This is the definition of amazing, it also hits way too close to home. Love this, definitely gonna check out your other music <3333

really cool song. rough vocals and sparingly instrumentation. Like this song

I'm new here and just posted my first song, I love your voice and writing and you've inspired me to keep working on my own stuff. Your voice is beautiful!

gilanares<3

There's Not Much To Know About Me

Good Person

Alone In A Dark Room

Chorus:
The truth is ugly, I don’t like it
It’s like being back in high school looking in a mirror
The truth is ugly, but I don’t mind it
And as I get a little older I can see things clearer
And I know that I don’t have to apologize to you
But I kinda want to
Yeah I know that I don’t have to apologize to you
But I kinda want to

Verse 1:
Just to get it off my chest
I know that when you knew me I wasn’t my best
I just wanna put my past life to rest
I just wanna put my past life to rest
‘Cause I was always unsure
Always insecure
Always immature
Always wanting more out of you
I always wanted more out of you 
And I'm sorry about that

Pre-Chorus:
I put a lot of pressure on us
I wanted to get better, honest
But I didn’t know how to
I didn’t know how to
And I know I had issues plenty 
But I hope you don’t resent me
But it’s okay if you do

Chorus:
The truth is ugly, I don’t like it
It’s like being back in high school looking in a mirror
The truth is ugly, but I don’t mind it
And as I get a little older I can see things clearer
And I know that I don’t have to apologize to you
But I kinda want to
Yeah I know that I don’t have to apologize to you
But I kinda want to

Verse 2:
Just so I can let you know
That I never really meant to let you go
I'm glad you’ve taken this time to grow
I'm glad you’ve taken this time to grow, oh
‘Cause I’ve done the same thing too
If only you knew
If only I grew
Back when I still had you
Back when I still had you
I’m sorry about that

Pre-Chorus:
I put a lot of pressure on us
I wanted to get better, honest
But I didn’t know how to
I didn’t know how to
And I know I had issues plenty 
But I hope you don’t resent me
But it’s okay if you do

Chorus:
The truth is ugly, I don’t like it
It’s like being back in high school looking in a mirror
The truth is ugly, but I don’t mind it
And as I get a little older I can see things clearer
And I know that I don’t have to apologize to you
But I kinda want to

the truth is ugly

Verse 1:
I wanna scream ‘til I can't talk
I wanna draw on my old driveway with some chalk
I wanna head down to the playground and kick rocks
I wanna do everything my way kill the clocks

Chorus:
I never wear a watch
I wanna kill the clocks
Time isn’t real and neither am I
I never wear a watch
I wanna kill the clocks
You all can count until you die

Verse 2:
I wanna be someone I'm not
I want every inch of the old me just to rot
I wanna let somebody in break all the locks
I wanna do everything my way kill the clocks

Chorus:
I never wear a watch
I wanna kill the clocks
Time isn’t real and neither am I
I never wear a watch
I wanna kill the clocks
You all can count until you die

Outro:
‘Til you die, ‘til you die, ‘til you die
You all can count until you die
You all tell nothing but the time
So you all can count until you die

kill the clocks

Verse 1:
He said “life’s a movie, baby, I'm just rolling with the punches,
And everybody acts like they’re the jury and the judges 
But they’re just extras and this film is on a budget 
Pay 'em no mind, you only live to a hundred if you’re lucky, if you’re lucky”
And I said “I’m not even trying to make it sixty
And if I’m being honest I barely made it past sixteen 
But I’ve been looking for someone to come along and fix me”

Pre-Chorus:
I just want a good time 
I just want a good high
I just want somebody for me to romanticize
I just want a good high
I just want a good high 
I just want a quick fix
Not for me to stick with
‘Cause none of the best things in life are permanent 
None of the best things in life are permanent 

