gothurted

Gothurted

✝ ✝ ✝

best

✪̖g̖o̖t̖h̖u̖r̖t̖e̖d̖✪̖

You're the best thing that could ever happen
The best view in the sky of Manhattan
The only one who did not see me acting
Never been myself, with you I can
Never felt a man, with you I am
Didn't want love but you caught me lacking
Me and you, you and me living lavish
Gave me everything that I wished

Didn't know that I can feel my heartbeat
I forgot it but you did remind me
That I'm still alive
Couldn't see anything I was blinded
By the dark and the thoughts I was fighting
But I'm still alive

With you the time flies by
Won't leave your side
For you I'd die
You filled my life with light
During the night
Nothing was right

Tienimi la mano non andartene
l'unico motivo per combattere
A volte sono freddo come Antartide
Preferisco i fatti a delle chiacchiere


Avrei dovuto buttarmi quel giorno
Ancora ci penso mo tengo il rimorso
Tu che mi hai fermato prima del mio crollo
Che fine avrei fatto cadendo la sotto?

E io ti giuro
Che ti sarò fedele
Pure queste sere al diluvio
Se fuori fa buio
E ora mi scuso
Le cattive maniere
Qui nulla va bene
C'è un muro
E ti chiedo aiuto

With you the time flies by
Won't leave your side
For you I'd die
You filled my life with light
During the night
Nothing was right

STREAM

Flies By w/Emon Owen

feelings

memories

Lyrics

And I need someone next to me
But seems nobody wants to stay 
Let me take away my life 
I don't want to be alive any other day

I just keep myself in me 
Cause these snakes trynna bite my neck
Poison blinds me but I can see 
Who really loves me and watch my back

Do you mind smoking weed together? 
Thats the only way that I get better 
I know I'm not such a good heartbreaker
I cant kill you with a message 

And I need someone next to me
But seems nobody wants to stay 
Let me take away my life 
I don't want to be alive any other day

I just keep myself in me 
Cause this snakes trynna bite my neck
Poison blinds me but I can see 
Who really loves me and watch my back

someone [prod. discent]

Don't tell me you love me
If you want to make me cry
Don't tell me you love me
If you want to make me die

I was by your side 
But it wasn't enough
would you mind 
If I choose to go
Would you mind 
If I fall in love with you again
Girl, so

Don't tell me you love me
If you want to make me cry
Don't tell me you love me
If you want to make me die

Is this a fucking joke?
I gave you my heart
Now my heart is broke
You gave me nothing
But nobody's ever done
And now I'm choking
Cuz I saw your call
Everything you say 
You say it to hurt me so

Don't tell me you love me
If you want to make me cry
Don't tell me you love me
If you want to make me die

make me [prod. sketchmyname]

featuring  @crvzyy
[Gothurted] 
I'm all alone
Looking at my phone
Are you gonna text me? 
Thought that you would miss me 
But I lost my hopes
Cause I know you won't
Baby please just don't
I remember the time
Smoking dope and some wine 
But I'm all alone
I'm all alone

[Crazy]
Feel so lonely from the time you left
Need you with me baby please come back
You said you're mine
I crossed my lines
A thousand times
But you're still stuck inside my mind

[Gothurted] 
I'm all alone
Looking at my phone
Are you gonna text me? 
Thought that you would miss me 
But I lost my hopes
Cause I know you won't
Baby please just don't
I remember the time
Smoking dope and some wine 
But I'm all alone
I'm all alone

alone ft. 1SONGTHENiDiP [prod. sketchmyname & vaegud]

thanks to @deadfishpoland for have saved this Tuesday's song

[hook]
I don't need you
you just want to fool me
Don't come back to me
If you'on really want me
I don't feel you
I don't love you anymore
All my feelings now are gone
Stop fuck hitting up my phone girl
x2

[verse(deadfish)]
I don't need you
you never said back anything like "love u"
stop hitting up my phone, nothing's there to stop u
from fucking killing me

