She makes home feel like a home in my head (In my head)
And when I'm with her, I feel hope again
I swear the weather on the coast all depends
On where we are but it's still home in the end.

24.09.2020 Neu und angesagt: Folk & Singer-Songwriter

s/o chxse bank
rip summer
got some new shit for y'all real soon
<3

august (prod. chxse bank)

lyrics
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don't do it for them
do it for yourself maybe
disguising the truth
convincing myself they hate me
are you really there
or am i just talking to myself
i'll do it again
i'll stay up and watch the sunrise
on top of the shed
i wish i could stay here all night 
i don't understand
why is it always just like this

i miss drinking until 6am
with all of my friends
even ones i just met
hey owen i hope that you're listening man
you helped me get outta my bedroom again
i was on the verge of the end of it all
but nobody knew at all
and i wish that i could get stuck in the past
back before we started moving so fast
standing this still is a choice that won't last
and neither will we so i guess it's a wrap
from here i see this so clearly
at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings

(at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings x2)

i had everything mapped to a t
but everything here isn't quite as it seems
there's blood everywhere from the heart on my sleeve
a permanent fix yeah i wanted to leave it
all behind me
cauterizing
the thread on my wings so i'm no longer flying
help
i'm trying to climb out this hell
but it's hard to talk when i lack
all the skills that i need to get outta my shell
i'm not scared to jump so just please don't come near me
when i hit the bottom is when they'll start cheering
and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you're hearing this

and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you hear me
and now i'm a ghost oh hello can you hear me

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geronimo (prod. 93feetofsmoke)

huge thank you to anthony for working on this one with me
go show him & his band this wild life some love <3

lyrics
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and we live just to die
so i pray i'm alright when i do
i'm shooting stars at the sky
not a crow left in my point of view
in the midst of a fight
throwing jabs till i knock out a tooth
if he pulls out a knife
and gets rid of my life
will the righteous ignite me with truth
(cause)
i will hide somewhere behind the dark that casts into
a room that thrives with blinding lights unwinding onto you
if only for a second i'm infected by the hue
please just promise me your honesty cause honestly i hate all that i do

and it lives deep inside
building homes in the holes of my heart
i've set my sights to the light
but i've been paranoid from the start 
red dot beamed on my forehead
deep breath this'll be a night you won't forget
cold sweat dreams terrorizing my cortex
woke up drowning outside on my porch steps
the waters been rising for years
hypnotizing my peers
into thinking they know me
but i live in fear
that they don't quite appear
to the likeness instilled in the old me
i swallow my tears
wander outside for years
with the hope that a god will come smite me
replenish these gears
cut my body with shears
make sure nobody's near even slightly

blue lights flash in the distance
red light stop i don't listen
projectiles from a piston
couldn't do it by myself need assistance
pink matter painted onto the concrete
think of this gunshot as a downbeat
red dot beamed on my forehead
this'll be a night you won't forget

it lives where i live (prod. anthony del grosso)

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//私はあなたなしで悲惨です//

thank you guys for all the love and support, especially lately. i've been going through a lot this past week & to know you guys are here for me really means a lot. we'll get through it together. we always do. i love you.

also, follow my boy 9TAILS
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
and my boy tothegood
@tothegood

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guardin x 9TAILS - nothing (prod. by tothegood)

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//誰も長く滞在しない//

i keep looking for love in all the wrong places. maybe one day things will be different.

lyrics
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and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think imma waste

more time scrollin' down my timeline
wish that i could hop up in my whip and go to five guys
somethings gotta give when i'm sky high
i'm not something super in the uber playin' i spy
disappear from everybody for a while
cause the air is getting thick within the radius of miles
suicide is on my mind & i can't bare to even smile
i can only get a taste cause happiness is versatile

and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think that i

probably could've tried harder
i tend to fall in love too quick with everybody's daughter
take my heart and they begin to slaughter
i'm a fuckin' wreck and my neck is lookin' like every other
boy that they've been bruisin' for a bit
i've been smooth cruisin' catalytic tendencies are in
love is just a four letter word that don't mean shit
cause i open up a bit too much & they just wanna dip

they just always fall back
i don't think i'll ever get a call back
why the fuck i go through all that
just for what we had to fuckin' fall flat

in my sleep

lyrics
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it's three o' clock
times running out
i rather sleep in than write all about
how i'm depressed
how to get out
cause i don't know shit i said fuck it & made it work out  
i'm a mess
i guess
but for some reason they stay impressed
i'm a pessimist 
optimism is something i miss
i kinda knew i'd be here all alone
but i never thought i'd do this shit & do it on my own
start writing stop checkin' on your phone
my mind races at some paces that are currently unknown

