the akashic

produced by heylog

lyrics:
the birds all sing a beautiful song
light beams through this is where i belong
peaceful people who fear to talk
they mimic them and love to mock
women from different countries
i feel pressured there's people watching me
pull u in with the sound of harmonies
they say this kid's gifted with prodigy

occupied i'm tired of people
that look in ur eye tells me u are deceitful
you live knowing this time your whole act has been a lie
you walk by the garden and every flower dies

THE BIRDS ALL SING A BEAUTIFUL SONG
LIGHT BEAMS DOWN THIS IS WHERE I BELONG
PEACEFUL PEOPLE WHO FEAR TO TALK
THEY MIMIC THEM AND LOVE TO MOCK
WOMEN FROM DIFFERENT COUNTRIES
I FEEL PRESSURED THERE'S PEOPLE WATCHING ME
PULL YOU IN WITH THE SOUND OF HARMONIES
THEY SAY THIS KID'S GIFTED WITH PRODIGY

yeah u better run from me i said
i'm used to this and being lonely
conversations don't extend when i'm
short on words i guess i don't feel like talking
spare my life it's just begun
i'm still tryna get us back but i know we're done
growing old too fast i'm too slow to outrun
problems chasing me but i know that they won

spotify

this is where i belong

produced by heylog

lyrics:
stop
(what)
where did we go wrong
like.. it hasn't even been long
i always search for u
but hell, i don't have a clue
i might've made you a song
but
does that even have a cost?
no
well baby it's all that i've got
hoping that we could just stop
listen here u need to know
come closer this is unknown
our love is what i'd die for
i don't bluff so let's explore
(ok)
i love you and no one else
i left u so i'll take the guilt
please don't move and just sit still
please don't go it's me i'll kill

i trusted you, i guess rn ur dead to me
i look at you and every time i grit my teeth
she said we're friends but na ur not friends w me
and i swear u would never get along w me
look
u were the only friend i ever had
but i still have all these cuts along my back
thought i'd never forgive you
never thought you'd be an issue
and i put every bit of my trust in her
now i have a hard time trusting anyone
forget you, i wanna be alone
i hate you, thought you were my bro

i love you

dying out west  (w/ Lil Tracy)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
am i alive? guess we'll know if i breathe
i killed them all i can live in peace
i lost a lot, praying for enemies
avoiding evil that i might bring
i'll fight till death if it keeps u safe
i'll kill them all just to make sure ur okay
they charge at me, hold my ground, be brave
i lost my mind and there's nothing that remains

(one, two, three, go)

i just wrote you a letter
i wish u the best
yea i been doin better
and that's a big step
u got what u asked for
a life with no us
but u come back for more
and it's never enough
i just sent a letter
all the way from home
i'll miss u forever
why'd u have to go
i'm caught up in the center
baby i could die
it has been a pleasure
i'll meet u in the sky
this is it yea can't let down my guard
i never talk man, don't put me in charge
i cut her off should've done that from the start
leaving marks
i don't love me
why do i continue? swim in agony
we were so close until u stabbed me
i cut u off too cause u were bad for me
don't come back to me no

i'm so nervous right now i'm tweaking, why can i not speak
i fidget, it's so obvious i have anxiety
u sat there and did nothing while u saw me slowly bleed
i wiped it from my skin now there's scars for eternity
am i okay? guess we'll know if i breathe
check for my pulse to make sure it beats
i lost a lot, it's too much for me to see
i talk to god, praying for my enemies

the war II

'i'm sorry' produced by heylog

lyrics:
every other june is never hot it's just as cold
staying in my house all day my skin could probably mold
closing both my drapes and sit in silence while i scroll
loving u is hard when i don't love me as a whole
mom notices whenever i'm down i point my chin
she ask, "is something wrong?" but everytime i always fib
people my age are married when i feel like a kid
i write all apologies to people on a list
so i'm sorry for mistakes i've made i need to watch my tone
i'm sorry letting people down u didn't have to go
i'm sorry for responding late just tired of my phone
and i'm sorry for never smiling but can't u see i'm broke
i am out of luck when nothing goes the way i want
i wanted ur opinion u didn't have to be so blunt
telling u my secrets but u were so wrong to trust
everything is hitting now not separate, all at once
and it hurts so much
in the dirt eating mud
let me say it really sucks
i'm so close to giving up
and i really hate it here
this pain is severe
i'm so close from disapearing
yet again another year

there's a reason why i hide my face and my identity
people are so curious if i'm young or if i'm 23
searching for the info and my god it just upsets me
please just let it go i have a life and i'm not telling
show me some respect, there's a point that i'm unknown
maybe i dislike my face or maybe i just don't
music is my second life and my first is personal
finding out the truth u come to realize it just hurts to know

