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Payload (snippet)

i hate it here, but if u support me i love u sm.
v v v
i dont see my worth
i dont really see my worth
tell me what my worth is
tell me what my worth is
tell me what my worth is, baby im just clueless
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away
try to get better 
but my souls fucking tethered
and im always fuckin caught up 
in the god damn weather
needa get a job 
but my phones always vibrating
people hit my line 
for some good fuckin vibrations
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away 
emptychest <3
try to get better 
but my souls fucking tethered
and im always fuckin caught up 
in the god damn weather
needa get a job 
but my phones always vibrating
people hit my line 
for some good fuckin vibrations
(needa get a job but i..)
(always hit my line for me..)
(ur fine for me..)
well i dont..
i dont see my worth
i dont really see my worth
tell me what my worth is
tell me what my worth..
tell me what my worth is, baby im just clueless
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away
try to get better 
but my souls fucking tethered
and im always fuckin caught up 
in the god damn weather
needa get a job 
but my phones always vibrating
people hit my line 
for some good fuckin vibrations
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away..


it hurts so much to be here <3

what ive become (noxiousnights x jolst)

death

spent a day in the city (in the city)
boys on the street near the park just singing (just singing)
made a little money i just made regrets (just fell through)
told you i was sorry cause i'm not there yet (i could take it still)
drinking on the train, looking back so dumb
sorry means a little when it's said so much (We don't feel the same things yet)
sleep as a concept, i don't really act out (We don't feel the same)
drugs in a backpack, probably like a band now, i just

try not to overstate it
all been so complicated
day turns to night, just breaking
light on my body aching
lay down in foreign places
noticing what it's taking
i wake up slowly in the black
i thought i'd learn to hate it

follow lights down the coast
in the dreams that you had
i just got in the way
fuck i think i'm slipping back
i start to decay from the waist down
face it, we could never fix what we break now
holding the exit in my hand
fuck i think i'm slipping back

holding on a feeling i might die soon
cause i met everybody that i want to
and maybe did a little that i'm proud of
but man this head's just so hard to get out of
holding onto mornings with the old you
fucking catatonic in my old room
and i hope you don't blame yourself cause baby
it's not like someone else could ever save me

try not to overstate it
all been so complicated
day turns to night, just breaking
light on my body aching
lay down in foreign places
noticing what it's taking
i wake up slowly in the black
i thought i'd learn to hate it

Bay Harbour

lyrics

when atleast 1 don’t want the best for each other 
but words and what was taught keep them under
the wings that once brought close the lost souls in to cover
now cause more hurt but he still calls her his lover

as she falls back in to a state of sleep paralysis 
he crawls back in to her mind in hopes it’s healed to bliss
but these dynamics bring out the worst of what we call our flesh
the dreams mixed with torn down aura bring out masochistics

i don’t wanna see u cry no more she tells him sweetly
but i saw you tagged along you were moving way too freely
he’s hers to keep there’s no going 2 ways bout it
2 similar acts but if one does it then the others astounded

she needs it, craves it it’s all that she could know
perspectives can’t be seen if your own is broke 
he understands and for that reason he finds a way to cope
suffocating every moment in her presence, he can’t grow

and sure he cares, but he’s unaware of the damage that will construe 
blinded by his weakness, not every man can tell that truth
but there’s a darkness 
lense tinged with slight grey and blue 
it’s painted red in her eyesight
there’s no escaping her view

plenty years under the belt and if youd check youd see the signs
victims known to slump, no problem plucking out the spine
youll say its fine theres time I guess the aftermath is quiet
but then shell lie still in your eyes theres nothing more divine

she lies

she lies. (jolst x splashgvng)

mix the pills with all the weed i feel so mental
with all this weight, upon my back, it’s monumental 
i feel hysteria, it’s fundamental
my lungs tearing up, i need settle 

chaos in totality
nothing in reality 
left me here in suffering 
left with no morality 
i been here since nearly three
and i’m just taking everything 
hoping i’ll find something 
to help me with my anxiety 

don’t you help me up 
when i’m down, i’m stuck  
in a place i’m numb 
from the lack of touch 

somewhere else inside my notes i escape
my lyrics jot down tryna take my place
rather not socialize i go to my own space
i just hate everyone they’re only tryna take

(2x)
don’t you help me up 
when i’m down, i’m stuck  
in a place i’m numb 
from the lack of touch

touch (CRCL)

incredible production by @prodbysxda

lyrics

surprising everything inside my fucking chest
she got all it on with her hands wrapped around my neck
not learning any lessons how i'm ignoring these threats
its so fucking ruthless inside this town its almost dead

i'm tryna set sail but I'm long grip and its starting to rust here
I exhale and open arms
but in the mirror I cant tell

don't come close to me
im surrounded by this rat hell
I dont wanna lose u baby girl
its just my heart kills

wish it was an odyssey how it goes dark then it turns light
but i'm out in these crashing waves and i'm holding on for dear life
I'm jus saying got my wrist wet and i'm not talking ice
im losing my grip but im holding my knife

flicking thru the memories and tryna the cause
this is how it turned out i'm not fucking around with god
who tf is u
I tell myself when I am lost
forget about those pretty nights that we had omg

why u always coming late?
but who's that in the parking lot
I just fucked my brain again
coz' I can not control my thoughts
and i'm losing my faith again
baby im, im losing my breath inside this fucking wooden box

late arrival

late arrival (woahsxda)

Inside My Head (prod. by Y.G. Beats)

i'll die - trashboat (kirani)

AIN IT TRUE [SS]

art/mix/master/prod. by me

tonight
when i'm closing my eyes
yeah i can see you when i fall asleep you're mine
i hate the light that's shining through those blinds 

& it's haunting me
the ghost of you i held so tight
& it's hard for me
to think i used to know what you felt like 

i lied again
i said that i would just forget
but this time won't fix
all that i felt for you i just won't quit
when i think back on that night
it's hard to believe that i had you by my side
what did i do wrong this time?
you got me in pieces 
you cut with the words like a knife

Bay Harbour

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