damn bro so beautiful. The emotions are there, and really tell how you're feeling in this song 💯 a vibe.

gaurdin

prod. @taylor x @sshinju

lyrics
--------
passed out with your scent on my clothes
i'm in euphoria from my head to my toes
with a love like woah i guess that's how it goes sometimes
lights out baby just take me home
i've been getting fucked up when i'm all on my own
i'm a habit too close from the planet i roam tonight
feel stuck in my brain when i zone
so i swallow all the pain inside this glass of patron
you don't gotta tell me i got fuckin problems i know

pink lemonade
i'll drink you all day
you quite captivating dear dare do i say
i'm still suffocating it's always this way
my brain doesn't work it's not used to this weight 
i'd try medication but god i'm afraid
if this doesn't work i don't know what to say
i've tried every method of fixing this pain
god for bid i'm a goner a devilish saint

a devilish saint
i smile & laugh but inside it's all fake
i grind on my teeth, bite my tongue till it breaks
i wait for the sun to go down just so i can awaken
copy & paste
today feels like yesterday time is a waste
i'll open the bottle & down with no chase
my dignity's gone in an instant i must've misplaced it

passed out with your scent on my clothes
i'm in euphoria from my head to my toes
with a love like woah i guess that's how it goes sometimes
lights out baby just take me home
i've been getting fucked up when i'm all on my own
i'm a habit too close from the planet i roam tonight
feel stuck in my brain when i zone
so i swallow all the pain inside this glass of patron
you don't gotta tell me i got fuckin problems i know

pink lemonade (prod. taylor morgan x shinju)

You Could Stay w/ guardin (prod. Irby)

just another lil fun one cuz i miss my friends
creature pt. 3 otw
<3

lyrics
--------
you know it's import
-tant i can't ignore
feeling like forever might be shorter than before
it's been on my mind
all throughout the night
so me and all my friends go drink until we feel alright
till we feel alright
sprite ciroc and ice
down another cup but it gotchu feelin nice
might light up another slice
it ain't even noon but we gotta smoke twice
got a double in my cup
with a soda on the side
chicken noodle soup
way i'm spittin all this fried
with the gx engine we gon bring the coupe to life
in the tx 972 with all my guys

got my foot elevated while we drivin up the 5
06 ludacris followed by nelly furtado
breeze past you goofies in the sprinter with my gattos
feed lines to bitches off my dick like a silo
jesus where the pen at imma write another rap
jesus where the pen at im just trying to get smacked
ayy you kinda quiet is it getting to you bad
we a long way from home when home is all you've ever had  
i'll just redefine my character & get right in my bag
the tequila made it worse now i'm cursed with all this lag
eyes bloodshot crossed while i'm puffin on the zag
i don't wanna talk about it i don't really wanna drag 
you down with it
kiss another blunt go round with it
pop another top go drown in it
feelin like i got to
this pain heavy so the substance what i'm bound to

bound to round two
googling just how to
c-o-p-e cope with
-out chu out chu
(x2)

sour then sweet then i'm gone
feel like this tour wasn't long
nuff with the chit chat
man i miss my dogs
fuck it man i miss my dogs
control alt deleting this song
y'all really keepin' me strong
nuff with the bullshit
man i miss my dogs
started tallying the score
i think i've been here before
went from hollywood to venice
back to crying on the floor
i know this bout to be rough
you know you can call my bluff
we did everything we wanted
but everything's not enough

round two (prod. twix x g06 x thirtyyy)

prod. @siemspark x @jkeibeats

lyrics
--------
go
she said baby take your time
have fun out on the road
life is but a dream but it depends on where you go
i’ve been meeting people that i hardly fucking know
hardly fucking know
so now i’m singing woah
this is all i ever dreamed about and god it shows
swimming through this liquor tryna rid of all my woes
something in my head is telling me to take it slow
please just take it slow

please just take it slow
i’ve been tryna pace it
by erasing who i know
lifting up my spirit
in a pirouette with ghosts
dancing with the devil
every time i fucking smoke
but they would never know
panic sits before me
in a newly painted coat
i just drank too much so baby
please don’t rock the boat
fully automatic i go manic in these notes
this is what i wrote
this is what i wrote

she can tell from my eyes that i’m jetlagged
i’m not talking enough i regret that
my coding is fucked but i cracked that
i put my whole life in this backpack
and i’m hoping that i never backtrack

i hope this is forever
my life put together
a mere apparition
of me doing better
i’m sick of this weather
debating on whether
i’m writing this letter
for me or for everyone

jetlag (prod. siem spark x jkei)

lyrics
--------
don't do it for them
do it for yourself maybe
disguising the truth
convincing myself they hate me
are you really there
or am i just talking to myself
i'll do it again
i'll stay up and watch the sunrise
on top of the shed
i wish i could stay here all night 
i don't understand
why is it always just like this

i miss drinking until 6am
with all of my friends
even ones i just met
hey owen i hope that you're listening man
you helped me get outta my bedroom again
i was on the verge of the end of it all
but nobody knew at all
and i wish that i could get stuck in the past
back before we started moving so fast
standing this still is a choice that won't last
and neither will we so i guess it's a wrap
from here i see this so clearly
at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings

(at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings x2)

i had everything mapped to a t
but everything here isn't quite as it seems
there's blood everywhere from the heart on my sleeve
a permanent fix yeah i wanted to leave it
all behind me
cauterizing
the thread on my wings so i'm no longer flying
help
i'm trying to climb out this hell
but it's hard to talk when i lack
all the skills that i need to get outta my shell
i'm not scared to jump so just please don't come near me
when i hit the bottom is when they'll start cheering
and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you're hearing this

and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you hear me
and now i'm a ghost oh hello can you hear me

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geronimo (prod. 93feetofsmoke)

lyrics
--------
make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

might disappear by the morning
soaring higher than i was while recording
i'm warning you to stay away cause i'm boring
fuck i'm a mess face down in the flooring
worth another shot taking shots till i'm snoring
in my dreams i've been wide awake just exploring
a distant memory of better days i'm ignoring
if i keep fucking up then imma lead you all to mourning

make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

might fuck around with these toxins
i'm locked in a box with these puppets that i'm not with
obnoxious how they've been tryna limit all my options
hit em with the blade then i warp like i'm noctis
stop this all this fucking gossip got me nauseous
fuck the repetition i've been whippin new concoctions
and just because i'm reinventing they gon say i'm pompous
wait until the album drop cause that shit is colossus
lost his touch cause everything he made was flawless
creatively he's broke again like gromit to your wallace 
it's hard to stay awake & just create in midst of all this  
regardless i still hope you like the shit i drop in august

make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

mistakes (prod. peril x mekai b)

prod. @noahmadethiss

lyrics
--------
homebound
you are not alone now
i was on the telephone calling you
wishing i didn't fold now
soulbound
you & i are soulbound
i just wanna be the light beside you & lead the path to your home now
homebound
you are not alone now
i'll be right beside you till the end
and i promise i'll never fold now
sold out
they said that i sold out
all cause i've been writing bout my problems
and made it outta my hometown

trust me i'm trying my hardest
regardless i hope that you're fine
wish i saw the signs
like i could've saved you
if only i knew of the trouble you'd find
oh why was your fate in the hands of me
i think bout it all of the time
and with that in mind i wish i could fall backwards in time
wrote this callback while you were alive

so
reckless
cemetery deathwish
sittin' at your grave with a blunt & a bottle up to my chest
this chexmix doesn't taste the best
it's stale like the ale in my pail and i'm paler than my ex bitch
senseless
write it off my checklist
checkered board shorts & i'm sure that the shore is to the left
it's right there
nothings ever right there
mirrors give me light scares
i'm my own worst nightmare
i'm my own worst nightmare

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homebound (prod. noahmadethiss)

lyrics:

Memories I thought would last me forever
I hit back around not returned by the tether
I miss how we thought of vows in September
I hold only me thru these lonely Decembers
I thought u told me its us through whatever
But I guess its left me inside stormy weather 
I see ur face every time I feel better
Years from now ill still be sending letters
Like hi wait I know
That were not as close
As we once had been
But I guess it happens
This falling snow
Reminds me of home
Its quite the fight
But id die for it
~~
:Eric: -I love u brother ..""
~ Though Rust deformed me
she still sees me as her own
While Flames surround me
I see this could not be a home
These stage lights blind me
And they place me back in our throws
But still im fighting
To save this us we had known 
Like hi wait I know
That were not as close
As we once had been
But I guess it happens
This falling snow
Reminds me of home
Its quite the fight
But id die for it

tThe last page of tThe worst book you'v e ever read. (eric godlow)

lyrics
--------
yeah we cruise through life
with our grip held tight
if only time could tell
cause our fears just might
collide with dreams we had
all these paths offline
if i could make more sense of things i like
regardless
i create what i feel inside
this thera-peutic place where my tears all dried
it's blissful seasons change & the time flies by
i always feel so strained and i don't know why
be honest
how many mother fuckers do what you do?
you got everything you want but ain't nobody got you
they're so amazed by the constant drops, the plays & the views
but i'm deranged, fucking insane, spittin my pain in the booth
it's a mad fucking world we chasin pennies & truth
can you believe i fucking made it dodged a box & a suit
i'm just a boy from outer space who ain't got nothing to lose
so imma chase away the pain with 40 ounces of booze