Chorus:
All my favorite movies have an ending 
All my favorite movies have an ending 
So I think it’s a little condescending 
To tell me that everything will be okay
When it never stays that way
All my favorite movies have an ending 
All my favorite movies have an ending 
So I think it’s a little condescending 
To tell me that everything will be okay
When it never stays that way

all my favorite movies have an ending

Chorus:
I can't seem to scare you away
I can't seem to scare you away

Verse:
I can't seem to scare you away
It’s almost as if you wanna stay
For all the wrong reasons
For all the wrong reasons
Got too many enemies
Addicted to anything 
I’m a hundred degrees and 
The number’s increasing 

Pre-Chorus:
When people come and go they all start to blend a bit 
But you showed up and that was the end of it
When people come and go they all start to blend a bit 
But you showed up and that was the end of it

Chorus:
I can't seem to scare you away
I can't seem to scare you away

Post-Chorus:
Oh, it’s too soon to say 
So I’ll keep you in my brain 
But I can’t even complain 
‘Cause I like you here
Yeah,  it’s too soon to say 
So I’ll keep you in my brain 
But I can’t even complain 
‘Cause I like you here

Bridge:
What do you love, what fucked you up, who are you now? 
Save me the sentences that you won’t say out loud
I would give anything just to figure you out
Figure you out
What do you hide, what makes you cry, what makes you mad? 
I'll keep the secrets that you wish you didn't have 
Hope it’s not bullshit when you look at me like that 
At me like that

Chorus:
‘Cause I can't seem to scare you away
No, I can't seem to scare you away

scare U away

Verse 1:
What is it exactly 
Eating away at you?
Tell us all what’s happening 
‘Cause you try to play it cool 
But I can tell your broken up about
Shit that you can’t open up about 
You don’t know who’s safe to make sacred 
So take it from me

Chorus:
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone who wants it 
But they’re all false prophets 
Yeah they’re all false prophets

Verse 2:
What is it exactly 
Eating away at you?
The love made you happy 
Just not who you gave it to 
But I don’t think anyone’s good enough for you if I'm truthful 
So take it from me

Chorus:
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone who wants it 
But they’re all false prophets 
Yeah they’re all false prophets

Bridge:
We always fall for it 
Why do we do that?
We always fall for it 
Why do we do that?
We always fall for it 
Why do we do that?
We always fall for it 
We always fall for it 
But they’re all false prophets 
Yeah they’re all false prophets

false prophets

Verse 1:
I wanna solve you like a puzzle but I'm scared to put the pieces into place
I shouldn't treat you like a game
but I know you do me the same
I wanna crawl through every tunnel, every part of you that you don't wanna claim
Yeah all the shit you'd like to change
Want you to feel me in your veins

Chorus:
Is this what yearning feels like?
I think I'm learning you might
I think you might want me too, I think you might want me too

Verse 2:
It's delicate
Situation 
But if I'm telling it
Like it is, I wanna rush into it
It's delicate
Situation 
But if I'm telling it
like it is, I'm no saint
I wanna feel you in my veins
I know it sounds insane

Chorus:
Is this what yearning feels like?
I think I'm learning you might
I think you might want me too, I think you might want me too

u might want me 2

Verse 1:
Fuck your smile, I love it
Fuck your face and your laugh
Shoved my head in the oven
Thought I might find you in the back
But you weren’t there 
Now I’ve got ash on my lips and in my hair
Can’t you leave some air in the room for the rest of us
Your ex-girlfriend ruined you but it happens to the best of us
And that part’s the worst of all
Is the damage irreversible?

Chorus:
No, I don’t think you want me 
No, I don’t think you do
But I let my mind run in circles
I let it chase after you
Like a dog racing at it’s own tail
I fight for what I know will fail
No, I don’t think you want me 
No, I don’t think you do
But I let my mind run in circles
I let it chase after you

Verse 2:
And I’ll keep chasing
Your cheap validation
‘Til my head hits the pavement
And I crack my skull wide open
Maybe then all this emotion
Will leak it’s way out of my head 
It’s disgusting how you make me crash and burn
Has anybody ever told you that you’re a bitch of a lesson to learn?
Has anybody ever told you that you’re a bitch of a lesson to learn?

