightcore

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Lyric:
yatto me o samashita kai sore nanoni naze me mo awase ya shinaindai?
“osoi yo” to okoru kimi kore demo yareru dake tobashitekitanda yo

kokoro ga karada o oikoshitekitanda yo

kimi no kami ya hitomi dake de mune ga itai yo
onaji toki o suikonde hanashitakunai yo
haruka mukashi kara shiru sono koe ni
umarete hajimete nani o ieba ii?

kimi no zen zen zensei kara boku wa kimi o sagashihajimeta yo
sono bukiccho na waraikata o megakete yattekitanda yo

kimi ga zenzen zenbu nakunatte chirijiri ni nattatte
mou mayowanai mata ichi kara sagashihajimeru sa
mushiro zero kara mata uchuu o hajimetemiyou ka

dokkara hanasu kana kimi ga nemutteita aida no sutoorii
nanoku nankounenbun no monogatari o katari ni kitanda yo
kedo iza sono sugata kono me ni utsusu to

kimi mo shiranu kimi to jarete tawamuretai yo
kimi no kienu itami made aishitemitai yo
ginga nankobun kano hate ni deaeta
sono te o kowasazu ni dou nigitta nara ii?

kimi no zen zen zensei kara boku ha kimi o sagashihajimeta yo
sono sawagashii koe to namida o megake yattekitanda yo

sonna kakumei zenya no bokura o dare ga tomeru to iundarou
mou mayowanai kimi no haato ni hata o tateru yo
kimi wa boku kara akiramekata o ubaitotta no

zen zen zensei kara boku wa kimi o sagashihajimeta yo
sono bukiccho na waraikata o megakete yattekitanda yo

kimi ga zenzen zenbu nakunatte chirijiri ni nattatte
mou mayowanai mata ichi kara sagashihajimeru sa
nankounen demo kono uta o kuchizusaminagara

☆RADWIMPS –  前前前世 Zen Zen Zense (OST Kimi no Na wa. (Your Name.) 『Acoustic Ver.』

Gustav Ahr's Album

hellboy (prod smokeasac x yung cortex)

Still stuck in my emo phase
Lyrics:


I've got the whole world on my back

Yeah, cause I'm 5'9, 165 
Established 1995 
Living like I'm not getting out alive 
Ima take a second just to tell you why 

I had thoughts since 6th grade 
That this world was not made for the sake 
of the people like me 
who can't see past their mistakes, and  misdeeds 

And I bleed the same blood you bleed
So why are you tryna cut me? 
Why's there always something you want from me?
Why can't you be happy for me?

That I'm not that kid on the phone screaming fuck this world I'm leaving? 
Like when I was sixteen and,  it still feels like I'm dreaming
When I call your phone and realize I forgot to breath in 
Forgot the grave that he's in 
I hope you know I mean it 

When I say I'm only here today cause this music keeps me breathing 
It's my only healing

I'm not alone if you can feel it

I'm not alone, if you know the bliss 
When i  heard that girl don't slit her wrists no more
From that time I reminisced at my show 
Told her there's reasons to stay don't go 

Don't push your family away I know 
They don't understand all the pain you hold 
Im just as sad know you're not alone 
Don't let your story go untold 





 I know you're here in spirit, put on deja entendu 
The only time I'm sad now is when I think of you
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only help one of them then I did it for all you 
I don't know how she's doing, no we haven't stayed in touch 
But I helped her put the knife down and that means so fucking much
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only helped one of them then I did it, I did it for you

