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The Upload

Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



Listen on Spotify!

Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

prod deadfish <3

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig

lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

prod. @rrarebearbeats

lyrics:
they say home is where the heart is
well, my heart's with u 
I don't feel so alone when I'm next to u
pick me up when I'm down 
I know thats hard to do
I'm not good at words so I thought I'd write this song for u

(melody)

so, I thought I'd write this song for u

everyday ur the only thing I think ab 
we both came from dark places, but we made it out
crossed paths, fell in love we got it figured out
so, I'll wipe the tears off ur pretty face when ur sad
I'll sit here with u when it gets bad 
I'm never leaving u baby and u can count on that

oh, u can count on that 

(melody)

oh, u can count on that 

(melody)

we both came up from broken homes and broken promises
it took its toll, but it made us stronger kids
I'm glad I have u here cuz u make me stronger too
so, I'll wipe the tears off ur pretty face when ur sad
I'll sit here with u when it gets bad 
I'm never leaving u baby and u can count on that 

oh, u can count on that

(melody)

oh, u can count on that

(melody)

oh, u can count on that

a song i wrote ab a girl i fell in luv w (RRAREBEAR)

lyrics: 

lost all my hope 
lost all my hope 
down the same road 
"fix up" but I cant
look at my bones
look at my bones
sailing on fear
the thin ice is breaking 

hate on my soul 
hate on my soul
wither then perish 
its dark, but I hope
I waste into dust 
powder; my heart 
I longed paradise 
but I tripped from the start 

oh how did I get here? 
how did I get here? 
blood on my palms 
from etching the scars 
my breath is so shallow
I'm falling apart 
I'm falling apart 
let me corrode away 
loosen your grip I'm fine 
loosen your grip

fix up [prod king theta]

[Intro]
I been—

[Chorus]
I been dead inside and I just wanna feel alive (I just wanna feel alive)
Tracing out your thighs with my finger by your side
Feelings I confide into the mind of yours are mine
I won't find another human like you in my life, yeah (In my life)

[Verse 1]
Catching photos, where'd the time go? (Where'd it go?)
Facebook memories from the last snow (Last snow)
Strive for times where I won't answer to employers (No employers)
Work and music keep me busy, I don't know her (I don't know her)
Baby, get to know me, I wish we'd get closer (Get closer)
Gain connection then start breaking down the borders (Breaking down the borders)
Way back, way, way back (Way back)
I forgot the loving and I never got it back (Never got it back)
Playlist, crybaby face tat
Knew that you were something special
When you told me that it slap (R.I.P.)
I keep tasting shit when I breathe (Tasting shit)
Pull it nice with the bong, need it to be clean
Gold ring on my nose, gold ring on my finger (Ring on my finger)
Ballin' up in the Northface, loud hit the coat and it linger (Linger)
She said she wouldn't call me a singer
But all my shit fucking slaps
Baby, call me whatever
Fuck the neutron, I gotta blast

[Chorus]
I been dead inside and I just wanna feel alive (Ooh)
Tracing out your thighs with my finger by your side (Ayy, woah)
Feelings I confide into the mind of yours are mine (Yeah, yeah, ayy)
I won’t find another human like you in my life, yeah

[Verse 2]
What would you call me (What would you call me?)
Smoking on palm tree (Palm tree)
Hair look like shiitake (Mushroom)
Bars icy like hockey

[Open Verse]

9TAILS - connect (prod. yusei)

[Chorus]
Born to win
Tiger within
Never forget where I'm from
Tiger

[Verse]
Born to win
Tiger within
Never forget where I'm from
Tiger
Never forget where I'm from
Never forget where I'm from
Tiger
Born to win
Tiger within
Never forget where I'm from
Tiger

[Verse 2]
I'm a Tiger
Humble Tiger
I'm a SwissLankan
I walk the righteous path
The path of warriors
Born to win
Born to win
Tiger within
Never forget where I'm from
Tiger

[Bridge]
Never forget where I'm from
Never forget where I'm from
Tiger

[Chorus]
Born to win
Tiger within
Never forget where I'm from
Tiger

[Verse 3]
Never forget where I'm from
Never forget where I'm from
Tiger
Born to win
Tiger within
Never forget where I'm from
Tiger
I'm a Tiger
Humble Tiger
I'm a SwissLankan
I walk the righteous path
The path of warriors

tiger-within-(swisslankan)

