Sittin. And fadin... 😶‍🌫️🌌💿❕

no comments in a while, ataraxy ii is my fav guardin album man every track is so fire

sadzzz.mannns banger #9

lyrics:

Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze my tired form emaciates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 
If the horse dies then the foal does too
I don’t wanna ever live my life without you
Independence begs me to overlook truth so I do
Myself is a word I use around u
I just gotta a lot of pain in my chest woah woah
I cannot be like him but ill do my best woah woah
Lately I think I lost the fear of death woah woah
Baby I can’t be saved just save ur breath oh no

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

Take my body and feed it to the typhoon
Better than having say that strange goodbye soon
Baby I would never treat u same as u treated urself
I admire ur soul cause it is see thru
 late at night I drink and i fill myself up
Poison pours into my open mouth and I
Mean it when I say I miss how we was
This the game we chose to play with our love and I know
But Where’s your honour
I can see pain flow fast into her mold
So She left me cornered
But suffering like this bring me home that’s all that I know
As Toronto gets warmer 
I can come alive in a way that I never knew
Pour it up into my soda 
I started rolling up purple every time im feeling blue
Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
and In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze the sweat on me evaporates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

these nights are urs (splashgvng)

lyrics:

Just holidays
And barely those holidays
Our good terms
Are not immune to decay 
I tried but im still away
And you’ve been fucking his brains out 
Don’t look at me as if there was a sorry to say

I would care but
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

 Ive never met someone so geared on my failure good job
At least I squeezed some meaning into ur shitty life huh
When I die an early death I hope that u can cope when the hatred in ur heart is now evicted with my pulse

Break the home
Breaks my bones and see my soul snapped too
Im alone most the time ur not restricting anything new
I like getting scary I do I know ur tryna be a boss good for u
What the fuck they turn me down for
 I am never going out more
I guess he wasn’t a regular guy
I hope u choke on ur vomit and die
My messages aids I do not open them
Im high as fuck from this bud its like opium
I don’t wanna live to get by
Ur literally here once and its over after that u fucking idiot do what u want ur done after this u fucking dumb ass u suck I fucking hate u
 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

Im torn apart and I am dirty
If its like this fuck 30
I wanna die right now
Baby im sorry im fucked I can’t talk right now
She lies
She just loves him to death
I dont compare to that hex
I suck the tits off her chest
Times waits
For nobody
Crossed lines
Become common knowledge
Bullshit u were with friends that’s bullshit
I was the culprit before
I feel projection in my point of view
  
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

better_off_nUmb (splashgvng)

lyrics
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sadness & sorrow
is all i embody
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody
inside my head
it's always so cloudy
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody

don't tell nobody
whatchu really feelin
i cocoon myself & dissociate when i feel it
scratch off my eyelids
slowly revealing
every single dissatisfaction i've come to deal with
of course the course i'm driving is full of formaldehyde
hiding deep inside the spaces of places i'll never find
the inevitable factor of rattling what's inside
is the base of all your struggle so buckle up for the ride
sign the waver in your favor for fucking up all your time
the pandemic academically taught us all how to hide
hopefully we all come out of this happier & alive
with a better understanding of standing outside the lines
my creative continuity caught a cold in july
though the weather was much better my feathers just never dried
hung my coat up in the closet consuming my modest mind
overcame it when i aimed it & shot it back at the sky 

sadness & sorrow
is all i embody
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody
inside my head
it's always so cloudy
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody

cocoon

lyrics:

The only evidence is locked in these old photos and still it barely is
And maybe its just me but I cant see us one with victory if that is what were up against
Let us sleep on it tonight

From the west I could feel the wind
It tore the sail and now we sit in the Atlantic
I see the shadow of the beast ahead
With clear sight and I accept it
My feather weight frame couldn’t manage
We chose our pride over the damage we expected
Its about time we had faced the hard truth
Take my body and feed it to the blue
No noise no blood no pain 
In an instant I was turned to the bait
Somehow its cold peace in the middle of the fray 
But every second I can breathe make me feel its too late
No no no never no
Even in this state I cant help but take control
Somehow every day this haunting take some out my soul
Tender thought I was seeing things until it hit his home

The struggling u do won’t help
Metal in his hands with 6 rounds
Take apart my heart with 2 shells
All that for a script of how he felt
This candle light hits me in my face
I hunger for her blood I need a taste
The flesh is tender right around the waist
On the sea ur moral compass is erased

The struggling u do won’t help
Metal in his hands with 6 rounds
Take apart my heart with 2 shells
All that for a script of how he felt
This candle light hits me in my face
I hunger for her blood I need a taste
The flesh is tender right around the waist
On the sea ur moral compass is erased

un1d3ntifiable r3mains ft guardin (branwen)

prod. @jolst

lyrics
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what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible 

you took advantage and left me alone in the dark
i spent every second exchanging that pain into art
you waited for silence and sought to tear me apart 
i hate what you've done to me running free in my heart
my sense of direction is severed in seventy parts
this compass is broken and you knew that shit from the start
your lack of compassion was passively stored in compartments
i wreak havoc while you hide in your apartment

what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible

once upon a time this shit was right
but right now i'll not feelin all too nice
my heart is heavy frozen under ice
the warmth of whiskey cloaks my fucking spine
you stare at me with fingers intertwined
while we just sit in silence acting fine
i hate how everything just took a dive
we're hanging on just trying to survive

what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible

you took my light
you took my shine

follow jolst

impossible (prod. jolst)

Thank you to all my friends who helped me with this album.

