Verse 1:
On a scale from one to zero
How much do you hate my guts
‘Cause you met me when I was the hero
And stuck around long enough
To watch it go up in flames
And then you couldn't handle it
Watching me become the antagonist 

Chorus:
So tell me what was it like? 
Flippin’ through my pages
And chasing all my changes
Was it entertaining for you?
Yeah, tell me what was it like?
Picking my plot apart 
What was your favorite part?
And was it entertaining for you?
Am I entertaining for you?

Verse 2:
I fall from grace and glory
As you try to ignore me
I'm just a scary story
That got a bit too gory
For your liking 
Got your adrenaline spiking
Am I psyching you out?
You couldn't handle it
Watching me become the antagonist 

Chorus:
So tell me what was it like? 
Flippin’ through my pages
And chasing all my changes
Was it entertaining for you?
Yeah, tell me what was it like?
Picking my plot apart 
What was your favorite part?
And was it entertaining for you?
Am I entertaining for you?

Bridge:
Call me the villain call me a beast
All that I can say is at least 
I'm the best of them though
And I put on a good show
Call me the villain call me a beast
I had you on the edge of your seat
Right there in the front row
Guess I put on a good show

the antagonist

Verse 1:
Oh my Maria, I’m just writing
Today I had my shoes shined and my teeth whitened
I showed up to the office awful late and asked out Susie 
It’s so nice to be the boss ‘cause you know beggars can’t be choosey
So she kind of has to choose me
Yeah, he kind of has to choose me

Verse 2:
Oh my Maria, I’m just writing
The company is crashing and the Feds have got me frightened
I didn’t need more money but I wanted it
And once a man like me gets greedy, there’s no stopping him

Chorus:
Oh my Maria
You know all my darkest feelings
That I can’t share with anyone alive
Oh my Maria
You know all my darkest feelings
They were buried with you on the day you died

Oh my Maria
Oh my Maria

Verse 3: 
Oh my Maria, how I miss you
I’m afraid that I don’t know what I’ve gotten myself into
I thought that I could get away with anything if I was smart enough
Turns out I’m just narcissistic and they might really lock me up

Chorus:
Oh my Maria
You know all my darkest feelings
That I can’t share with anyone alive
Oh my Maria
I wonder what it’d be like 
If I hadn’t had my gun on me that night

Bridge:
Maybe if you would’ve been polite
Maybe if you would’ve been more gentle, more kind
You know, a guy could really use a little love from you sometimes

Oh my Maria
Oh my Maria

Outro:
I’m a little worried but my lawyer’s in the lobby 
I put on my poker face just like my daddy taught me
They know that I did it but I shredded all the copies
They know that I did but they’ll never find the body
They’ll never find the body

oh my maria

Verse:
Foolish woman
You thought you’d make it out alive
Foolish woman
Don’t you know that you’re ruined by the time you’re twenty-five

Pre-Chorus:
Chew you up, spit you out
Put you right back in my mouth
Isn’t that what this is all about?
You’re the horse that we beat
Even after you can’t breathe
You planted trees so we ripped out the seeds
And we sold them all
And if everything goes south, you’ll take the fall

Chorus:
Foolish girl
When will you get it through your head?
They only love you when you’re dead
They only love you when you’re dead

Verse:
Stupid woman
Have you read the headlines lately?
Stupid woman
You can’t let them see you crumble ‘cause they’ll only call you crazy

Pre-Chorus:
You were fun, you were sweet
But it’s looking like you’re obsolete
Give us more or you’ll mean nothing to me
Think it’s to victimize 
The next innocent in line
Don’t you dare cry, ‘cause you asked for this life
Don’t you understand?
This is a business, not your wonderland

Chorus:
Stupid girl
When will you get it through your head?
They only love you when you’re dead
They only love you when you’re dead

Bridge:
And you’re still making money for us 
Six feet underground 
You may have written chorus 
But we’ve stolen your sound
It’s ours now
Yeah, you’re ours now


Outro:
Foolish woman
Stupid girl
Foolish woman
Stupid girl

september 14th

Chorus:
I need a sign or something
A cigarette or a psychiatrist
And I could swear to you that I’m not usually like this
But I would only sound self-righteous
And it’s a lie
To make you more comfortable 
And to make me more palatable 
God forbid I’m infallible 
Or just someone you don’t like 

