ill release real music sometime i promise

stop ! let me grab my backpack

i don’t wanna be late to my class again

honors been waiting since last november 

when we had to quarantine for a term 

had to keep the doors clean. in return

we would spend 14 days alone

only seeing four teens if were 

lucky enough to see a friend 

up in morning we would spend 

our time right online 

doing assignments 

RUN IT BACK !!!!!11

let me digress 

to when we were young, not scared of anyone 

don’t know where the time went

took a nap now it’s 2021

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

he said with a mask on

he can’t believe he’s already at the finish line

but before he packs up

he’s gotta pass one more class

i don’t wanna go

i don’t wanna go act like i’m happy 

about a cap thrown in the air 

don’t know if i’ll last long in the

real i world

fear the world x2

practice my penmanship 

while my pity’s pending in a

pretty small penny sized penitentiary 

that i call my brain. i don’t plan to plead 

for a plodding pace in life 

i just wanna say

i just wanna say 

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

class of 2021

bro really just bought soundcloud pro for a second account

white boy white boy

you’re better than everyone 

the type of boy to write stories

about is better

and everyone knows that

oh, don’t forget about the fact 

that they’re supposed to be another of 

thousands of other superlative people 

with money supporting them, ignoring the fact 

it’s evident

that nobody a kid with a little bit of melanin 

a mismatch within the sorority so develop big

animosity towards the ones who are mad at it

to the masses you

have everything we’ve thought wanted for 

too long. we ask that you be everything

and anything but forbearing 

when buried in the fight against

sentiment, all hiding

sentimental feelings will 

renovate into 

an emotional dystopia 

coping with the absurd 

fact that they’re supposed to be

another one of thousands of other 

hurting people

whose money’s controlling their

ignored and suppressed sentiments 

one of them goes to the kid with a little bit of

melanin 

asks them for help even though it is stretching

them thin

not knowing they’re one of the people 

who are mad at the

white boy, white boy

who’s better than everyone

so the white boy white boy

whose heads is a mess he runs

away

tried to correlate more

reasons they’re fed up with everyone

who tried to aid and support

their tendency to suppress their heart

an acquired taste

this song is about wanting normal things like normal people


Performed by
Evangeline, mt saint michael

Written by
E. Butcher

Produced by
Evangeline, mt saint michael, Callum Sheehan


https://evangeline.info


I got the best seat in the house
and you've been dying to try it on
So when weeks turn into months and the blood dries up
I'm watching TV and you're up and gone

I want a house with a picket fence
so I can yell at the neighbor's kids
So when months turn into years and the scars disappear
I'll box all my thoughts up and shut the lid

And I hope your car tailspins on its way home
I'm chasing the high of skipping your funeral
So when old cuts open up and the tears start to fall
I'll put a band-aid on it but still fall comatose

Tailspin (ft. mt saint michael & Callum Sheehan)

>>>\\\LYRICS BELOW

goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

the final trophy song

____

made in 24 hours for @artbyform 's All Nighter Vol. 7

In this song, clearlew's vocal performance embodies my two-year debate of being transgender. It's Canal Pride in Amsterdam as we're making this, and I'm sitting home writing a song with my best friend about being beautiful in my own way. However, given as to how clearlew sings my story and he doesn't represent the lyrics personally, we decided to write a song that can also be interpreted as a love song, about a girl named >>>"lola" - the name I would have given myself, if I would have decided to become a woman.

____

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https://soundcloud.com/clearlew
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https://www.instagram.com/clearlew_/
https://twitter.com/clearlew_?lang=en

____

Lyrics

I've gotta think twice
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

I've gotta think twice,
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
But I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
to see your face because I 
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right
You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
but I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
To see your face because I
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes 'till the time is right

I've gotta think twice
I've gotta think twice
(Yeah!)

____

goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

clearlew + TROPHYTROPHY - lola (51)

@scrobaby

Lyrics:

what it really takes
im on my own im on my own now
i dont like the way
it feels like im part of the breakdown

and you let go of the wheel
tryna find yourself in the crash won’t heal you 
but i dont have a stake in this
you could throw it away but it comes back to you
and where could my intrusive thoughts be going to?
you could throw it away but it comes back to you
and where could my intrusive thoughts be going

bad at explaining cause i care bout your reactions
wherever this flower blooms i guess I’ll have to
and all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure

im on my own im on my own now
it feels like im part of the breakdown

and all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure
(on my way down)
all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure
(on my way down)
all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure
(on my way down)
all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more 
kaleidoscope
all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure
(on my way down)
all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure
(on my way down)
all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure
(on my way down)
(if what i want's not what i need then how do i explain these dreams)
all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure
(on my way down)
(if what i want's not what i need then how do i explain these dreams)

