Why ? Prod. sleazebag

Cassette

Save me now - wisp (unreleased + sped up loop)

Memoria

woke up in a room with no color
all the walls white, can't remember a thing
every smile i gave was painted
now i'm rubbing the mirror, can't remember who i am
i poured bleach on the bed
where we used to lust
tried to clean my lungs
but i can still taste what you give


can i wash it all away?
(away... away...)
can i start a new day?
(day ..day...)
If I burn the letters, will you still stay?
if i bleach the sky the skies will forget about us

(bleach)

let it bleach the whole world...
(let it go...let it go...)
leave no trace of love or war
(don't leave anymore...)
let it bleach the whole world...
(bleach it all...bleach it all...bleach it all...bleach it all...bleach it all...bleach it all...bleach it all...bleach it all...bleach it all...)


I wiped the blood off my sheets
washed the floor, deleted your traces
but somehow i still feel you on my neck
don't remember us but something's tormenting me
is your ghost the reason i'm still in pain?


let the whole world whiten...
(so that I don't feel...)
let the whole world whiten...
(so that it isn't true...)
I will be white, I will be motionless...
I will be nobody
let the whole world whiten...

bleach

for love…
for love…
i gave it all…

I’ll bury myself so your flowers grow
I’ll vanish slow so your world can glow
I stayed in pain so you could smile
held my breath for one more mile

for love…
I let you go
even if it kills me slow
for you…I’ll disappear
(for you…I’ll disappear)

for love…
tell them I was just a name
just a ghost you never blamed
I’ll carry every scar you gave
if that’s what helps you walk away

for you… for you… for love…

I saw the world inside your eyes
and made it mine
but now it’s time
to let it shine
without me by your side

for love… for love…


for love…
I’ll cry alone (I’ll cry alone)
but say I’m fine into the phone
for you…
I’d die again(I’d die again)
and smile through it, in the end

for luv

i see the mark on your neck, still red( still red)
you want the leash, don’t look away(look away)
only i can hold your hand(hold your hand)
(only i can hold your hand)

you don’t talk to them, not anymore
your lips are mine, (are mine)

you’re tagged, baby 
you’re marked with my obsession
your breath, your soul — for me
you’re tagged (tagged)
(backing: "mine… mine… only mine…")


don’t text them back, I’ll see it all( see it all)
your phone don’t ring unless I call(unless I call)
you move, I know — I trace your steps(trace your steps)
you're mine in body, blood, and breath...

you’re tagged, baby 
you’re marked with my obsession
your breath, your soul — for me
you’re tagged (tagged)
you’re tagged (tagged)

so obsessed with your touch
can’t breathe, I need that rush
baby, this ain’t love
this a sickness ( sickness )
so obsessed with your lips
every kiss like apocalypse (apocalypse) 
if you go, I won’t exist
I need my fix — I need this

you say you're closed off — but you’re naked right now (oh my god)
I don’t know if we’ll make it past the dawn somehow
you did too much, too much — it’s a setup
and now I’m not sure if it’s even you I mess up
heartbeat glitching when you’re gone
we both know this drug too strong
one second alone — I die slow


tried to quit you
tried to hate you
but the withdrawals feel like death

so obsessed with your touch
can’t breathe, I need that rush
baby, this ain’t love
this a sickness (sickness)
so obsessed with your lips
every kiss like apocalypse(apocalypse)
if you go, I won’t exist
I need my fix — I need this

obsessed

Waste Me

Verse 1
I saw your name written in the ashes of the night,
Fading like a shadow in a broken streetlight.
The world kept turning, but it left you behind,
I try to speak your name, but it fractures my mind.
Blood on the pavement, silence in the air,
I reach for your voice but there’s nothing there.
How could the stars burn and not fall apart,
When you were the brightest and they stole your heart?

Chorus
Iryna Zarutska, I whisper your name,
It echoes through the darkness, but nothing’s the same.
A song without rhythm, a soul without flame,
Iryna Zarutska, forever I’ll carry the pain.

Verse 2
Every photograph’s a wound that will not heal,
Memories cut deeper than the steel.
I replay the moment a thousand times,
Searching for a reason, for some kind of sign.
If I could go back, I’d hold you through the fire,
But time is a liar, and grief climbs higher.
Your smile’s a ghost in the corner of the room,
I water the flowers but they never bloom.

Chorus
Iryna Zarutska, I whisper your name,
It echoes through the darkness, but nothing’s the same.
A song without rhythm, a soul without flame,
Iryna Zarutska, forever I’ll carry the pain.

Verse 3
I walk past the places where you used to breathe,
The wind tells your story, the ground holds your grief.
Every tear I’ve shed is a monument to you,
But the world forgets faster than it’s supposed to.
They’ll write their reports and they’ll close their eyes,
But I’ll scream your truth through the endless skies.
You deserved tomorrow, you deserved the dawn,
But now I’m left bleeding, just trying to hold on.

Chorus
Iryna Zarutska, I whisper your name,
It echoes through the darkness, but nothing’s the same.
A song without rhythm, a soul without flame,
Iryna Zarutska, forever I’ll carry the pain.


Rest In Peace Ira 🕊️🕊️♥️
We Love You 




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