Written and Mixed by Mugsy Banks for Newday RP

MERF - Fvcked Up

Writing On The Wall - Benji

oh i’m so conflicted
part of me says go, the other part of me is scared
i can’t be vulnerable, i’m way too delicate, oh
i been through way too much, no way i’ll let em in

maybe there’s pieces of me that’s missin
feels like quicksand way i’m sinkin
could it be that you’re the one for me
you’re my deadliest sin

they don’t know where i been
they don’t care who i am
they don’t want no one to win
no, no, no one but them, yea
i gave it all i had
i wanted this to last
i never wanted it to end

i’m done
da-done done
done da-done done done
done da-done done done done

give me a reason to stick around
working from sun up to sun down
i’ve lost my whole purpose, it can’t be found
i miss your voice, it’s my favorite sound
i wanna fly, don’t wanna come down
gimme the liquor, i wanna drown
my ego was high, now it’s underground
keep gettin played like i’m a playground

doesn’t really make sense
but again it does
i would bend over backwards
and sideways for two faces
then act surprised when i lost all the races
and nobody loved me the way that i loved me
they only got mad they couldn’t get above me
they made me feel small, i didn’t feel free
it got to a point that i just had to leave

it was so sweet
you know i had to leave
you were so sweet

i don’t wanna kiss ass no more
cause i don’t wanna be sad no more
imma tell it just like it is
if you don’t like it, i don’t give a shit, no
i’m not gonna be your pretty little doormat
i’m gettin up, i been there, done that
i’m walkin on my own two feet now
i’m steady, i’m not backin down

a page from my diary

Here my latest work! It is a quite old school vibes or this what I think.
Anyway hope you like it and enjoy! 
Bless!

FlashBack

huh, you been so low middy
don’t deserve my pity, nah
my phone stay ringin (yup)
yea…my fun beginnin

wassap, wassap
imma call the southside on yo fuckin ass
you spun around, spin back
or can miss me with that fuckin sass
gang shit, suppressin it
i brought out my extendo clip
won’t lie, been too nice
you play wimme, you pay the price
i’m cold as ice, there’s no witnesses
don’t care bout no bitches
you made the right move
fuckin with the wrong bidness
don’t scare me, not one bit
cause all you know is talk shit
well wassup, i’m toxic
you not it, taste my blick

huh, you been so low middy
don’t deserve my pity, nah
my phone stay ringin (brrring, yup)
yea…my fun beginnin

i’m swimmin in riches while you burnin bridges, you dumb
(you be lookin foolish, don’t even lift a finger now)
you don’t get 3 wishes cause snitches don’t get bitches, no
(all i gotta do is call up the boys, they gun you down)

mmm, you gon learn today
hope you don’t disobey cause vengeance in my DNA
i’m talkin three a day, bitch, no takin breaks
last time you in my way cause imma get you off my radar

damn, my clothes so fitted
why?…that’s cause OC did it
just pulled up, blicked up
issa old gun, new finish
yuh, new drugs be hittin

SPARTA

Vocals - Mando & @viviharlowe
Mixing / Mastering - Mando 

LYRICS 
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(verse 1)

every single day
I pray that you were mine
you always on my mind 
and I can’t help not feel alright 
and you don’t know this pain
if pains a drug I pay 
I really don’t understand 
am I upset or sane 

(bridge)

if you said that you were by my side
would you stay up late at night
and I’m not feeling real alright 
I guess things never change my mind 
they change my mind
change my mind just for the best
all I really need is rest 
please stay by my side 

(hook)

I can’t feel your face
and I felt you drift away 
baby don’t give me that mood
I'm stuck on the thought of you 

(interlude)

I’m sorry that I can’t reminisce the words I
never wanted this but I can’t help it now I’m 
singing to you and I am struggling to live life
baby without you I’m nothing but a fool right

(verse 2) - Vivi

somethings not right I feel it in my chest
its just there's times when we fight I think it's best that we put it to rest
I know I'm running out of time
Because I'm not ready to leave you behind

(bridge)

if you said that you were by my side
would you stay up late at night
and I’m not feeling real alright 
I guess things never change my mind 
they change my mind
change my mind just for the best
all I really need is rest 
please stay by my side 

(hook)

I can’t feel your face
and I felt you drift away 
baby don’t give me that mood
I'm stuck on the thought of you

Stuck On You Ft. V

spendin all my time in my room
while i'm waitin for your call to go through
i been really needin a friend, feel like i'm at the end
feel like i'm stuck in my head again, again, again, again

all my fears have hit the ceiling
this is kinda the worst feelin
didn't think i'd be left feelin so alone
need someone to come and help me
cause it's gettin so unhealthy
home doesn't feel like home

pain
so much pain
hate
you so hateful

pain

I’m not mourning the loss of you
Got myself to blame, what else is new
Question though, do I stay broken
Lesson is ..quiet, unspoken

I’m just not good enough, that’s all
I’m just not who you want, that’s all
We’re just left in the dust, that’s all
You just wanted to taunt me, that’s all 

Couldn’t look me in the eyes
Couldn’t tell me the demise
You took what was mine
While you walked the line

But hey, guess I tried
I stayed, wasted time
It’s late, time to find
A sane piece of mind

Don't cry for me 
You're not sorry
You're secretly
More happy see
Acting for me 
Relax or speak
More truthfully
It’s you, not me

Tell me what-were you really feeling
Guess it was just, me  imagining
Thinking I could believe you, been deceived, let’s see, what to do
Got me feeling so used, like a doll without shoes, on a shelf built for two, next to one that’s brand new
Tell me, tell me the truth, how could you, how could you? 

You threw me away like a store receipt
Didn’t look at the cost 
Didn’t look at the fee
As you took what you exactly wanted from me
And then left me in the trash, oh wait I see

The holes here in the bag, I’m such a drag, feel like I grabbed, 
A part of you that wouldn’t last, who’s the villain, where’s the cast
Why am I stuck in the past, every time, it breaks so fast

I should’ve known, and saw the signs
Thought I’d grown, maybe I’m blind
But now I know, don’t worry I’ll be fine
What you’ve shown, baby I’ll be fine

I guess it was just my mistake
Guess you’re a lie, realized, a fake
At what point in my life, will I start to take
Whatever it is, for my own sake
Save the pain, avoid the heartache
But I’m insane, isn’t it great
To love over and over and just get hate, just get hate, just get hate

Don't cry for me 
You're not sorry
You're secretly
More happy see
Acting for me 
Relax or speak
More truthfully

It’s you, not me
It’s you, not me
It’s you, not me
Is it you or me? Is it you or me? 
It's you, not me
At least I’m speaking truthfully

(Random monologue)

Don't Cry For Me

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