ft @ripkais :)
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ENGALAND

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink
I only did it cause i had to
ur not who I think
and all my friends were tryna warn me
But I’m stupid as shit
i don’t know how id ever trust you
look what u did
i heard ur better off without me
I’ve got nothing to give

tell me what it cost me
im sinking in my body
memories floodin in of how I fkn lost me
I was never really here you can feel it
feel more claustrophobic the lower the ceiling

if you really don’t wanna talk to me don’t talk to me
know the only problem is the fkn honesty
I caught the leakin water drippin from your balcony
words cant fix this
and I just rly wanna stop fearin
the noises in my ceilin
im breathin real heavy
im anxious and im breakin
mistaken for a bad dream
I just want you happy,
but you wanna leave me in the car
body laid out in the backseat

ive had enough of it
let me out
ur turning love into a punishment
u let me drown
i swear were only arguing
she'll come around
i swear its so embarrassing
u let me down

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink

sink ft. kais

lyrics:

we sang this song in the shower too many months back
a memory and an hour ill never get back
pour me up in this cup cause thats a quick hack
for erasing these flashes my brain will still track

told you if it didnt work, youd be all my songs
told you im obsessed you didnt see it you were dead wrong
now im in this room just sipping steady so im headstrong
its my medication and its cheap id rather be gone

cause he’s touching your hair, got his hand on your hips
and he looks in your eyes, got your taste on his lips
so now im trying to sleep, but this is all i can see
im tryna get so fucked up, somebody hand me the bleach

im tryna bury myself, im tryna burn through my mind
i wanna black out the vision of you in bed every night
like is he better than me, and does he do what i dont
im sure youre glad as can be, while i just lay here and smoke

i just lay here and smoke
i just lay here and smoke

bacardi on the floor always spill some
soak it with my skin just to feel sumn
my night aint even started its a killer one
im faded out my mind and im not even done

i wanted to end it, i wanted to go back
i wanted to do it all over the way that it was when i knew that
nothing was changing, we all stay the same please
dont forget me forget it its okay im drunk on the daily

cause he’s touching your hair, got his hand on your hips
and he looks in your eyes, got your taste on his lips
so now im trying to sleep, but this is all i can see
im tryna get so fucked up, somebody hand me the bleach

im tryna bury myself, im tryna burn through my mind
i wanna black out the vision of you in bed every night
like is he better than me, and does he do what i dont
im sure youre glad as can be, while i just throw up the most

ive ever seen
now im seeing green
now its turning to black
ill just lay on my back

Obsessed

obsessed

prod me
guitar by Morgan Cheadle

let me go
this place reminds me of what we once called home
walkin this empty road
the path before mes left me nowhere to go 

everything that i see
and all the air that i breathe could
never even amount to the way we used to be no  

wakin up in your sheets
every day is so exhuasting but
ill do it for you i dont care about me still

its like i never even mattered
put my fist into a mirror just to watch it shatter
every day i eat my life away im only getting fatter
and the soul i left behind is begging me "do somethin about it"
i dont know how  
i dont even know where to start
its like the weight upon my shoulders keeps me off of the charts
its gettin sickening
try to do the things that i love but deep down
theyre only pulling strings away from my heart

let me go
this place reminds me of what we once called home
walkin this empty road
the path before mes left me nowhere to go 

everything that i see
and all the air that i breathe could (let me go)
never even amount to the way we used to be no
(this place reminds me of what we once called home)

wakin up in your sheets
every day is so exhuasting but (walkin this empty road)
ill do it for you i dont care about me still
(the path before mes left me nowhere to go)

chapter II: a reminder of home

helloooo prod me hope u like :)

lyrics:
everybody wanna claim that they know but they don't
so i just pay no mind
everybody wanna say they're in love
but they don't have a clue what that's like
i'm just tryna find a way i can cope
take the blade
take the rope
take the dive
everybody wanna say they're alone 
til they are and they know what my life's like

