Sad Summerzzz 24®

i would’ve left just the same as you 

@nevrfall

you hurt me in ways that you don’t even know 
n you’re never there when i need u the most
n you never care when i break n it shows 
don’t say that you’ll stay when i know that you’ll go

i jus keep getting fucking worse 
i’m moving backwards 
i’ll keep on breaking 
do your worst 
it doesn’t matter 
it’s funny that i need you
we won’t have an ever after 
say you love me while you’re fucking someone else,

how does that work
our love was filled with patchwork 
a fucked up worn out pattern 
n everything was shattered 
so tell me how does that work 
n i thought you were better 
but every night my chest hurts 
n i can’t take the pressure 
so tell me how does that work 

so what does it feel like 
to know that you’re always on my mind 
to know that i really broke this time 
to know that it’s fucked up my whole life 
i don’t know what to do 
know that i hate me too 
n i would’ve left 
just the same as you 
n i can’t sleep 
in this worn out room 
drink through the night 
till my heart turns blue 

oh well
it’s cold out here 
kinda feels like hell 
left me for dead
but i wish u well
say i’m alright 
but i can’t tell 
isn’t that what u want

how does that work (prod. nevrfall)

s/o chxse bank
rip summer
got some new shit for y'all real soon
<3

august (prod. chxse bank)

this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

orignal song "pale blue, pt. 2" written, recorded, and produced by Days to Waste

Lyrics:
Can't get it off my mind
Why do I even try?
The lights are turning green
And I can't drive away just
Highways and vacant streets
3 in the morning and I can't drive away
I know we never talk much

Told me that since you left
Darling have you forgotten the sound of my name?
All this ash in the air starts to turn every blue into different shades

I'm right back where I started 
The feeling so cathartic
Love me just to watch you walk away
It's love, it's death, it's toxic
The feeling makes me nauseous
Tearing down my hometown brick by brick
Cause' the drive home makes me sick

I've been away some time
I come and I go just like cold milwaukie rain
then sunny the next day
Walking vacant streets at 3 in the morning 
With friends I'd never leave
Ended up leaving me

Told me that since you left
Honey have you forgotten the moments we shared?
looking back on the past feels like most days it's like you were never there

I'm right back where I started 
The feeling so cathartic
Love me just to watch you walk away
It's love, it's death, it's toxic
The feeling makes me nauseous
Tearing down my hometown brick by brick
Cause' the drive home makes me sick

pale blue (pt. 2)

pale blue, pt. 2

just another lil fun one cuz i miss my friends
creature pt. 3 otw
<3

lyrics
--------
you know it's import
-tant i can't ignore
feeling like forever might be shorter than before
it's been on my mind
all throughout the night
so me and all my friends go drink until we feel alright
till we feel alright
sprite ciroc and ice
down another cup but it gotchu feelin nice
might light up another slice
it ain't even noon but we gotta smoke twice
got a double in my cup
with a soda on the side
chicken noodle soup
way i'm spittin all this fried
with the gx engine we gon bring the coupe to life
in the tx 972 with all my guys

got my foot elevated while we drivin up the 5
06 ludacris followed by nelly furtado
breeze past you goofies in the sprinter with my gattos
feed lines to bitches off my dick like a silo
jesus where the pen at imma write another rap
jesus where the pen at im just trying to get smacked
ayy you kinda quiet is it getting to you bad
we a long way from home when home is all you've ever had  
i'll just redefine my character & get right in my bag
the tequila made it worse now i'm cursed with all this lag
eyes bloodshot crossed while i'm puffin on the zag
i don't wanna talk about it i don't really wanna drag 
you down with it
kiss another blunt go round with it
pop another top go drown in it
feelin like i got to
this pain heavy so the substance what i'm bound to

bound to round two
googling just how to
c-o-p-e cope with
-out chu out chu
(x2)

sour then sweet then i'm gone
feel like this tour wasn't long
nuff with the chit chat
man i miss my dogs
fuck it man i miss my dogs
control alt deleting this song
y'all really keepin' me strong
nuff with the bullshit
man i miss my dogs
started tallying the score
i think i've been here before
went from hollywood to venice
back to crying on the floor
i know this bout to be rough
you know you can call my bluff
we did everything we wanted
but everything's not enough

