tired and emotional
fried and unapproachable
the world really didn’t do its part
they spawned you in pressed space to start

linking chains and thinking brains
waking up in last nights pain
my head feels full and under pressure
i’ll fix it with whatever pills are hid in the dresser

i feel like an intruder on the world
im a boring useless stupid girl
i just want to say
since im always in your way
nothing really matters
when your right or wrong you’ll still get shattered

ohhhoo
oohhhhooo

you say i make your bad days worse
and my own guilt will be my curse
its hard to watch you not get better
when we’re both chasing thrills and pleasure

your hologram is in my dreams
im screaming baby stay with me
dont freak out,
but everybody has their doubts
im slowly losing everyone
cause im a social suicide gun
Oh Yeah!
* gun shot s*

my tongue went off in front of everyone
now i cant remember who i said i was
i gave you all my love
now my tears flow out like mud
you said i hate you and i hate your love

still sleeping
still dreaming
still in love
im still in love 
still sleeping
still dreaming
still in love
im still in love

Still Dreaming

(rejected song from happy smile)

i laughed when i saw what you left me for
the same blonde cunt that you called a whore 
i guess shes hot, and pretty cool too
i guess im not, really over you

you hurt every girl
in your life
your match is a man
and was never a wife
she looks so good
by your side
i’ll kill us all
triple homicide

so like you said
you used her up
you just like to smoke
her weed and fuck

im sure she feels
really good about that
your ego is huge
like a childish brat

i didnt cheat
i didnt lie
i didnt talk
to any other guys
and out of rage
you got engaged
let her suck your dick
while i’m on stage

you love yourself more
then i ever could
i knew when you swore
that you never would
could tell by your crossed fingers
just wanted to linger
while no one understood

so please, when you leave
dont smile at me
you’ll never get what you want
cause shes not what you need
and you taught me to be
a little less fun
cause you lied to me
and said that i was the one
no one is here
to listen to you
god im so glad
that we never screwed
no one really cares
about what you say
no one really cares
but your fiance

you know what you need
you need some dick
seeing you on your knees
yeah that would be sick

so like you said
she gaslights you
im suprised she went back to you
cause you make her sad
you make everybody mad
and the songs you wrote about me 
were really fucking bad

cause you said you loved me
like you love your ma
glad i wont see
what she must’ve saw
and everyone wants loving
i thought we were something
the things you used to draw

i had a dream
that soon i would be
with the right one
and a lot less lonely
if you want some pain
go with the grain
and have everything your way

Triple Homicide

lyrics:

this is a bad track
listen if you want to hear shit talk
straight from the ass crack
but i have to tell em
If you hate me not my fault
Sucking dick is not assault
I wont get sober, not quitter
cause I relapse by default

but hey I know you had a bad day
I’ll meet you halfway
lalalalalalalalala
there’s nothing you bitches can say
ugly ass stripper with no fucking education
We tap each others shoulders and say that’s so raven

Im taking shots and writing jots and plugging watts in the wall
I’m writing down my horny thoughts and drinking shitty alcohol
so take your shot I’ll entertain it,
reinterpret it pervertedly 
these bitches love asking questions
what the fuck is a gaburgably?

im a shotgun in your mouth
swishin around
you love to gurgle me
all my exes still trying to murder me
i lost em, but i can take ten times the pain i caused them
i couldn’t fix him honestly cause i’m the fucking problem
oh god thats a hyperbole
you got some nerve like 
i laugh so hard its hurting me 
and while your at it can you suck it while your jerking me 
off, cause im barely legal baby
and it’s so easy to get turned on (oh)
where is that girl (where is that girl)
i used to be (I used to be)
i killed myself
just so we could meet

so what you wanted
what you wanted
what you wanted
what you wanted to do
was take bite
and take a picture
then you started to chew
i'm getting tired
getting tired
getting tired of you
so here's a clue (heads up)
cause im getting (fed up)

all your talking
and your stalking
and you're dropping your shoe
so i'm plotting
and i'm stopping
that's all i gotta do
you better keep your camera steady
cause i'm ready for you
so here's a quick (heads up)
cause my hammer (heads up)


oh yeah i told you so
i told you long ago
and if you gotta tell me something i don't wanna know
you know i love you though
i guess i kinda don't
but i can still pretend i like it when you tell me, no?
oh yeah i told you so
i told you that you’d go
you said you wanna take it take it take it  take it slow
oh yeah i told you so
i fucking knew it bro
oh

so what you wanted
what you wanted
what you wanted
what you thought you could do
was spend the night
and take a picture
like theres something to prove
i'm getting tired
getting tired
getting tired of you
so here's a clue (heads up)
cause im getting (fed up)


why you jockin
why you jockin
why you jockin on me
bitch are you talking
are you talking
you still talking to me?
i'm appalling
and i'm balling
Cause i'm causing the beef
so while you eat
(heads up)
bitch can you see
(heads up)