i look in the mirror only feeling i get is disgust
i don't think i'll ever be somebody anyone can trust
i don't think i'll ever find somebody i can love
take another piece of me
i know you're eating me alive
have some decency
god dammit
this isn't how i planned it
tell me something new
tell me i'm being dramatic
i dare you

maybe i
was in the wrong the other time
but i can't decide
if i should go on with my life
or if i should mourn love lost
but i cannot bear that cost
guess that i am scared to fall in love another time
but with you maybe i will have to try
i'm aware that i am a victim of my pride
but with you i feel like i'll never die

i look in the mirror only feeling i get is disgust
i don't think i'll ever be somebody anyone can trust
i don't think i'll ever find somebody i can love
take another piece of me
i know you're eating me alive
have some decency
god dammit
this isn't how i planned it
tell me something new
tell me i'm being dramatic
i dare you

somebody, anybody

i think i hate everything that i ever loved
now that the fire snuffed
baby im packing up boxes of things that you gave me
and things that im running from

but "baby" ain't "baby" no more
cause im out on my own and im feeling numb
turn it up loud on my speakers
and lay on the floor 'til i feel the drums

i cannot drink, i cannot smoke
the blood from ym vomit keep burning my throat
im tryna get by but my heart beating slow
and if i ever left i know no one would know

sometimes i find myself grabbing my phone
every time that i be way too alone
but then i just drop it cause im at the bottom already
no point now in making it known

its all gonna be okay real soon
real soon

i feel abandoned, cause im a burden
maybe im fucked up, i know that for certain
got a life sentence now this is the verdict
death penalty, to the void im returning
im hoping to God that i dont end up burning
im doing my best but im just really hurting
i just need a break for a sec now im cursing
i scream at myself with these insults im hurling

im losing myself, im losing my brains
im losing the lifeforce that course through my veins
feel like my body is wrapped up in chains
tape on my mouth so they think im okay

dont even know who i am in this verse
i feel too much, now im blessed with a curse
its just like a nightmare but way fucking worse
and the only way out is the back of a hearse

sinking

written, recorded, produced by me </3

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LYRICS:
“What’re you gonna do five years from now, what are you gonna make out of your life?”
“I’ll probably be dead in five years from now”
“What do you thinks gonna happen to you in ten years, what’re you gonna be doing?”
“I’ll be dead in ten years. I’ll be dead in five”
“Thats kinda sad don’t you think?”
“No”
“I’m not happy here”
“Sooner I go the better as far as I’m concerned, really”
“I don’t, I don’t live a happy life”

Yung Trech in a Maybach 
Brandy as far as I can see

Condemn me
Fell down my well 
You’re above it
Like “don’t tempt me”
Could never wait to kick on my bucket
Crown empty
Like maybe Jill was right
Jack-knife me
So baby tell your new boy all about me!
“He fucked up his twenties digging graves so proudly!”
Resurrected dead in my head just to get to thirty 
I just might be

But thats how it goes I guess
When you’re degenerated
A scumbag who tried his best
Shit

(He’s back from the dead)

Every day I wake up just to get faded
Fuck reality when you’re isolated
Damage to my brain broke the barricade in me
And now my third eye sees

Cause none of you fucks can touch me
I’m murdering beats like Jeff and Bundy
I’m hopping on feats. 
Your bitch, she love me
She singing my rhymes 
Hymns for the dead

Yung Trech in a Maybach 
Brandy 
Yung Trech in a Maybach 
Brandy
Yung Trech in a Maybach 
Brandy as far as I can see

Condemn me
Fell down my well 
You’re above it
Like “don’t tempt me”
Could never wait to kick on my bucket
Crown empty
Like maybe Jill was right
Jack-knife me
So baby tell your new boy all about me!
“He fucked up his twenties digging graves so proudly!”
Resurrected dead in my head just to get to thirty 
I just might be

So baby tell your new boy all about me!
“He fucked up his 20s digging graves so proudly!”
(2x)

