loved when you played this in atlanta a few years ago

stopped listening to music like this 
 
then listened to this after years of not hearing music like this 

reminded me the beauty of it

This is one of those songs you occasionally come back to here and there for how deep it is, for how words bring you back to a phase where you couldn't see yourself out of, and here I am. Living and striving a couple years later.

G u a r d i n

lyrics:

Huh Im pouring out this bottle till I feeling myself
Bruises on my chest from the last night out
Cuts on my thighs from my own damn self
The hardest part of it all is admitting that u need help
They see me on live
They feel me on live
But I was so drunk
But I was so high
This 55 inch emulate the coast line
While I record pain yea I expose mine

Though its not easy its not that easy but it works
U could tell im fighting shit and honestly it hurts
I throw my heart outside my window and go berserk
Just know the doom I make u feel I felt it first
Oh Amanda I was broken before I knew u and u helped me
The hardest is tryna prove to loved ones that u healthy
With snot pouring out my nose and half my liver virtually melting
Ur voice sounds nice but I dont listen to what u tell me

Hear my words and find peace in our anger
Its funny how after all of this time im now a stranger
The second I lost u I feel life grew so much bleaker
Now the way ur so appalled by my smile I feel like a creature to u 
If I do not awaken
Lay me down gently
Please do not protect me
The ghouls that dissect me
And I know I hide my emotions
But its in the benefit of enjoying the moment ya
I dont get along with no one this easy
So Tell me ur motive before I fall in love

Though its not easy its not that easy but it works
U could tell im fighting shit and honestly it hurts
I throw my heart outside my window and go berserk
Just know the doom I make u feel I felt it first
Oh Amanda I was broken before I knew u and u helped me
The hardest is tryna prove to loved ones that u healthy
With snot pouring out my nose and half my liver virtually melting
Ur voice sounds nice but I dont listen to what u tell me

BERSERKER (ERIC GODLOW)

A 125 year old motivational poem by Rudyard Kipling turns into a great song, with vocals by Joe Kendrick!

it's been ages since i've dropped a project & to be completely honest, i've been more than hesitant about releasing this, but it's my birthday today & i promised myself that i'd put this out. i really hope you enjoy it. thank you guys so fucking much for even taking the time outta your day to listen to anything i've created. this has been a passion for me for a while & to know that i can impact someone elses life through my craft is unbelievable. you guys have truly helped me get through so much & i promise, this is just the beginning. i love you

- guardin

ICED TEA (PROD. BY JF BEATS)

CATCH ME, I'M FALLING

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天空の愛

lyrics
https://genius.com/guardin-window-prod-by-young-taylor-lyrics

FOLLOW YOUNG TAYLOR

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//
私は死にたい
私の骨を庭に入れて

peep the homie @ociniji

FOLLOW OCINIJI

hot chocolate (prod. by ociniji)

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ＭＥ  ＷＡＮＴＩＮＧ  ＴＯ  ＬＥＡＶＥ．

//空気中の極性//

﻿ＬＹＲＩＣＳ
https://goo.gl/5TxNch

ＡＬＬ  ＭＹ  ＦＲＩＥＮＤＳ  ＬＩＶＥ  ＩＮＳＩＤＥ  ＭＹ  ＨＥＡＤ

Ｉ　ＪＵＳＴ　ＷＡＮＮＡ　ＣＡＬＬ　ＹＯＵ
ＥＮＴＨＲＡＬＬ　ＹＯＵ　ＩＮＳＩＤＥ　ＭＹ　
ＷＯＮＤＥＲＬＡＮＤ
♡ ♡ ♡

lyrics
https://genius.com/guardin-sunday-lyrics

FOLLOW EMIRC

ＳＵＮＤＡＹ（ＰＲＯＤ．ＢＹ ＥＭＩＲＣ）

produced by @taylorkingmusic

lyrics:

how u wanna do this
i been in advance 
i been working i been moving

people going stupid
party got a molly plug
everybody too lit

numbers say im growing
i just get ideas then i put them all in motion
feel it flowing smooth

drop top roof
hot box bentley
only going up broke boys keep filling with jealousy, envy
running through veins
white ash on the blunt high grade
while u promoting ur shit i bang out a tape
we are not the same