i'm sorry for mistakes i've made, i need to watch my tone
i'm always letting people down and everytime they go
i'm sorry i'm on dnd just tired of my phone
and i'm sorry i don't smile, is it clear to u i'm broke
i am out of luck when nothing goes the way i want
i play out all scenarios but they're too go to trust
dodging my own hatred but i always fail to duck
every problems hitting me like a million bombs
and it hurts so much
in the dirt, eating mud
let me say it really sucks
i'm so close to giving up
and i really hate it here
this pain is severe
i'm this close from disappearing
i survive another year

i'm sorry

produced by heylog

lyrics:
laying in my arms u look so cute under the stars
your father comes outside and sees us laying in the yard
focus on the coral sky and threading both our hearts
n every time the sun sets i see u from afar
notice how i ask u things it shows i truly care
don't know what u feel i am completely unaware
well after loving you i realized no one can compare
you're the only thing i want but life's just never fair
but everything's gonna be okay, i promise
but all the things in life feel like they're falling
but i'll be fine, i'll make it through but when is it over
i spent a couple years with u and now i want no one

the evening carries little wind that travels through ur hair
u move it off ur face and put it back behind ur ear
and u caught my expression but i couldn't help but stare
the civil things like that well babe it makes it hard to bare
i'm praying for u, hoping all ur dreams come true
and i wish everything goes right for you
but i don't care if u want the same for me too
just know you're important to me, am i too?

well everything's gonna be okay, i promise
but why do all the things in life look like they're falling
but don't u worry, i'll be fine but when is it over
we spent a couple years together, now i want no one

everything's gonna be okay, i promise

produced by (nevrfall) the best

kill some time w me
#imalwaystrappedinmyheadsoitsalwaysaboutme

wait4me ik u hated me, dont go
hard to say i've engraved my fate oh
rip out out my day think its time to sleep
u think i like the way that your sick of me oh

why u sick of me, uh figure it out
listen why u mean to me, just in my house
i got bees on me they fly around
their at peace w me; buzzing sounds
are you killing trees w me, knock that pine down
do you wannna sleep w me, till the world dies down?

wait 4me ik u hated me, dont go
hard to say i've engraved my fate oh
rip out out my day think its time to sleep
u think i like the way that your sick of me oh

wait4me

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
as usual i manage to breakdown
don't bother me i enjoy no sound
can't talk to ppl and i know i should
the nerves i build up come out me like a flood
i expect a better me to finally come my way
but the hope i'm losing is drifting away
i forgot that u were mine and that u exist
and that's a good thing
i'm making progress
i hold a whole heart
i gotta use it wise
i cancel all my plans
cus i changed my mind
she smell like lavender
and i think i'm in love
wait hold on a min
can we take a pause
i needa overthink
when i talk to you
it's not on purpose
now u know the truth
i told u everything
n all my secrets
and now it feels wrong
and i know i'm screwed
i look in your eyes it's like looking in an abyss
thanks for your time i learned a lot from it
i'm different now, done with u, you know what i quit
i'm leaving now, don't care to be part of this
YOU SAID SHE WAS A WHORE
WELL MAYBE UR THE HOE
ABSCONDING EVERY GIRL
IS THIS WHERE I GROW
COULDN'T ASK FOR MORE
I'LL BREAK EVERY BONE
NOW DUDES CARE FOR ME
BUT I ONLY GOT 1 BRO

𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘢𝘯
𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘶𝘱

𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨

lavender

cover of 'all he touched is dead' by corbin
reproduced by logan

-
go stay aside with hurt
in a place we went down through
faced lied to taste my ground
invaded our kind world
praise came with doubtfulness
which gave way sound of cruel word

don't hold me
too close now
you trust your weakness
don't hold me
too close now
i'll cut you down
down

all he touched is dead cover (corbin smidzik)

by https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
for me
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
for me
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
but u can't even tell

where do i go from here
i'll kick it with my tears
i don't recognize a thing
the water made them sting
where should i even go
i've never felt this alone
should i take my life
cause god it's on my mind

where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
well too bad u can't tell

veins

live

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heylog - live

'goodbye' produced by heylog

lyrics:
almost 5am, i find it harder to sleep
i crack the window and i hear every animal sing
with a wind blowing soft, rustling through the leaves
admire nature as it comes alive from winter to spring
the flowers grow so tall that they start to bloom
and i just took a couple out cus i picked them for u
hoping one day you'll travel here to see what's new
cus this bouquet is gonna die if u don't visit me soon
and i
have a difficult time
spending days
when ur on my mind
wish this
would just go away
cus i'm trying to push u away
why
do i feel lonely
knowing i
hurt to see
an outcast
no one wants to be
and giggled at
n always being teased

can someone give a valid reason on why i shouldn't die
in disbelief that i will never see a point in life
i'm on and off of feeling bad and for a second i'm fine
it's so messed up and i don't think that i will ever resign
i'm so bipolar and i don't want u to see me like this
cus i guarantee i'll scare u if i speak from my chest
i didn't mean for u to leave when u saw that on my wrist
and i'm so sorry for putting u through all of this 
so why
do u keep playing w me
is it cause
u get lonely
in the night
and think of us
well it's fine
cus i think of us too
why
do i feel like this
well nevermind
cus u don't care about this
and if i die
will u grieve
and will cry
and will u miss me