I Hope You Know I Mean It

prod. @blacklunged

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
not goin out like i dont make anymore plans
sitting in my room, staring at the ceiling fan
wait, whos your mans?
guess i forgot to ask that
you haunt my dreams, i can see you in my flashbacks
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

im unnatentive to these bitches like i go to class
reach for the holster, load it up, and then i cock back
up to my dome, running frantic like my last lap
fill the spaces with distractions
cuz you know im bouta snap
like the led on my pencil when i try and write
i smoke a blunt, then im sleepin for the whole night
i didnt answer cuz im busy talkin to the knife
throwin shade like we forgot about the sun light
sometimes its hard to fight back
wake up around noon
stuck in bed while i smoke the sack
black fingernails creeping down to your body
always fucking up like its way more than a hobby
fiendin for some love, so ill take what i can get
nothings ev-er enough, death would be the safest bet
got ashes on my clothes cuz everything about me’s gross
you said i always did the least but bitch i always do the most

people fade away like ghosts, i guess its for the better
loving at what cost? feel closer with the reaper
when i see her its like all time stops
cuz im asleep while the fucking rain drops

smoking packs while im alone
i write these songs and hate myself
this alcohol straight to my dome
and i dont pace myself
fuck a chaser
all i chase are these illusions 
happiness, a fallacy
ive come to the conclusion

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

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while the rain drops (prod. blacklunged)

producer. @lightbodyent
guitar written by @Tylerburkhart
https://soundcloud.com/tylerburkhart/i-want-to-drown-in-snow

i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
inside
i don’t want to live
but ill stay alive
i don’t want to leave
so ill make time
you don’t tell the truth
so you make lies
i cried
i cried again
last night flowers in my bed
last night i lost my best friend 
last nights flowers torn to shreds
last night our love wound up dead
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
inside
our love subsides i don’t feel right
pin me down you eat my insides
like a spider pull me in
kiss my neck make my blood thin
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
your pain inside

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Last Nights Flowers - (prod. lightbody)

if i die baby (prod. reaper)

Special thanks to https://www.instagram.com/fallingap.art/ for the artwork on this <3
https://twitter.com/sayygoodbyye
https://soundcloud.com/goodbyye

Lyrics:
Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

Writing this letter so I could say
Dearest friend I hope you'll be okay
Think about you each and every day
I'm still wishing that you could've stayed
Want you to know that I'm broken
Hear the words that were never spoken
I was fine until I was awoken
A heart is so fragile when it's stolen

Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

So I'll write this note and then I'll burn it
Let the smoke carry up the words and turn it
To a message from below so you learn it
Thought I wanted death before but now I yearn it
I know you want to go
Please stay I'll be alone
If you leave from this home
Don't go out in the cold

Don't go out in the snow

Please don't leave me alone

I don't want you to go

Please don't leave me alone

why'd you have to go

feature: @guccihighwaters

lyrics:

(softheart)
why would i trust in anything
i dont feel the love it dont mean a thing
feels so good then it really sting
i dont really talk but i really sing 
she got me thinking like
oo she had me
cut me off so bad
leave me messed up in my head
only miss us when were bad
i be in my room smoking loud sitting silent
you should be adressed as your highness
i swear every time we touch just mitus
im just roaming through the ridges of your irus
violence got your eyelids looking violet
promise ill get rid of him ill leave him where i find him
i be with the blinds dimmed hidin
vibin

unimpressed and always bored
it aint here yet so i'll wait for it
im depressed and always stoned
im always stressed i can't control it 
uninterested always alone
fire in my chest and my heart cold
bedroom unkept ash all over my floor
i got kush in my breath merijuana my decor


(gucci)
oh
i’m all alone my phone dead
i got thoughts of the end 
and my eyes sell a forfeit
thoughts of brain matter
stain my mattress
thoughts you drown me
like a baptist

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

(softheart)
yeah and im just an outcast 
only fit in with the skyline 
cause im always lighting up
never really gets me numb enough
sorry i wasnt the one you loved

(gucci&softheart)
girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

i'm not the one you love (feat. guccihighwaters)

https://open.spotify.com/track/0kGEfTojej9LDTVW5dp7Nv?si=bBa1OLOVQUmclPaZsWp8Iw

prod. 4evr

cold (feat. thebreathingbackwards, yesterday, & stairwell)

