past 3 songs been the same instrumental 🗑️

this song is all midi guitar

that's one way to make me feel alone
i won't change until i've found my hope
give me a break (break!)
search for my answers, still at the first stage
i won't break unless they make me change

where does pain come from?
is it you or all the deep cuts
you'll forget me soon, so what
is it me or did you move on 
just to leave me in the dust
i've dug myself into this hole
it's in my head out of control
afraid of death but you killed my soul

one day, i'll stop caring about them
if i knew how to stop i would
my mom asked me "look what you've become"
but she's misunderstood
i'm passing by without a goal
no reason to keep my control
this fucking mental takes its toll

where does pain come from?
is it you or all the deep cuts
you'll forget me soon, so what
is it me or did you move on 
just to leave me in the dust
i've dug myself into this hole
it's in my head out of control
afraid of death but you killed my soul

Deep cuts

@attc

huh, yea, huh,
i've been on the run
i've been running for a moment
i'mma leave the drugs
i'mma drop em like i'mma disown them
nah i'm fucking wit ya u know imma pick em up
if i can't be off them bars then how am i supposed to live with us
pick this weight up off my chest bitch u gon need a pick up truck
told me i need rehab i'mma act like i don't give a fuck

who goes there
who, what, when
oh, my eyes
oh, haaaa 

you been on thin ice
i've been freezing for a moment 
guess the key to love 
is to be haphazardly chosen

fuck it, chop it up; been feening for a weekend
shaking shaking down, i think i need a recheck
living in the future fore' i even reach it
die to grasp at benefits and fail to try and reap them

who goes there
who, what, when
oh, my eyes
oh, haaaa

[...th- this person insisting, from day one, that they got the wrong body...]

just wanna feel pretty, i just wanna feel pretty (x2)
and my brain, it's playing games
guess it's always been the same
and you perceiving me makes me feel ma-

just wanna feel pretty, i just wanna feel pretty (x2)
i feel pretty in your arms and pretty disarmed
when we really haven't felt each other's touch in a minute
you switched up, and i'm glad that you did it
oh, who am i ki-

just wanna feel pretty, i just wanna feel pretty (x2)

[...and this was a landmark study, fabulously well done...]

us prod. attic

demo from october 2024, originally for "drafts"
ib the cabs

she dances in the spotlight, i stay in the dark
i trace all my thoughts just to tear them all apart
i start to talk quietly when they get louder

even if i tried, even if you wanted to change my whole life
i’d always end up running in circles
running in circles
even if i died, even if the whole world had turned from my side
i’d always end up running in circles
running in circles

Running in circles

when i was younger, everybody seemed much older to me
now life is changing and i don’t believe anything i see
farewell, i always knew that you would make it out
i’m still going but as time goes on, the silence gets loud

are you glad that you met me now that we’re friends?
i always pictured myself with you until the end
i put my whole life at risk ‘cause i tried to fit in
family taught me what i know, they taught me everything
i end up starving myself, breaking my fucking hands
they never taught me to stop being codependent

i put down the guitar
sing to myself in my bed as i’m sinking in
i never thought it’d be hard
and when he passed, i had tried to breathe it in
who knew that life would be like this?
my old friends told me i’m psycho, and i didn’t like it
and i try so hard, i’m always trying to fight it

are you glad that you met me now that we’re friends?
i always pictured myself with you until the end
i’d rather kill my best friend than take my fucking meds
family taught me what i know, they taught me everything
if only i would’ve told them i’m a fucking mess
i could’ve learned how to stop being codependent

Codependent

song from february 2025 written in december 2024
i think i'll use this account to post throwaway songs

Even if it kills me

produced by jayguru
artwork by poeticillvsionz

and once again, it was all my fault
every time that i did you wrong
it's so weird that now you're just gone
i'll visit, but i won't stay long
we shouldn't talk, it's been established
i've pressed my luck and you've had it
reduce my brain to pure static
take your shot, don't mean to be dramatic

TAKE YOUR SHOT!!

production by me
art by me
https://open.spotify.com/track/0bZCgAemO0h9no2IrXVX0r?si=0b27277049634758

-
maybe just look around
dont build me up just to tear me down
is it so hard to just love me now?
feel like im losing my mind again
theres some things dont wanna figure out
think its me, am i freaking out?
you comfort me but i have my doubts

dont have to know
think its better in the dark
tell me how low
bring it up, am i fixing it?
am i going too far? maybe im losing it
who do you know?
was it like this from the start?
i think you know
am i crazy, have we never met?
do i ruin it all or do i just forget

(am i crazy, have we never met?)
(do i ruin it all or do i just forget)

maybe just look around
dont build me up just to tear me down
is it so hard to just love me now?
feel like im losing my mind again
theres some things dont wanna figure out
think its me, am i freaking out?
you comfort me but i have my doubts

dont have to know
think its better in the dark
tell me how low
bring it up, am i fixing it?
am i going too far? maybe im losing it
who do you know?
was it like this from the start?
i think you know
am i crazy, have we never met?
do i ruin it all or do i just forget

(am i crazy, have we never met?)
(do i ruin it all or do i just forget)

maybe just look around

produced by me
drawing by me 

dont be so brave, ive tried it all its the same
am i so stupid, determined
you try to pick at my brain, cant let you know me the same
the scratch on my arms start hurting

it all feels the same, the years the seasons all fade
the weathers never been tame, ill keep going
my minds never blank, my past my problems all stay
if i can push it away, am i growing?

dont be so dumb, its only real if you make it
i havent cried in so long, am i real or am i faking?
playing stupid for everyone, this manipulation
so if i take off my skin, would it be me who you're facing?

dont be so stubborn its just not what u want
and dont try to make it work
you should know that its not worth

don't be so dumb

prod winter
https://open.spotify.com/track/3OTc9C4dWymqezh4WB8vny?si=87db61500a674d13

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