CAN SOMEONE GIVE A VALID REASON ON WHY I SHOULDN'T DIE
CAUSE YOU MAKE ME WANNA KILL MYSELF OR GO GRAB THE KNIFE
I'M AT THE AGE WHERE I CAN NEVER SEE A POINT IN LIFE
IN DISBELIEF OF EVERYTHING THAT I'M JUST WASTING MY TIME
I'M SO BIPOLAR AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO SEE ME LIKE THIS
CAUSE I GUARANTEE I'LL SCARE YOU IF I SPEAK FROM MY CHEST
I'M AT THE BOTTOM OF THE OCEAN WITH ALL OF MY REGRETS
THERE'S MANY THINGS I WISH WERE GONE OR WISH I COULD RESET
I STEP INTO THE LIGHT AND DID THIS WITHOUT A GROUP
AND SO YOU NOTICING ME NOW WHEN I'M STEADY ON THE MOVE
AND YOU JUST THINK IT'S ALL OKAY TO HIT ME UP OUT OF THE BLUE
I'M NOT YOUR FRIEND OR TYPE OF BENEFIT TO SATISFY YOU
SO PLEASE GIVE A VALID REASON THAT YOU WANT ME DEAD
IS IT SAFE TO EVEN KNOW THAT THIS JUST MIGHT BE A TEST
FOR YOU TO TRICK ME INTO THINKING I'M NOTHING BUT A MESS
DELETE YOUR IMAGE THAT I LONGED FOR AND NOT SEEN AGAIN

if i can't love
will i end up
alone and forgot
or spend it w someone
i can't fall in love
my hearts dead
probably numb
i miss u my dear
it feels like it's been years

no way home
i was never close
the path ends here
don't know where to go
stone cold lies
i knew i was right
so farewell
cus this is goodbye

goodbye

i’ve been going insane
worrying about you everyday
and i’m not sure if i can continue 
the struggle in my brain has become an issue
and how do i know that you’re telling the truth this time
the-the-the consequences of your untold lies
will lead me to my direct demise 
will you still feel for me when i die?
cause i won’t be the one that you forget 
yeah you’ll regret
leaving me alone 
broken down on the ground
alone and forgotten 
dead and rotting 

(AUTUMN)

dead and rotting, my blood is clotting i'll
lay in a bed with a similar scent 
to the ones that are pinching my tongue
weight on my lungs
fat in my veins
begging the sun, to go away
what does he want? keep me awake 

i gotta answer questions time's creating
cold cause i'm dissociating fast

(2x)
the smoke and ash is all i need
life is fast, so leave me be

untold lies w/ autumndropsdead (itamii)

prod. caves

i've been stalking you
can i be somebody new?
waiting on a text from you
but you would never get it thru your head
and my head, 
is killing me right now
while you were chilling with your friends
and you'd never fuck around
who do i trust?
probably you, but
i dont love
no 
not since kyra, and
not since kai
not since the boy across the world
world
the first one was a test run
and the second one he wanted none
if you want me you should've kept me
and i dont know why i didnt respond to you
and now i feel fucked up
i think i fucked up.
fucked up
fucked up
fucked up
fucked up

if not, then rot.

video for disappear https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3UVq5v6jLk4

produced by @sinxi
lyrics

i am still her eyes lay heavy
ill keep you till you say I'm not ready
I was always ready, i was always ready
how is this real, your aim so steady
still buried where you left me
in frame is where ill never be
she claimed that she missed me
i don't really think that she missed me
she claims i sing you should hear me
i don't really think that you miss me

disappear

produced by heylog

lyrics:
I COULD DISINTEGRATE RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES
AND YOU WOULDN'T KNOW WHETHER IF I WAS DEAD OR ALIVE
NOW THEIR EYES WIDEN LIKE IT'S SOME SORT OF SURPRISE
I WAS JUST TESTIN TO SEE IF IT CROSSED YOUR MIND

in the eventide it's cold 
as i'm right beside the woods
every bug is now buzzing
in a forest, in a bush
it's that time to hibernate
animals retreat from the north
toward the south to migrate
winter streets get quickly worn
DESCEND INTO YOUR SOUL
BLOOD DRAWING FROM MY SKULL
WOULD YOU TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT
YOU REAP WITH WHAT YOU SOW
examining your mind
hope to intertwine
oh everything aligns
beside you feeding me with lies

pokin thru the light and lost all them
being used as your personal vent
if u keep it up i might just dip
cus the words u say leave me in dents
i set my expectations way too high
it kinda sucks but i'll let this one slide
i gotta regroup and resupply
quit tryna fool me i see right through ur eyes