round two (prod. twix x g06 x thirtyyy)

featuring @kennedysucks
prod. @blackwinterwells @taylor @sainttomorrow

lyrics
--------
we're just wasting time
sitting on these porch steps
feeling unimportant
vacant minds
cause nothings everlasting
hope is what i'm asking
for this time
i have trouble grasping
conceptual fasting
horrified
by the strangers sat in my head
telling me that i'm dead

the air that i breathe is heavy around me
& i feel like things are better without me
resort to the trees my chest fucking pounding
i smoke to perceive all that is surrounding
it's not what it seems it's hard to describe things
cause i cannot read beyond all these pipe dreams
i hope that you're free amidst all the high beams
and if my car passes i hope you find me

i feel like giving up (x6)

follow kennedyxoxo

true colors (ft. kennedyxoxo) (prod. blackwinterwells x taylor morgan X saint tomorrow)

prod. @noahmadethiss

lyrics
--------
homebound
you are not alone now
i was on the telephone calling you
wishing i didn't fold now
soulbound
you & i are soulbound
i just wanna be the light beside you & lead the path to your home now
homebound
you are not alone now
i'll be right beside you till the end
and i promise i'll never fold now
sold out
they said that i sold out
all cause i've been writing bout my problems
and made it outta my hometown

trust me i'm trying my hardest
regardless i hope that you're fine
wish i saw the signs
like i could've saved you
if only i knew of the trouble you'd find
oh why was your fate in the hands of me
i think bout it all of the time
and with that in mind i wish i could fall backwards in time
wrote this callback while you were alive

so
reckless
cemetery deathwish
sittin' at your grave with a blunt & a bottle up to my chest
this chexmix doesn't taste the best
it's stale like the ale in my pail and i'm paler than my ex bitch
senseless
write it off my checklist
checkered board shorts & i'm sure that the shore is to the left
it's right there
nothings ever right there
mirrors give me light scares
i'm my own worst nightmare
i'm my own worst nightmare

follow noahmadethiss

homebound (prod. noahmadethiss)

lyrics
--------
yeah we cruise through life
with our grip held tight
if only time could tell
cause our fears just might
collide with dreams we had
all these paths offline
if i could make more sense of things i like
regardless
i create what i feel inside
this thera-peutic place where my tears all dried
it's blissful seasons change & the time flies by
i always feel so strained and i don't know why
be honest
how many mother fuckers do what you do?
you got everything you want but ain't nobody got you
they're so amazed by the constant drops, the plays & the views
but i'm deranged, fucking insane, spittin my pain in the booth
it's a mad fucking world we chasin pennies & truth
can you believe i fucking made it dodged a box & a suit
i'm just a boy from outer space who ain't got nothing to lose
so imma chase away the pain with 40 ounces of booze

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

i burn a blunt & bridge the gap to what is left
i'm upset cause half my childhood was theft
it's apparent that my scars all tell a story east to west
but i can't tell it cause i'm occupied by beds i overslept
in a second i'll feel fine, but in a minute i'm depressed
all these voices in my head been telling me what to do next
is there any fucking answers underneath the skin i'm dressed
in i always think about it till i say nah & forget
there's evil locked inside me but i don't know where it went
so i practice tying knots in case the thoughts inside my head
leave me manic watch me panic bout the past until i'm dead
all because some fucking loser touched my dick when i was ten
yeah they say men can't be raped but i'm a victim in the end
let it shake up my whole world until the day that i ascend
it's a blessing and a curse but what's worse is most men
do not open up about it till they start to comprehend
fuck

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

yeah we thrown in the ocean
deep end swimmin with a pocket full of potions
vices to commend the fallen ones that lost their focus
i'm a toy solider moving weight in slow motion
oh shit
i'm losing focus
how the fuck you fix it with a bottle and some roaches
you ain't been yourself & it's been noted by the hopeless
they look up to you & you've been stuck in a hypnosis
no sis
i ain't drunk that's bullshit
i've been chasing dreams and getting money on the road shit
i cut off my friends by being anxious on some ghost shit
i don't like myself and i don't even think i'll post this
fuck another track about myself you probably know this
i can hardly breathe but you're too dense to even notice
is it a.d.d. or apathy of all i know
this year has been the worst for me but i don't like to boast
chyeaaahhh so