When you have said that we are fine
we were looking at the stars
when you've walked past me that first time
I thought that u could shine
and show me where's the light
in my dark and shady life
man that was a mistake
to keep believing that all was fine
keep on trying
now I'm crying

[hook]
I don't need you
you just want to fool me
Don't come back to me
If you don't really want me
I don't feel you
I don't love you anymore
All my feelings now are gone
Stop fuck hitting up my phone girl
x2

i don't need you ft. deadfish [prod. myhzy]

thanks to @frvrndalwys for this collab, love him so much <3

Lyrics: 
[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on

[verse: frvr&alwys]
Help me I'm dying
I said I'd be fine I was lying
'Cause I knew from the start you were leaving
But I can't move on from this feelings
Stung when you left
Numb now that you're gone
My heart hurts theres no point in moving on
I'm fucked up so I make another song
You weren't there when I was not strong

[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on

[verse: gothurted]
I'm trying to moving on
But you're always on my mind
I feel so fucking low
Even when I'm always fine 
I swear I've never meant to hurt you
Shawty I would never
I think I'll never leave you
Doesn't matter what you will say  

[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on
I'm trying to moving on

moving on ft. frvr&alwys [prod. metlast]

Artist:
https://soundcloud.com/deadfishpoland

Producer:
https://soundcloud.com/hxrxkiller

Lyrics:
don't ever fall in love they say
it's the biggest trap, don't go this way
you're gonna get it when you grow up
20 years old, still didn't got that

cause i just wanna feel, your heart next to my chest
i just wanna be for you and feel so blessed
don't care about shit other ppl say
when you're not around i feel like i slowly start to fade

cause i just wanna feel, your hand clenched in mine
don't ever let me go, i hope we're fine
when you're saying that you love me i feel so alive
baby don't cry over this, together we can brightly shine

and that is how i'm feeling
i don't want to lay, staring at the ceiling
i just want us to be together
heart to heart, thinking bout whatever
comes to mind
baby we are fine
don't worry bout a thing
i can deal with anything
yea
for you, i'll do everything
i'll do everything
cause

cause i just wanna feel, your heart next to my chest
i just wanna be for you and feel so blessed
don't care about shit other ppl say
when you're not around i feel like i slowly start to fade

cause i just wanna feel, your hand clenched in mine
don't ever let me go, i hope we're fine
when you're saying that you love me i feel so alive
baby don't cry over this, together we can brightly shine

i just want to feel

deadfish - i just want to feel

@pposture <3

Lyrics:
[verse]
I'm getting bad to tell to someone I love you
'Cause every time I do so they leave
I'm getting insecure about what I will do
'Cause every time I try the world seems
To stop me to hate me to make it worse
To fool me, suffocate me, make me fall
I remember the good times me and you
I remember we calling in the afternoon 

[Bridge]
Now everything is gone
Now everything is gone 
Now everything is gone
And I know that you won't come back

[Chorus]
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you

[Verse]
I tried to move on but that's not easy at all
I tried to go ahead but nothing seems to work
I think I've tried everything that I could
But seems like I'll never come back to you
You told me that you loved me
What's the point?
Did you just try to fuck me up?
Life has never been easy and you made it even worse

[Bridge]
Now everything is gone
Now everything is gone
Now everything is gone
And I know that you won't come back

[Chorus]
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you

Pick Up The Phone [prod. gothurted x pposture]

Lyrics.