Verse 1:
Do I reek of desperation?
Can you smell it on me?
I’m not good with confrontation
Can’t you tell I’m sorry?
Do I reek of desperation?
Can you smell it on me?
I’m not good with confrontation
Can’t you tell I’m sorry?
Do I seem a little paranoid?
Yeah, can you sense it?
‘Cause I can’t tell whether you’re annoyed
Or apprehensive 

I need a sign or something
I need a sign or something
I need a sign or something (something)
I need a sign or something (something)

Bridge:
Oh, I need the clouds to part, or the sun to freeze
I need Jesus Christ himself to please 
Just put my pretty head at ease 
Oh, just put my pretty head at ease
I need the clouds to part, or pills to take
Or maybe I just need a break
I don’t know why the real world feels so fake
Chorus:
I need a sign or something
A cigarette or a psychiatrist
And I could swear to you that I’m not usually like this
But I would only sound self-righteous
And it’s a lie

i need a sign (or something)

lyrics:
don’t get lost in me
system still processing
i tell you i want this
as i question if i'm conscious 
but it's “all good things”

i feel like myself most when i'm miserable 
i'll take all my feelings visceral, please
i'll take all of my milk spilled
if it's blue or its red pill,
i'll take 'em both 
trip hard, see the Holy Ghost 
get my head killed

you talk me down
or i tire myself out
or the feeling doesn’t feel like lasting 
and it's all good things

it's too dark on this side of the moon
but i planted my flag here
now i only feel alright about once every lap year
and that’s the punchline, but i can’t laugh yet
i still think self-hate’s an asset 
guess i'm wired wrong
i thought fueling all my flames would make the fire strong

but it just set the world ablaze
bodies all over the place
had to make my getaway, oh god, i'm a mad man
suddenly i'm self aware again
i'm on the moon and on the mend
just a good girl who got caught up in a bad plan
so it's all good things
yeah, it's all good things
(yeah, it's all good things)
(yeah, it's all good things)

warning signs were everywhere
hung up in the halls upstairs
i know cause i put them there so you’d see 'em
but everyone loves a prodigy
and i love when they're wanting me 
so i patch up my pathology with a cheap rush

yeah, it's all good things
yeah, it's all good things

all good things

lyrics:
oh, i wish i could write you 
but i'm a shit friend 
plus, i lost all my pens
i think i bled them dry
or i left them at the library
i'm lying through my teeth but
have some pity on me, pretty please, oh

i don't need forgiveness
only understanding 
lately i've been living 
on another planet
and i can't hear you all the way from earth
your messages i'm declining 
'cause i can't stand my climate
yeah, i can't hear you all the way from earth
there's too many rules to follow
too many pills to swallow

i'm inconvenient as i'm imploding, input noted
i'm inconvenient as i'm imploding, input noted
you call the professionals and i'll call myself a...
i'm inconvenient as i'm imploding
as my whole system is overloading, input noted
you call the professionals and i'll call myself a poet

they told me to love myself and i think i do
but i'm not sure if i like her and i wonder if i even want to 
but now i'm just rambling
i don't need forgiveness 
i don't need forgiveness

oh, i wish i could write you 
but i'm a shit friend 
yeah, i'm such a shit friend
prisoner of my own mind and the guards don't take well to fighters
so i sit and spread wider
prisoner of my own mind, what crime we're guilty of
try to find out and you're a lifer

thy kingdom come, thy will be done
they say god absolves all of his sons
but i'm not too demanding
i don't need forgiveness
only understanding

only understanding

lyrics:
if you’ve got a problem, i don’t wanna listen 
so here take this ticket 
and wait for your name to be called
the line is already too long
if you’ve got a problem, i don’t wanna fix it 
i don’t think i can
not after i planted the gun in your hand
took all of the drugs and the money and ran
foolproof plan
got on the plane, called the cops when i landed 
with a wad of cash
and you can paint me into 
some kind of criminal mastermind villain 
but i’m pretty sure that 
i’m just jersey trash

you want all of me
you want all of me and i won’t share
i’m unavailable and unaware 
you want all of me
the most unfortunate anomaly 
but i can’t care
‘cause i’m not all there 

well, i’m a conman you figured it out 
now hide your wife and tell your kids
tell ‘em how you went and fell for it
without you sounding an idiot
yeah, I’m a conman
play-you-like-a-pawn man
you’re not gonna stop me, baby, not even the law can
you’re on my timeline now, like its god’s plan 
maybe it is
i’m the prettiest dirtbag
not the type of person you can hurt back
perpetually detached 
clean off all human connection with no intention to relapse