Heads Up

How'd you make me feel so much
Was any of it real? Oh well
It doesn't matter nothing can be done
Serves me right for trusting anyone
When you were alone with me
You said you felt at home and free
I see now that I'm sinking that you changed
What the hell was i even thinking, anyways

(Oooo)

Birdbath
Don't you know it hurt bad
You lied about what we had
If you want what you can't have
Don't just turn your back
You smile when you're singing my way
I guess you want a blonde girl that obeys
Waking up and thinking you're still here
But you left me in a heartbeat, oh dear
You said that I haunt you
Didn't think that you'd get caught, dude
But if you think I still want you
You're out of your mind, too

(Oooo)

Birdbath
Don't you know it hurt bad
You lied about what we had
I've already learned that I wont forget your laugh
We could have split sensibly
I'll perform your necropsy
You lost them, you lost me
Fuck your friends, and Zoe
You tried to turn them on me
You're reeking of jealousy
You'll see, They'll all see, Everybody
I loved overzealously
Gave you my heart selflessly
You'll see legacy, I don't need chemistry
I should have known he would cheat
Only kissed me in in discreet
Went back to her on one knee
"Sorry babe, marry me?"

Birdbath
Don't you know it hurt bad
One day you'll have to learn that
If you want what we once had
Don't come crawling back

Is that why they call you that
Flying and smiling back
Cause once you've taken me back
You can't just leave me like that
And I just wanted to say
That almost every day
I feel you've taken away
My innocence, thats okay

I've spent a long time on you
Figuring out why you do
The things you still used to do
Why do you think that I'm so stupid

I know you told your friends to text me
Do you just expect me to get really scared?
You know that shit doesn't affect me, I just think its weird
Couldn't hurt more then when you left me
And then reappeared

Don't hate me cause the truth came out
You should hate your own damn mouth
Thats the only thing thats foul
Hope you learned your lesson now
Everything comes back around
Everything you hid was found
Why am I so stupid
Why am I so stupid

Birdbath

I sent you love letters today
Why don't you open them
And read what they say
I know you said stop sending me letters
(Stop sending me letters)
I'll stop as I forget to remember

I don't know why Im not allowed
I cant do anything when you're not around
You said "I have to walk my fish"
I thought you said the other day that it drowned bitch

You caused me such unfathomable pain
And you never even told me your real name
And tried to completely ruin mine
By accusing me of crime
Boy all you do is lie

I guess I cant keep it together
Because you promised me you'd be here forever
Now that I know thats what they all say (all say)
I really think that you should open my letter

Its just so hard to start all over (so fucking over)
The highest high and then you're forced to be sober
Why did you try to fuck me over (it's never over)
Instead of reaching out and getting some closure

You caused me such unfathomable pain
And you never even told me your real name
And tried to completely ruin mine
By accusing me of crime
Boy all you do is lie

It's sad, what you do
After everything we've been through
Good thing I had proof
Haha, Idiot

You caused me such unfathomable pain
And you never even told me your real name
And tried to completely ruin mine
By accusing me of crime
Boy all you do is lie

Unfathomable Pain

She walks with his lock
I came late with a broken clock
Shoes wet and undead
A fire on the right side of my head
From too much thinking
I hate nights when I'm not drinking
It's too late to be cool
Im dumb, and you're cruel

My eyes grow even wider
While I watch you inside her
But I am just a reminder
That you are my provider

So I'm sitting legs swinging
Legs  hanging on the dock
And the feds come by
They just wanna have a talk
What is thistle on the rug
What is dandy on the desk
What I want a little love
Does it make me wanna check
Right behind that wall
Does it matter at all
When I'm lying in the middle of an empty hall
So I'm like you said
Shoulda' stayed in bed
Should have locked you in
Should've made you sin

But I am just a reminder
You think of while inside her
When I do everything to find her
She's hiding in plain sight
And she's right next to my lighter

I can't find my wedding ring
You don't notice anything
When you send a note
It goes right through the fuzzy hills
And reaps my will
It reads, It knows that it will
It will
It will
It will
It will
(Aaaa)
(Just a reminder you think of while inside her)
(I do everything to find her)
(Right next to my lighter)

Inside Her

(A-a-a)

I loved you
Longer then you knew my name
It's such predictable shame
I should've known
That I cannot bestow
But how could anybody know
That they would see their fate
The time and place and exact date
I tried to warn you
But it was far too late, besides
How could anybody wait that long
A thousand songs I wrote to free myself
Oh god
It feels so wrong
To admit that you are long gone