[hook]
I can tell by how she hugs me
She doesn't care about me 
Tell me that you love me 
But you know that I won't fall for it
Tell by how she look at me
She doesn't feel a thing
Leave my fucking dreams
'Cause I cannot even sleep
x2

[verse]
I can't even sleep
'Cause I'm busy crying
I can't even think
Thoughts are intensifying
You were the one who I loved
Since when I've met you and now
You're gone, so far away 
My phone misses your name
I can't fall in love no more
I guess nobody else has what I'm looking for

[hook]
I can tell by how she hugs me
She doesn't care about me 
Tell me that you love me 
But you know that I won't fall for it
Tell by how she look at me
She doesn't feel a thing
Leave my fucking dreams
'Cause I cannot even sleep
x2

She Doesn't Care About Me [prod. dead spyro]

[produced by dj khaled's son]
[mixed and mastered by neek and convolk]

lyrics:

i swear to god that it's all in the making
i swear to god imma fall if i fake it 
i swear to god in my mind gotta trace it 
i swear to god, swear to god
i swear to god rather die than disgrace it 
i swear to god imma try not to chase it 
i swear to god if i try imma make it 
i swear to god, swear to god

stuck here
in the same place
everyone fake 
they all wanna save face
my heart chokes
intimate notes 
everyone wrote
when i lost my way

you don't know what i been through 
i don't show what happened to 
me back when i wasn't cool
me back when i was a fool

feel like i'm kanye back in 06
feeling like what i say, people notice 
colder than an ice age cracking both fists
colder than an ice age heart is frozen 
x2

i swear to god that it's all in the making
i swear to god imma fall if i fake it 
i swear to god in my mind gotta trace it 
i swear to god, swear to god
i swear to god rather die than disgrace it 
i swear to god imma try not to chase it 
i swear to god if i try imma make it 
i swear to god, swear to god

swear to god

tysm to @frvrndalwys for collaborating with me on this awesome project <3

Lyrics

[hook: gothurted]
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find

[verse: frvr&alwys]
Suicide, don't let me die
My eyes are blind, but I still try
Do you still cry
'Cause I still cry
And I can't find
Some peace of mind
So Imma just do everything to get fucked up again
'Cause I don't really need your voice inside my head
No more pain
No more blood
It's all the same
It's never enough

[hook: gothurted]
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find

Inner Peace [prod. metlast] w/frvr&alwys

tysm to @frvrndalwys for collaborating with me on this awesome project <3

Lyrics

[hook: gothurted]
I don't know where I could go without you
I don't know if I would live without you
'Cause when I fall again
I know that you won't be the one getting me up
Getting me up
I can't live without you

[verse: frvr&alwys]
I just can't walk away from this
Without you in my life I don't wanna live
Got marks from your knife
Running down my skin
Dripping on the ice
Taint my life with sin
I've been moving slower
Smoke my bowl and go down lower
Watch the ashes smolder
If I want to I could own her

[hook: gothurted]
I don't know where I could go without you
I don't know if I would live without you
'Cause when I fall again
I know that you won't be the one getting me up
Getting me up
I can't live without you

Without You [prod. metlast] w/frvr&alwys

[hook]
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing

[verse]
Try to spend a life without me
Even if I know that for you that's easy
Hitting on a blunt now I'm feeling dizzy
Without your arms around me
I swear that I'm freezing
You make me feel like
I'm not enough for you
No matter what I do
No matter my efforts
I got no more force
I'm trying to let you understand
You were my only friend
You were the only one I love
And I will love forever
I can't still accept that we'll never be together
'Cause you took me out from the darkness
But then you let me down
And the sky looks starless

[hook]
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing

Without Breathing [prod. Ahnboi]

music video: https://youtu.be/n4sWulmLDPo

Lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mwdGPE1V6wg

Produced by Yago

IT'S GONNA BE AN ENDLESS NIGHT

Lyrics:

[Intro]
"iluvtora"

[Pre-Chorus]
i'm running out of time
im stuck inside my head
you make me feel alive
i won't sleep until im dead
i wanna feel your touch just one more time
i just want your love, you don't care about mine

[Bridge]
shit is getting hard i hope you know i'll never comeback
youre always on my mind and all i see is fucking flashbacks
i think its getting late but if u leave its gonna kill me
it's gonna kill me...

