yeah bro you're killing it, insane work <3

I feel my bones crawl right out of my skin I am not comfortable 
inside this place which I reside inside this place which I call home
Ive grown so fuckin numb to this but yet I feel so vulnerable
please cut around my neck and make it quick it's not enjoyable

I tried to call a thousand times the line was unavailable 
I'm deep inside these trenches and my death is unavoidable 
I tried to play my part I couldn't sorry I can't play the role
I hope that you'll forgive me love I hope that it is possible
I know

that every day gets harder by the minute love
well if you said you did it and you didn't could you get it done?
I'm sitting in the living room at 3:02 wit my flashlight on
scrape reclaim out collecters holy fuck I need to hit the plug
i know

that everything gets better if you manifest it
I'm so hungry (hungary) for the cheddar fuck around in Budapest
get 80k off YouTube beats I made this on my own you bitch it's
nothing to me honestly it's just another days recessions

and it's just another dazed depression
I don't like to do this shit cuz Everytime get too aggressive 
passin out inside my jeans I'm too fucked up I'm past beheaded
could you get it done because you didn't when you fucking said it

I've been on the run
from myself for a while now
you don't mean a single thing you say it's best to pipe down 
I don't mean a single thing I say in lyrics typed out
at least that's what I say to prevent creatives right now

i prevent myself from writing
typing
I don't wanna talk now
hiding
fighting
suicidal thoughts in my mind 
behind these bright blue eyes
I write things
I see
tantalizing
sights
beyond reach
traumatized
my body
rotting
play my heart out like guitar strings
play my heart out like the ivorys

did you do it to spite me
or do you just despise me
can you be honest for once

I've been better off lately
hope it's driving you crazy
that I'm doing okay but I still don't wanna wake up
and it's fucked what we'll do for a paystub
you can hide your face but I see right through your makeup
you don't have to try anymore I'll walk away love. 


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