Chorus:
No, I don’t think you want me 
No, I don’t think you do
Your comedown’s worse than molly’s 
What kind of fucked up drug are-
Your comedown’s worse than molly’s 
What kind of fucked up drug are you

Outro:
You hit hard, you hit fast
Edges sharp like broken glass
You told me your blade was dull
So why do I bleed desire?
I carry on, keep my cool
Funny how we’re both liars

i don't think you want me

Refrain 1:
We were losers in high school and I still feel like one
Can’t remember the last time that I had any fucking fun
We were losers in high school and I still feel like one
One gentle reminder of you and I become undone

Verse 1:
Your water flowed into my fire 
Honestly I hoped that I would drown
I turned the tides and you got tired
All I ever did was burn you out

Bridge:
Oh, now it’s dead
It’s sad that it had to end so poorly 
Remember when you said 
That you would cross the ocean for me 

Refrain 2:
We were losers in high school and I still feel like one
I sleep under the moonlight alone while you chase after the sun
We were losers in high school and I still feel like one
I’m sorry that I fucked it up, it turns out that I do that a ton 

Verse 2:
Your water flowed into my fire
Honestly I hoped you’d put me out
But I made the climate hot and drier
I soaked you up and washed you down

Outro:
And wrote our names together in bathroom stalls 
And found your face in crowded haunted halls 
But the weather got bad, yeah the weather got scary
When people ask if we talk, just barely
Now I sit here and I talk to the walls 

Chorus 3:
We were losers in high school and I still feel like one
We were losers in high school and I still feel like one

we were losers in high school

Verse 1:
You’re not what I wanted
You’re not what I need
I’m not your accomplice
I think you’re my enemy 
I didn’t feel it ‘til it was all that I felt
I didn’t know you ‘til I knew you way too well

Chorus:
You’ve got me picking at my scabs
You’ve got me scratching just to scratch
Now I’ve got all these cuts to cleanse 
We should’ve just stayed friends
We should’ve just stayed friends
We should’ve just stayed friends

Verse 2:
Oh, it stings like a rash
And it burns like my ash
It’s like when the meds won’t kick in
And you feel your heart race quicken
Oh, it stings like a rash

Chorus:
You’ve got me picking at my scabs
You’ve got me scratching just to scratch
Now I’ve got all these cuts to cleanse 
We should’ve just stayed friends
We should’ve just stayed friends
We should’ve just stayed friends

You’re not what I wanted
You’re not what I need
I’m not your accomplice
I think you’re my enemy 

Bridge:
You’re not the good guy 
If you think everyone should die 
In the end
You’re not the good guy 
If you tell the truth but would lie 
If you could do it again
If I could do it again
We would’ve just stayed friends 
We should’ve just stayed friends
We should’ve just stayed friends
We should’ve just stayed friends

september 14th

Intro:
We go well together cause we make up for whatever one should lack
You break each and every one of my limbs and I break yours right back
I break yours right back

Verse 1:
This might scar me
Quite a lot
I’m so sorry
I’m so not
This might scar me
Quite a lot
I’m so sorry
I’m so not, I’m so- I, I’m so not 

Pre Chorus:
Oh it’s cute that you thought I cared
Oh it seems like I’ve overshared 
Do you think that I could be spared
From whatever nonsense you've prepared for me
I like you better when you’re scared of me

Chorus:
Walking on eggshells hurts my feet
You must like cutting into my flesh
Walking on eggshells hurts my feet
You want all of my wounds kept fresh

Verse 1:
This might scar me
Pretty bad
I’m so sorry
I’m so sad
This might scar me
Pretty bad
I’m so sorry
I’m so sad, I’m so- I, I’m so sad 

Pre Chorus:
Oh it’s cute that you thought I cared
Oh it seems like I’ve overshared 
Do you think that I could be spared
From whatever nonsense you've prepared for me
I like you better when you’re scared of me

