sadboi

it's been ages since i've dropped a project & to be completely honest, i've been more than hesitant about releasing this, but it's my birthday today & i promised myself that i'd put this out. i really hope you enjoy it. thank you guys so fucking much for even taking the time outta your day to listen to anything i've created. this has been a passion for me for a while & to know that i can impact someone elses life through my craft is unbelievable. you guys have truly helped me get through so much & i promise, this is just the beginning. i love you

- guardin

ICED TEA (PROD. BY JF BEATS)

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//あなたは私の日差しです//
//あなたは私の月です//

i was gonna wait & release this when we hit 200k total plays, but i felt like you guys deserved something for reaching 2k followers. thank you so much for every single ounce of support. i don't know what i'd do without you guys. also a huge thanks to my love for influencing a vast majority of my writing & always pushing me to do better & keep going no matter what. i love you more than this music could ever express.

https://genius.com/guardin-clarity-lyrics

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//私たちは奇妙です//

thank you guys so fucking much for the endless amount of support
we're reachin' milestones i never thought were possible
it's only uphill from here
i love you ♡

https://genius.com/guardin-guardin-x-yung-van-lets-just-keep-walking-lyrics

cover art by chunniboy
be sure to give him lots of love
https://goo.gl/asxd7w

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guardin x yung van - let's just keep walking

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i wanna thank every single one of you from the bottom of my heart for every single like, comment, message, etc. that you go out of your way to send to me. it's incredible to know you guys are out there. i know this is different from my usual direction, but bare with me. i love you guys.

peep the music video here
https://youtu.be/VoUc7Fp9rQU

//わたしは、あなたを愛しています//

♡

visuals

into the trees

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//お祝い//

i just wanted to thank you guys so much for helping me reach 3k on here as well as 1k on youtube. i never thought anything would get to this level. i've got big things planned for the remainder of this year, so stay tuned. i love you guys.

also, genius won't lemme post the lyrics to this one for some reason, so here they are

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i don't wanna fade away
pour that liquor for my bae
we just wanna celebrate
gettin' faded fly away
stackin' plays all day 
stackin' plays all
i don't wanna lose faith
in everything I'm doing great
cause all i do is hate
on myself, what i create 
got the man in the mirror lookin, blank
got the man lookin' blank

lost in my head 
counter intuitive 
making a mess 
you know how i'm doing it
i'm caught in a web
twistin' the thread till my thoughts are all dead 
all of my friends live inside of my head  
some of them under my bed
fuck what they said
imma make my dreams come true
fuck the anxiety, depression too 
20 already & feelin so blue
imma just fight till I cop me a coupe
whippin' my wrists like i know what it do
sparkin' that spliff watchin' halloween 2
baby you makin' me feel so brand new
constantly shifting my hue
i just want you in my life for a life time
baby girl you are my enzyme
breakin' my walls, yeah i rise & i fall
& i'm blowin' these clouds as a pastime 
run with the feelings i feel
my mind is not so ideal 
shaking his hand to reveal
i'm grippin' the steel
alienated from all that is real 
i do not feel
anything that you fulfill
runnin' the game with my skill 
you think you know me, yeah you never will
i am the canvas & you are the frill
you oughta chill
destroy you bitches i will 
fuck with the set cause it's trill 
you've just been sleeping on me cause i'm ill
sweepin' on me like a spill
i'm whatchu feel


yeah you're wasting my time 
with your pretty little lies
i can see it in your eyes
& we all wanna die
but the devil's too shy
i don't wanna testify
you're the perfect lullaby 
tuck me in when i cry
fall asleep, you & i
got me feelin' so high 
like a spirit in the sky
never good with goodbye 
i don't want that
pretty baby maybe you could come solve that
run away, gone astray, i don't know man
in my veins, numb the pain when you come back

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lovesick lullaby (prod. by neverday)

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//ファントム//

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VTjOt3IGA30

just a lil' somethin' to hold you guys over for what's in store in these next following weeks. i love you guys so much. thank you for everything. be sure to show hk some love as well.

s/o to valarice for the inspiration

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danny phantom (prod. by hkfiftyone)

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//シャドーボール//

something a lil' different from what you're used to, but we had fun with it. wanted to drop a guardin x flowars track before the homie flowars leaves for boot camp for three months. i can express to you how fucking proud i am of every single thing you've accomplished this year alone man. with music, your career path, etc. you've helped me get through much more than you know. i fucking love you. thank you guys for all the support. 

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https://soundcloud.com/daddydandy

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https://soundcloud.com/hatefulbeats

music video

guardin x flowars - mega gengar (prod. by hateful)

prod. @notmorgn

cracks in my heart 
u know my state when the sun down
you’re my drug pack a bowl
and never come down
feel warm like there’s smoke in my lungs
feel warm cus this fire always burns
my feelings are a burden
but i’d be a ghost if i ever thought to curb them
and when you’re gone i cannot breathe without you
when i'm alone i just think about you
but im back
like i never left
gucci was dead
now gucci in the flesh
it’s a rebirth 
post death keeper
and when i hold her
i just wanna keep her
record the vocals
compression and the reverb
pour it up
and i’m sippin on a 2 litre
i met the reaper 
he’s more like a teacher
i met an angel
i know by her features
yeah i know by her features 
'hol up wait
when did you become so toxic
it must be that new kid
feed into nonsense 
still listening oh that’s cute tho
holy shit you must be stuck in a loop hole
everytime you press play i get a new note
every month i get payed with them blue notes
fucking up checks and shit my mom thought i had 2 phones
im blowin' up never planned it like just like its pluto
why they ask me
gucci, like don’t you hate your life
u cant make up your mind 
you do this all the time
oh i dont know 
i think im bipolar
one day wanna slit my throat 
same night she comin over
cracks in my heart 
u know my state when the sun down
you’re my drug pack a bowl
and never come down
feel warm like there’s smoke in my lungs
feel warm cus this fire always burns