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

monday (prod. astoriablvd)

presave: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sendflowrs/colourblind

(for the first time, in a long time, i started to feel things again, i started to feel happy..) 

and i swear to god i will be there for you 
whether or not it is cold outside
i can’t even front
heart stopped when i saw you
for a minute i was sure i had died 
now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 

and it never was the same, was it? 
oh was it?
i’m sick of calling your phone !!!!
when everytime i see you on it
youre on it 
you hide your screen and say no 
i’m fucking losing my shit girl 
honest
just stop it
at this rate i’ll never come home 
and she just screams in my face 
“i promise, i promise!”
she said she does but she don’t 

she said she loves me, she don’t :( 
i know she cheats tho
and i’m as sure of it 
as i’m sure in the spring the leaves grow
she left me 0 speech 
so i left that bitch at heathrow
now i’m at level 3 
put 20xp in free throw 
i’m fucked up
drunk love
real kiss 
fake hugs 
pour up
care plus
guess i should’ve learned
last time felt the witches burn, fuck
left me with a cold touch 
so i jus smoke n turn up 
get money in surplus

(and i know,
mmmmm, 
but she don’t,
mmmmm,
but she don’t) 


now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 🥊
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 


(i guess i've been feeling... distant from you.)

colourblind (wisssery x noahmadethiss)

Maske

produced by 9TAILS

samples from kingsway music library

lyrics:

i dont wanna get too fucked up
i dont wanna get too wasted
2 shots down of bacardi black
and i dont know where my face is

why do i drink this if it tastes shit
cookie smoking spaceship 
dark backyard for the 5th damn time
in a week i need to stop this

listen to me girl
angel and demons
fill the world
i cant protect you for much longer theyre stronger 
than i can handle
a vandal upon my soul
i could love you until im cold
but i doubt the quality of my loving is close to gold

enough to hold
you down
stay around
stick around baby
stand your ground

looking down baby 
fix the frown
stay around baby 
stay around

i wanna die right now fucking right now
switch up in two seconds im just starving craving any help
dontchu yell
sweaty in the summer 
in my bed im screaming while i melt
terrors in the night 
i started becoming scared of myself
woah
talking to the mirror
off the drugs while im alone
i took out my septum and i threw it out onto the road
looking for identity
than throw that person to the floor
i might throw out everything
my shoes my hats and all my clothes
yo

this is not new to me
happens every night
happens every time i have too much im out of line
my friend dipset for the re-up cause he out of lines
ask me if its cool to use my dresser i said i dont mind

i dont mind
everybody on a seperate path these days to try and lose their life
its not our time
but why the fuck we acting like we outta try
what the fuck i gotta hide
damn

experiments
build experience 
dont get lazy though thats how you lose a friend
premature end
tear shed
so preventable
its so sad
a best friend
its too bad
theres no back
once you fall in
your brain is
quickly filled with toxins
a pill reacts with your perscription
breathing heavily
do you think ill live
could you hold my hand
my legs feel like sand
pins and needles
crawling up my back
neck numb
and my heart slow clap
someone bring me back
someone hold my hand
could you have

enough to hold
you down
stay around
stick around baby
stand your ground

looking down baby 
fix the frown
stay around baby 
stay around

stay around

artwork by @scottysplash

produced by Xtravulous and Kata

mixed & mastered by 9TAILS

thankyou for listening

out my bag (prod. Xtravulous X Kata)

official music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vxhMezjzFIE

lyrics:

K' that's all the fuck you said to me is K'
Tell me, should I come a different day?
Busy so am I so I can wait
Stops along the way that I can make
Something bout let's go our separate ways
Wish that you could tell me to my face
I don't got my jersey on today
So why you always tryna fuckin' play?

