despise(u) w/ lucid soup

merry christmas & happy new years :D all prod me 

tonight you're my ceiling now
times right , get to healing again
so afraid of feeling how 
I'll feel the day it all ends
I'm sick, sick
there's no way I can do all this, this
could you predict, predict 
it all ends like this?

my eyes sink to my stomach
these feelings are so constant
how can I keep running
all I want to feel is something new
I'm tired, dont get no sleep
stepping through the snow cant see my feet
stare at the sky I'll count my stars
wish for healing in my heart

(in my heart, in my heart
my heart, my heart
in my heart, in my heart
my heart, my heart)

tonight you're my ceiling now
times right , get to healing again
so afraid of feeling how 
I'll feel the day it all ends
I'm sick, sick
there's no way I can do all this, this
could you predict, predict 
it all ends like this?

you're my ceiling (hartfxlt)

@diegointhedark
i love you brother so thankful for U


pop a fuking flat every night ian get no sleep
like a typO backspace all my enemies
ik they looking down at me
its fuk em forever

keep on growing ima stand tall
keep my hands full so i wont fall
keep on pushing give it my all
ive been having bad thoughts

try to give everything i never had
everything you said let it get to my head
im worthless
u wan hurt me
im not worth it

get out my head ik my worth
ik im better than you say
im rotting in my bed 
ill see u ina couple days
im living in da future
i got xanny overlays
i got prada eye wear
on my mf face

keep on growing ima stand tall
keep my hands full so i wont fall
keep on pushing give it my all
ive been having bad thoughts

darkness @diegointhedark

kketamine - save me (babyglock tori - i swear instrumental)

diegointhedark - memory

love is pain and death is life
anybody else for free advice?
i never fell in love a single time
i dare you to ask me why

i was sunken with you deep below
but your words were coming from above
when i look at you i feel the chain
im the anchor of your love

building a gun and im falling up
fire of gas, i dont fire it
hang in the balance like zero sum
i tried to give everything but it wasnt enough
tonite im gonna lie here
i kinda wanna die here
10 cents and a casket the size of you
i tried to give everything but it wasnt enough

sinner song and i fell in love 
and a horizon and a trophy hung
and the flesh was soft and the sleep was rough
your body came raining down x2

sped all day in a helpless chase
missing half my face and a blackened lung
old white whale in a storm of hail
and i kill without any resistance
and i couldnt shake feeling down
heard the crack and i turned around
your body came raining down x2

whitewhale (pixie)

and the suns up
strike me while im down oh
one more gunsling
one more tide of the moon

and i say shit
ive got nothing to loose
didnt mean it
and i dont have a clue

in the spirit
of something like a good time
grin and bear it
coughing up til the sunrise

so you walk me
down the length of the boatyard
while your body
tears even further apart

everything will kill you
make it something pretty
everything is over just as soon as its beginning
i am sick for real babe
every day of my life
i will keep my head up and it may be for the last time

for the last time (pixie)

prod. me
guitar is sampld


'


nd im

reachn 2 my phone
2 c if any1s around
all my friends r out
n paris or jst travelin
around (tha world)

nd ik tht its my fault
cuz i coulda been wher 
they r but i kno

life eats when
it is starved
im a mess nd 
sinking thru my floor
im a ded end

@zzoos
@zzjay

@m4xyne
blame it on the weather
i feel so untethered
i wake up n my head hurts
wish i could forget her
wish i could forget it
how i took it all for granted
left me feeling restless
i js wanna vanish
thought we were side by side
id bleed for u, id die
cant look u in the eyes
i couldnt see the signs
but i still tried my best
u ran away, u fled
ur still in my head 
no, no, you never left
tell me i was everything you wanted me to be
i wanna fix it all bc our futures looking bleak
i feel like everyone is talking down on me
there are wounds in my chest n they start to bleed
i am passed out blood soaked on the pavement
i hate myself so much i dont think i could say it
to your face i hate mine, wish i could b faceless
go thru this all the time, its all the same shit

@zzoos
do it all again n nothing changes
i dont wna say it
cus its so complicated
n im so tired of feeling jaded 
stuck n i cant move
im so done waiting
ima smoke it away
no theres nothing i can say
ima smoke js to cope w the pain
ya u blurred out my face
im wont leave without a trace
girl just tell me tht u care
i always feel so out of place
ripping at my heart until it tears

everything you wanted me to be ft. zoos ✮⋆˙ prod zjay

Emily

thinking of yourself w/ dev0 (@tcproducedit @0kurts)

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