loss and grief has pervaded every corner of my life and i am fighting so hard to break this pattern. so i've promised myself: i won't live like i'm dying.

this album was made from late 2024 to early 2026 about a variety of ex-friends, being disowned by my family, my catholic upbringing, my ex-lover, & having to constantly forge my own path and reject the narratives imposed on me. whilst it isn't perfect, it is me as raw and vulnerable as i have ever been publicly. 

i hope it resonates with you all as much as it has for me <3

i won't live like i'm dying

Produced by @lynyou
Cover art by https://www.instagram.com/martintokeshi

Your words cut deep straight 2 the vein
No I didn’t lose
Spark up smoke propane
Just been numbing all the pain
Yeah  Off beat you’ll float away
On beat I'll say what I want to
…they gone say the flow insane

Yeah  I been in my own lane
Just doing my own thing
If you don’t fuck with me  Just get out of my way
Take a trip we in LA  Post a pic like Myspace 
Tears running down my face  3.5 new headspace

No I cannot believe this
T up yeah i’m tweaking
Yeah your words got me sleep so i'm leaving
Yeah, yeah
Uh, I cannot believe this yeah

Your words cut deep straight 2 the vein
No I didn’t lose
Spark up smoke propane
Just been numbing all the pain
Yeah  Off beat you’ll float away
On beat I'll say what I want to
…they gone say the flow insane

+2 The Vein..

Stream

+2 The Vein.. prod lynU

https://soundcloud.com/vexiee
idk how 2 feel aaaa
i feel invincible i climb the building jump down
idk if youd want me now
i think abt u everyday & cry my eyes out
pull the trigger faster way out
plug js gave me 1mg cz the other ran out
cut him off made me feel down
couldnt gaf i choose the fucking peace now
js choose who u walk w
even tho it felt so crowded lonely moshpit
tied her shoes when she walked in
didnt even check the soles she left my heart in
its js the nail in the coffin
i put the joint out long ago y am i still coughing
its js snails & they crawling
he said he luv me but our heartlocket still locking

tied shoes  @  vexiee

hi guys heres a new song, i'm rly proud of it and i hope it resonates with some of you at all!
contains a sample from:
ninajirachi - delete

also out on all streaming platforms!

✦ . 　⁺ 　 . ✦ . 　⁺ 　 . ✦

(turn on that nest radio)
(be the change you want to see)

if its not one, its the other
everything makes me feel messed up
cuz i can feel as the water hits my stomach
when is the last time that we talked? x2

i said it all, is that not enough?
i cant tell you to stay when all we had is gone
i hide my head in the snow, hoping you would call
and i will fight for my life, until the curtains fall
cuz u dont know what u have, until its all that you got
and it'll get to a point where you stop giving a fuck
and then you'll lose all your friends when your brain runs amok
so now i hang by a thread, i hope that i wont cut it off

i hope that i wont cut it off
cuz i cannot trust myself a few minutes after dark
try to write down what i feel and then shove it into song
but i only like my hooks, the rest is filler until its not

if its not one, its the other
everything makes me feel messed up
cuz i can feel as the water hits my stomach
when is the last time that we talked? x2

when is the last time that we talked?
when is the last time that we talked?
when is the last time that we talked?
when is the last time that we talked?

Until the curtains fall

https://youtu.be/TrLjCaxptBE?is=z0YxkXqEzyIMiSZS

hurt so deep prod heroine luh a og

p @111over @111over @111over @111over @111over @111over 

OG beat prod @chawlk using @111over melody I DONT WANT NO BEEF

send him help 
these niggas got him by the nose 
niggas cant even tell 
yeah i aint doin this for show 
what u said? 
u told them boys go watch their tone?
if i said 
that im not worth it would u know? 

i seen u out tonight 
its like watching through fishbowl yeah
i just keep it pushing yeah
i just bought some brand new clothes
stunting on these niggas 
but really im just on my own
paddywaggin 
u niggas cant stand on ten toes 

partyd my head out im throwed in this bitch
these niggas fucked up get hit w a stick
lil K in this hoe like yo how have u been
lost my composure like this aint a film 
pull up to the spot now these niggas went still
came up with them tokyo niggas my twins　＃卒業

nigga you cant have this 
told me that im manic??
u said that u want me 
but i think ur so tragic 
you aint got no patek
spent 5gs on ur casket 
that album i abandoned
i turned that shit to magic. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁

send him help 
these niggas got him by the nose 
niggas cant even tell 
yeah i aint doin this for show 
what you said? 
you told them boys go watch their tone?
if i said 
that im not worth it would you go?

