a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 2/30
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In 2020, I lost a close family friend due to COVID-19. The last time I saw him was when he visited my family and me in late 2019. At the time I was studying for exams and didn't give him the time he needed and that was the last time I saw him.
In the past, I lost my grandparents in a similar manner.
'at the end of time' is an attempt to convey how I feel now. All the work did pay off, but at what cost? I could have everything I could ever want but would lose everyone in the process.
It taught me about how unfortunately anyone at any time could disappear, and that I should remember to put these people first and give them the love, time, and care they need.
Everything else in this world is temporary.

at the end of time
The family friend and my grandparents were some of the sweetest people that could ever have existed. They would always encourage me with everything I did, from music to my studies and would always make me feel like I was special.
My paternal grandmother was the last grandparent to live, and she passed away before I got a place at medical school, something that all of my grandparents dreamt of and encouraged me to pursue. At the time of writing this, I have finished my fifth year of medical school, done well in my exams, and won a scholarship, but they're not here to see it.
I wish you could see me now, I know I would've made you proud and I'm sorry I didn't give you more time. If you're out there, wherever you are, I hope you can see what I'm doing. This is all for you and I will be the best I can be for you.

lyrics:
[verse 1]
at what cost did i succeed?
by giving into my own greed

i didn't give the time you need 
and now you're no longer here

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

[verse 2]
i want a way out
i hate how you're not around
i wish you could see me now
i know that i would've made you proud

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

a beautiful, yet hurtful life

at the end of time

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Maybe Its My Time x Realixe

- as I sit here at night its dark and its cold, I'm trying to find my way back home woah oh woah oh oh oh, trying to find my way back. -

Find My Way Back Home

nivviana:
https://soundcloud.com/nivviana
https://twitter.com/nivviana
https://open.spotify.com/artist/0rbfTZ9d5GHrkRN0EO7s5Z

lyrics:
when i'm with you
i can see through
all the hard things
you make me wanna sing

ooh, falling for you, fell for you
ooh, falling for you, fell for you

am i what you want?
what you doing, can i take you out for lunch?
am i what you need?
do i make you feel like how you make me feel?
(2x)

fell for you
you see through all my insecurities
bending truths
you see through who i make myself out to be

what you doing, can i take you out for lunch?
am i what you need?
do i make you feel like how you make me feel?

am i what you want?
when it's over can i hold you in my arms?
am i what you need?
do i make you feel like how you make me feel?

when i'm with you
i can see through
all the hard things
you make me wanna sing

do i make you feel like how you make me feel?

when i'm with you
i can see through
all the hard things
you make me wanna sing

when i'm with you, i feel whole again

im sorry im just daydreaming

falling

falling (ft. nivviana)

Welcome to 3m0t10n.3rr
A system where the heart malfunctions and the mind keeps glitching, leaving fragments of feeling scattered across every memory.

Emotion.Err is a concept album that explores the chaos of internal breakdowns—moments when grief, anger, and numbness collide. Each song is a corrupted file of the self, a raw snapshot of emotions that refuse to process properly. Beneath the distorted beats and fractured melodies are stories of vulnerability, loss, and the struggle to feel in a world that demands you stay composed.

This album isn’t meant to be neat. It’s meant to be experienced.
Because emotions don’t always work the way they should.
Sometimes, they crash.

F!naL_Err0r

Stop Me Falling

sleep deprived vip x puppy love

ly clear, listened to this banger so i had to remix :3

@clearlew

clearlew - overthinking (shameless. remix)

So happy that this is finally here.  This is the first single off my upcoming album with Ophelia, and its something a little different than my usual releases.  I'm so proud of this.  Thank you.

To The Endless Searing Skies, out soon.

Buy/stream

Neverless

https://linktr.ee/ColorParade

This won second place behind https://soundcloud.com/idkcovi - super emotional remix!
Shoutout to: 
https://soundcloud.com/phrazian who has helped me with several songs and took my pea shooter mix and turned it into a monster. He is my Tom Norris

https://soundcloud.com/windoh-music/140-never-had-wind-oh-remix-v23-32bit

https://soundcloud.com/tsuyoshia/duumu-never-had-feat-meggie-york-tsuyoshi-a-remix

Duumu - 'Never Had' (feat. Meggie York) (Color Parade Remix)

we fade // N33T feat. Mizu

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Find My Way Back Home

GOAST