this song introduced me to you almost a year ago just after you released pleasure. I still come back, love this so much

Theres a reason why I hide my face, and my identity. People are so curious if im young or if im 23.

IM SORRY FOR MISTAKES I MADE, I NEED TO WATCH MY TONE.

People my age are married when I feel like a kid 💔

the akashic

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
staring at the random number
but my mind is at a blank
lookin at my computer
so i ask, "who is this"
it was my lover
how could i forget?
ur light im thunder
ill hurt u twice again
staring at the late phone call
whoops did i miss that on purpose?
yeah that was intentional
and all this distortion
girl i never wanted this
for u to go off to college
and honestly i hated it
so id never have a chance

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

i tried my best baby but this is never gonna happen
im not the one to show love, shouldve known that was a problem
i picked these flowers for u i know u probably tossed em
now i just be resting from girls n everybody
she dont really love me
she just like to attention
how am i this stupid
omg im gonna lose it
take in all this caffeine
i still have no energy
drinking all this coffee
still got no energy

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

at least i didn't forget

heylog - at least i didn't forget

produced by heylog

lyrics:
stop
(what)
where did we go wrong
like.. it hasn't even been long
i always search for u
but hell, i don't have a clue
i might've made you a song
but
does that even have a cost?
no
well baby it's all that i've got
hoping that we could just stop
listen here u need to know
come closer this is unknown
our love is what i'd die for
i don't bluff so let's explore
(ok)
i love you and no one else
i left u so i'll take the guilt
please don't move and just sit still
please don't go it's me i'll kill

i trusted you, i guess rn ur dead to me
i look at you and every time i grit my teeth
she said we're friends but na ur not friends w me
and i swear u would never get along w me
look
u were the only friend i ever had
but i still have all these cuts along my back
thought i'd never forgive you
never thought you'd be an issue
and i put every bit of my trust in her
now i have a hard time trusting anyone
forget you, i wanna be alone
i hate you, thought you were my bro

spotify

i love you

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i just woke up and i'm not even tired
it's 7 in the morning but i ain't set my timer
u said u fell asleep but i think ur a liar
it's a shame that ur the only one that i admire
is it too much for u to shoot a text
cause it'd probably just take a sec
right now i take it slow with baby steps
but i think that u just want me in my bed
and that's fine
yea it's okay
but i lie
but you'd do the same
and i wonder why even stay?
when ur just killing time and worsening my pain

do you think our friend's would hold support for us
i don't know whether this is lust or love
thinking about your lips in between mine
i'd treat u better than these stupid guys
so if we were together i would give support for you
and not just a little i would give a ton
so maybe u should keep it in mind
i'd treat you better than any other guy

the violent sounds that keep me up at night
leaves my neck in sweat causing my pillow to fight
but i lay back down, praying for sleep
their words are profound, they're never nice to me no
so is it too much for u to shoot a text
i swear it'd probably just take a sec
rn i take you slow with baby steps
but i swear that u just want me in my bed
procrastinating whether if i should go to sleep
cause i don't wanna see you in another dream
oh i hate it
it feels so real
i could touch it
and keep u sealed

don't tell her i'll be gone
either way she wouldnt know
i just took off
I'll see you when i play a show
mom and dad have moved
thought for sure they wouldn't go
let me stay with you, you are my second home
i wanted you to see
i wanted you to know
i'd tell you to my friend's just so i could boast
but you don't understand
that i am not a man
i do this for my brother
and i do this for my fans
fake talk, this a face off, i ain't scared of you
bite down, rip my tongue off and the blood run through
show up i got teeth marks and my peck turned blue
the suns down, imma head out yeah it was nice to see you
i gotta keep my cool yeah just wait wait wait wait
you gotta calm down log but i'm addicted to the pain
LOVE WHEN YOU LIE
LOVE WHEN YOU SPEAK
LOVE WHEN YOU CRY
AND LOVE WHEN YOU BREATHE
POSTED OUTSIDE, WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE, STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A MACE
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
i need to lay down thank god i'm alive
i knocked your man's down, i think he might die
lost our loved one's
bring peace to us all
cowards they run
and snakes in the wall
pray for em all

