Why u make tha album art different on apple music tho. 🤔

Collabed on this beat with @gaia-zambon-778002978

Lyrics:
so i never wanna leave my bed, i stay lost up in my head
please do not disturb me you could wake me when im fuckin dead
guess im giving up thats why you always gettin left on read
dont talk to me dont hit me up im busy tryna get my bread

dont take my pulse cause i flatlined
i know youll leave just like last time
put on a show like its halftime
like im a poet but i cant rhyme

you never heard a flow so slow, guess ive given up completely but im vibin on the low, i dont got no energy for nothin keep your fuckin hoe, she be slidin in my DMs im depressed but she dont know

said she thought its just persona
said she thought it was an act
said she thought that id be happy cause im piling up these racks
said she plays all of my songs
said she listens to my tracks
said she wanna save me now before im never coming back

Shedontknow

shedontknow (prod. Gaia & HKFiftyOne)

Biteki AMV: https://youtu.be/aMOX-qUEWMw
prod. farber
this 1 been in the works for a while 🖤
i hope some of you find relation & or clarity.
ft. @user-411557229

[autumn]
so seems you took away my breath
feels a little off where do i begin 
like oh~
why’d i get so bent 
starting to believe that i’m a bit obsessed
like oh~

cause i’ve always really wanted space
now i just wanna see your face
(see your face)

girl i want this bad
i told you that
i’m not just sad
my world’s been plaid

hello?
praying you’d pick up the phone 
how’d it go?
being on your god damn own

so seems you took away my breath
feels a little off where do i begin 
like oh~
why’d i get so bent 
starting to believe that i’m a bit obsessed
like oh~

[not home.]
they wanna be me
she gonna leave me
for somebody new
off of the shrooms
cold in my room 
lost in the ceiling
look at the moon

[autumn & not home.] 
(2x)
look at my face when you’re talking
(when you’re talking)
i get bored so i smoke now i’m coughing
(bitch i’m coughing)
all the friends at the house 
now i’m yawning
(what the fuck bitch)
they be chasing all the
shit up in my pockets

obsessed w/ not home. [prod. farber]

Disseminate explores the slow spread of psychological collapse, where clarity erodes, dissociation takes hold and thought becomes trapped in a repeating cycle. The song captures the feeling of watching illumination fade while fear and exhaustion multiply, turning existence into endurance rather than escape. Gritty, confrontational, and unfiltered, Disseminate is a reflection of surviving inside repetition when defeat feels inevitable but surrender never comes.

Disseminate

LEFT INSIDE

lyrics:
my eyes r wide open
hearts wired shut
dis 40's for hopin
N the other is just to numb the cuts

i keep my water warm 
in case i cut my wrists, hoe
just want you to b informed
that i wont feel that shit flow

give a thanks to all my demons 
that i conjured up
all their screamin
finally got me to loosen up
chrome on my veins
time to let that shit slip
babe your smeared makeup
aint gonna save shit

life gets a kick
makin me a joke
its like im the bitch
God trynna spit n choke
born in the suburbs 
but raised dirt broke
im comfy in the gutters 
but wanna live in the reapers home

keep tweakin off the lies u spun
to help u cope off the things u done
when u see me bein lowered in the sun
u cant save me none 
too late to show ur smeared makeup 

my eyes r wide open
hearts wired shut
dis 40's for hopin
N the other is just to numb the cuts

i keep my water warm 
in case i cut my wrists, hoe
just want you to b informed
that i wont feel that shit flow

give a thanks to all my demons 
that i conjured up
all their screamin
finally got me to loosen up
chrome on my veins
time to let that shit slip
babe your smeared makeup
aint gonna save shit

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smeared makeup (prod.HXRXKILLER)

🖤🖤🖤
prod. metlast

Lyrics: 
passed time cuts right through my skin 
fifty-one blades cut lines in my skin 
sirens call sweet lies with a death grin (and i'm drowning here with you) 
dull blades run right through my heart 
fifty-one rays of moonlight, black art 
take your last breath, find a hole you can lay in 
(like a sad empty casket) 

carving your headstone, quick cause your dads home  
crashing funerals in all white 
flowers by your name, don't cry we're the same girl 
mournings not the same in daylight 

spending every night alone you're screaming through the telephone 
i don't give a fuck about the boy in your basement 
tell me how you tied him up, his blood just wasn't good enough 
but you're a lying bitch  i found the jars where you saved it 

i know you like when i play dead 
i know you like when i play dead 
you're alone caused you killed your friends and they're haunting you 

passed time cuts right through my skin 
fifty-one blades cut lines in my skin 
sirens call sweet lies with a death grin (and i'm drowning here with you) 
dull blades run right through my heart 
fifty-one rays of moonlight, black art 
take your last breath, find a hole you can lay in 
(like a sad empty casket)  

