#2 - The Loners With Parentheses (cover)

i want people to care about me iii

A Great Big Pile of Leaves 3-1-2014 Chicago - Track 4

I know it won’t last
It’s all that I got
I trade my liver
For the lack of a thought
There’s no cohesion
Or story to tell
Just a bitter person
Going through hell
The empty bottles
In my room
Are a weighted reminder
That I can’t cope
The liquor I drink 
To blur the thoughts
And distract enough
To think there’s hope
I know it won’t last
It’s all that I got
I trade my liver 
For the lack of a thought
People can’t stand me
And that’s the truth
But they’ll never hate me
As much as I do

a bitter and ugly excuse for a person

brace yourself
for the years
i've lost myself

but i don't blame you

but i'm all worn out
and i don't know where i
can lead you to
so you can lead me on
but what you don't know
it's all a game

well my face turns red
due to a lack of understanding
and hydration as a matter of fact
hey man could you pass me a beer
my arms are getting heavy and i need
you to get ready for these next few lines
can't pretend
or fake it
i'm helpless
against on all odds
and then i'll die

well i'm so tired
of breaking the waves
that come constantly and honestly
i kinda want them to stay
but the world we know won't stop
or we'd all die

and i'm so bored
of trying to be the same
as the people who all wanna be
deniers of all honesty
and i can't see how this is art
it's just fucking sad

bud heavy

Stay Right Here  (demo)

I dont mean to swear 
At what time would I find you 
Here and there
Jealousy 
I know you’d rather watch a movie 
Or two
And we’d much rather be out casting spells
But you look so cozy and loved and well

The puffiness in your eyes says otherwise 
My lawn needs mowing and I could use a hand or two 
Just keep your distance and stay up there
Don’t come down or you might not see where 
All along we tried to catch butterflies 
Escaping reality that sought to make you cry 

No matter how hard I try,
No matter how hard I fight

I don’t wanna leave you I know that
Mama bird stay safe on my tree
This weather gets real cold and rainy but I’ll keep you safe 
wait wait wait for me There’s 
time and I won’t bother you much
Just let me hear your song again 
Baby bird

bird song

Teen Suicide - Rarities, Unreleased Stuff.. - 23 Give Me Back To The Sky (original Demo)

spellbinder : to ease pain and renew hope 

bud heavy

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