magic/manic prod 111over

A stack of beats !! 🎼

0:00 w/ @killingclaws
0:40 w/ @bluntdolls @granularize
1:06 w/ @rollmyblunt
1:58 w/ @rollmyblunt
2:27 w/ @rollmyblunt
3:06 w/ @rollmyblunt
4:11 w/ @rollmyblunt
5:06 w/ @rollmyblunt
5:54 w/ @lluneth
6:33 w/ @rollmyblunt
7:25 solo
8:03 w/ @kissemlk
8:45 w/ @rollmyblunt
9:26 w/ @killingclaws
9:52 solo
10:29 w/ @killingclaws
11:10 w/ @xi33u
11:45 w/ @killingclaws
12:27 w/ @affectional
13:21 w/ @mmassi
14:13 w/ @mmassi
14:58 w/ @10x19v
15:29 w/ @killingclaws
15:55 solo
16:34 w/ @10x19v
17:18 w/ @mmassi
17:50 w/ @st1tchh
18:29 w/ @rollmyblunt
19:07 solo
19:34 w/ @yerba8989
20:03 w/ @vprwv
20:41 solo
21:34 w/ @vprwv
22:13 solo
22:50 w/ @mmassi
23:43 w/ @rreali
24:29 solo
25:10 w/ @tzsz
25:47 solo
26:25 w/ @vprwv
27:01 w/ @rollmyblunt
27:39 w/ @jaedonking2
28:26 w/ @jaedonking2 @renprowler
28:55 w/ @choochoobeebee
29:44 w/ @vprwv
30:23 w/ @vprwv
31:10 w/ @granularize @parkercoolversion @kissemlk
31:44 w/ @tzsz @rollmyblunt
32:37 w/ @tzsz
33:31 w/ @vprwv
34:05 w/ @killingclaws
34:41 w/ @gr0lth
35:37 w/ @gr0lth
36:17 w/ @deareri
37:00 w/ @deareri
37:42 w/ @1003venla
38:15 w/ @mangledinbeauty
38:54 w/ @aprilcots
39:28 solo [o88a]
40:17 solo
41:10 w/ @gr0lth
42:04 w/ @rreali
42:44 w/ @parkercoolversion
43:26 w/ @rollmyblunt

2026 Autumn: my blanket needed

"let's talk before this bleeds anymore" - the worst person you know

everything by me :)

An ode to a friend
That owed it to us
Moth to the flame
I wanna live in how it was 
Took some months, found my way but I still want it back 
Sunken cost, our chemistry and work was unmatched

Tha- tha- tha- tha-
That girl and boy don’t want it, how i want it i’mma-
Tha- tha- tha- tha-
That girl and boy don’t want it, how i want it-

Too bad, so sad!
Grow the fuck up 
You can’t lose track
Don’t clip your wings
Don’t be like your mom
Don’t be like your dad 
Don’t dwell on it 4 so damn long

The Pressure hit all at once
Sneaking up the mountain
Run until your sneakers stop
I tried to be the captain
But i can’t replace you x2 
How can I repay you? x2

After what you did to me
Was it that easy? oh was it that easy?
x4







how i want it [GRIEVING 101]

"why do you believe that we deserve to be forgotten?"

everything by me

I'm scared i’ll just be like you when im grown up
So i go and cut my bangs and cry it up
So hard… that i fall asleep
I only wanna live in my dreams
 
Get out of my house 
Ain’t no place 4 you
This room ain’t yours anymore
Cuz you believe you’re so high and mighty
Well you’re a fucking whore
I can’t
I’m not a man
Well grow up fucking mannnn

Who wants? x4
I want it x4
All! x4
(x2)


sorry, not sorry "dad"

thank you for showing me that episode of black mirror <3

everything by me

all the words i think at night but can't say 
i wanna write a song that captures us but you don’t know how to play
Any instruments or even use your own voice babe
Guess that’s why we aren’t friends anymore, can’t blame you though
‘Cause it’s a two way road and we both got broken sneakers
I wanna take and break the silence cuz i wanna feel

the pain in the awkward jokes that didn't quite land
the hug after our long-winded talk
i wanna teach you to sing better but we’re out of touch
the pain in the awkward jokes that didn't quite land
the hug after our long-winded talk
i wanna teach you to sing better, don’t tell me we’ve grown apart

don't tell me we've grown apart

disappointment personified

everything by me

i walked out to the bridge
huddled over the edge
you told me:
"don't let it take hold"
take hold

don't let it take
x3
don't let it take hold

you're just another one of those suckers
you're just another one of those suckers
x2

just another

"passenger princess, let's cause a collision"

everything by me

Why’d you choose her over me, over all of us
Your indecision made you choose
I picked at my scabs for so long they opened up
Is that how it is for you too?

It seemed so easy x2 for you
It seemed so easy x2 to do
It’s so damn sleazy x2 of you
How could you leave me, did I ever really know you?

I can’t take, I can’t take it (x2)

i can't take it

this one is very directly to myself

everything by me

I can’t live in grievance, don't wanna keep breaking even
Wind got in my eyes, I’m not lying, it’s just the season
And I’m afraid I come off exactly how I look- 
a lazy crook pleading for mercy after putting in no work

lazy crook!

"you can only find it within yourself"

everything by me
samples one of my favorite artists and videogames of all time

what kind of person am I
what do I love?
where do I start with that question?
i feel so lost
i feel so lost
feel so fuckin' lost

if this is all I can be then maybe that's enough
but I don't like being content, I won’t be interesting enough
So i put in the work until its more than a hobby, more than a habit, like an addiction, i want it bad! x3


late blossom, caught in winter

❀ she/her producer (✿ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)⁾⁾
transfem singer/rapper ᕙ⁠(⁠ ⁠:⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠∧⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠:⁠ ⁠)⁠ᕗ
@100signs ily [x.x]

i can't take it

grolth

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