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19 августа 2025 г. в 18:16

Яркий свет

check out the bros::
https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
https://soundcloud.com/yungaxstn
lyrics 

kais:
i, saw u in the back an
i, did a little to much then
its gettin harder to sleep now, really wishing that i could be real now x2

snow on her dress watch us fade yea,
snow on her chest heart break yea,
she told me we should take break yea,
im lookin at my phone
dumb, stressed out, and i feel all alone,
don’t
try to use yo dome,
if i break out i jus hope i go home,
stressed out in the back so im sippin on crone.

lil skele:
I took a lil too much 
I be moving slow shawty I ain’t in a rush 
yeah black out in the backseat
I’m a lil too fucked if u ask me 
yeah
it’s like bury me in Louis v 
I been hella faded my eyes getting hazy 
Ion love that bitch she crazy 
ion ever leave the house chill by my lonely 
i fw anybody don’t pick my phone up when it’s ringing 
bumping dg and I got wrist on icy 
feel like guitarboi sipping on peace tea
I been steady stacking bands I got the money

yung axstn:
The nicotine helps me get over 
I’m not your friend you’re never sober 
my girl yeah she wants me over 
i feel the same just wish you were closer
now if you don’t mind I’ll be back in a bit
Cause the shit in my head it makes me wanna quit
and I’m sorry that I can’t be there 
and I know that you want me right there
and I’m sorry that I can’t be there
you miss me all the time I just wish I was right there

kais:
i, saw u in the back an
i, did a little to much then
its gettin harder to sleep now, really wishing that i could be real now x2

it's getting harder to sleep now (w/lil skele & yung axstn) [prod.nejdos]

SPOTIFY

it's getting harder to sleep now. (w/skele & yung axstn) [prod.nejdos]

had a blast making this, beat was made by me. also the vocals :)

Lyrics 


Issues:

I’ve been dealing with these issues 
on my own
But i’ve been runnin in circles 
tryna find my home
Well i’ve been missing something
But i dont know
But i find hope every time 
you text my phone

If seen you up
And i’ce seen you down
But now its hard to tell
Coz you’re not around
You lift my face

And you look so cute 
In your raincoat
Waiting for spring
But its the same snow
Different ocean
In the same boat
Different song but same tempo

Breathe deep
And eventually you’ll come to see
All the different option
You life will bring
Everyone’s different but we’re still the same breed
All of us are climbing up the same tree

Issues

Hope you enjoy the new song! big thanks to @itsnvrmnd and @khareel for doing such an amazing job on this, be sure to go check them out! 
spotify - https://open.spotify.com/album/6JrzNNzyZDZCaRyShSbvMd?si=MgwT87hpQYuyhTEwCkWqMg

Lyrics:
NVR/MND

Yeah
It's not your fault that i say i change but stay the same
it's not your fault that i'm holding on to past mistakes

You know that i've fallen all my life, but i don't mind

if you want me gone, cuz i say i'm sorry
and you tell me that it's all okay if i'm around

and if you tell me to go i'll take my leave
but i just wanna let you know
that you'll find everything but peace

and i just wanna know when we'll be back
the way we once were before we all started to crack
High school summers were so care free
life hits hard you see

cuz i just want you to know
baby i lost my mind
and i don't really know when i'll be back
cuz i've been off my grind

Khareel:
I waited, for you to say
"I changed my mind, i changed my ways"
What a waste, every moonrise hey
That's not fair
Coz all my days
Were dark as grey

I lashed out, last year
We we're never friends
But i wrote letters dear
It's not the hair nor the face
Coz your words,
Are smartly done, i gave away
Cowardly nice, i hide away
I sincerely hope you're okay
You're on my mind, that's not right.

Moonrise Ft. NVR/MND & Khareel

lyrics: 
(hook)
i’m trying to hide 
the feelings inside
cuz big boys don’t cry
it cuts like a knife
it digs in my side
but big boys don’t cry
don’t look in my eyes
don’t ask if I’m fine
i don’t wanna lie
i’m tired of life
but say i’m alright
cuz big boys don’t cry 
(big boys don’t cry at all) 
 
(verse 1)
i've been sitting in my room
just chilling my dude
i don’t care about much
that’s a lie, i just try to act tough
deep inside i’m really big wuss
i’ve going through a lot but it don’t show
smile big, so my parents really don’t know
like a fridge cuz my heart stay so cold
they say to be a man
you gotta be strong
walk around with ya fist closed  
I’m a big boy now be aware of it
to be honest man 
i think need a therapist
to be honest man
i think i’m really scared of this
they say i gotta be tough 
i ain’t sharing it  
playing 21 savage really ain’t me
i just wanna be a man 
so they feel me
stack my pride so high to the ceiling 
sadly, this bottled up pain
just might kill me 
(pain just might kill me)

