a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 2/30
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In 2020, I lost a close family friend due to COVID-19. The last time I saw him was when he visited my family and me in late 2019. At the time I was studying for exams and didn't give him the time he needed and that was the last time I saw him.
In the past, I lost my grandparents in a similar manner.
'at the end of time' is an attempt to convey how I feel now. All the work did pay off, but at what cost? I could have everything I could ever want but would lose everyone in the process.
It taught me about how unfortunately anyone at any time could disappear, and that I should remember to put these people first and give them the love, time, and care they need.
Everything else in this world is temporary.

at the end of time
The family friend and my grandparents were some of the sweetest people that could ever have existed. They would always encourage me with everything I did, from music to my studies and would always make me feel like I was special.
My paternal grandmother was the last grandparent to live, and she passed away before I got a place at medical school, something that all of my grandparents dreamt of and encouraged me to pursue. At the time of writing this, I have finished my fifth year of medical school, done well in my exams, and won a scholarship, but they're not here to see it.
I wish you could see me now, I know I would've made you proud and I'm sorry I didn't give you more time. If you're out there, wherever you are, I hope you can see what I'm doing. This is all for you and I will be the best I can be for you.

lyrics:
[verse 1]
at what cost did i succeed?
by giving into my own greed

i didn't give the time you need 
and now you're no longer here

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

[verse 2]
i want a way out
i hate how you're not around
i wish you could see me now
i know that i would've made you proud

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

a beautiful, yet hurtful life

at the end of time

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- as I sit here at night its dark and its cold, I'm trying to find my way back home woah oh woah oh oh oh, trying to find my way back. -

Find My Way Back Home

For the ɴᴜʀᴋᴏ remix contest. Enjoy :)

didn't win but it's fine, I still like what i made

Nurko - Disappearing Now [Sumic Remix]

Everything to Me

Head In The Pillow

Cigarettes After Sex - Cry (FFD Remix)

i love this song so much, have a future bass edit of it

OG: https://soundcloud.com/surrealrecordings/overspace-jenceno-outerbound-feat-slyleaf

jenceno & overspace - outerbound feat. slyleaf (dossyx edit)

So happy that this is finally here.  This is the first single off my upcoming album with Ophelia, and its something a little different than my usual releases.  I'm so proud of this.  Thank you.

To The Endless Searing Skies, out soon.

Buy/stream

Neverless

https://soundcloud.com/akiraflay
https://soundcloud.com/jayparmesan

Lyrics:

[Jay Parmesan]
Wildflower, roses
The wind will not follow you home
Sitting on branches,
The forest your throne
Treetops are seesaws,
I cannot see what you have gone,
Now I’m alone

Lost me in thickets and paintbrushes,
So overgrown
Colored by scarlet, no stranger to thorns
Faint glow of white that you left here,
Is keeping me warm, my only repose

There’s a moon child,
She’s somewhere out there,
Waiting for me,
Wrapped up in sheets,
Of silver and gold and precious debris
Calling to me
Calling to me

She says,
“I love you, I love you”
How softly she speaks,
“Come set me free! Find me alone, dancing in shadows of the willow tree”
How sweetly she pleads

Moon child
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me
Moon child
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

[Akira Flay]
Static electricity, one touch
And I’m free falling on my knees,
Heart fucked
Underneath I’m bleeding deep,
I hear you calling
Calling out to me
Living in my head for free, you’re stuck,
While I’m trying to living out my dreams,
Soul crushed
Baby you’re the air I breathe,
I want it all, wanna give more than I take

[Jay Parmesan]
Moon child
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me
Moon child
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

//listen//

MOON_CHILD (feat. Jay Parmesan & Akira Flay)

https://linktr.ee/ColorParade

This won second place behind https://soundcloud.com/idkcovi - super emotional remix!
Shoutout to: 
https://soundcloud.com/phrazian who has helped me with several songs and took my pea shooter mix and turned it into a monster. He is my Tom Norris

https://soundcloud.com/windoh-music/140-never-had-wind-oh-remix-v23-32bit

https://soundcloud.com/tsuyoshia/duumu-never-had-feat-meggie-york-tsuyoshi-a-remix

Duumu - 'Never Had' (feat. Meggie York) (Color Parade Remix)

we fade // N33T feat. Mizu

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Find My Way Back Home

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