i'm not stoned
well maybe just a bit
hard to write a song if i don't take another hit
cancel all your plans today you're bout to write a hit
probably fucking not but you won't know unless you sit

does the energy around you ever get
inside your cerebellum tell me everything is shit
sleep away the day again and call it fucking quits
an easle to present a thought about the way i live
2017 was the year that i thought i'd kick
the bucket underneath my feet and slide into the pit
reach into the sky and said the clouds are looking lit
but angels never die so imma respawn real quick

did this kid really name his album after his cat
does he smoke a lot and how's his mom feel bout that?
dude please check my music out my shit really slaps
fuck you dickhead why won't you dm me back?
y'all really wanna work with me well how about that?
these lines are real dm's that i'll never hit back
i don't sell features so don't ask about that
god please don't hit me with another group chat 

it's three o' clock
times running out
i rather sleep in than write all about
how i'm depressed
how to get out
cause i don't know shit i said fuck it & made it work out 
i'm a mess
i guess
but for some reason they stay impressed
i'm a pessimist 
optimism is something i miss
i kinda knew i'd be here all alone
but i never thought i'd do this shit & do it on my own
start writing stop checkin' on your phone
my mind races at some paces that are currently unknown

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creature (prod. taylor morgan)

lyrics
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this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

keep me alive
counting the time on the clock till it's five
minutes until this disaster arrives
lie down on the floor you'll be fine
cold surfaces wake up my eyes
blindsided by love bold and bright  
my hearts in your hands till i die
i'd fly to japan for the night
if tour didn't have my hands tied

why did i sign up for this?
ask yourself the question every time you light the spliff
is there something that i missed?
i can feel their eyes, they're watching me with every line i spit
can you back it up a bit?
it's a little hard to breathe when privacy does not exist
codependency is never seen as such a risk
and the artists that we love are trying hard to not get pissed

this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

these eyes saw a lot of sights
but these guys start a lot of conflict
i'm conflicted how my life just
breezed by lost as soon as night hits

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alive (prod. caspr)

lyrics
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so let's go
to that party down the road
get so damn faded, sedated to subdue the stress
and down the whole bottle to forget the rest
i don't really know where i will go
talk to me baby, just don't fall asleep
i see you some days inside of my dreams

when she talks to me
cue the voice in my head
when she dodges me
kill the ghost in my bed
(x2)

inside of my dreams
talk on the phone till i'm falling asleep
you say i love you & i hear the beep
i get to thinking & dive in too deep
lost in a dream
i disconnect & start grinding my teeth
i see him smile, your lips start to meet
i close my eyes & accept my defeat


so let's go
to that party down the road
get so damn faded, sedated to subdue the stress
and down the whole bottle to forget the rest
i don't really know where i will go
talk to me baby, just don't fall asleep
i see you some days inside of my dreams

when she talks to me
cue the voice in my head
when she dodges me
kill the ghost in my bed
(x2)

follow tothegood

don't fall asleep (prod. tothegood)

lyrics
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hit the floor
drink some more
hope that you don’t throw up
life’s a bore
do your chores
i can’t wait to grow up
he’s a whore
she’s a whore
well kinda sorta
i don’t know anymore
it’s what i’m falling short of

what i’m falling short of
faded kinda sorta
whiskey on my breath
and paramore on the pandora
i can never think straight hit with paranoia
open photoshop i’m color correcting my aura
set up on the east coast
mind in california
i got lots of issues yeah i prolly should’ve warned ya
i don’t ever sleep i just stay up watching dora
i am such a fungi like plasmodiophora

they said that i could be anything that i want
so i became all that i hated just so i could get stuck
inside my head and i’ve been pacing thinking just way too much
but i comply don’t even try too busy gettin' fucked up

kinda sorta

lyrics
--------
she makes home feel like a home in my head
and when i’m with her i feel hope again
i swear the weather on the coast all depends
on where we are but it’s still home in the end

i felt hopeful for once
you’ve got all of my trust
you have no clue what you’ve done
we were drowning in love
i lost myself in us
i don’t know where to go
and who to call when things get like this

my car ran outta gas
you said you could pick me up
but i feel like an asshole
offered you some cash you declined
it didn’t matter
i was full of glee and you were full of laughter
laughter and after
we went home and watched shit
turned on the tv, kickin’ back we were exhausted
flipped through channels three to thirty six while eating chex mix
couldn’t find a thing so we resorted back to netflix
till we passed out
and then i got up off of the couch
i picked you up in my arms & wiped the drool from your mouth
both half asleep but i still stumbled silently through the house
until i came upon a path that i’ve never known about
and then i saw some lights in my reflection of doubt
my conscience beheading north while my heart trips to the south
and honestly i’m feelin’ torn in which direction i route
because i believe in everything we’re building around

hope again

Just a little live recording of a song I recently wrote...