Chorus:
Walking on eggshells hurts my feet
You must like cutting into my flesh
Walking on eggshells hurts my feet
You want all of my wounds kept fresh
Walking on eggshells hurts my feet
You must like cutting into my flesh
Walking on eggshells hurts my feet
But it doesn’t matter cause you always know best

eggshells

Verse 1:
The radio’s on and you’re talking in my ear 
But whatever shit I’m thinking is the loudest
The neon signs are beyond bright and burn my eyes
But I’m too far in my head to bitch about it

Pre-Chorus 1:
You ask me what’s going on 
‘Cause I’ve been quiet for too long
And I guess there’s nothing really wrong 
‘Cause I

Chorus:
I don’t hurt myself anymore
But it still hurts that I ever did 
And I don’t take my shit out on anyone else anymore
But now new friends scare me ‘cause I’m scared I’ll ruin it
It’s give and take
It’s give and take
Give and take
Give and take

Verse 2:
The movie’s playing
But I can’t tell what the characters are saying
‘Cause my brain is rambling
And I’m alright 
Now if only I could internalize it
But I guess I’m managing 

Pre-Chorus 2:
You ask me if I’m okay 
‘Cause I’m staring off into space 
And I don’t really know what to say 
‘Cause I

Chorus:
I don’t hurt myself anymore
But it still hurts that I ever did 
And I don’t take my shit out on anyone else anymore
But now new friends scare me ‘cause I’m scared I’ll ruin it
It’s give and take
It’s give and take
Give and take
Give and take
It’s give and take
It’s give and take
Give and take
Give and take

Bridge:
Is this the version of me that you wanted?
When you picture the person that you’re so involved with 
Does it actually match me? (it actually match me, it actually match me)
Is this the version of me that you wanted?

It’s give and take
It’s give and take

give & take

lyrics:
don’t get lost in me
system still processing
i tell you i want this
as i question if i'm conscious 
but it's “all good things”

i feel like myself most when i'm miserable 
i'll take all my feelings visceral, please
i'll take all of my milk spilled
if it's blue or its red pill,
i'll take 'em both 
trip hard, see the Holy Ghost 
get my head killed

you talk me down
or i tire myself out
or the feeling doesn’t feel like lasting 
and it's all good things

it's too dark on this side of the moon
but i planted my flag here
now i only feel alright about once every lap year
and that’s the punchline, but i can’t laugh yet
i still think self-hate’s an asset 
guess i'm wired wrong
i thought fueling all my flames would make the fire strong

but it just set the world ablaze
bodies all over the place
had to make my getaway, oh god, i'm a mad man
suddenly i'm self aware again
i'm on the moon and on the mend
just a good girl who got caught up in a bad plan
so it's all good things
yeah, it's all good things
(yeah, it's all good things)
(yeah, it's all good things)

warning signs were everywhere
hung up in the halls upstairs
i know cause i put them there so you’d see 'em
but everyone loves a prodigy
and i love when they're wanting me 
so i patch up my pathology with a cheap rush

yeah, it's all good things
yeah, it's all good things

all good things

lyrics:
sometimes when i'm overwhelmed it feels like i have too many brain cells
i smoke weed just to lose a few of 'em
i let people listen and like me 'til i drop some kind of bombshell
then that starts to ruin it for 'em 

oh, but it's fine
(oh, but it's fine)
i'm just dramatic 
(i'm just dramatic) 
haven't you learned that about me by now?
really it's fine
(really it's fine)
it's all theatrics 
haven't you learned that about me by now?

but i'll miss you when i'm right 
and the sun rips through the sky
and there's nothing but the two of us
(the two of us)
yeah, i'll miss you when there's nothing wrong
'cause there's nothing left at all

maybe you can find me in the flames
once we've gone too far and nothing else remains
'cause i've got an awful feeling
that all of this is fleeting
and i tried to make a meaning out of you

oh no, i did it again
but won't you meet me when the world ends?
(meet me when the world ends)

oh no, i did it again
but won't you meet me when the world ends?
(meet me when the world ends)

when the world ends

✞ INCORRIGIBLE ENTITY ✞

contact: mgmt@gilanares.com

we were losers in high school

Gilanares

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