prod @metlast
Lyrics:
Nothing really seems to change
And I can't even stop to blame myself
Don't want to wake up today
I don't want to feel that pain again
Nothing really seems to change
But nothing really seems the same
I'm dying numb and cold
'Cause inside me there is no more flame

Can you tell me what to think?
'Cause I can feel my heart shrink
I thought that I had nothing
Inside my chest
I just want to feel alive
For the last time

Nothing really seems to change
And I can't even stop to blame myself
Don't want to wake up today
I don't want to feel that pain again
Nothing really seems to change
But nothing really seems the same
I'm dying numb and cold
'Cause inside me there is no more flame

Nothing Changes [prod. metlast]

Passed by too many dimensions, and made it into the unknown 

#fadetofallen⛧
#SpiritNightRecords

REFLECTED

thanks to @frvrndalwys for this collab, love him so much <3

Lyrics: 
[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on

[verse: frvr&alwys]
Help me I'm dying
I said I'd be fine I was lying
'Cause I knew from the start you were leaving
But I can't move on from this feelings
Stung when you left
Numb now that you're gone
My heart hurts theres no point in moving on
I'm fucked up so I make another song
You weren't there when I was not strong

[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on

[verse: gothurted]
I'm trying to moving on
But you're always on my mind
I feel so fucking low
Even when I'm always fine 
I swear I've never meant to hurt you
Shawty I would never
I think I'll never leave you
Doesn't matter what you will say  

[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on
I'm trying to moving on

STREAM

moving on ft. frvr&alwys [prod. metlast]

[Prod. Loopy]
https://soundcloud.com/prod_loopy

Lyrics:

It’s kinda funny how we fucked up, where’d the time go?
All our dreams, all our dreams, Out the window

It’s kinda funny how you do; I wasted so much time for you


Forever I would bleed for you!
Tell me everything I wanna hear, I know it’s not THE TRUTH!
Fuck am I supposed to do?!
When everything I ever loved has been slaughtered, FUCK it's TRUE!

Forever I will bleed for you!
Tell me everything I wanna hear, I know it’s not THE TRUTH!
Fuck am I supposed to do?!
When everything I ever loved has been slaughtered, FUCK it's TRUE!

Fuck you doing to me?! I can’t seem to let it go!
I fucking loved you but I guess that’s not enough for you!!
Break my bones again, and mend me till your heart's content!
Just slit my throat, the pain just never seems to fucking end!!

I swear I love you, but I gotta fucking let you go!
What you did to me was wrong, I hope goddamn know !!
You can’t repair the scars you made, the blood is on your blade!
Forever I would bleed for you; the hate is all I taste!!

Forever I would bleed for you!
Tell me everything I wanna hear, I know it’s not THE TRUTH!
Fuck am I supposed to do?!
When everything I ever loved has been slaughtered, FUCK it's TRUE!

Forever I will bleed for you!
Tell me everything I wanna hear, I know it’s not THE TRUTH!
Fuck am I supposed to do?!
When everything I ever loved has been slaughtered, FUCK it's TRUE!

THE TRUTH [Prod. Loopy]

SCUMBAG [PROD.HEARTJUNKIE]

prod. (hxrxkiller)

dont have money for the good master but hope yall like it <3

lyrics:
tell me how it feels to be distant
ill tell u how it feels to be different
lets match up our scars 
baby pick up the knife
lets see whos gonna
cut the deepest
(oh no)
imma say i hate u cuz
i love u too much
u gonna say u hate me
cuz u wanna move on
im standin up here w ur spit on my face
why u keeping ur mouth away from my name?
(X2)

i wonder if things would be different
if i payed attention to my own interests
instead of bein ignant to the words she was missin
n wonderin if im hittin from the right position

cuz ive been hearing all the whisperin inside of my head
baby i wish you knew how ive been running my thoughts
till my conscious is dead cuz my mind
doesnt like to make sense anymore

tell me how it feels to be distant
ill tell u how it feels to be different
lets match up our scars 
baby pick up the knife
lets see whos gonna
cut the deepest
(oh no)
imma say i hate u cuz
i love u too much
u gonna say u hate me
cuz u wanna move on
im standin up here w ur spit on my face
why u keeping ur mouth away from my name?
(X2)

STREAM ALL PLATFORMS

cut the deepest

ty @alainite for the featuring <3 

[chorus: gothurted]
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
Took a pill cause I don't want to feel shit
Try hard to keep going on the same shit
Cause every time that I'm alone I've been getting hit
By this feeling that is trying to make me die
It's all right, keep walking, keep faking a smile 
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
About you cause every time I do I cry

[verse: alainite]
Yeah every time I do I cry
'Cause I’ve been staying up so late at night and I’m just burning
'Cause I can’t find another way to kill the pain
And I’ve been crawling down this lonely road yeah I been wasted
Just tryna find a place where I can hide my pain

'Cause you’re everything I want and more, oh
Yeah you got me so bored of everybody else I'm sure, oh
That you got me ignored like everybody else I’m sure