Tell me bout the shit that's in the way
But I don't think you really can relate
All the shit you never wanna say
ill give u the chance for u to say it now
Sick of all the buzzes soon I'm layin' down
I got on the 87A
Thought that you were livin' down in Cabbagetown
So why you on bus the other way?

shading me
so how you fuck with me
I remember comin' through to Queen West
And it was all love to me
that's a front to me
some them snakes to me
When you love on me
It feel fake to me
Please don't play with me
It's bout trust to me
Say my different number when you showin' up
Only on my own is when you show me love
If I hit my Bro then you might show me up
So Im always on my own I couldn't get enough
Now like every time I'm writing I been on the drugs
Now like three up to the dome is maybe not enough
Now I can't pick up the phone at night my body numb
This the closest shit im getting to a shoulder rub

K' that's all the fuck you said to me is K'
Tell me, should I come a different day?
Busy so am I so I can wait
Stops along the way that I can make
Something bout let's go our separate ways
Wish that you could tell me to my face
I don't got my jersey on today
So why you always tryna fuckin' play?

k (jabarionthebeat)

master: @trechorboy

lyrics:
so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

took you off my lock screen yesterday
said you'd never leave and now you've gone away
and after all this time, still don't know what to say
don't know how much longer i'll keep running away
it's getting harder to sleep now
wake up in a sweat i still see you in my dreams now
don't know how to feel now
cause i thought you'd be right here and now you're not around

so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

i keep on staring at photos (prod. 2001)

lyrics:

kick me punch me
what I'm spose do to make you love me
I cant blame you
I wouldn't love me
and I'm way too fussy
I could barely walk out the house with the shit I put on this morning
5am she's still snoring

white eyes
I hope u wake up from this cold night
you're looking green I hope you're alright
don't die
she cannot love a long time
maybe its in your star sign
you decide

cross eyed
I wanna help you but I don't know how
I wanna hold you you said not right now
I say I love you and you shut me down
i cant tell you why I still reach out
do you believe that I mean it though
said you're bad shit crazy I don't mean it though
to this meeting I propose a toast
to neglecting those that we might need the most
and I'm sorry for drowning out what I need to hear
I cant picture what I looked like yesterday
let alone what I look like last year
I feel horrible
I suppose it all settles down
vital signs back to normal ground
cigarettes in this wet crowd
late night at the lost and found
I can bike back in streetlights
I could stay as long as you like
curled up in the back room
I wont fold we can tell them lies
go to sleep baby I swear I'll be beside you
you can trust everything stay between us two
I believe we can make it through this monsoon
if you find yourself ensnared just know I got you

white eyes
I hope u wake up from this cold night
you're looking green I hope you're alright
don't die
she cannot love a long time
maybe its in your star sign
you decide

signs (eric godlow)

ft. @sewerperson x @lilnarnia
prod. @youlooktiredx

lyrics
--------
wish i would’ve stayed in my bed
put all my dreams in my nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath
(x2)

looks like you’ve got nothing done
your value is lost
oh what have you become
the critic inside you is holding a gun
to your head one false move and the chamber is spun
i’m a fake to myself live uncomfortably numb
mechanism for coping is biting my tongue
i’ve lost focus in all this sought solace in sun-
-light is burning my eyes which direction is it coming from
stupid thoughts hault my momentum run from everyone
and everything ignore your friends & family it’s fun
i stopped caring so damn long ago zero to one
i commentate my complications constantly i’m done

wish i would’ve stayed in my bed
put all my dreams in my nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath
(x2)

you cannot hurt me
but she gon break me down into a fine pulp
this shit taste like chicken i can barely tell its asphalt
sumn creep up behind me when i turn around its no one
she could rip my face from off my body and its my fault
pause
she dont really mean it she just do it for the applause
i choose not to believe it all of a sudden i am calm
im convinced they hate me but they lock it in their thoughts
i just need some reassurance here and there to keep me going
girl can u tell me whats up
i cant read ur face when u got ur walls up
look out on the lake u could see it light up
its even better in the winter u should try to come up

seems like summer never started
haven’t left my apartment in months
why can’t I just get you out
keep screaming with my head down
feels like nothing is an option
and im always exhausted
tryna pull myself together
check my phone and its december whatever
wish i would’ve stayed youda liked that
put all my dreams in a nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath

yeah
she makes home feel like a home in my head
and when i’m with her i feel hope again

willow ave (ft. sewerperson x lil narnia) (prod. youlooktired)

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle


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homebound (prod. noahmadethiss)

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