snakes in the wall

'i'm sorry' produced by heylog

lyrics:
every other june is never hot it's just as cold
staying in my house all day my skin could probably mold
closing both my drapes and sit in silence while i scroll
loving u is hard when i don't love me as a whole
mom notices whenever i'm down i point my chin
she ask, "is something wrong?" but everytime i always fib
people my age are married when i feel like a kid
i write all apologies to people on a list
so i'm sorry for mistakes i've made i need to watch my tone
i'm sorry letting people down u didn't have to go
i'm sorry for responding late just tired of my phone
and i'm sorry for never smiling but can't u see i'm broke
i am out of luck when nothing goes the way i want
i wanted ur opinion u didn't have to be so blunt
telling u my secrets but u were so wrong to trust
everything is hitting now not separate, all at once
and it hurts so much
in the dirt eating mud
let me say it really sucks
i'm so close to giving up
and i really hate it here
this pain is severe
i'm so close from disapearing
yet again another year

there's a reason why i hide my face and my identity
people are so curious if i'm young or if i'm 23
searching for the info and my god it just upsets me
please just let it go i have a life and i'm not telling
show me some respect, there's a point that i'm unknown
maybe i dislike my face or maybe i just don't
music is my second life and my first is personal
finding out the truth u come to realize it just hurts to know

i'm sorry for mistakes i've made, i need to watch my tone
i'm always letting people down and everytime they go
i'm sorry i'm on dnd just tired of my phone
and i'm sorry i don't smile, is it clear to u i'm broke
i am out of luck when nothing goes the way i want
i play out all scenarios but they're too go to trust
dodging my own hatred but i always fail to duck
every problems hitting me like a million bombs
and it hurts so much
in the dirt, eating mud
let me say it really sucks
i'm so close to giving up
and i really hate it here
this pain is severe
i'm this close from disappearing
i survive another year

i'm sorry

produced by (nevrfall) the best

kill some time w me
#imalwaystrappedinmyheadsoitsalwaysaboutme

wait4me ik u hated me, dont go
hard to say i've engraved my fate oh
rip out out my day think its time to sleep
u think i like the way that your sick of me oh

why u sick of me, uh figure it out
listen why u mean to me, just in my house
i got bees on me they fly around
their at peace w me; buzzing sounds
are you killing trees w me, knock that pine down
do you wannna sleep w me, till the world dies down?

wait 4me ik u hated me, dont go
hard to say i've engraved my fate oh
rip out out my day think its time to sleep
u think i like the way that your sick of me oh

wait4me

<//3

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

featuring @user-411557229
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
the veins in my skin pop out when i'm warm
i handle a blade and point to my arm
oh she'd be upset if i put it through
i'll put it away but only for u
well this time u won, you proud of yourself
i put us down, no need to be held
i've suffered too long in my mental state
i'm harming myself, does it look like i'm okay
i said u were right
and i'm sorry just know i'm not bright
or the smartest, keep beating my eyes
till they're blue and to where i can't see
now they're swollen, i'm blind in my view
and now everyday feel like i lose
but i'm trying to cope without u
and it's hard oh baby it's hard
so wish me ur luck and ur regards

it drips from my forearm to my shirt
watching the blood fall is the worst
ignore all of your calls cus i've learned
i made it a full year without her
I LISTEN TO NONSENSE ON A BASIS
IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD AND IT'S MY FAVORITE
I KEPT THEM AROUND FOR ENTERTAINMENT
I CHOOSE TO STAY PRIVATE AND FACELESS
DON'T TEXT ME
DON'T CALL ME
I'VE WITNESS AUTOPSY
DON'T COME HOME
I WON'T BE HERE
I LEFT SO IT'S SINCERE
a lots on my mind
like my future and maybe a wife
and i wonder if music's my prize
it's the only thing going for me
been a week since i've gone outside
i'm pathetic it sums up my life
forgot her and god it's about time
and something that i can't help but think
if ur disappointed in me

(residential)
tell me what you find
deep inside her eyes
cause she used to be kind
until she lost her mind

blade in the basement
i'm high but i'm anxious
snapping back the hat when i am next in the rotation
thought i found myself, but i'm in dissociation
love being alone, but i don't fuck with isolation

quarter ounce
pack it up and take me out
you said i’d be better now
but all i got are pills around

where the fuck you’ve been at
you left your nail marks on my back
now i'm going too fast
but i can't help but think about the past
i just smoked what was left in the bag
and i really don't mind if i crash

pathetic ft. residential

by https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
for me
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
for me
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
but u can't even tell

where do i go from here
i'll kick it with my tears
i don't recognize a thing
the water made them sting
where should i even go
i've never felt this alone
should i take my life
cause god it's on my mind

where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
well too bad u can't tell

veins

live

SPOTIFY

heylog - live

https://open.spotify.com/album/2erLjZg3vJPYobdmKrexhW?si=Iu-yZ4N-Qc-Ec5v5DKoxrg

(casperrr)
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a solution to u 
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a replacement to u 
tell me who did u lose