[Chorus]
id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

[Verse]
and now im getting high
drinking doesn't help
either way im in the sky
i wanna stay outside
it's gonna be an endless night
yeah under the moonlight

i wish you called me back today
but i don't wanna fight so its okay
i wish you called me back today
but i don't wanna fight so its okay
wish me luck imma die in piece
can you take my heart and come with me
i can show u all my pain that im fighting
my inner peace is what im finding

i can show u all my pain that im fighting
my inner peace is what im finding

[Pre-Chorus]
i'm running out of time
im stuck inside my head
you make me feel alive
i won't sleep until im dead
i wanna feel your touch just one more time
i just want your love, you don't care about mine

[Pre-Chorus]
shit is getting hard i hope you know i'll never comeback
youre always on my mind and all i see is fucking flashbacks
i think its getting late but if u leave its gonna kill me
it's gonna kill me...

[Chorus]
id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

[Outro]
id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

music video

killing myself in my best outfit (prod. Yago)

lyrics:
Tell me what you hate
And everything that I'm not
What am I trying to save
I should just leave you to rot
Rub it all in my face
I want all this to stop
I'm so tired of feeling like I'm not enough

And I can't look at myself anymore
It's sad this face is nothing like it was
And I don't know who I am anymore
Since I've been with you baby
I don't know alot
But I know I'm in love with you
This feeling is stuck
I don't know what to do without you
Please
Don't leave
Without me

convolk:
When you can't stand being broken
I know 
x2
But your not the one to save my life
To help you once I'd kill me twice
x2

Without Me ft. convolk [prod. Glasear and familypet]

prod. Noria

Lyrics:
[verse]
I'm done with the love that you talk about but never show
I'm sick of feeling like I'm just another one
I'm done with the endless calls looking at my phone 
Thinking about all the feelings that I don't feel anymore
Just right now that I thought it was over
You cry and beg me to stay like a lover
I was there when nobody else was
But now I'm feeling better because

[hook]
I'm trying to live in a world without you
A world where gray's everywhere that I look
A world where you're not anymore the sun waking me up
And every step I take doesn't feel like I'm stuck
x2

[verse]
(Every step I take doesn't feel like I'm stuck)
Remember the past years spent together?
You were the one saying that nothing lasts forever
You were the one saying that I should move on
Now that I'm trying, you don't want, what's going on
Do you love me or you don't want me to be free?
I don't like that you disappear and then you don't want me to leave
You can't blame me for the decisions I'm taking
I know I said this before but

[hook]
I'm trying to live in a world without you
A world where gray's everywhere that I look
A world where you're not anymore the sun waking me up
And every step I take doesn't feel like I'm stuck
x2

A World Without You [prod. noria]

Lyrics:

[hook]
I am in a dark place can you save me?
I am all on my own can you blame me?
I am falling apart can you heal me?
I am screaming so loud can you hear me?
All the thoughts in my mind are blending together
I can't sort anything that is in my head
Feels like I'm somewhere that I can never
Escape from I guess I'm better off dead
Nobody even tries 
Everybody lies
Drowning in cries
I just wanna die
I'm in a roller coaster I'm going down
Crashing to the floor you can hear the sound
Leaving no memories with my lost
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs

[verse]
I've been so stupid trusting you
I knew nobody is ever honest
I think I'll keep on avoiding you
I'm just a lone wolf inside this forest
Living my life like I've always done and
Living my life all alone 
I swear that I'm so sorry mother
But your son now is gone

[hook]
I am in a dark place can you save me?
I am all on my own can you blame me?
I am falling apart can you heal me?
I am screaming so loud can you hear me?
All the thoughts in my mind are blending together
I can't sort anything that is in my head
Feels like I'm somewhere that I can never
Escape from I guess I'm better off dead
Nobody even tries
Everybody lies
Drowning in cries
I just wanna die
I'm in a roller coaster I'm going down
Crashing to the floor you can hear the sound
Leaving no memories with my lost
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs

MUSIC VIDEO

Dark Place [prod. Young Kxge]

Out now on all streaming platforms - https://open.spotify.com/track/24bPKVpbTMhkExxXe2jj8p?si=N05weZt4SoGwvYBHu7HCyA

I don't know what you see?