Highway (80 To 100) (PROD. Montoya)

A Mark, A Mission, A Brand, A Scar

Hands Down

9TAILS - Ill Try To Explain

produced by @jesmal

lyrics:

split your brain in half
all my thoughts add up like math 
cant relax
log ideas in the bath ay
buff and stack
my base power blow you back
cant react
fast enough to block attacks
get you smacked
when i talk dont you talk back ay
switch a flow like weapons y-y double tap
fuck a pact
stole your girl just using snap
she lemme tap
throw it back like bed time
when she hit the sack
havent slowed down in a minute
drop shit when i feel finished
ill give it up when i do damage
40+ songs that i left abandoned

im abandoning you
im abandoning who
ive come to mold myself to
im changing up and now im everything i wanted to do
forge my persona anew
im abandoning self
and im abandoning you
im abandoning who
ive come to mold myself to
im changing up and now im everything i wanted to do
forge my persona anew
im abandoning self
im abandoning self
and im abandoning you

abandoned (prod. jma)

ＴＵＲＮ　ＡＲＯＵＮＤ　＆　ＷＡＬＫ　ＡＬＯＮＥ

//私は十分に話していない//

lyrics
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when she goes i kiss her on the nose
tell her i love her so
turn around and walk alone
when she goes i smoke till i implode
coughing till i'm a ghost
i'm swimming to the coast 
where am i going
full of disgrace and self loathing
i cannot sleep without you in my sheets
so i stay up all night just hoping
that you come back but there's nothing
i guess i'm wishing for something
lost in a love with a girl whose a dove
and a crow of a boy that's been bluffing

i am just nothing
i am just nothing

when she goes i pick another rose
rip petals till i don't
that's just the way it goes 
when she cries i write another note
put it inside her coat
start clearin' out my throat

i never talk enough baby
trip over words like i'm crazy

follow taurusmoon

when she goes (prod. by taurusmoon)

standing at your doormat pt.2 (ft. yung axstn) (prod. irby)

Serotonin Ceasefire (ft. hamilton)

Yesterday I left her cigarettes, I haven't seen her since.
And she's here on her way from Boston, I'm still just a wreck.
And I thought that I'd be happy, but I've just been sadder now,
cos I can't seem to please here, and I'm gonna let her down.

And we've come so far, It's too late to give up now.
We'll fight for what's ours, this is not what we wanted.

And I'm losing hope, this is not what I wanted. At all.

Losing Hope (prod. Irby)

i hate myself for loving you ft sewerperson (prod. vaegud)

Trechor Boy:
you remind me of LA
all my friends were there to stay
i flew back the next day 
shit wasn’t the same
i try so hard to hide my feelings and the pain
but every time i lose it and that shit escapes
i started making beats way way back in the day
nobody fucked with me but now they know my name
trechor boy 
destroy
all of the hate
ooo

Dead Broke:
There's no time for to you to play,
and girl, I'm fucked up by the way,
you want me every single day,
can't find the feeling in my brain,
and now I'm seeing outer space.
I shoulda seen it from afar,
100 miles from away.

Nothing rly matters in the end,
I don't wanna live, if it means that she'll be dead,
I had my first out of body experience, and I don't think I ever wanna trip again.

Trechor Boy:
i rode a rocket ship 
flew up on that shit
way way up 
beyond the stars
haven’t looked back since
i had my first out of body experience 
nothing has looked the same 
and that’s on periodt

Dead Broke:
Saying that I changed again, must be the acid,
I don't wanna die alone, if I don't have to,
drugs are my only friends.

Trechor Boy:
you remind me of LA
all my friends were there to stay
i flew back the next day 
shit wasn’t the same
i try so hard to hide my feelings and the pain
but every time i lose it and that shit escapes
i started making beats way way back in the day
nobody fucked with me but now they know my name
trechor boy 
destroy
all of the hate
ooo

Dead Broke:
There's no time for to you to play,
and girl, I'm fucked up by the way,
you want me every single day,
can't find the feeling in my brain,
and now I'm seeing outer space.
I shoulda seen it from afar,
100 miles from away.

Nothing rly matters in the end,
I don't wanna live, if it means that she'll be dead,
I had my first out of body experience, and I don't think I ever wanna trip again.

Outer body (w/ trechor boy)

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
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hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad

music video

barefoot (prod. lil biscuit x guala beatz)

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle


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