Track two from Make It Through Fall

Guitar Lyrics And Vocals: Lil Xtra
Additional production: Kado

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Lyrics: 
Yo I'm Doomed to a life of 7.25, 
No point living right won’t make it out alive 
Making plays downtown, let me sleep on the drive
Leaning from the fucking codine in my sprite 
Leaning on the hollows in his fucking four-five like,
Put it to my head and we’ll see if I can fly 
He don’t really care if I’m impaired just stares, says 
What the fuck is up, bruh you really want to die? 
Yeah, I been blessed with a death wish 
I just hope that I die young and high like Hedwig 
I’ve been too distressed to address this
But I know I can’t be the only one who feels helpless 
And I’m sorry that I’ve been so selfish
I’d change if I could, but I just can’t help it 
But I know who I am, no need to pretend 
Guess I’m I’m still fucked up, and let down again.

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture underneath my mattress
Can’t see the sky to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I know I'm fucking different....

Why the world gotta be like this?
Getting high and she tells me what her step dad did 
I keep the secret so she can pretend 
That her innocence hasn’t been lost in a sense 
So we go to the mall and buy some bullshit 
To block out how fucked up it all is
I just need a whip with the gold plate rims
I just need a pill to feel happiness 
I just need a check and some ice I can flex 
A few more drugs to feel a little less 
A few more hits and a girl that’s obsessed 
That loves all my shit and loves having sex
So I can pretend everything’s okay 
But the world’s so black and I’m so grey 
I hope in the end one day I’ll say 
I see the same old world in a brand new way

Cause I’ve been feeling down can’t wait until it passes 
I hope you keep me underneath your mattress 
Still too blind to see my own condition
I know I can’t be perfect I know that something’s missing

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture, underneath my mattress
I can’t see the sky, to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I hope I'm always different

I hope
I hope
I hope...
I hope I'm always different

Different

produced by erik ron

music video
https://youtu.be/q7VM7BFzgzM

lyrics:

amnesia
wanna forget how bad I need ya
losing my vision I can’t see ya
someday i know that I’ll erase her, erase her

amnesia
feeling the pain as I go deeper
anyway i don’t have to feel ya
cutting you out like I got a razor

treat me like that
oh you know i still miss you
i sent you text
but i know you never read through
I still want it bad
Way worse then i need to
i won’t hold you back
if you wanna be free so

i think i’m letting you go
easy to say it I know
days when i’m out on the road
wish I was with you at home

what i’m doing ain’t workin’
wish that i could be certain

amnesia
wanna forget how bad I need ya
losing my vision I can’t see ya
someday i know that I’ll erase her, erase her

amnesia
feeling the pain as I go deeper
anyway i don’t have to feel ya
cutting you out like I got a razor  

I know I changed
you know i had to
I got attached
the day i met you

i’ve gone insane
not feeling the same
i hate to face
that i love the pain

workin on letting you go
memories making me choke
feelings are taking its tole
livin this life as a ghost

what i’m doing ain’t workin’
wish that i could be certain

amnesia
wanna forget how bad I need ya
losing my vision I can’t see ya
someday i know that I’ll erase her, erase her

amnesia
feeling the pain as I go deeper
anyway i don’t have to feel ya
cutting you out like I got a razor

amnesia (music video on youtube)

explicit

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

and i know i’m not the one you're thinking of
but your love is like a drug and i can’t fucking get enough
i need your rush inside my veins, just load me up
let me die inside my sleep, this life is just too fucking tough
tell my mom, i’m sorry, but i just don’t give a fuck
i miss your voice, i’m not alright, my life is just so fucking dumb
can’t go a day without fucking something up
depressed as fuck, all i wanna do is cut

baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and you squeezed it till it broke
let me die inside the cold, i'm all alone, just let me choke
baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and your squeezing till it breaks
just let me die, i'm all alone, just let me fade

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

prod. @prodspyder
written by @lightninglogan

samples from You x Dracula

if i die baby (prod. reaper)

foreign forest

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