[chorus: gothurted]
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
Took a pill cause I don't want to feel shit
Try hard to keep going on the same shit
Cause every time that I'm alone I've been getting hit
By this feeling that is trying to make me die
It's all right, keep walking, keep faking a smile 
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
About you cause every time I do I cry

Faking a Smile ft. Alainite [prod. yunny goldz]

thanks to @web_boy for featuring in this track
and to @prodnothingtodo for the awesome beat

Lyrics:
[hook: gothurted]
Look into my eyes not to the tears there are around them
Kill me with your words right after you said that you love me
Look up to the sky and tell me what star that you wanna be
And I'll let you shine forever inside  my dreams

[verse: gothurted]
Dreams of a man who lost all his feelings
Dying with nobody who's caring for me
Dreams of a girl that will never believe in
The love that I feel and I'll never regret
I'm trying to get closer 
But you keep taking the distance
Pulling the trigger
I think that I can't resist that
I'll tell you my last words
I just want you to know
That I'll love you forever
With all my soul  

[hook: gothurted]
Look into my eyes not to the tears there are around them
Kill me with your words right after you said that you love me
Look up to the sky and tell me what star that you wanna be
And I'll let you shine forever inside  my dreams

[verse: Web Boy]
Bury me in the memories
Let my remains lie in the Ostankino
(Lie in the Ostankino x3)
Just forgive me
I didn’t want to end everything this way
But there was no choice
//
Похорони меня
В воспоминаниях
Мои останки пусть
Лежат в Останкино
(Лежат в Останкино х3)
Просто прости меня
Я не хотел чтоб так
Пришлось заканчивать
Но нету выбора

[hook: gothurted]
Look into my eyes not to the tears there are around them
Kill me with your words right after you said that you love me
Look up to the sky and tell me what star that you wanna be
And I'll let you shine forever inside  my dreams

Inside My Dreams ft. Web Boy [prod. nothingtodo]

Cover art by Sepha.

Lyrics

[s0cliché]
Your sight, your sound on a VHS
coulda let you rest, but I need it tonight
can't let you die quite yet
press rewind, try to turn time back
I know that I'm getting older
wasting the time till it's over
I feet the winters get colder
I put the world on my shoulder
outta the mix
wanted intelligence, wanted the wit
wanted your love because it never slipped
you had a grip on the ones you were with
and my love became an abandonment
my head is no safe establishment
I try to be you, but I'm counterfeit
keep fallin back in and back out of it

from the other side, did your messages send?
did I leave you on read at times?
I can't help but try to find the messages in
almost any damn thing in life

[Sepha.]
We find that we speak on different sides
But our words will always rise above the
Fallen

Think I thought that your dreams 
Were the thread through my seams 
But I still kept
Calling

No i cant speak directly to you
Takes time to find the words to use
But I still try 
Phoning 

No I can’t speak directly to you
Takes time to find the moment to choose 
But I still try 
Phoning 

No signals 
Sent to me
Where am I to go
From here 
X3

We find that we speak on different sides
But our words will always rise above the
Fallen
X2

[s0cliché]
from the other side, did your messages send?
did I leave you on read at times?
I can't help but try to find the messages in
almost any damn thing in life

I find messages in a bottle...
x2

Messages (feat. Sepha. [prod. COBRA.])

s0cliché - Messages (feat. Sepha. [prod. COBRA.])

Prod. Drunk Girl
Cover art by @ marxandria_ on instagram

LYRICS

Why you cryin'
what do I say?
--I got vibes that I really made mistakes
I got tired, so I gotta get away
and flip the script on my fate, let me drift away
resurface when I've really made a change
lately I don't feel so great
think I gotta feel more waves
I’ve been losing my brain

So I don’t know where I’m headed, but I sure can’t stay
oh I think there’s something better
But I only know this never
Pack my bags and see some country while the times are strange
oh I need to feel some weather
I've been feeling under weather
So I’m setting off

And away

s0cliché x Drunk Girl - underweather

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YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/iamcairn
INSTAGRAM: https://instagram.com/iamcairn
TWITTER: https://twitter.com/iamcairn_

Lyrics:
I honestly tried to fit in
To the life you want to be living
But I could never be enough
And I’ll never be enough
You’d rather throw away your love
Into the heavens above
You tell me that I’m not alone
I got no doubt I’m on my own
‘Cause you ghost me and throw me away

You tell me you care
But no one is there
I’ve lost it all
I’m up in the air
‘Cause you can’t be there
You’ll watch me fall

My picture waits in your closet
As my colours fade, I can’t stop it
Got me blind in thе dark
While I’m searching for the stars
And I’m covеred in dust
Locked up and living with these scars
And if you ever change your mind
Don’t think I’ll ever call you mine
‘Cause you ghost me and throw me away

You tell me you care
But no one is there
I’ve lost it all
I’m up in the air
‘Cause you can’t be there
You’ll watch me fall