(heylog)
she just burn right thru the past
like we were never a thing
baby how could u do that
and throw me against the wave
i just need someone to talk to
and have a soul to stay
i wonder if ppl are leaving me
and parting their own ways
morning always passes by
when i see u it's never right
right right right
when i see you it's always night
our insides exchange heat
when ur body lies w me
i don't want u to leave now
how bout we both just shut down

(casperrr + heylog)
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a solution to u 
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a replacement to u 
tell me who did u lose

casperrr x heylog - when ur body lies next to mine (nevrfrvr)

video for disappear https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3UVq5v6jLk4

produced by @sinxi
lyrics

i am still her eyes lay heavy
ill keep you till you say I'm not ready
I was always ready, i was always ready
how is this real, your aim so steady
still buried where you left me
in frame is where ill never be
she claimed that she missed me
i don't really think that she missed me
she claims i sing you should hear me
i don't really think that you miss me

disappear

produced by hiraeth and heylog <3

You’ve got nothing to say to me
I’m drowning in the ocean
Always complain to me
I’m dealing with my own shit
Filling my vacancy
(Just breathe)
If I died tomorow I bet nobody’d even notice

harder to breathe
when ur around I’m losing focus
Trying to speak, the words can’t seem to leave my vocal
Getting likes on ig
cause ur half naked in the photos
I’m dying to sleep, if I wake up im meeting god bro

Stay closer to me
I swear that nobody can touch you
if they tried
I’d grit my teeth and fight them all for you
I’m tryna hide, stop tryna reason what I been thru
It’s not my time, I’d kill anyone laying next to you

never should've went for u
and i ain't know your friend exists
if that was the case i would restart and go for her instead
what a shame
u let your life to pieces
who's to blame
(you)
you're the only reason i can't focus
got me losing sleep
and shit oh how i own it
tell that b-
she can drink bleach
you let it out there in the open
u show yourself no respect
and i wonder if u know this

i'm tired of preaching cus babe it really-
babe it hurts from underneath
all the wasted memories
don't go down, get off your knees
it's not the time for any pleasing

bleach ft. heylog

produced by sleepwater leftquiet and heylog
w @heylog

im losing faith and abilities
i wish i was brave im never at ease
what did you say to me
nothing was made for me
nothing went the way of the willow
ill sit right here and wait by my window

picking leaves for you to see
i hate these trees when i cant breathe
im sick of me i said too much
i hate myself not scared to crush
im not scared to crush
i hate myself
not fair no touch
i did this to myself

come destroy me now i rlly wanna know
i locked inside your arms
i hate the way it goes
im locked inside a farm 
while u remove his coat
ive never had the time 
to let anyone close

heylog:
just a log and a tree standing open in fields
rough times for a being if u don't know how to heal
kill me lover, push below the ground
oh i can't stand it here, not even an ounce
oh you
oh my
come back
to my side
i dont know myself
dont go ill stay and get help

no i dont miss you
hate what u done to me
say that your in love me
200 hundred days
where i would see you
i made a mistake
now i cant see you

fields w/heylog

produced by: @tnvr555
vocals and lyrics by: me and @heylog

lyrics:
just a sec, i needa bit to catch my breath
i try to hold onto what's left
but it seems that you're leaving again
and i saw your face
you're laughing at the back of the room
you're with someone and i can assume that
you have moved on, so soon
(you have moved on, so soon)

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think i've fallen in too deep

summer's coming round the corner, i can't wait to be warm
the uv's high so we lay some blankets out on the porch
and do you remember what you said to me
our past is something hard to believe
don't go
cause i don't want anybody else
oh no
i really don't want anybody now
i'm edging toward the ground
but that's what happens all the time as soon as life goes on
to you i'm not important
and i hope i'm wrong
without you it's harder to breathe
cause you're not laying next to me