Humiliation Ritual

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@killedmyself

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

all my life i felt worthless
i took my heart and i purged it
never comin up to the surface

thought that you would be worth it
i thought that you was perfect
tell me what'd i do to deserve this?

take me back,
take me back to the real world
take me back,
take me back to when i couldn't feel

rip my heart straight from my ribcage
i've been led astray from the good place
i've ran out of luck where did my good days go
the place in which i reside no longer feels like home

20 years have caught up wit me n jus fucked up my mental
tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

real world

real world (killedmyself)

(ghostbxy)
I already know that were not gonna make it
You’ve been fucking around with them so shameless
You’re the reason why our love is tainted 
Do you think me dumb?
Do you think me brainless?

I’m always trying my best
But you’re lying 
Stabbing knives in my chest 
So I’ll go 

You're not different
You're just like them
Veins were filled with toxin
That's how you lured me in

You might be poison ivy with the way you go invite me into your Toxic life and its fucking constant fighting

Cause you don't want to admit the truth
Burning all that smells proof 
Ashes stay like scent infused
Clothing that I bought for you

Giving my all but you don't give a fuck
Breaking my bones while you're breaking my heart
Telling me that this is all my fault

(halfhearted)
You don't know what you do to me
I don't think you ever will
Remember that night
You said I won't drive
I've been behind the wheel
Crossing the lines that I said I won't cross
???
???
You walked out the door
Why it take you so long

And I'm stuck in my head with no mission
Remember in school I would get you detention
Used to fall asleep, now I'm up all night
I can't dream
This is for the kid that I was
Headphones on in the back of the bus
Can't feel shit cause a knife in my gut
Let me live girl, I've had enough

(ghostbxy)
I’m always trying my best
But you’re lying 
Stabbing knives in my chest 
So I’ll go

A Sorrowful Heart w/ halfhearted

prod. sorrow bringer <3

Lyrics:

guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
she give me brain cuz
she just wanna taste mine
yea!
i could never take sides
guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
i've told less shit to my mom than my mic
yea!
guess i'll cut ties

you're dodging my messages fuck you i'll erase it
back to the board ye we back to the basics
you lost me your value and i lost my patience >:(
love are you deaf can you hear what i'm saying
fuck it you win i'm so done with the chases
was so codependent i'm embarassed to say it
but now i feel like i'm a god in the making
so watch from her arms while i exit my caging.

watch from her arms while i exit my caging
watch from her arms while i exit my caging
watch from her arms while i exit my caging
watch from her arms while i exit my caging

guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
she give me brain cuz
she just wanna taste mine
yea!
i could never take sides
guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
i've told less shit to my mom than my mic
yea!
guess i'll cut ties

paragraph guy (sorrowbringer)

i wont last
push the gas
keep on goin hit the max
will i crash
hope i crash
smash the dash and break the glass

she dont want me 
she dont love me
she just dont wanna be lonely

she dont trust me
she dont know me
so im always feeling lonely

i wanna walk around the world to find some inner peace
i suffer in the sun, takin all my energy
leaving just the brittle bones to benefit all the growin seeds
i aint ever ask for help, dont expect that shit from me

fuck what i feel
numb that shit up with a pill huh
hands are shakin fast
why the fuck cant i stay still huh

i wanna kill 
these emotions 
are they real cause
what is their deal
i cant touch but i can feel them

yeah i am not okay
lose my temper way too often
i gotta lot of fucked up thoughts
you'll hardly see me talking
i dont want to be the person that they always watching
dig myself a grave and hop into a coffin

really young
but feelin old
feel these cracks up in my bones
heavy chest with 20 holes
dont tell me life is wonderful

i aint need nobody else
did this shit all by myself
i dont wanna burn in hell
but at this rate i might as well

fuck what i feel
numb that shit up with a pill huh
hands are shakin fast
why the fuck cant i stay still huh

i wanna kill 
these emotions 
are they real cause
what is their deal
i cant touch but i can feel them

Restart (Nvki)

ghostbxy