what i used to be

Scatterbrain

feat. https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7
prod. https://soundcloud.com/user-597676997

Lyrics:

I've been waiting for the day when I fall apart
I've been steady grinding in room no I don't care
working in the silence, I can't help but feel the stare
looking right upon me
smoking palm trees in the air
I don't know where to go, where you at babe?
I can't get their quick I'm stuck up in the traffic
up a couple days making tracks now
turn up the attack think I'm gonna snap wow
thats shit hit, jump in crowds getting lit
like down another bottle of the gold bacardi quick
pop out to your party but I'm sad asf
I can't find no fucking end I never get enough
~
I cannot fight that
feeling so I sit and zone by myself again
In love with creation
Taking my mind to a different location
Fill up the spots in my chest that lay vacant
It's like a drug cannot refuse to take it
Exhale all the vapor I've been holding in ...
Use it as my Medicine ...
Frequency Irrelevant
Vision going black, back to the past now
Got all of our pictures on the wall
Slowly watch us fall
this winter the end of it all
~
Unknxwn
I've been waiting everyday but you don't call
I don't think I can be saved from the snowfall
I don't feel no love inside of my heart no more
If this only the start than I dont' want to know more
All I really wanna know it where you at babe?
Got my heart trapped stuck inside a damn cage
I don't like that baby don't you damn play
This getting old, Don't hit me up anymore
bullshit again I can't take this
Fucking with me and I hate it
Can't give a fuck no not no more
In the cold I've been stuck I done got so cold
Lost all my trust I can't cope no more
Mind filled with love that I can't show
Anyone what I feel inside
Anyone get what that feel like?
I can't let no one get inside
Of what I like to call my mind
I've been waiting for the day when I fall apart
I've been steady grinding in room no I don't care
working in the silence, I can't help but feel the stare
looking right upon me
smoking palm trees in the air
I don't know where to go, where you at babe?
I can't get their quick I'm stuck up in the traffic
up a couple days making tracks now
turn up the attack think I'm gonna snap wow
thats shit hit, jump in crowds getting lit
like down another bottle of the gold bacardi quick
pop out to your party but I'm sad asf
I can't find no fucking end I never get enough

where you at babe? w/ unknxwn [prod capsctrl]

This one sounds like a movie with a friend with a good lyric.

Hammer Of The Gods demo

nothing much

best 4 u ft. sleye (prod. jason22k)

1 I Could Love U Like I Hate Myself (prod. Kuroime)

[+] i know all of this is just pretend, i really thought you were my friend
* prod by @metlast *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[chorus:]
lace on and she dancin
so fine, she transcend
i know all of this is just pretend
i really thought you were my friend
game on and she panicked
just like that, she vanished
this was forever we planned it
how could you do this? like dammit

[verse:]
all of these thoughts in my head
like what is she doing in my bed
and i dont wanna talk in the end
cus i know im goin wind up dead

sparkin a spliff so my lungs collapse (i be off the pack)
fuckin a bitch so my heart turn black (til i can't feel bad)
pourin drank in my cup, no, i don't hold back (so i can't feel sad)
feelin all on my dick, shorty bring that ass (shorty bring that ass)
hop in the whip and i drive real fast (sippin a forty, foot pressin the gas)
guessin we're done so leave me in the past (first girl i loved, and i swear you're the last)

ay watch me im sippin on dat, yah
layin my head in your lap, oh
fallin im right in your trap, yah
right in your trap yah

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ghost girl

produced by F4iRY

OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3sg1aqLsJU

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gfx by @imtarnished

lyrics

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i been takin too many benzos
& i been drinkin way way too much
will all these drugs be my downfall
will i die feeling numb

i cannot take it
feel like im racing to my death
this aint no fake shit
this is my life & its such a mess
filled w/ dread & the constant stress
it eats me alive
i lay in my bed i cant help by cry
is it all in my head, i think its my time
& i gotta let go

i tried to figure it out
by nightfall, im bleeding out
on the floor
close the door
what more could u want
no i dont wanna talk anymore

pushing away everything that i love
if i keep this up
i’ll be gone forever
please stay away from me
i’ve had enough
i’m too far gone
& i’ll be lost forever

my life is a dark abyss 
i just want out of it
my mind keeps wandering 

i became everything i hated
what a shame
i cnt take it

produced by F4iRY

i've become everything i hate [OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION/BIO]

Outside Lately (theydontknowme)

prod: https://soundcloud.com/lilrodger/tracks 

Can't escape the state of mind
that I just find myself in
within I'm dying
I just need some fucking help
walls are closing in, it's fucking up my mental health
may be quiet, but my mind is talking down in hell

walls are closing in again
the camera out of focus
hoping that you notice
got that inner lotus
~
the world is feeling sorta bleek
what's my diagnosis?
mental. Can't control this
going through psychosis

thoughts are building up again
I'm calling out
can't handle this alone but I keep blocking out
with a bottle of patrone i'm zoning falling down
the storm is building, a cyclone we'll washing out

walls are closing in again
the camera out of focus
hoping that you notice
got that inner lotus
~
the world is feeling sorta bleek
what's my diagnosis?
mental. Can't control this
going through psychosis

everything feeling fake
I cannot keep my mind concentrated 
I just be toking that concentrate 
problems are dulled when inebriated
world feeling distant derealization
I cannot take no more isolation
lay up in bed awake
replay in my mind all of mistakes
~
I've tried to many times
not once i've fixxed it
I write to many lines
about my conditions

walls are closing in again
the camera out of focus
hoping that you notice
got that inner lotus
~
the world is feeling sorta bleek
what's my diagnosis?
mental. Can't control this
going through psychosis

thoughts are building up again
I'm calling out
can't handle this alone but I keep blocking out
with a bottle of patrone i'm zoning falling down
the storm is building, a cyclone we'll washing out

what i used to be

graveyard garbage