i am burning

prod. @notmorgn

mom why you mad at me 
i swear try my best
i know that she saw the
broken blood vessels on my neck

weight up on my shoulders
i feel like atlas
greek yogurt 
with the fruit 
damn gotta snap this
she smokin packs bitch
ziplock full of cat piss
put on the ski mask
slump you just for actin
why u 2 faced
trippin like a shoelace
i sleep on it 
woke up and its a new day
european stacks
stuffed in my gucci suitcase 
i wanna drop out and its like only a tuesday

mom why you mad at me 
i swear try my best
i know that she saw the
broken blood vessels on my neck

drop this shit on a friday
wake up with the sunrise
october 13th
its fucking cold outside
but i dont mind
i really dont mind
cus the cold reminds 
me why i stay inside
you punch the clock
i punch the MIDI make it bop
not makin much
but its better than a job
eating like a pig
but i stay way from them cops
used to starve up in that attic
like an addict with some rock
really i hate my voice how do you listen to this
swear if u pissed inside a bucket it’d sound crisper than this
whatever my stats rising
hit me like perfect timing
make the beat real quick
notes app and get to typing

why you mad at me i swear i try my best
like all i wanted was us to be together forever 
like i guess ill see u around this 
fucking ghost town
we all ghosts now
i’m a ghost now 

mom why you mad at me 
i swear try my best
i know that she saw the
broken blood vessels on my neck

i swear i try my best

prod. @notmorgn

new day new song new problem
new clothes it’s cold in autumn
leaves fall right to the bottom
i miss u but i won’t call you
bags on my eyes
they think that im high
you said you loved me
but then you said bye
i don’t care
the pain make me
i’m post death
till my heart stop aching
ill fucking scream till my voice box breaking
it’s fuck life till the reaper take me

do u wanna be mine
like i wanna be yours
do u wanna be mine
like i wanna be yours

i put in the work
no 9 to 5 
she get outta work 
im kind of hype
your girl was in my dm’s 
for the pipe
but im not a plumbing
so it dont feel right
this feels nice in my car
night ride
if the function sus 
then fuck i gotta slide
cus when i have anxiety
i wanna die
but when im by your side
it feels kind of nice
everything coming clear grey goose with the ice
i like that shit cold have me feeling kind of right
and for my heart you have that shit tied
when we kiss i get warm inside

bags on my eyes
they think that im high
you said you loved me
but then you said bye

do u wanna be mine
like i wanna be yours

do u wanna be mine

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//私がいなくなったら後悔するよ//

i wanted to release a lil' something for you guys as a thank you for everything you've done for me. a year ago, i was just a kid in my bedroom trying to figure out himself. fucking around with beats all day, smoking weed all night. i was depressed. hell, i'm still depressed & sometimes it feels like i don't know myself anymore, but this music has been the only thing that has made complete sense to me since the start & to know i'm helping you guys all whilst you help me is beyond beautiful. i'm so lucky to be where i'm at today. to be alive with all of you in my life. don't ever tell yourself that you won't amount to anything cause you're worth much more than you'll tell yourself & i promise once you find something you're truly passionate about and you dive deep into it, you'll feel a sense of purpose. there you'll find happiness. don't ever give up on yourself. i won't give up on you.

i love you

follow hateful

trafalgar (prod. by hateful)

prod. @notmorgn

its been a minute
still no closure
she in my bed no clothes
but im colder
remember 2010
now im much older
remember feeling fine
those days are way over

20 degrees 
30 mph breeze
freezin up my chest
everytime im tryna breathe
why the east so cold like this?
im dead by the way 
don’t need condolences 

chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live
chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live

i want the push start
i want the bag gotta be goyard
everybody gonna notice 
that i go hard
she got a G string
i ain’t talkin mozart
top off
i ain’t talkin go karts
gotta up my prices
ain’t nobody like this
spent the whole day sleepin
and i dont work a night shift
fuck a 9 to 5 
i don’t fit in that box bitch
song take a couple hours 
but it come out timeless

chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live

i was really struggling 
to save my own life
til’ i started typing words 
spent a check on a mic
i really could’ve 
stayed that night
but my perspective all changed 
since all we did was fight

(slowed)

chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live

chipped black nails

guitar, production -https://soundcloud.com/poppytears

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s for jumping on this one with me  

"Behind Screens" full album: https://open.spotify.com/album/25XjozBMStYBDrlGk3wqHw?si=xAQ3iCJaTb6kz4hOhSMS0g

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/familypet
https://soundcloud.com/4ever-falling https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad
https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s

cover art: www.instagram.com/kenny_ravee/

Bandcamp link: https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/track/healthy-relief-ft-9tails-remastered

love you all

LYRICS: 

9TAILS:
not much i can do
pretty girls always needed more acceptance from you
i told her I'd
love if we ran away
cheap grams and cheap faith arent much of a reason to stay
and we could come back anytime but my souls had enough for today
enough with these moodswings i love you i love you but please go away
she feeds me real great
i can only wait so long
i can only show you once
december weather got my fingers numb
we end with the day
were gone with the sun

Poppy Tears: 

You call yourself a rockstar 
and you can't even play the fucking guitar
I know it isn't in your heart 
couldn't give two fucks about the art

we all fade away like a picture losing colour inside it's frame 
are we all waiting for the day, the day we look back upon what we made

like was it worth it 
Am I deserving
I'm still learning 
with death I'm flirting 

I slow my heart rate 
I've made that mistake 
feel my bones shake 
and find my own lane

✧ spotify ✧

healthy relief w/ 9TAILS (prod. poppy tears)

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle


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