Mixed and Mastered by @tripwonda

Life's Unfair (Prod. Capsctrl)

weird!

it's quiet in beverly hills

Sitting In Fire

hell no, you can not ride with us
back of the cab you can find your seat alone
you be all dangerous with the way you talk
yeah i had to  let you know
did i stu-stu-stutter
cause sometimes yes i do when i'm alone with you
did i stu-stu-stutter
cause you think it is cute but i wish you fucking knew
hell no, you can not ride with us
back of the cab you can find your seat alone
you be all dangerous with the way you talk
yeah i had to  let you know

i was alone way before you thought that shit was trendy
black emojis in your bio, oh you put to many
and my bitch was dressed in black and she was not to friendly
i got messages but you really could not offend me

i never needed you
even if it gets you blue
imma let you know it's really true
i never needed you
i made sure that you can't say i do, you can't say i do

i was alone way before you thought that shit was trendy
she used to be so happy now she cut the fendi
back when i was on the floor, you could've healed my sores
but you chose to spit on me and now

hell no, you can not ride with us
back of the cab you can find your seat alone
you be all dangerous with the way you talk
yeah i had to  let you know
did i stu-stu-stutter
cause sometimes yes i do when i'm alone with you
did i stu-stu-stutter
cause you think it is cute but i wish you fucking knew
hell no, you can not ride with us
back of the cab you can find your seat alone
you be all dangerous with the way you talk
yeah i had to  let you know

Hell No

Monsters (feat. Demi Lovato and blackbear)

Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/1544147984?app=itunes&ls=1
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5qEVz84sNOYRe3PpUlaehE?si=8_2JzKURRhuT2GuzyuQL3g

written & produced by beudi
featuring suckerpunk
mixed & mastered by sinxi

lyrics:
hands are getting cold, I feel it  
paracetamol will heal it   
hope it takes me down
down the rabbit hole, to freedom
oh, it's in my head 
I'm mad and twisted
a misfit, and I won't miss it 
I'm never coming back

I was right to think my mind is kinda sick
need a psychiatrist now
thoughts in my head all are gone way too fast
so instead I'll be writing em down
mayday mayday, going fucking crazy
someone's gotta save me or I'm out
I may wake under a blossom tree
but who knows? 

take me to wonderland
play me my song again
I can't be like one of them
so take me to wonderland

the way that I'm thinking
as scary it possibly gets
I'll drink it and maybe I'm shrinking
but I'll probably just end up dead
led by strife and discord like eris
and a broadened mind like alice
now, all that shit has brought me here
like it's gotta be the white rabbit 
have it tatted right on my neck 
to remind me why I'm like that
I bottled whole the double dose
so I won't be right back
I keep it all on the low
sorry mama, gotta go 
next time leaving I guess you're seeing me
never coming back home

I was right to think my mind is kinda sick
need a psychiatrist now
thoughts in my head all are gone way too fast
so instead I'll be writing em down
mayday mayday, going fucking crazy
someone's gotta save me or I'm out
I may wake under a blossom tree
but who knows? 

take me to wonderland
play me my song again
I can't be like one of them
so take me to wonderland

Wonderland (ft. Suckerpunk)

Lyrics:
[hook]
I'm so broken, broken
Heart got stolen
From my chest
I'm falling, falling
I need some rest
I don't enjoy the way you love me
Cause your love
makes me fall
Makes me sore
I'm all on my own

[verse]
I'm so broken
You're so open 
To find someone different
I'm never enough, no
Everybody is trying to get through your legs
Everything I'm trying to get is in your chest
I don't care at all
About what you telling me
Why don't show your all
to me?

[hook]
I'm so broken, broken
Heart got stolen
From my chest
I'm falling, falling
I need some rest
I don't enjoy the way you love me
Cause your love
makes me fall
Makes me sore
I'm all on my own

Broken [prod. Tsurreal]

gothurted