not even 10 seconds in and holy crap i'm just speechless, this is beautiful

goodnight lavender

goodnight lavender — 0% angel
a part of “afterstory.” LP

artwork by sakire:
twitter.com/sakanfish

lyrics

it’s taking over me
it’s taking everything i have
to keep myself from wanting to be apart of you

inside my ailing mind
i bribe myself to think that
i am made for you what can i do for us to make it through

i know it’s hard to see / the wounds inside of me
i’m hiding underneath all my suffering
and even if i cry / i’ll never close my eyes
to see through all the lies you bestowed to me

when all is clarity / the hate you gave to me
with all sincerity hurts like a disease
the wings that brought you here / will take you far and near
but you will always be no angel to me

you fill me with distrust
i’m writhing in disgust as i
am told another person has loved you till it hurt

i want to seep inside
i want to sleep beside you when
your heart depends on stranger’s touch just to feel alive

i know it’s hard to see / the wounds inside of me
i’m hiding underneath all my suffering
and even if i cry / i’ll never close my eyes
to see through all the lies you bestowed to me

when all is clarity / the hate you gave to me
with all sincerity hurts like a disease
the wings that brought you here / will take you far and near
but you will always be no angel to me

0% angel

official amv

Maybe she was gone for a bit
And afraid to admit she was wrong
And maybe she let go just to quit
And moved out to where she belongs
She thinks she fell in love with a witch
The way he spells out that she's wrong
I feel like he's too evil for it
Cast aside with a magical wand

Chalked up driveway
It feels like an ocean
Caught me looking sideways
Provoking emotion
Ask what's the commotion
I’m stuck in place
Don't know where I'm going
You say it’s all for my sake
So I still stay here frozen
While this gap keeps on growing

This feeling I’m loving must fall
The holes and blood on the wall
Reminding why we once fell out of love
I’m tired of reads and blocked calls
Reminding me of all my flaws
Try to tell me again what to think of

Maybe she was gone for a bit
And afraid to admit she was wrong
And maybe she let go just to quit
And moved out to where she belongs
She thinks she fell in love with a witch
The way he spells out that she's wrong
I feel like he's too evil for it
Cast aside with a magical wand

charmer

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0V9LhAvbwFMQvCPa6THAEj?si=fa34d7cab6094502
MY BIG MAN @yyankyyy follow him


lyrics:
find a place idc how much it hurts
finding my way in the dark i think im lost
lost

hoooooo
is this the right time to
go out and find my thruth
is this the end
im outta air
i dont know where ill go
im way too far from home

im still paralysed
i hate the thoughts i had inside
im scared of being on my own
it was a thing i thought i heard
cut way too deep i thought it burns
im scared of being all alone

hoooooo
is this the right time to
go out and find my thruth
is this the end
im outta air
i dont know where ill go
im way too far from home

far from home w/yanky

"paradigm shift." was originally born out of frustration, anger, and hatred.

i was going through the worst creative burnout of my life. my surroundings filled me with dread as everything and everyone around me was seeking perfection, viewing everything analytically, and acting apathetically corporate. the people i was surrounded by demanded too much from me, expecting that i would gladly devote my body and soul to make my music "perfect" for the sake of another's ego and vision, who probably couldn't care less of other people's thoughts. i grew angry, and that bled into my music to the point that i started to hate it.

i disappeared for a week. i did nothing but sleep as my dreams felt more comforting than being awake. i socialized with no one except for cat. after a few days, i became slightly better, and i opened up fl to try to make a song. that was when i began work on "paradigm shift."

after nearly a year of sheltering within it, this song, that was originally made out of anger, morphed into a story. an epiphanous story of acceptance and peace.

"paradigm shift." is about my journey as a creative that is expected to meet the demands of what others consider "perfect." it's about my journey of realizing that i don't want nor need to be "perfect." it's about my journey of realizing that all i wish is for someone to feel something from my creations.

cat told me how this song sounds like i took my frustration and found beauty within it.
i love the sound of that.

