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Somebody 2 Hold (skellington)

Euphoria ft. Deep October (prod. 6houl x 5head)

hey, thx 4 listening, seriously.
this is the first song i've mixed completely from scratch,
so i hope it doesn't sound too foul 
prod. @prodskellington <3
cover art sketch by @bleulmao

~~~lyrics~~~
a minute away
i’m gonna fade
back into the nothing
shit what do you say
fear to be fake
look at my face
fucking disgusting
throughout the day

i can’t talk if i can’t even breathe out
she seems off there’s gotta be a reason
raindrops fall everywhere i don’t need it
think this calls for the death of a weakness

check, check, check,
troubled mind, covered ears
less, less, less, chitter-chat full of tears
let’s, let’s, let’s, get the fuck outta here
can’t afford being gone
but i’ve lost will to care again

the cycle ends
what’s the point in this
low love, slow thumbs, so numb

winter crept upon my hands
and all i am’s ideas through a screen
is it true that you were never meant to be?

troubled mind, covered ears [prod. skellington]

Go follow my man <3
https://soundcloud.com/fuckhamz

Hammy:
I just wanna know
do you still think of me?
when you're all alone
i hope you still remember me
i don't wanna go
my heart is on your driveway
sitting all alone
they never care what i say x2

never care what i say
driving on the highway
driving on the freeway
you can have it your way
i don't really care girl
look at me and stare girl
i just wanna die now
smokin till i die now
diving on the highway
driving on the freeway
i just wanna see you
hope you want me too
i can't ever think straight
tell em that i feel great
even though i'm lyin
always fucking lying
remember what we had
now i can't stop crying
i just popped an oxy
now i think i'm flying
i just hit the ground
now i'm really dying

Yung Van:
I still have your number in my phone
Sometimes I drive by your home
I think of all the good times
I think we had some good times
I miss waking up to texts
I hate calling you my ex
I should have known this would happen
I should have known this would happen 

I've been driving all night
I'm just tryna feel right
When I think of you though
I don't want to die alone
Thinking bout you all the time
Wish that you weren't getting high
I don't think I'm feeling fine x2
Ive been driving all day
I'm just tryna feel okay
I know I can't run away
Girl you meant the world to me
Think of what we used to be
Wish it was just you and me
Guess we just weren't meant to be
I thought we were meant to be
I just wanna die now
I just wanna cry
I thought you were mine babe
I thought we were fine
Called you every night girl
Cause I thought you cared
Called you every night girl
I was always there
I wish I could walk away from all this pain
I feel like I was cut
I thought you were the one

Wish i was enough x4

FOLLOW HAMMY

i'm not depressed, i just miss you w/Hammy (Prod. Tec)

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-beautiful-lyricsl

guitar loop by shiki
extra loop by Dm808god

Beautiful

"𝕒𝕕𝕕𝕚𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕥𝕠 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕔𝕖𝕡𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖"

First track with the new mic, thought i would go for something different then i usually do hope you guys enjoy it!
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Lyrics:
[chorus]
just when i thought i got my shit on track 
i go back to the thoughts that i think of myself
when im crying alone, on my phone
dry like my throat when that weed hit my dome
pupils they dilate, pupils they tryna hate. but i dont let that shit get to me
singing these songs is my destiny, feel like each day is a test for me
 
[verse 1]
waiting for someone that i can commit to
asking myself, is it me or is it you
i cannot keep going i need a tissue
tragic, im panicked i think i need help
i don't think she's good for my mental health
think of the memories that we once held
think of the feelings that both of us felt

[bridge]
Was it love or was it fucking lust?
I leave all my friends in the fucking dust
addicted to the concept of love 
but when it comes down to it i'd rather do drugs

[chorus]
just when i thought i got my shit on track 
i go back to the thoughts that i think of myself
when im crying alone, on my phone
dry like my throat when that weed hit my dome
pupils they dilate, pupils they tryna hate. but i dont let that shit get to me
singing these songs is my destiny, feel like each day is a test for me

[verse 2]
why am i here
laying decaying in the atmosphere
look in your eyes
cant tell if i want you, are you in disguise?
my purpose in life
wish i new that, it might restart my strife
pick up the knife
asking myself who would care if I died

I'm falling tonight
always gon find a way out of these lies
never gon find a way out of my mind
i cannot fucking see it i know i am blind
~
procrastinate all problems
nobody will ever solve them
wait as I slay all my demons
fucked in the head for no reason

never gon find a way out
throat dry its like im in a drought
contemplate all that i think when im high
yeah sure im glad that you met a new guy.

[chorus SLOWED]
just when i thought i got my shit on track 
i go back to the thoughts that i think of myself
when im crying alone, on my phone
dry like my throat when that weed hit my dome
pupils they dilate, pupils they tryna hate. but i dont let that shit get to me
singing these songs is my destiny, feel like each day is a test for me

cycles [prod. Discent]

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

and i know i’m not the one you're thinking of
but your love is like a drug and i can’t fucking get enough
i need your rush inside my veins, just load me up
let me die inside my sleep, this life is just too fucking tough
tell my mom, i’m sorry, but i just don’t give a fuck
i miss your voice, i’m not alright, my life is just so fucking dumb
can’t go a day without fucking something up
depressed as fuck, all i wanna do is cut

baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and you squeezed it till it broke
let me die inside the cold, i'm all alone, just let me choke
baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and your squeezing till it breaks
just let me die, i'm all alone, just let me fade

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

prod. @prodspyder
written by @lightninglogan

samples from You x Dracula

Ghost Me

SPYDER

ghost me [prod. spyder]

ghost

[+] we're so toxic and you know it
* produced by @16preme * cover by @weepingwolf / demons by @13000mushu *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yToPyiaJahQ

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

yeah yeah I’m back up in this bitch
They was talkin down
Now they all up on my dick

Man I swear that I don’t miss
Every song I drop like a 30 in the clip
 
Yeah Like it’s curry in the 6
I was down bad
Now she wanna fuck again

I don’t think I’ll love again
I just wanna buy my mom a crib
And get a Benz

Baby I don’t wanna
Say
Another
Word And 
Get 
you mad

But I just gotta know
That
You
At least understand

Cuz I be off them drugs and I know that it hurts you 
I prolly should curve you
I dont deserve you
I wanna burn too
And feel it again
Baby we’re not just friends
Yeah we’re more than that
Don’t you try to pretend
Don’t you try to pretend

I can see the stars shining in your eyes

fall apart when I think of the last time

I saw your face

I’m still in pain who’s to blame

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