**crashing funerals 
i'm crashing funerals
crashing funerals, awake the dead  

**crashing funerals 
i'm crashing funerals
crashing funerals, awake the dead 

**(i know you like when i play dead)
(i know you like when i play dead)
(you're alone caused you killed your friends and they're haunting you)

crashing funerals

[hook]
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing

[verse]
Try to spend a life without me
Even if I know that for you that's easy
Hitting on a blunt now I'm feeling dizzy
Without your arms around me
I swear that I'm freezing
You make me feel like
I'm not enough for you
No matter what I do
No matter my efforts
I got no more force
I'm trying to let you understand
You were my only friend
You were the only one I love
And I will love forever
I can't still accept that we'll never be together
'Cause you took me out from the darkness
But then you let me down
And the sky looks starless

[hook]
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing

Without Breathing [prod. Ahnboi]

clarity(2019 demo)

this is my life

prod by @trechorboy
cover art by @trechorboy

bright flames 
light faces 
with a warm hue
every town 
burns down
that i pass through
doctor walked in
said that ill probably 
pull through
stared that fucker down 
and told him 
i didn’t want to
i have a confession
all this depression
has made me hate
every being 
in every direction 
i want the worst
i want it done
i wish that covid 19
took out everyone

the seasons change 
& its getting colder
my mind is the same
but im getting older
piece of shit 
20 something
low life bitch
if i was incarcerated
i would prolly snitch
i had a dream 
last night
where everything
was just alright
i woke up
in regret
that my life 
hadn’t ended
all quite yet

bright flames 
light faces 
with a warm hue
every town 
burns down
that i pass through
doctor walked in
said that ill probably 
pull through
stared that fucker down 
and told him 
i didn’t want to
i have a confession
all this depression
has made me hate
every being 
in every direction 
i want the worst
i want it done
i wish that covid 19
took out everyone

i searched for a reason to not kms & found nothing.

i know i'm a mess
you say that you're depressed
but you haven't met me yet
im as hopeless as they get

my mind is over run by enzymes 
hope that ill die soon
hope that you wont cry to, or lie to,
me or my friends cuz u know what u did 
oh my god 
im so fucked
i just wanna feel in love

so nonchalant as you 
watch me break before your eyes 
falling apart will you
meet me on the other side
look past the flaws
can’t you see i just was traumatized 
i can’t blame the drugs 
but i wasn’t myself at the times

when we got together again
i got as low as it gets 
influenced her to seek change 
and live like me on the edge 

she got away but 
the damage been done 
i lost some loved ones 
over my own problems

i posses a modicum of skill it makes me depressed
i just wanna feel something cutting through my fucking chest
baby let me bleed on the floor
ive fucking done this before
you just judge me at my core
i got no fucking support

i still have the photos of you
in my room
in my head
cant fade out 
wont go home
ill get stoned 
on my own

cuz i hate u now more than evrrr
cuz i hate u now more than evrrr
cuz i hate u now more than evrrr

i still have the photos of you
in my room
in my head
cant fade out 
wont go home
ill get stoned 
on my own

i know i'm a mess
you say that you're depressed
but you haven't met me yet
im as hopeless as they get

spotify

hopeless (ft. j-sin)

[+] used to hold your hand while you're coming down..
* featuring @lilskeleskrrt * produced by @l1lbiscuit *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVr0Jf26AFk

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[hook 2x: @seejayxo]
Used to hold your hand while you're coming down
Pop another *** and I feel it now
I just gotta know why you not around
Wanna let you know what I'm feeling now

[verse 1: @seejayxo]
Baby I could hate you,
But I think I could love you just the same
Holdup, wait a minute, lemme switch my lane
I just gotta get me a Range
I just need some bands in the back of the safe
I got nothing else to say
They was sleeping on me
Now I feel like they awake
Shawty got a lil taste
Now she think she love me, I can see it in her face
Baby I'ma get them bands and I'll spend on you
That's just what I do, I don't know if I'ma lose
I just gotta tell you when I'm thinking of you...
Cuz I'm thinking of your heart beating on mine
I don't even know if this feels right
I just gotta know where it leads right, where it leads right?

[hook 2x: @seejayxo]
Used to hold your hand while you're coming down
Pop another *** and I feel it now
I just gotta know why you not around
Wanna let you know what I'm feeling now

[verse 2: @lilskeleskrrt]
My baby never know when I'm coming down
I've been off a blue but I don't feel it now
I been waiting all day for you to come around
Used to want the love but I don't need it now
So what do you want from me?
I could sit here all day you won't talk to me
Even if I was dying, you wouldn't stop for me
I've been making racks, its not enough for you
You keep wanting more even when all my bands are blue
Caution, stop with all that fuck shit
Cameras flashing the lights off when I walk into the function
Razor round my necklace I'm bound to get reckless
Seejay in the back while I scratch off my checklist
My baby never know when I'm coming down
I've been off a blue but I don't feel it now
I been waiting all day for you to come around
Used to want the love but I don't need it now

clarity(2019 demo)

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