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

i burn a blunt & bridge the gap to what is left
i'm upset cause half my childhood was theft
it's apparent that my scars all tell a story east to west
but i can't tell it cause i'm occupied by beds i overslept
in a second i'll feel fine, but in a minute i'm depressed
all these voices in my head been telling me what to do next
is there any fucking answers underneath the skin i'm dressed
in i always think about it till i say nah & forget
there's evil locked inside me but i don't know where it went
so i practice tying knots in case the thoughts inside my head
leave me manic watch me panic bout the past until i'm dead
all because some fucking loser touched my dick when i was ten
yeah they say men can't be raped but i'm a victim in the end
let it shake up my whole world until the day that i ascend
it's a blessing and a curse but what's worse is most men
do not open up about it till they start to comprehend
fuck

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

yeah we thrown in the ocean
deep end swimmin with a pocket full of potions
vices to commend the fallen ones that lost their focus
i'm a toy solider moving weight in slow motion
oh shit
i'm losing focus
how the fuck you fix it with a bottle and some roaches
you ain't been yourself & it's been noted by the hopeless
they look up to you & you've been stuck in a hypnosis
no sis
i ain't drunk that's bullshit
i've been chasing dreams and getting money on the road shit
i cut off my friends by being anxious on some ghost shit
i don't like myself and i don't even think i'll post this
fuck another track about myself you probably know this
i can hardly breathe but you're too dense to even notice
is it a.d.d. or apathy of all i know
this year has been the worst for me but i don't like to boast
chyeaaahhh so

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

monday (prod. astoriablvd)

another lil throwback/unreleased track from 2020
never got around to finishing this one
but i thought i'd drop what i had

@prodbartes

lyrics
--------
fought my way through half of november
i was sick & then i got better
you came back to start a new chapter
i was scared for what would come after
the lights went off cold nights in december
held you tight our hearts burn like ember
called your cab & left you my sweater
all these things i wish you'd remember

all these things i wish you'd remember (prod. bartes)

s/o to deckabeats & alsbeatz for bringing this one to life
& s/o to you for stickin' around! it's guardin szn!

lyrics
--------
clock strikes twelve it's all over after
distant memories of disaster
full eclipse the sky's falling fast
we're all dead by dawn  

i guess the goal is
to set my body back beside my soul
cause i guess really all i wants control
this world is ugly but we paint it gold
i've lost my discretion a decrepit hole
sits inside my body where i tug and pull
and pull and pull
your life code was patched
with a fine tooth comb
all the lights were detached
i guess nobody's home
in your bed lies a match
where the fire was thrown
i don't like where this goes
can you leave me alone
(cause when the)

clock strikes twelve it's all over after
distant memories of disaster
full eclipse the sky's falling fast
we're all dead by dawn  

i don't wanna do this
feeling like i got to
channel what i'm bestowed
pushing on the gas
till i'm drivin real fast
when i crash imma reload

enter the void

distant memories (prod. deckabeats x alsbeatz)

Children

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　ＴＨＥＹ　ＲＥＡＬＬＹ　ＣＡＲＥ

//いいんだよ//

sample is be kind by alex g

no amount of words could ever express my love for you guys. thank you so fucking much for every single comment, like, conversation, etc. i live for this music & to know i've got that much support behind me is insane. you blow my mind. i love you guys.

ＬＹＲＩＣＳ
https://genius.com/guardin-take-away-the-pain-lyrics

lyrics

take away the pain

guitar, production -https://soundcloud.com/poppytears

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s for jumping on this one with me  

"Behind Screens" full album: https://open.spotify.com/album/25XjozBMStYBDrlGk3wqHw?si=xAQ3iCJaTb6kz4hOhSMS0g

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/familypet
https://soundcloud.com/4ever-falling https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad
https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s

cover art: www.instagram.com/kenny_ravee/

Bandcamp link: https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/track/healthy-relief-ft-9tails-remastered

love you all

LYRICS: 

9TAILS:
not much i can do
pretty girls always needed more acceptance from you
i told her I'd
love if we ran away
cheap grams and cheap faith arent much of a reason to stay
and we could come back anytime but my souls had enough for today
enough with these moodswings i love you i love you but please go away
she feeds me real great
i can only wait so long
i can only show you once
december weather got my fingers numb
we end with the day
were gone with the sun

Poppy Tears: 

You call yourself a rockstar 
and you can't even play the fucking guitar
I know it isn't in your heart 
couldn't give two fucks about the art

we all fade away like a picture losing colour inside it's frame 
are we all waiting for the day, the day we look back upon what we made

like was it worth it 
Am I deserving
I'm still learning 
with death I'm flirting 

I slow my heart rate 
I've made that mistake 
feel my bones shake 
and find my own lane

✧ spotify ✧

healthy relief w/ 9TAILS (prod. poppy tears)

this isn't my song, just simply uploading because it's not on soundcloud.

9TAILS - never change

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle


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geronimo (prod. 93feetofsmoke)

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