2025-04-23-232353451_25042025.m4a

the only song that is fully recorded. i <3 the fake accordian.

I don't believe that life's a mystery
It's more like a
Complicated puzzle, but if you finish you've made history
I like to think that one day all my ramblings will make sense to you
But for now they are just words
And for some reason that is not enough for you

If I say yes then you say maybe
If I say maybe you say "I don't know"
It's getting harder for me to let that go
If don't want to, you get angry
And if I get angry, you just get pissed with me too
What am I supposed to do with you

This brings me back to the time when I thought I could rhyme the word orange with another word
You told me it wouldn't work, turns out you were right
That happens a lot, yeah I'm wrong a lot
And you like to point that out a lot
But when I'm right
It makes up for all the rest 

If I say yes then you say maybe
If I say maybe you say "I don't know"
It's getting harder for me to let that go
If I don't want to, you get angry
And if I get angry, you just get pissed with me too
What am I supposed to do with you

I used to love the way I felt when I was with you
But now I just want to die
Yeah I wanna die
I used to count the minutes before I would see your face again
But now I'd rather die
Yeah I'd rather fucking die

If I say yes then you say maybe
If I say maybe you say "I don't know"
It's getting harder for me to let that go
If I don't want to, you get angry
And if I get angry, you just get pissed with me too
What am I supposed to do with you

frustration usually writes itself

i have never listened to this song in my life before just now.

Boy toy named Troy used to live in Detroit
Big dope dealer money, he was gettin' some coins
Was in shootouts with the law, but he live in a palace
Bought me Alexander McQueen, he was keeping me stylish
Now that's real, real, real
Gun in my purse, bitch, I came dressed to kill
Who wanna go first? I had them pushing daffodils
I'm high as hell, I only took a half a pill
I'm on some dumb shit, by the way, what he say?
He can tell I ain't missing no meals
Come through and fuck him in my automobile
Let him eat it with his grills and he tellin' me to chill
And he telling me it's real, that he love my sex appeal
Say he don't like 'em boney, he want something he can grab
So I pulled up in the Jag, and I hit him with the jab like
Dun-d-d-dun-dun-d-d-dun-dun

My anaconda don't, my anaconda don't
My anaconda don't want none
My anaconda don't, my anaconda don't
My anaconda don't want none

This dude named Michael used to ride motorcycles
Dick bigger than a tower, I ain't talking about Eiffel's
Real country-ass nigga, let me play with his rifle
Pussy put his ass to sleep, now he calling me NyQuil
Now that bang, bang, bang
I let him hit it cause he slang cocaine
He toss my salad like his name Romaine
And when we done, I make him buy me Balmain
I'm on some dumb shit, by the way, what he say?
He can tell I ain't missing no meals
Come through and fuck him in my automobile
Let him eat it with his grills, and he telling me to chill
And he telling me it's real, that he love my sex appeal
He say he don't like 'em boney, he want something he can grab
So I pulled up in the Jag, Mayweather with the jab like
Dun-d-d-dun-dun-d-d-dun-dun

My anaconda don't, my anaconda don't
My anaconda don't want none
My anaconda don't, my anaconda don't
My anaconda don't want none

I like a fat ass
I like a big one
If you ain't got it
Then I don't want none

Anaconda - Nicki Minaj (cover) (twitter request)

Clover

you knocked me down before i knew what hit me
a feeling that still haunts me to this day
i'm over it but sometimes you still get to me
and i just wish that i could make you go away

your eyes like bullets dodge my stare
my mind is blank that you're even here
cuz it's been a while since i haven't seen your
face through a screen
emotions change from shocked to scared
you run a hand through your hair
so i say "hey"
just to set the tone

so here we are
still standing tall
explain to me why i still
even care at all
hide your face
i'll take the blame
pretend that you don't even
recognize my name
but i know you do
and you know too

order my food and keep my calm
but this all feels so fucking wrong
the air is filled with awkward laughing
and my hands aren't shaking from the cold
i want to tell you to leave
i want to tell you to stay
i want to tell you that i still think of you some days
but they aren't good thoughts

so here we are
still standing tall
explain to me why i still
even care at all
hide your face
i'll take the blame
pretend that you don't even
recognize my name
but i know you do
and you know too
so why can’t we work this out
i’m ready to forgive you

i knocked you down before you knew what hit you
a feeling that still haunts me to this day
you're over it but sometimes i still get to you
and you just wish that you could make me go away

peace, love, and los burritos (SUPER DEMO)

full band coming this summer??? ;)

i started watching a lot of grey's anatomy
so naturally i think i'm dying if there's something wrong with me
and every single pain inside my chest sends me into a panic
maybe i never should have started a show
that includes a lot of information i don't know
because now i'm self conscious of my body and i always panic
shit

OH

went to the doctor cuz the internet said i should
convince myself that i'm in dire need of something good
but i just don't know anymore
i just don't know no i just don't know
no

how much longer until i get some fucking rest
cuz i've been lying here for hours just trying my best
to fall asleep but i can't
it's unhealthy
i am dying
how many hours of torture will i take
before i reconcile past and accept my fate
i can't control my body
it's unhealthy
i am dying

anxiety is filling me up to the brim
pushed to the floor so often i have scars on my chin
wearing a helmet every time that i drive my car
maybe i'll grow up a bit like my dad says
maybe i'll grow out of this like my mom says
but what if i don't
what if i don't
what if i'm still here

how much longer until i get some fucking rest
cuz i've been lying here for hours just trying my best
to fall asleep but i can't
it's unhealthy
i am dying
how many hours of torture will i take
before i reconcile past and accept my fate
i can't control my body
it's unhealthy
i am dying
how much longer until i get some fucking rest
cuz i've been lying here for hours just trying my best
to fall asleep but i can't
it's unhealthy
i am dying
how many hours of torture will i take
before i reconcile past and accept my fate
i can't control my body
it's unhealthy
i am dying
it's unhealthy
i am dying

Anaconda - Nicki Minaj (cover) (twitter request)

fredo disco