(hook)
i’m trying to hide 
the feelings inside
cuz big boys don’t cry
it cuts like a knife
it digs in my side
but big boys don’t cry
don’t look in my eyes
don’t ask if im fine
i don’t wanna lie
i’m tired of life
but say i’m alright
cuz big boys don’t cry 
(big boys don’t cry at all) 
 
(verse 2)
i think i’m growing up way too fast
age 10 and i wear a fake mask
i’m afraid that my life might crash
cuz if you ain’t first 
then your just last
when I’m grown
imma be like them
even walk, try to talk, be a jock like them
maybe then 
i will actually finally fit in  
bottle up everything, and when i’m all out of my luck  
kill myself like them 

(hook)
i’m trying to hide 
the feelings inside
cuz big boys don’t cry
it cuts like a knife
it digs in my side
but big boys don’t cry
don’t look in my eyes
don’t ask if im fine
i don’t wanna lie
i’m tired of life
but say i’m alright
cuz big boys don’t cry 
(big boys don’t cry at all) 

(bridge)
big boys don’t cry at all
yeah
big boys don’t cry at all
yeah 
big boys don’t cry at all
yeah 
big boys don’t cry at all

listen on spotify!

big boys don't cry (prod. con)

go follow @lilskeleskrrt & @diamoonofnhg rn or else

sui ~
emberz fall
the crackle of the campfire
let the smoke fill the sky
cover up all the past life
run away through the night
dont look back again
cause its to painful
focus on the future
if there is one
for me in this world
maybe one day
everything will be ok

7am again guess its time
i better sleep
havent ate in 2 days
friends worried bout me
cause on the table
those things i want
but lifes unstable
cant carry on, no

you can find me escaping
reality in my room
looking for an answer
forgetting everything
on the table
those things i want
but lifes unstable
cant carry on no

nothing for me here in this place
everything is dull now
cant calm down
draining heart
will drown me in my own blood
soon enough

skele ~

nothing for me here in this place
thinking ab days that i wish i could i erase
and i know that you look down on me
im a disgrace
ive been pushed right to the edge
you can see it on my face
emberz falling from the sky
reminiscing ab you and i
baby i cant bear to see you cry
ill be waiting in another life

sui ~

7am again guess its time
i better sleep
havent ate in 2 days
friends worried bout me
cause on the table
those things i want
but lifes unstable
cant carry on, no

you can find me escaping
reality in my room
looking for an answer
forgetting everything
on the table
those things i want
but lifes unstable
cant carry on no

nothing for me here in this place
everything is dull now
cant calm down
draining heart
will drown me in my own blood
soon enough

calm down w/ skele ~ [p. diamoon]

[prod. Dead Spyro] @deadspyro

Lyrics:
[Frvr]
I can feel my insides 
Crumble into pieces
Everytime i think of you again
You again

I know that im not fine
Baby you can see it
Do you even think of me like that
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore

Baby i was falling way before

[Kais]
do u even think of me?
Im not who you want me to be and I know 
think of things we’d see
I know you cant do that, im already jus a memory

time dont fly by,
i feel like im stuck in your eyes
why do you use a disguise
I crumble to pieces at night

[Frvr]
I can feel my insides 
Crumble into pieces
Everytime i think of you again
You again

I know that im not fine
Baby you can see it
Do you even think of me like that
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore

Baby i was falling way before

Crumble Into Pieces ft. Kais

s/o soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt

lyrics:

me:
its the same shit,
3g’s and I face it
I stay breakin
down larry in the basment
distance
I feel distance between us
try to make up all these false candle wishes x2

skele: 
yeah, hop in the whip and i dash
brand new beam all black
im off the shit i might crash
ya
a couple k in my wallet
brand new car just bought it
racks pour out my wallet
might get rich and buy hot topic
its the same shit
everyday i dont feel it
the distance, baby tell me do u miss this
i cant face it, i dont think im gonna make it
i cant take it, down larry in the basement

me:
why you try so hard?
i wanna go back to dancing in the snow in my front yard, 
jus take a picture it'll last long, you act like I wouldn't care if you were gone well you're so wrong. 
put an 1/8 in a blunt and then I face it, then replace it because

its the same shit,
3g’s and I face it
I stay breakin
down larry in the basment
distance
I feel distance between us
try to make up all these false candle wishes x2

Crumble Into Pieces ft. Kais

⋆frvr&alwys⋆

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