- denis.

paradigm shift.

hyacinth --- artwork by @reksi420 --- additional guitars by @buzit0

you're my hyacinth  
that got away
from our promises
our promises

you're my hyacinth
growing out of place
I hope to god you'll stay

and i remember
wishing you were down by the lake
oh no
couldn't keep you up from drowning away
at all
finally gave up on your life
so don't wait
it's all good

now it's november 
and we're sitting outside in the rain
our voices tremble
you're whispering
!that's not what you said!
and i remember 
hoping that it'll come to an end
as we sway in the wind
close our eyes
as we sing 
about

and i can't believe 
your safe in my arms
time stops
to breathe
so just sway in the wind 
and don't worry
cause you've become so sweet
close your eyes 
fall asleep
have i found what i need?
as it rains down
i'm feeling all the pressure in my veins
now
i'm holding every moment to my chest
hearts beating with no rest
i've finally found my end

you're my hyacinth  
that got away
from our promises
i'll promise it

you're my hyacinth
growing out of place
I hope to god you'll stay

<3

hyacinth

windflower

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art by https://x.com/_exaflares

windflower

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motivation

lets start :3c

Suroki, halfTrue, EyesAndArrows, maringen

Lyrics

----VERSE 1----

[WHAT'S THIS ?]

They say your body loves you so unconditionally (That's right !)
But when i break mine i hope i'm forgiven (Of course :D)
I used to think together we could be anything

But i'm not an idiot, yeh

Keep getting closer to some people i'll never meet
But still won't talk to those i've known since like 17
I'm feeling nauseous when somebody is nice to me

I must be an idiot

ARE YOU ?

----CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

WHAT'S THIS ?

----VERSE 2----

Someone said they want my hands for themselves
I couldn't comprehend the things that they felt
It's not that i don't like the way that they're held , I think i'd like
It more, as somebody else

[AAAH]

Can't fake the feeling that you'll never be home again
Ashamed to say but i've forgotten just what it meant
You're nothing now, and we know who it should've been

Cos i'm just an idiot

ARE YOU ?

----CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT 
ARE YOU ?

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

[OH NO !]

----POSTCHOR----

I never change
I'll never change
I can't decide
I'll think about it
It's always been
just like you said

You wanna live ? then start !

I wanna to change
I wanna to change
Can't be this way
forever but I
Don't wanna be
Don't wanna be
(Somebody else)

----PRECHOR----

She's got nowhere to go
He didn't even notice
I thought we'd be prettier
We must not be ready yet

ARE YOU ?

----CHORBUILD----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDI - 
[OH NO !]

ARE YOU ?

----FINAL CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

I WANNA LIVE

[WHAT'S THIS ?]

AND I CAN'T LET THIS GO ON     
PROMISE YOU DON'T HAVE TO WAIT
WHEN WE CAN'T BE WHAT YOU WANT
I'll STILL LOVE YOU ANYWAY

I WANNA LIVE

let's start. 




IDIOTTT

Demand peace
Demand it now
Demand peace
Demand it now

Instill the peace
Show the love
Instill the peace
Rise above

Stop the harm
Promote our harmony
Stop the harm
Promote our colony

Stop this nonsense
Stop it now
Stop the pain
To others
Don't allow

Demand peace
Demand it now
Demand peace
Demand it now

Instill the peace
Show the love
Instill the peace
Rise above

Stop the harm
Promote our harmony
Stop the harm
Promote our colony

Demand peace
Demand it now
Demand peace
Demand it now

Instill the peace
Show the love
Instill the peace
Rise above

Demand peace
Demand it now
Demand peace
Demand it now

Stop the harm
Promote our harmony
Stop the harm
Promote our colony

Instill the peace
Show the love
Instill the peace
Rise above

0% angel

goodnight lavender

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