Wh1te W0lf x s0cliché - Jouhatsu (prod. justletmedie)

From the Deluxe edition of "Outsider"
https://www.linktr.ee/chrisrain

BORN ALONE (Prod. TunnABeatz)

Thank You For Everything

I'm breaking apart as we go
I've never seen down this road
As the cracks are seeping in
Please, help me within
Maybe it's all  over my head
Feeling like this is the darkest of dread
That I cannot escape
Trade my life if I could save you

What have I done, who have I become
Staring right back at the edge of the gun
What if I stay, look the other way
Saving myself at the end of my days
But know, this ain't the end
Fill my heart with love and suspense
Where were you when I tried

cast your stones, they dont hurt
i’m here at the stake where i like to burn

and it seems like a problem
im drinking this solvent
to fight off my demons
though i want to call it
too much of an addict
a sick alcoholic
i live in disease
Because there’s no cure

wounded wasted
hating this basement
the change in your faces
dont tell me i’m pure
i fought angels
through pleasures and mangers
i wanted the dangers
and i was so sure

What have I done, who have I become
Staring right back at the edge of the gun
What if I stay, look the other way
Saving myself at the end of my days
But know, this ain't the end
Fill my heart with love and suspense
Where were you when I tried

Beautiful Disguise ft. s0cliché

last time

APATHETIC (with Dante X & Shadead)

love is conditional when its from you

featuring @heartbreakp
produced by lil chick

[lyrics]
Love is conditional when it’s from you 
I must have missed it you saying you changed 
You playing the victim because you have to
Only point of view you wanna bring is true pain 
That’s a damn shame 
I thought you would help 
Turns out I was wrong and so I left you to yourself 
When the plans changed 
You put me through hell 
Now I can take the blame cause you can’t put it on yourself

Said Hate is conditional when it’s been Been deserved And love turns to fiction when every bridge gets burned 
Pain is medicinal every scar I’ve earned 
I’ll be the criminal if it’s on my terms 
But you know me better
I know that nothings forever 
These days I’m stuck in my head like I been changing the weather
See emotions cut off and severed
I don’t wanna change for whoever
Bring it back I need to recenter
Sometimes I won’t lie

I’m sick of fighting so I quit 
I took the drugs I gave you back so I can trip
Pain inside I smile I can’t let you know I slipped
I can’t give the satisfaction poison dripping from my lips 
Conversation left me damaged after all the trust I give 
Maybe it’s been a while 
I’m good with my only child 
My son here my love i’m happy watching him he runs around 
Learn to keep the family close, not my family you bugging out 
You became my only home, can’t be here if you not around


Love is conditional when it’s from you 
I must have missed it you saying you changed 
You play the victim because you have to 
Only point of view you wanna bring is true pain 
That’s a damn shame 
I thought you would help 
Turns out I was wrong and so I left you to yourself 
When the plans changed 
You put me through hell 
Now I can take the blame cause you can’t put it on yourself

Said Hate is conditional when it’s been Been deserved And love turns to fiction when every bridge gets burned 
Pain is medicinal every scar I’ve earned 
I’ll be the criminal if it’s on my terms

unconditional

stream

unconditional (ft. heartbreakP)

love me LOLL

"You do not live long without getting some scars

Life can feel like a fog, no matter who you are.

That means we are all lost & wandering at some point"

-Dxn Monrowe 

Don Monrowe - Scars in the Fog - Empty Room

Music Video

☆ medicine (prod. nicolas sales) ☆

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LYRICS

RIVILIN:

Shaking in your hand, not it won’t stop
Panic attacks seem to reside in your blood
What’s it like when you lose touch
Waking in your bed, im the failure that you couldn’t just love

Flicking your ash on my cheek, 
I don’t want this I don’t want
Cutting me down so deep
I feel like im just not enough

lip tremble eyes struggle just to focus now
weighing on my conscious I just feel like im about to drown
covering my ears, the water rises
your voice still blocks the horizon

I see your ghost in my dreams
explaining why you just leave
depression got too much
and you just had to block out the noise


$LOTHBOI:

Drown in pain
Drown in hate

I feel the pain
All in me

Shallow breaths
Steal my life lately
Tight my chest the
Panic hates me

Panicked thoughts all in my head yeah
Memories replaying dread man
How can I be expected
To live this life, shit this aint it

2nd verse

Manic depression
My body be trembling

Tight in my chest
I ain’t think I’mma make it

Gasping for breath
Cuz these demons gun take it

Fighting for life
But I’m breaking to pieces

Cry through my days
Why do I hate me

I’m not okay
My mind is crazy

What can I say
I’m feeling hazy

Why do I hate me
I’m tryna save me

Burning my skin just to forget the pain
Seeded in memories inside my brain
Tryna forget my collection of bad days
Inside my head the trauma did some damage

Sloth ain’t the same he’s been changed from the pain
and bet Rivilin’s trauma still haunting his days
We fight past our memories living in pain
but we’re Void of the happiness we lost that day

Not Enough (Ft. $LOTHBOI)

• Produced by APT. 102 - @apt-102
• Mixed by me
• Mastered by Sebastian Metzner
• Cover art design by me, photo by William Tran

• lyrics:

with the microphone as my medicine, 
all this sad shit as my epithet 
in a big room with the elephant, 
is my flow still fuckin’ relevant?

..

i’ll still do it for the hell of it, 
yeah, 
newsflash I’m still gettin it,
it’s a tuesday, I’m still gettin lit,
grip that paper like a paperclip...

i might come by for a while before i dip, yeah
but If it ain’t bout a check i’ll call it quits, yeah
got too much on my mind, i’m hittin' licks,
got too much goin on to give a fuck about a bitch, yeah...

real quick, that’s a lesson, 
you take that L,
it’s a blessing, 
you won’t learn shit with that flexing,
you won’t earn shit till you messin’ up, 
bounce back, 
smoke that ounce up, 
every time you pick that pen up, 
get dark thoughts
then i get buck,
don’t give a fuck

(bounce back, 
smoke that ounce up, 
every time you pick that pen up, 
get dark thoughts,
then i...)

i can’t buy more time,
i bite my tongue and wait...
i can’t make make you mine 
until you think you hate me...

imma shine but not before you break me...
that’s what I said back then, 
won’t you call me back?

i might come by for a while before i dip, yeah
but If it ain’t bout a check i’ll call it quits, yeah
girl i got you on my mind, so i get lit, yeah
you’ll be the last thing i see before i slip...

x

APATHETIC (with Dante X & Shadead)

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