Jedwill, Scro - Kaleidoscope

co-prod by @charliemakesmusic
thank you for being here :)


baby i can't fall asleep i think too much about the end
and i think im running out of time ill fall into your skin
fall into your skin
wait for this to end

romanticizing life
you must have lost your mind
all i do is sit inside
i waste my time

but its all my fault
didn't get a job cause ur too comfortable
cutting off some friends its nothin personal
they're just going through some shit you never felt at all
party in the city i forgot my flaws

my visions blurry tonight but im still looking at you
we got too high (high) off our shit and we got slightly amused
i dont feel so sad
baby you don't mean that
i take a look where im at
feelings i gotta combat
and i fall back to you
i fall back to you

something has to change

this song is not finished

observer is comprised of taur and Little Faith and dylazy and Oncill and hidden contact and clovehitch and charlie zacks and aso and mossgarden and evangeline and fyoum and jacob travels and an_isopod and close-knit and friends


produced by evangeline, clovehitch, close-knit, charlie zacks, jacob travels, hidden contact, taur
mixed by close-knit, dylazy, and clovehitch

TRAVELS:
I don't mind your way
 
DYLAZY:
Feel the rush as I fall and I decay
Ego death I'll go and learn to stay
 
FYOUM:
Yeah, what you up to dude
I could have swear I saw you
But you don't want to talk
Nevertheless I'm cool with you
Not hanging around now that you are so far away
Nobody else nowhere to go and I'm way too close
And I don't know why all these people change and these people fake
And these people claim what was

Once mine and I'm not even joking
My free time ain't for free when you smoking
Goodbye don't forget that I don't care
About you cause your smile makes me broken
 
CHARLIE ZACKS:
I looked into your eyes
And I knew that you would wreck my night, wreck my night
I saw ten thousands reasons
To trust my gut to trust my fight or flight, fight or flight

But you told me that you liked my smile
So I fell in love with your last name
Every look you gave me
It meant so much more to me than you think
 
TRAVELS:
When I'm alone the self is a mirror
Water crystal but I need it clearer

When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
 
GALA:
I don't mind your way now
You wouldn't fall and stay down
Felt the rush decay out
Spilled my guts and I left them out 
To clear your doubts and I'm shouting
 
GANG VOCALS:
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY

TAUR: 
I don't mind your way now, 
trust me now, 
through the rise and fall you are yours not the all I've escapen all control

observer - IDMYW

made right after i discovered goodhertz lossy. 

s/o https://soundcloud.com/brakence

original: https://soundcloud.com/brakence/5g

art: @sumantsagar

enjoy!

brakence - 5g (doug suh flip)

hey thanks so much for listening!

much love,
gordo


---

lost you somehow
kept yourself down
insides ripped out
out, out, out, out

whole life knocked out
watch yourself drown
can't go back now
now

left alone for quite some time
these things fester inside
you can run, but you can't hide
you can't hide

left alone

fester.

thank you to the awesome @patchymate for the cover art and help with arrangement and mixing! 

she'd go and take it, don’t reciprocate
end up feeling less sweet, opened wide
I’m dead in conversations, going to places i shouldn’t stay
real or on the line

feeling out of touch,
I can’t sense a numb feeling
state the obvious when I lose track of meaning
you keep on reading my mind when I don’t want you to
when I write about, write about, you
shit, go and take it, don’t reciprocate
even if it’s for the worse, I think I’ll be just fine

(patchymate)
don’t!
stop breaking your back for me
it isn’t worth the pain and the sense of a tragedy
it wasn’t no

don’t!
stop taking the edge out of everything i like
don’t!
keep me from friends ain’t like nothing that you had
don’t take it out on me, i’m your beauty queen
and i want everything you have
i want everything you have

still wanna show the do-si-do
show off the branches when the grow
and i want everything you have
i want everything you have
i wanna build an enterprise
co-divide and start to multiply and multiply and multiply and multiply

take it out of me to see the rest
lied about who lies with me in bed
fornicating on with someone else
and all my friends are getting used to it
all my friends are the best
believe me, to be the name i wasn’t then
it could have killed me in an instant
it could have got to my soul

and i love being all orderly
but it ain’t for me
i march to my own form
don’t you see?
i told you babe, it was an omen
and my friends are gonna love it when i cry

and you won’t
but you don’t have to believe me again

me/you feat. patchymate

🌸🌸🌸

~lyrics~
i don't think you know me anymore
head on my shoulder
i don't wanna get close because i think you're just bored
oh no

i guess we're getting older
but i'm not your only guy
that you're talking to tonight, no

and i might be thinking about you in that way
but last time we talked you didn't even try to stay
now don't act like this is the end
but i think that we should just stay friends

we should go downtown today
i wanna have some interaction
before you try and say goodbye
can you promise me you'll come by soon?
because i don't wanna be here alone

but i don't think you know me anymore
head on my shoulder
i don't wanna get close because i think you're just bored
oh no

i guess we're getting older
but i'm not your only guy
no i'm not your only guy, no

and i might be thinking about you in that way
but last time we talked you didn't even try to stay
now don't act like this is the end
but i think that we should just stay friends

fester.

gordon snyder

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