Probability & Definition
(In the key of Segno)

It's a hard pill to swallow to see promises die
And a radiant future  wave its goodbye
But isn't any medicine just supposed to heal one,
And did it do its job if the existence is gone?
As I search the whereabouts of my supposed sins
Others dissolve in their well-meant sweetish grins
The tired ol' tale of probability and definition
After all everyone wants their share of recognition

Another eternity dying away, making some room for a memory-filled day
Now that I feel that my place is not here
But continue searching anyway, for sure its not near.

The best ones leave, as the worst stays behind
Still tells me to believe that destiny's kind
And to numb my mind with an easy way out
In the end, no one knows what all this is about
Awaiting and forming some kind of apology
I sink into the sands of modern technology
And how much would my wisdom be worth in the end
If no one's there to listen or willing to descend.
                              ...
Just what will it take for these tides to finally turn
How many words and tries without bridges to burn
And freedom's just another word to easily reject
An easy sign for someone, the truth to suspect
My haphazard walk on the edge of this knife,
Would it ever bring me closer to the elixir of life,
Or just spark some more madness, aloud and within
As my dreams were etched into the depth of my skin.
                            ...
Maybe its near.

Probability & Definition (Demo version)

Coverversion des Bob Dylan Songs „Simple Twist of fate

Simple Twist of fate

The Journey - An Orange Day
(written, recorded and mixed in the (beginning) key of Segno)

Night falls down, our thoughts drift off, to places far or near
Memories where we were happy or sad
Mix in the starlight clear.
                               ---
And I'm certain I'll see thee again someday,
When the orange sunlight falls down on me
And on the willow tree, down by the bay
                               ---
The unforgettable, wounded hero
And the starry-eyed bard from the lost-and-found
Breaking the bread over coffee and chocolate
To the green notes of an ancient lute's sound.
                              ---
Thy words had grown wings and took off my frown
To accept my sonorous reality
Like the dark-eyed youth from the ancient old town
In the north by the shore of the sea.
                               ---
Bathing in moonlight with thee by my side,
Washing the past scars away
The new day'll be dawning and it looks so bright
With nothing to lead us astray.

The Journey (An Orange Day)- Demo version

written and recorded by shane m. blanchard

<3

when my life is over
hiding in the corner
is the love we shared

our hearts must have deceived us 
and this loneliness redeems us once again

we could never find it
constantly reminded
that our love would end

its happening in stages 
ill cry about the changes   

i know thats its hard for you to be alone this time
you never trusted your heart my dear
i think its gonna take a long time 

lost within the pages
copy and then pasted in your arms again
is it just me dreaming
i can’t possibly believe it 
ill pretend that I am next to you
in these dreams

when my life is over

//

I’m gonna drive my car into the lake
I live my life in all the wrong ways
foot on the gas and I’ll lock myself inside
and maybe then, I can get some peace of mind

I’d say I tried but I know that isn’t true
not up to par and the water’s flowing through
thought I could handle a little more than this
seems I was wrong; that I’ll readily admit

I guess my mom thought that I could make it big
or at least move out by 26
I guess my dad thought that I could be a star
but here I am drowning in his shiny car

Looks like I drove this car into the lake
I lived my life in all the wrong ways
there’s no one here, it’s the middle of the night
I’m out of time and I should’ve said goodbye

//

car in the lake

lyrics
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i fell asleep in the backseat
with my eyes wide shut bumpin backstreet
we arrived on time to the crash scene
i just stared as i saw my body pass me
could’ve swore that this shit happened last week
got a hunch it’s a reoccurring bad dream
had a bunch last year when they asked me
what is it that you fear in your passing?

what is it that you fear in your passing?
maybe death but it’s more so in the crashing
do i feel everything as it’s flashing?
do i care? does it hurt? yeah i’m asking
cause i don’t have a clue how to feel
why do all of these dreams seem so real?
would it change if i just took the wheel?
i don’t know till all four tires squeal

i’m stuck in a nightmare
scared by where my eyes stare
no clipping through my car door
my body will just lie there
reaching towards the skies stairs
you won’t make it i swear
the current is pulling me
i’m hoping i don’t die here
(x2)

floating to the surface
i guess life is worth it
beat the fuck out of myself
tell me that i deserve it
anxious is a person
for that i am certain
i embody all my fears
and wear them like a curtain

cuba lake

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle


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