i thought you were good on your own, guess not [dercept]

guitar by @pekarot

feel the shakes in my body 
and i wish you'd call me
my friends say they're sorry 
as my eyes leak out softly
don't worry at all 
i'll wait for a message 
a paper in a bottle 
a pill that's hard to swallow 

you're getting really good at that part
the one where you hurt me 
the one where you're leaving
all i ever had was my heart
and now it's in pieces
and now i'm not breathing 

and all there is left is some memories of us
picturing a gun
taking my blood
and there is is left is this pain that weighs a ton
filling up my lungs
destroying my guts

all i ever had was my heart

gaslighting w/ skele

@shikixo
@lilskeleskrrt
prod. me

lyrics:
i could afford the lack of goodbye
i could afford the cheap seat at the back of the plane
i could afford the cab fair into the city
i could bear the concerned looks
the weights sewn into my pockets
the blazing sun
i have weight enough to jump
to fall
to sink
and never be seen again 

and i called you for what i thought was the last time
and when you said you loved me god, i swear i almost cried
and i can hear you screaming, see your shadow in the halls
i’m terrified to sink, but i’d do anything to fall 

and i keep jumping off of bridges in my dreams
your shadow follows me everywhere, you rip me at the seams
and i’ve been writing letters that i hope you never read
but maybe one day you’ll come back and i can get some sleep
and i’ll keep jumping off of bridges til the water’s like your arms
too safe to come back to, but there’s comfort in the dark

and i called you to hear your voice, i love the sound
i wanna say i love you but, god i swear i don’t know how
and i fell down again i know exactly what you want
cuts right through my skin i know you love to see my blood

take some time out, i thought you were everything i’m not
love i’m sorry, you thought i was pretty but i’m not
and i, i’ve been holding your heart while you’ve been breaking apart mine
the whole time, i know it’s not what you want but i just wish that you were mine

and i called you for what i thought was the last time
and when you said you loved me, god, i swear i almost cried…

i keep jumping off of bridges w/ skele

produced by sk8miles

completely non profit

lyrics

so who showed up to ur funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw your family pulling up with all their caseroles 
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
for every moment u spent living I sat here alone
( I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
but at the gruesome end I ask u where'd ur friends go
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

we live our lives online and wonder why we're so alone
i go outside to get reminded not to leave my home
you should lighten up and maybe then u'll find a bit of hope
you should be shutting up man I don't even care a bit at all

computer screens and actors
lights off n my back hurts
car wheels roll backwards
lives lost like captives
dying youngs in fashion
I live that gutter life no mansions
no handouts no pensions 
wear my body out for my paycheck
don't say nothing, don't spray it
I been in my head of late just brain me
take a .45 or a mil' o' 9 and send the lead out of my cranium
brain splatter on pavement
all of the grey matter just wasted
if u want something just take it
can't be assed complaining bout it

thoughts tracked on a post it
can't connect at all with humans (humans)
something broke in my brain machine
I can't talk to u without booze in me
(did u find ur halo?)
so friends come n they always leave
but that's fine tho it's alright with me
I've found the way that I'm meant to be
all alone I can finally breathe 
(did u find ur halo?)
let me breathe
bury me in mulch n rotten leaves
(did u find ur halo?)
July will mark the two years that I've grieved
why waste ur time I beg you don't believe in me
(did u find ur halo?)

so will u show up to my funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw my family pulling up with bottled alcohol
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
keep the numbers low I had no friends that they could get involved
(I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
shout out to my ones across the world I'll never see at all
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

banking on a funeral (sk8miles)

ghoul_001 - 2007 w/ scapegoat [kaktus X odece]

Debut Album by GTXDRIP. Prod. by abysshund

Dracula

Reaper FT. jekyl- Vanish

angel wings [5v]

guitar by @irby314

situations that i cant help 
nicotine in my lungs fucking my health
i could end it all
i could end it all
i wish that u stayed 
missing u here right now
what a shame
decompose in my house
what to do 
what to say
u pushed me away
3,4,5 minutes
nobody home to bear witness
3,4,5 minutes
1 bullet to help finish
(i did this to myself)
ive been hurting so long
i cant hold on

shame

https://soundcloud.com/greenkaktus
 

turn the lights off
turn the lights off
i can't sleep now
pull up at your house
is it love when you bring me so down
i keep breaking but you bring me back around
and it hurts when you say you love me 
i know you don't
i just want you to want me 
i know you won't
i know that you don't think of me when you're alone
and i've been trying to stay
but your so cold

i'll never be the person you want
everyday you make it harder and harder to trust
i would do anything
but nothing is ever enough
if you dont need me then tell me 
i'm sick of faking the love
sick of you faking to care
but you push me away
i know you see how it kills me 
but you don't care anyway
i know it's sad that im still trying
you don't care anyway

lights/breaking [kaktus]

if i posted your song and you want me to take it down, dm me

ghoul_001 - 2007 w/ scapegoat [kaktus X odece]

/vomit

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