the song the hook is  from is me and my ex's song so this kills me on the inside 💔💔 still really good though

bro your mixing has improved so much! amazing

Bruuuh, i got a song over the same beat, it just aint out yet 🤣
This shit fire bro ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️

The Upload

Marigold

Complacent (feat. SadBoyProlific)

something simple | feat. mishaal (prod. apes prod)

Into The Void (Prod. Chronyc)

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

Im Losing It w/Matego (prod. moon)

Lyrics... 

My fate is sealed I don’t know what to do 
I been contemplating everything while locked in my room
I revolve around hate and I’ve been paying my dues
But I think I’m too late it’ll have me end in a tomb
Anyone can be snake and they never teach
That’s why you never see me trust they all deceased
So I’ve been taking pills I admit defeat
Honestly I’ll take it anything at all if it helps me to sleep

That’s the cards that were dealt 
And I’m sorry but my body I can feel breaking down
My mind ain’t any better I’m deceiving myself
And It’s funny cause the money yeah can’t buy my health
I need help
I need it bad
Mentally and physically I don’t have money to spend
Ain’t that crazy cause Every penny go to family and friends and that’s why I say I’m quitting music I like it but I’ll prolly be dead

I’m fucking tired
I’m so tired
I’m tired and honestly I think my time has expired
I’m fucking tired
I’m so tired 
I’m tired and honestly I think my time has expired

feeling well 
I ain’t been feeling well
And I’m done with trying to talk I only bring people down
Seems I fuck up everything I swear I’m destined to failI
I’m breathing regret every time I fucking inhale

Moving on I can’t
Man I’m trying but my mind is stuck back in the past
I’d be lying if dying didnt seem that bad
I’m writing the facts I’m fucking fighting for this 
I give my life but that shit wouldn’t last

Yeah I’m giving my best but still want me to change
Man I’m trying to change
And I hate when they tell me I’ll see better days
Man that shit never came
Half of the help I’m getting feeling it’s fake

Fake as a bitch
I’ve been pushing but my mind it can’t handle this shit
I’ve been battling depression ever since just a kid
I’m a shell I’ve been broken and I’m sorry I got nun left to give

Honestly, I'm tired (prod. 4lexf)

feature: matego // produced by: caps ctrl & xsus

my last goodbye w/ matego (Caps Ctrl & Xsus)

Maybe (feat. Lxst Boy) [prod. Boyfifty]

[+] tryna spread all my love, its getting hard though
* produced by @metlast *

INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TWITTER: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: www.discord.gg/DRfW7Q4Bmu
LYRICS:

leaving scars

+ spotify

leaving scars (feat. noahmadethiss) [prod. metlast]

prod. me

you're all the best fr <3

lyrics:
I gotta get fucking grip
i let everything slip thru my fingers
im walkin on glass I might trip 
let it cut me just cut me to pieces 

on dry ice frostbite from your lips sent a shiver down my spine thru the vine to my hips 
there ain a lotta love for me, not to give. 
I been tryna figure how the fuck im gonna live like
this.

im wasted, complacent.
u name it
im lame man, 

cut my lips, cant speak to you 
i blew the shield can't read into 
the cold ass stare i get, you use 
permission to light the fuse 

im just a figment 
walkin thru your vision
catch me upset, its just something you're dismissin 
solice is only possible when were in two 
love so still, its all because i skipped the route
unmissable 

i am 
cant relate to me relate to you
i try 
some days i wonder why i cant cry 
my eyes 
been frosted since i last quit my lies 
so why 
is my chest still caving in

i feel my worth in my skin
but i can't seem to let it grow
i feel the grief in my soul
leave slowly

frostbite

spotify

this song means a lot to me,  so hope yall enjoy<3
also last release for a while since ill be super busy
love yall<3

written and performed by: @futoh
mix and mastered by: @futoh
produced by: @boyfifty

lyrics:
i didnt care, you were showing off,
yea no wonder we never blasted off,
you went with him with no care in the world,
but didnt look back to see what had unfurled,
dont look at me with those eyes and those curls,
you were my world,
but now i sit back cause i know that its over,
and through it all, yea i kept my composure,
tried so hard just to work it out, yea,
but you didnt want that,
you needed a reason to leave cause i wasnt special to you, and you got that,
but now that you want that,
what others cant give you,
but hey i was on that,
i gave you the world when you would wake up, 
dont say you forgot that,

(vocalize)

i didnt care, you were showing off,
but now it has come back to haunt me,
wish i could sleep with the ceiling off,
instead the memories surround me,
make it so hard to breath,
my sweat is soaking my sleeve,
i wont lose the fight to my conscious,
the next time she ups and leaves,
beat myself up for no reason,
i know im worth something,
but when im misused i just cant see it,
think im worth nothing,
you used to say i was pure gold,
but now where are you that ive been told,
that you didnt care a bit,
so ill find somewhere my heart will fit

no wonder (prod. boyfifty)

I wrote this song in prison
And thank god that I did it
I’m a man who’s on a mission
I’ve got business left to finish up
I don't deal with minimums
My sound will not diminish
I swear on any witness
All the things I know I didn’t

I be on my own thing
Shovel to the dirt
All the time I wasted was time I deserved
Now I sing of heartbreak
A pain not from this earth
I miss gettin' high
I miss loving my girl

And I swear
When I get out
I’ll be there
For you baby girl

I wrote this song in prison
When sh!t was getting difficult
But man I had a vision
I’ve got business left to finish up
I don't deal with minimums
My sound will not diminish
I swear on any witness
All the things I know I didn’t

I be on my own thing
Shovel to the dirt
All the time I wasted was time I deserved
Now I sing of heartbreak
A pain not from this earth
I miss gettin' high
I miss loving my girl

I wrote this song in prison
It goes
(oh)
Yeah
(oh)
I wrote this song in prison
It goes
(oh)
Yeah
I wrote this song in prison
(oh)

no wonder (prod. boyfifty)

futoh

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