I need a new life,I gotta reselect,the ones around me make me feel like I am at my death,another soul begin to slip I’m gonna lose my breath,another sentence that get bent I’m gonna break this curse,it seem like everyone around me gonna hate me first before they know my worth,before they see the person that I am my heart get hurt,my life get worse,I wanna tell you all my love can’t find the words I’m sick of it,I don’t wanna give my all again to another bitch,I don’t wanna put another razor to my fucking wrist,I don’t give a fuck about the start I need to find the end,my existence just another light that is gonna dim,my existence just  another time in another head,everybody got they own bubble they be living in,some people happy as fuck,while others giving in,some people good on the luck,while others never win. I’m so mad it’s so sad,rain coming in pouring on me I’m so sick,but I see that your glad,see my flesh rotting off yea I’m almost a skeleton,it’s not me, it’s your bad,blaming me for the things that I never did,but it’s fine it’s life, but I feel my heart darken call me maleficent🖤

MALEFICENT (6tracks)

feel the breeze
on my knees
some1 kill me please
don't wanna live
if u leave
will u stay with me
sick of this
i want peace
please leave me be(2x)

waking to the same shit
every single fucking day
im getting tired of all of it
im sick of the waiting game

this shit hit me outta nowhere
i wasn't expecting
anything that would make me feel so bad
why is life so unfair

my life has been nothing but fucked up
some say i deserve it
others that i have bad luck
can't depend on any1 and yeah that shit sucks
im only 16 and i can't get the fuck up
can't sit back and relax while i roll 1
cause im always stressed and depressed
i can't feel love
now im on my knees
in the middle of my room
wishing to be dead, soon

feel the breeze
on my knees
some1 kill me please
don't wanna live
if u leave
will u stay with me
sick of this
i want peace
please leave me be(2x)

ha~a~oh//woah~o
(please leave me be)

stuck in my head
never talk; i be nauseous
i feel the wind on my skin
never wanted you more
like am i important?
cause i feel ignored
i swear that i’m worthless

i try to be by you
but everything’s breaking
so now i should die soon
for not fucking waiting
it hit like a typhoon
oh how degrading
my eyes they would dilute
would you come to save me

leave me be w/autumndropsdead (afterlife x jolst)

via @universalchill
prod jolst x viera
music video: https://youtu.be/J9w6bF2pk90

go home,
go home 
out the cold
i feel so cold 
so cold
i just wanna keep you warm
but you lay in the dirt
in the dirt

n jus go home 
go home 
out the heat 
i am so hot 
so hot
i need your helping hand but u just let me burn
let me burn 

and this happens like every fucking autumn 
baby let the leaves fall down on my coffin 
i’ll make u a coffee when i leave in the morning 
the morning 

im fuckin geeked up when u be callin
i’m sorry that i slur i know u just don’t want it
i can’t help myself bein sober 2 boring 2 boring 

ima sleep in a little bit don’t hit my phone up
it’s not like i’m hurting anybody out here

i cancel all my plans and just cut the cord cus i need two 20’s for my head to feel clear

talkin bout 20’s i jus pop and pop them 
i know it’s not cool but im already here

i need a pretty girl to just cock her shotgun
and evaporate my heart 
i don’t wanna be here 

n i can’t make the music if the energy ain’t right 

n i can’t focus up unless there TR in my sprite 

i pour the pinewood till my chest don’t feel so tight 

2 fucked up u can’t kill me twice

think my heart just caved in 
i’m thinking bout all the time that i jus wasted
texting u but i don’t get a reply
like no way

i’m just a waste of space and
even with this music i don’t think i’ll make it
i’m spilling all my guts on this stupid
fucking iphone notes page 
x2

tarnished (jolst x viera)

lyrics:

You bite the hand when it reach out
Why would I offer you help anymore
I look away before I speak now
Since I dont know what to expect anymore
Im in a hole I cant climb out
And I feel im just wasting my time now
You got to feel it to find out
You gotta rip off the bandage

Im gearing up for the climb now
I feel like im suppose to fly now
Let me take u to the hideout
I feel like me and you would do damage
Im way too young to just die now
I got some shit on my bucket list so
Im tryna fly all the time now
I already got plenty of baggage
Dont u worry ill be home soon
Im caught up in the heat of it all
oh I am
Still it comes back every night just to watch me
On the foot of my frame by my bed sheets
Eyes wide glued to me thru my skull to my soul it feels cold
Late night
Every time the wind bites
Every time the leaves die
Every winter since I been dreaming of you
I sleep
Stripped of any peace I
Could’ve held in my mind
Knowing im not right there sleeping with you

You bite the hand when it reach out
Why would I offer you help anymore
I look away before I speak now
Since I dont know what to expect anymore
Im in a hole I cant climb out
And I feel im just wasting my time now
You got to feel it to find out
You gotta rip off the bandage