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
(not laying next to me)
and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think I've fallen in too deep

hope every1 has a good day/night xx

jealousy w/ heylog (tnvr)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
let me show you how to act right
if you listened it would define
just the type of person u are
it doesn't matter what you go by
cause you'll always be the same person
and you'll always be one of the worst friends
you always were the one to go
when i thought i could count on u the most

lesson learned, don't hold your grudge
even if it could lose someone
hate to know the truth be told
now everything is overthrown

do u wonder where u come from?
picturing at what you've really done
does it affect the way you see your arch?
do they look at you less than what you are?
cause you've always been the same person
and you've always fought the urge to sin
& goodluck tryna get me back
at 2am it kills you bad

no, you messed with the wrong person
yeah you messed with the wrong
you messed it up on purpose
yeah you messed it up
hopefully lesson learned 
i hope a lesson here was learned
i did what i had to do man
and in all honesty 
you're hurting

continue

featuring @sewerperson
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
killing all the memories cant get them out my head
do u think you'll remember me what a great way to end
now she's giving me goosebumps, up and down my skin
i don't wanna hurt u, but we were getting tense
i despise u cus i really tried my best
but was there something wrong with anything i did
this fire burns
it's burning out my chest
my hairs developing curls
she run it with her nails

i left her a note but i kept it secret in my head
guess you'll never know what i had wrote or what i said
let me clear the air i don't consider you a friend
oh how we were toxic it was to our benefit
if u truly love her go and say it to her face
but he never will he only spoke it thru the pain
his scars present a symbol she will carry with attain
and she looks at him with disgust and hatred and with vain
she let him slip by but who's the one that holds the blame
she dont care cus she got guys who provide all the needs she craves
cus he could never satisfy her so he solved it on a blade
she acted like she cared but it was nothing but a fake

i don't know how to act right i guess
and u should prolly leave don't want a witness
calling down to the 2 friends i have
but they ain't never here i crave ur love bad
so i don't know how to act right i guess
and u should prolly leave don't want a witness
calling down to the 2 friends i have
but they ain't never here i crave ur love bad
SO I DON'T KNOW HOW TO ACT RIGHT I GUESS
AND SHE'S MINDLESS TALKING BACK WITH HER EX
BUT HE NEVER LOVED HER, ONLY LOVED THE SEX
I GIVE UP I'M SO DONE WITH THIS

(sewerperson)
thru the wind i smell the blood
it tastes to me like broken heart
i know i feel though my body cold
and hungry reaching out for more
peaceful i could sleep peaceful finally
breaks in the trees in my bed pines needle my heart
im still deep in the rows all despite the fresh start and its killing me
im just not myself for the time being
promise u baby i’ve changed i swear
bodies in the garden behind my stairs
i just woke up with em laying right there
crush crush crush all these bugs in my hair
guess i came back from the dead for a moment
i cannot speak with my mouth sewn shut
broke open
welcome to the end you’ve chosen

kill all the memories can’t get them out my head
do u think you’ll remember me what a great way to end
even if I was what they said 
would you still love me then

welcome to the end ft. sewerperson

produced by heylog

lyrics:
can u keep a secret don't tell anyone
these butterflies around me resting on my thumb
i think they're a sign that i've made it from numb
dodging my own hatred but i fail to duck
we've tried but its so hard
i'm just another kid reaching for ur arms
like i said can we try again
i swear to u ill make it up
but this is probably the end

into light
hold my hand
for the fight
wars ahead
file line
hold the stance
here, the monsters like to dance
viruses vs pesticides
i'm hoping ill sleep through the night
hold my hand as we go high
do not look down just close your eyes

so if u keep this secret will u go n tell
cause if that's the case i'll keep it to myself
but u can tell me yours i wont tell anyone
this stays between us and no one else
i miss talking with our eyes it hurt like hell
so are u doing fine cause i'm wishing well
i have ur turtle neck but it lost your smell
i think of you too much ur killing my brain cells
when i was a child i had everyone
now i'm older and i don't feel like growing up
i've changed since i've hidden for a couple months
and they still been the same try it for yourself
the war is on its way, can u hear them run
they're raging but they laugh when the job is done
and the boy who's in his gut sobbing cus he lost
cus everything he did had no purpose and not even a cause

into light
hold my hand
for the fight
wars ahead
file line
hold the stance
here the monsters like to dance
viruses vs pesticides
i'm hoping ill sleep through the night
hold my hand as we go high
do not look down just close your eyes

the war
is done
set fire
to them all
silence
peaceful
finally
you've escaped
ur so lucky
you've run from me

i'm sorry

heylog

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