Shoutout Dave Dialect for the OG tune and Disco Lines for letting me put this out
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Disco Lines - Cocaine Inside My Blunts (Tape B Remix)

I grew up counting footsteps in the hall
Trying to match a rhythm that wasn’t mine
Every silence felt instructional
Every breath, another line to cross

You spoke in goals, not questions
Eyes fixed past where I stood
Love felt earned, not given
Measured by how well I could
I learned the rules before I learned myself
I learned to hide before I asked for help

Every time I slowed the pace
I felt the distance grow
Expectation cast a shadow
I couldn’t outrun or outgrow

I CARRIED A WEIGHT WITHOUT HANDS
HELD TO A STANDARD I COULDN’T STAND
WHEN I BROKE, YOU LET ME FALL
CALLED IT STRENGTH — CALLED IT ALL I AM

When the pressure turned to noise
I looked for quiet in the wrong places
Found relief in borrowed hours
Found escape where nothing stays
I was sinking — not defiant
Just tired of trying to breathe
But failure sounded like betrayal
So you turned away from me

I didn’t need correction
I needed connection
But absence was your answer
And silence was the lesson

I CARRIED A WEIGHT WITHOUT HANDS
PUSHED TO THE EDGE OF WHO I AM
WHEN I CRIED OUT, YOU CLOSED THE DOOR
LEFT ME TO FIGHT WHAT YOU IGNORED

I CARRIED A WEIGHT WITHOUT HANDS
PUSHED TO THE EDGE OF WHO I AM
WHEN I CRIED OUT, YOU CLOSED THE DOOR
LEFT ME TO FIGHT WHAT YOU IGNORED

NO GRACE
NO GROUND
JUST TARGETS
AND LETDOWN

YOU STEPPED BACK
WHEN I FELL APART

Maybe you thought distance would make me strong
Maybe you didn’t know how to stay
But I learned the cost of being unseen
And I paid it every day

ABANDONMENT DOESN’T SCREAM
IT JUST STOPS ANSWERING

I DROPPED THE WEIGHT WITHOUT HANDS
FOUND MY VOICE IN THE AFTERMATH
IF I SURVIVED WHAT YOU WALKED AWAY FROM
THEN I’M MORE THAN WHAT YOU DEMAND

I’m not asking you to save me now
I just needed you to stay somehow

WEIGHT WITHOUT HANDS (THE LONG NIGHT Part 2)

Ashes in My Hands

Echoes of the Future

SUBSCRIBE TO OBLIVION

THROAT OF THE EARTH

Warming her hands
Shoes were worn
As she looks for a way
To ease her mourn
Caught red handed
But denies it all
She seemed strong
Now delusional

Ignoring all words
She’s sitting there
Beneath a shelter
dirt in her hair
In her alley
Shivering
I thought I could help
But couldn’t do anything

Escape the tragedy
And see reality
Get it out your skin
It hides within
Cut of the abscess
Or drown in your emptiness

Seeing no chance
To begin again
She sedates herself
Until seeing them
Playing around
Holding her tight
The only way to
Let it see light

Escape the tragedy
And see reality
Get it out your skin
It hides within
Cut of the abscess
Or drown in your emptiness

she was taken away
Her heart still bound
Believed he’d save her
But he gave no sound

Her glass was empty
And the way clear
But she can’t see the hand
and stays out here

Escape the tragedy
And see reality
Get it out your skin
It hides within
Cut of the abscess
Or drown in your emptiness

You drank all our love
Till you could drink no more
Come ask your lord above
What you’re doing it all for
To forget all you’ve done
Is to forget him can’t you see
Now you’ve lost everyone
Including me

She spoke to me
With head in hand
Telling what she’s done
But she does not understand
She twists and turns
Until she’s stuck
I grip her and pull
Without any luck

WEIGHT WITHOUT HANDS (THE LONG NIGHT Part 2)

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