you want all of me
you want all of me and i won’t share
i’m unavailable and unaware 
you want all of me
the most unfortunate anomaly 
but i can’t care
‘cause i’m not all there

not all there

lyrics:
say your final goodbye and make it a nice one
i’m not the guy that you should be taking advice from
i’ll just tell you to run as fast as you can
tell yourself and everyone else you’re a new man

but the mask always slips
and the seams start to rip 
and then gravity flips 
and the grip that you have on reality loosens 
you dance with delusion
it’s hands on your hips
but the mask always slips 
yeah, the science is proven
it’s past life pollution

and i can’t breathe right
the smog is streamlined
but it's easier to tell you that it feels fine
and i can’t breathe right
the smog is streamlined
i can’t tell if this is all a dream or real life

trial by fire
check my file and vitals 
pour my blood in your vials
tell me what you find
trial by fire
homicidal desires
who’s responsible for fucking me up this time?
who’s responsible for fucking me up this time?

problems disguised as the solution
i need another new thing to ruin
problems disguised as the solution
i need another new thing to ruin
hard proof that i’m human
past life pollution
past life pollution

past life pollution

i don’t know who you are but i’m betting its not that important
and i don’t know what you want, all I know is you’ve been begging for it
if you’re concerned you’ll have to lay in all the beds that you made
if you’ve been bothered ‘bout the rules you didn’t follow, the ones you should’ve obeyed
you should be very afraid

“i’m a nice guy,”
“are you?”
(HAHAHA)

motherfucker, i’m God, haven’t you heard?
he left me in charge when he sent me to Earth 
in a tight top and a mini skirt
now i’m white hot on red alert
if you’ve been worried 
that your skeletons aren’t buried 
if your laundry’s getting dirty 
‘cause you acted like a perv to the maid
you should be very afraid

baby, you should put a piece of cloth between your teeth and bite down
you should be way more scared of me than you seem to be right now
you’re too busy wondering ‘bout whether or not you’re getting laid
but you should be very afraid

“you know i was affected by it too, okay, i mean it’s every guy’s worst nightmare getting accused like that”
“can you guess what every woman’s worst nightmare is?”

if you’re concerned you’ll have to lay in all the beds that you made
with all the spots and the stains 
the shit that rots in your brain
if you’re stressing, start confessing
maybe it would help you out if you prayed
you should be very afraid

YOU SHOULD BE VERY AFRAID

lyrics:
the tables are turning
the robots are learning
you'd think it's concerning but
my stomach's not churning
it's not so disturbing 
compared to what i'm stirring up
the tables are turning
the snakes start their squirming
but don't you dare worry, love
when nothing is working
when bridges are burning
the angels are lurking above
and below 
can't you feel the glow?
you're a validation junkie 
you're lucky that i get it
so let me be your lesson
no one owes you anything
buck up or bitch out
sell it or sit down
lay down and die or go in for the kill
this is not a drill
this is not a drill

you're stuck in the smoke screen
you're coughing and choking
you're wailing and wheezing
but the air we're breathing
doesn't bother me
i can't let it
not where i'm headed
and if you really wanted 
you could join me
but you seem to like me lonely
alarms go off and you're standing still
this is not a drill

ask for a sign,
you'll get twenty
and notice two
ask for a sign,
you'll get plenty
but the rest's on you
so look up and around
see the ashes, hear the sounds
hear the ringing in your ear it's rather shrill
this is not a drill 
this is not a drill

THIS IS NOT A DRILL

lyrics:
i don't know what you want me to say
i haven't felt like myself in a few days
it's not so bad, anyway
please don't worry about me

"you should call your mother"

i don't know what you want me to say
i've been seeing in black and white and thinking in gray
life's a gamble, baby, we all play
let the chips fall where they may
i don't know what you wanna hear 
and i wouldn't know how to make it sound sincere 
but my shit's top tier 
please don't worry about me

bona fide flight risk
i'm not okay in the slightest
the look on your face is priceless
when i tell you how i really am
but why are you so shocked?
you act like i left the door locked
when i let you in the whole time
i let you in the whole time
i know i send you mixed messages
i tell you not to worry but the lesson is
don't listen to a lunatic
'cause that's what you've been doing

"if i could be a different person, i promise you, i would
not because i want it, but because they do
and therein lies the catch"

please don't worry about me

&i think i just felt the simulation glitch

contact: mgmt@gilanares.com

not all there

Gilanares

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