And how could you
Thought I knew you
Must have misunderstood you
I stand up, been fed up
And hit my head on the way up
Are you sorry?
Just say it , are we?
Cause I'll kill myself at your party
We could of made up
But I stayed up
Until the sun was up so I could tell you
I loved you
Longer then you knew my name
It's such predictable shame
I should've known
That I cannot bestow.
But how could anybody know
That they would see their fate
The time and place and exact date
I tried to warn you but it was far too late, besides
How could anybody wait that long
A thousand songs I wrote to free myself
Oh god
It feels so wrong
To admit we don't belong

We just don't belong
We just don't belong
We just don't belong
We just don't belong
We just don't belong
We just don't belong
We just don't belong

But I loved you
Longer then you knew my name
It's such predictable shame
I should've known
That I cannot bestow
But how could anybody know
That they would see their fate
The time and place and exact date
I tried to warn you
But it was far too late, besides
How could anybody wait that long
A thousand songs I wrote to free myself
Oh god
It feels so wrong
To admit we don't belong

Predictable Shame

i been thinking u the right girl

Hey have you guys heard about snail man 
He was just right over there man
I see him everywhere And  im not a schizophrenic
 
Cause once you’re fucking snail pilled
It can never be cancelled
You’ll see him every where and
When you scream he will stand still

Snail man just shot the Home Depot
Snail man just bombed a casino
Snail man doesn’t have a big ego
Because there’s not many people
 half man 
half snail 
6 feet to scale
Snail mans not frail
He's been to jail

Snail man
Snail man 
Snail man
Snail man
Snail man
 Snail man
Is fucking real
Snail man
Snail man 
Snail man
Snail man
Snail man 
Snail man
Made a law appeal

Snail man  doesn’t listen to words
Lives off the grid
And eat shrubs and herbs

Its snail man call 911
theres a green guy with a gun

Snail man doesn’t care about us 
snail man doesn’t have a job
Snail man doesn’t have a knife
Snail man doesn’t have a life

but they say Im crazy,  they don’t believe me  I know I saw it
I know I called him
 He spawned 
He crawled  
he’s the so called
Mr salt bald
Mr slime fraud
He’s loved and awed
He’s been appalled
He’s been abroad
And he’s been real all along

(everyone thinks im fucking crazy! la la la la bark bark bark)
Never touch him
 never speak foul 
he’ll say gotcha , see you in hell 
Any offer
Anyone in sight
Once I caught him
It was late at night
 so I called his name
And he went away
And since that day
I tried spread his ways

Snail man
Snail man 
Snail man
Snail man
Snail man
 Snail man
Is fucking real
Snail man
Snail man 
Snail man
Snail man
Snail man
 Snail man
Made a law appeal
Snail man  Doesn’t listen to words
Lives off the grid
And eat shrubs and herbs

Its snail man call 911
theres a green guy with a gun

Snail man
Snail man 
Snail man
Snail man
Snail man
 Snail man
Is fucking real
Snail man
Snail man 
Snail man
Snail man
Snail man
 Snail man
Made a law appeal
Snail man  Doesn’t listen to words
Lives off the grid
And eat shrubs and herbs

Its snail man call 911
theres a green guy with a gun

Snail Man

warmest thanks to @gezebellegaburgably for the beautiful vocals

lyrics:
i’m waking up to stars
the gypsies came and we travelled far
we danced and sang and spun until we bled

with my fingers numb,
count my heart beats to the beat of the drum
no one’s gonna save you when things get glum

i’ll wait behind
throw my body off a cliff
i don’t know how you live like this

blind, sleep deprived
i can’t find my morning star,
we’ve all forgotten who we are

we got lost in the creek
no one around, all fickle and weak
i wanted meaning, i want answers soon

he got shot in the head
i’ve wandered along, but i’m already dead
i’m already dead

i’ll wait behind
throw my body off a cliff
i don’t know how you live like this

blind, sleep deprived
i can’t find my morning star,
we’ve all forgotten who we are

(gezebelle)
i can't do this anymore, i can't fuck these stupid whores
you don't think you've made mistakes but it's time you've known your place
everything you do is fake, you lie just to exaggerate, manipulate without mistake and put yourself in other's pain
you always go on and on, always leading me on, going against yourself self-loathing carousel, constantly measuring, always remembering, breaking and entering, leave you surrendering

(the stars don’t care about you at all
i don’t wanna answer when you call
my morning star is going, i can’t find my hope its showing
everybody says we can live another day
if we just drink our lives away
i don’t know what you’re thinking, why isn’t anybody speaking)

Predictable Shame

GEZEBELLE GABURGABLY