it hurts, the weight on my chest
it burns, the tears that i shed
i want to breathe, but im dead
i cant take it, i'm sawing my head off

i spend my days just trying to figure out whats wrong with me
between the breakdowns and compulsions from the OCD
is borderline a good excuse for when i dont agree
im boiling on the inside, im Discouraged, you would never see

anxiety, throwing up like every morning
cause the moment that my eyes open im retching without warning
always think of suicide and then imagine how they're mourning
but i promise i wont do it, it's just thoughts they're getting boring

it hurts, the weight on my chest
it burns, the tears that i shed
i want to breathe, but im dead
i cant take it, i'm sawing my head off

man im so used to this shit i think i just be getting numb
ill stay attached forever if you show me bit of love
ill follow your whole trail, i be picking up the crumbs
really thinking you wont hurt me, how the fuck i be so dumb

why my stomach always hurting, feel it now writing this verse
im always feeling sick, and my brain always on alert
i never get a break i feel my body always hurt
cant keep up with my head, theres way too many fucking words

it hurts, the weight on my chest
it burns, the tears that i shed
i want to breathe, but im dead
i cant take it, i'm sawing my head off

what's wrong with me

Spotify

whats wrong with me

Oh Well

Produced and performed by king theta
Vocal mix and master by IOF https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic
Art by Love, Max https://twitter.com/lovemaxofficial

Lyrics:
I
I just wanna feel like I could fly
Give me anything that gets me high
I need you in my life cause
Shit's gonna cave in soon
Why?
Why you gotta say that I'm lyin
I swear to fuckin God I'm doin fine
The power's all mine but
Shit's gonna cave in soon

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

I got everything that I thought I wanted
But it didn't work

She said "lose
The fake personality you use"
Spent too many nights pourin Goose
So easy justifying getting loose
Attention is distraction from the noose
Sorry, not sorry for my ego
The king threw the old me out the window
I know there's no way home

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Keep fillin me up
With your love and affection
And I'll spill it right out
Call it self-protection

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Wish I Could Start Over

Lie Again Ft. Yesterday & Moonlet (prod. Yung Flex) out on spotify

lets not have the only time i see u be a graveyard (prod. boyfifty)

Every day without you seems
like such a waste and I’m afraid that I’m not ever gonna be the same
and everyday I’m so ashamed
to let them see what we’ve become and how it’s killing me
lately everybody asks where I’ve been
I’ve been doing my best to keep quiet
in my room missing you oh they’re lying
they don’t care they just can’t take the silence
lately everybody asks where I’ve been
I’ve been doing my best to keep quiet
In my room missing you and I’m trying 
so hard to restart but I’m finding that 

Everyday without you seems
like such a waste and I’m afraid that I’m not ever gonna be the same
everyday I’m so ashamed
to let them see what we’ve become and how it’s killing me

sick of spending every second every day
wishing that you’d come back or say something
everybody always wants something from me except for you and it’s so confusing 
sick of spending every moment every night remembering when you’d come over like it was just yesterday but who am I kidding 
did it to myself and there’s no forgetting

every day (prod. neek)

could have been

Small editing to get it on for free    ; )

Nothing, Nowhere - Reminiscer

No Strings on Me (prod. 4evrgone x caspr)

"I gave you everything you ever wanted but you ended up closing the door" - van

SuiSai: @sushisai
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @tothegood
Artwork: @suicideoutside (on twitter)

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai”

Lyrics-

When you say me you love me, it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I’m crying on the concrete. I don’t have strength to get up off the floor 

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again 

Crashing down on my parade
You let me love till you were bored of the game 
Open hearts and shoddy flames
You let me burn in the love that we made 

SuiSai- 
That touch of yours left cinders
Trails of your heart set a flame
Lit like embers
Of our past
Screeching stop sounds like thunder
You were my lightning
Filled my clouds with your patterns
Made the world disappear 
liked it better
Then you left me here
To the forces of the weather
Cause the cold fronts near
But I swear id never let it
Change the way that I feel

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai (Prod. Tothegood)

staring at the ceiling where did things go wrong
searching for a reason jokes on you they're gone

formication don't feel right
that shit keeps me up at night
maybe im just losing my mind
or maybe i just need some rest
a quiet place, a different bed
and fuck it if i leave i won't come back

so go watch me burn let me bleed till im dead and gone
till there's nothing left but 'here lies' and my graves been dug
i'll still wait for you counting days moving one by one
till there's nothing left but 'here lies' and 'goodbye, so long'

im so sick of isolation im so sick of being sick
down myself another bottle grab the bong and fucken rip
you ain't ever had the feeling like your bones are caving in
the voices contradict my doings guess my times just running thin

so go watch me burn let me bleed till im dead and gone
till there's nothing left but 'here lies' and my graves been dug
i'll still wait for you counting days moving one by one
till there's nothing left but 'here lies' and 'goodbye, so long'

Nothing, Nowhere - Reminiscer

GRA/ITY