I COULD DISINTEGRATE RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES
AND YOU WOULDN'T KNOW WHETHER IF I WAS DEAD OR ALIVE
NOW THEIR EYES WIDEN LIKE IT'S SOME SORT OF SURPRISE
I WAS JUST TESTIN TO SEE IF IT CROSSED YOUR MIND
BUT IT DIDN'T 
I SEE YOU'RE TRYNA PRY YOUR WAY INTO MY BUSINESS
YOU'LL NEVER GET IN
EVERY YEAR THE CIRCLE SHRINKS AND IT THICKENS
IT ALWAYS THICKENS

pause

she wonders why i always hangout in the dark
idk bruh just chilling playing guitar
oh it was all my fault
didn't know committing to a girl would be hard
so i should really focus on my bread
there's never a balance, music till i go to bed
baby i'm far too gone
bags under my eyes i didn't sleep until dawn

you'll never get it

disintegrate

Vampire Valentine

produced by heylog

lyrics:
let me show you how to act right
if you listened it would define
just the type of person u are
it doesn't matter what you go by
cause you'll always be the same person
and you'll always be one of the worst friends
you always were the one to go
when i thought i could count on u the most

lesson learned, don't hold your grudge
even if it could lose someone
hate to know the truth be told
now everything is overthrown

do u wonder where u come from?
picturing at what you've really done
does it affect the way you see your arch?
do they look at you less than what you are?
cause you've always been the same person
and you've always fought the urge to sin
& goodluck tryna get me back
at 2am it kills you bad

no, you messed with the wrong person
yeah you messed with the wrong
you messed it up on purpose
yeah you messed it up
hopefully lesson learned 
i hope a lesson here was learned
i did what i had to do man
and in all honesty 
you're hurting

continue

[+] i just wanna die slow.. see me from the blunt glow
* featuring @nicoteenninyo * prod by @metlast *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://youtu.be/gxxBsbHSbkU

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[intro: seejayxo]
i just wanna die slow
see me from the blunt glow
with my blinds closed
burning up the sky oh oh ya

[hook: nicoteen ninyo]
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?

[verse: seejayxo]
try and get me now ya
fucked up off the sound oh
i smoke like a pound ya
so high off the ground oh
you cannot touch me you basic
i roll a blunt then i face it
wonder why they always hatin
i know you know i'ma make it
so just face it,
i won't say shit, i hold back,
i don't know why i'm sad, shit
i forgot my past 
ion think i'm that bad
i want a big truck and a benz
get fucked up wit my friends
out in LA til i'm dead, LA til i'm dead

[hook: nicoteen ninyo + seejayxo]
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
(i just wanna die slow, fuck up out my life hoe)
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully  
(write my death note, i just want a slit throat)
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
(i just wanna die slow, see me from the blunt glow)
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully  
(with my blinds closed, burning up the sky oh)
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?

die slow

+ visuals

die slow (feat. nicoteen ninyo) *MUSIC VIDEO IN DESC*

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Demon Being

Bullet In My Brain

yungcurlz x Robstar - Bullet In My Brain

produced by heylog
main guitar played by SADisfying

lyrics:
if i cant love
will i end up
lone and forgot
or spend it with someone
i cant fall in love
my hearts dead probably numb
i hope it wont be long
to heal cus its been months
if i cant love
will she leave us?
alone here in the dust
ill never get enough
my time is up
i cant think with all the fuss
these camels takin my lungs
i think of u when im buzzed

i wish youd stay home permanently
i cant sleep alone if ur in my dreams
i cant let u go this cant be happening
but ur bad for me
but ur bad for me
i still love u even if u hate me
i still want u even if u despite me
i still care for u even if u dont care for me
u were good to me
u were great for me

i never understood 
how u could put up with me
cause i barely showed love 
im still surprised u didnt leave me
now as i look back
i shouldve cherished what i had with you
call me "heyregret" 
thats how i feel with everything
i havent touched food all day
too busy making music 
she asked me if im aokay
"i listen to ur lyrics"
i dont know how to love
i show zero emotion
only in my songs
my tears could flood the ocean

if i cant love
will i end up
lone and forgot
or spend it with someone
i cant fall in love
my hearts dead probably numb
i hope it wont be long
to heal cus its been months
if i cant love
will she leave us?
alone here in the dust
ill never get enough
my time is up
i cant think with all the fuss
these camels taking my lungs
i think of u when im buzzed

the akashic

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