Patient Zero (eric Godlow)

guitar by magicDz

love y'all a ton.
thank you for listening
thank you for being here, truly
hope you enjoy

ep postponed, but i got a lot else i've been working on
yea



take me apart
reassemble and recharge what you erased
no regards
zip my lip, i cannot communicate

above every scent they embellish
it's rotten, yet fresh, so i cannot repel it

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

(i don't) i don't wanna feel this bitter
but i don't wanna rock that mask, no
redacting myself from the present when i wanna end it
pelt dust at my mental
cavities build in my dental
skipping toothpaste for the mentos
everything felt so common
i hurt so often; bent like a stencil

caffeination, isolation, what a cycle, what a day
couple people that i talk to; very seldom light the way
i do it myself it seems
shot down like it's belomancy

sat recluse in my room every noon, glued to youtube
if i had somebody special, it'd be them too
won't you settle down and tell me what you're going through
call me up for once, 'cause honestly you never do
so when the clock strikes, i feel the curse so tight
staying up 'till it's twilight
green flash in my eyesight
black cat in the moonlight
waving bye when i'm boutta cry
i hit you up 'cause i had to cry
spirit guide lurkin' hindsight

drill in my head, got a shovel in my chest
but i leave it like that, let it grow like grass
i'm a fucked up kid, can't live in the past
and the moment don't last, break shit when i laugh
no meds and i'm gassed, but deflate real fast
real friends hit back, understand where i'm at?
why you treat 'em like ass though?
do you got a moat for the castle?
been down every ounce, now i'm fragile
she had meant so much, what a hassle
days into weeks, now months
stolen my crutch
fuck it i'll hunch
punching my gut 'till the air flows
cornering stare with an echo
licking the tip of the arrow
wove in a rope like a pharaoh
sooner than late i won't care, no

like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

bombay

The truth is I don't even wanna heal my bruises
You had my heart inside your hands girl you knew this
Ion wanna hear no excuses, don't play clueless
The truth is the concept of love is elusive
Nowadays girl we're borderline abusive
If I don't play the game I can't lose it
So If I never gain there's no losing

Girl the truth is, still think bout you like each day
But ion think that I can stomach one more heartbreak
We've been stuck inside a loop you know I had walk away from you
I left you on read but I've got so much left to say to you
I'm done spilling my veins for you
Words; don't let them leave my lips
I'm not staying in your pocket I've got nothing left to give
You said you still see a future in us well that's no way to live
I keep my past outside the present because my presence is a gift

I had to separate, New bitch with banging waist
Pull up in XXL clothing look like featherweight
But really when up inside the gym I'm pushing hella weight
Blacked out coup I floor the gas girl tell me how the exhaust taste
I can never love again
Imma use the pain you caused and flip into bands
You hit my line late at night and asked me where we stand
Why you want me now but you didn't want me then

Girl the truth is, still think bout you like each day
But ion think that I can stomach one more heartbreak
We've been stuck inside a loop you know I had walk away from you
I left you on read but I've got so much left to say to you
I'm done spilling my veins for you

So let me spill it out
Girl you were my first love; It's hard to live without you
Yeah I fucked up but I paid my dues
And my hearts been cold since you fucked that dude
So let me spell it
I won't be your second option just to keep around
I threw in the towel
Now anything you hear about me know its word of mouth

truth is [prod. yunny goldz]

help me

Outside

bucks (prod. @eslaissss)

(kindmile)
And I hate your guts but I love your bones 
And I love you more the more you break down my hope 
Oh beauty is pain so the devil must reign 
Oh loving you to death it would end in vane 

I couldn’t give a fuck it I tried 
Cuz someone out there piping the love of my life 
Nah I couldn’t give a fuck if I died 
But I bet there’s someone out there thatd gladly trade lives 

I don’t fear sharks and I don’t fear drowning 
Once ur heads below the surface it’s just another day 
I don’t fear heights and I don’t fear flying 
I just fear the day to come where I forget your name 

You’re so fucking different now 
You’re like everybody else in this shitty town
You don’t like me you don’t believe in me
I fucking hate that I gave you a piece me 
I bet you think about me like you never ever knew me 
Bitch you dumb fake like a shitty toupee 
I’ll rip a page from your book I want you no where that I look
id do anything it took to get you out my minds nooks 

and I hate your guts but I love your bones 
and I love you more the more you break down my hope 
oh beauty is pain so the devil must reign 
oh loving you to death it would end in vane

(sewerperson)
cold winter nights
in your arms
the blood inside of her is keeping me warm
i promise im just checking if ur alright
baby i dont wanna fight like last time
could you heal me
of my damage
i feel so alone on this planet
i lay awake at night in your mattress
baby open up i need access

crows fly off my window sill
she told me draw my blood so she can tell if im real
blue seeps out from my open wound
she said as long as you love me i can love you too
and she cant be replaced ah
baby kiss me slow i miss the taste
she look me in my spirit everytime i grip her waist
she pushing back against me while she hold me by the face
if its true love we could always power thru the hate

(kindmile)
And I hate your guts but I love your bones 
And I love you more the more you break down my hope 
Oh beauty is pain so the devil must reign 
Oh loving you to death it would end in vane

help me

graveyard garbage