bitch u will never be like me
get out of my psyche
u must have been bumping like all my old shit cause u sounding just like me

these rappers that like me, bite me
if u wanna get at me, fight me
pull up on me and ignite me
if u want it dirty then sprite me

i got pains inside my chest when i breathe
i should really get a vape but that shit gonna cost me
im broke as fuck i dropped a rack on balmain jeans
i dont know why cause that shit so damn ugly

how u wanna do this
i been in advance 
i been working i been moving

numbers say im growing
i just get ideas then i put them all in motion
feel it flowing smooth

dont invite ur friends if u tell me u wanna see me
i dont like em dont u get it fuck theyre ur friends for a reason
i dont need em if u wanna u can skip our plans and see em
to be honest i was gonna hit u up and say im sleepin

grey goose orange 
in some fresca 
in a stainless steel bottle 
take a shot 
take a sip 
and swallow 
and im gone now
look around 
everything
in slow mo 
its home time
lets get out
i really think we should go now

how u wanna do this
i been in advance 
i been working i been moving

numbers say im growing
i just get ideas then i put them all in motion
feel it flowing smooth

drop top roof
hot box bentley
only going up broke boys keep filling with jealousy envy
running through veins
white ash on the blunt high grade
while u promoting ur shit i bang out a tape
we are not the same

drop top roof
hot box bentley
only going up broke boys keep filling with jealousy envy
running through veins
white ash on the blunt high grade
while u promoting ur shit i bang out a tape
we are not the same

envy (prod. taylor king)

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ＴＨＡＴ　Ｉ　ＬＯＳＴ　ＭＹＳＥＬＦ

//私がいなくなったら後悔するよ//

i wanted to release a lil' something for you guys as a thank you for everything you've done for me. a year ago, i was just a kid in my bedroom trying to figure out himself. fucking around with beats all day, smoking weed all night. i was depressed. hell, i'm still depressed & sometimes it feels like i don't know myself anymore, but this music has been the only thing that has made complete sense to me since the start & to know i'm helping you guys all whilst you help me is beyond beautiful. i'm so lucky to be where i'm at today. to be alive with all of you in my life. don't ever tell yourself that you won't amount to anything cause you're worth much more than you'll tell yourself & i promise once you find something you're truly passionate about and you dive deep into it, you'll feel a sense of purpose. there you'll find happiness. don't ever give up on yourself. i won't give up on you.

i love you

follow hateful

trafalgar (prod. by hateful)

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ＦＥＥＬＩＮＧ　ＬＩＫＥ　ＭＹＳＥＬＦ

//私は奇妙です//

thank you guys for everything. these past six months have been the weirdest journey of my life, but it's all led up to this moment right now & i wouldn't trade it for the world. i love you guys 

i'm also proud to announce this track is an exclusive release from an ep i did with my homies over at av records (333, vague003, killedmyself, kryptik, white shinobi, elijah who & of course aden & dk) called "broken feelings". you can check that out on spotify below.

https://open.spotify.com/album/0A3YC0hhlyMXR7J4TLxqcR

spotify

yesterday

produced by @hatefulbeats

lyrics:

baby look at what the time is
my phone is silent
faced the fucking blunt and now
im holding up my eyelids

too fragile
i view the world as violent
no relations
everyone tryna be a tyrant

still dressing
like youd think i have a stylist
blowing gas
but we never uppin milage

snow fall
and the world is fucking silent
no nonsense
when the uber drive in

sit next to me
you dont gotta fucking send texts to me
get next to me
if thats where u feel u supposed be

undress with me
show each other what we wanna see
get next to me
ill have you in ecstasy

press me on my snapchat
ion really need that 
flying through my emails
carpel tunnel from the mouse tap

off days i get the spins
i wouldnt mix that
bacardi kick back
gut the woods and rinse that

gold karrots in my nose had got me feeling bugs bunny
dropa truth bomb and they look at you funny
blow up like a bomb and they just ask bout the money
acting like ur mom but girl you not even honey

thinkin i owe u something
i dont owe no one nothing
texting for a week and then they think ur their husband

saying u in love but girl u dont even know me
keep on changing up youll be in love with the old

baby look at what the time is
my phone is silent
faced the fucking blunt and now
im holding up my eyelids

too fragile
i view the world as violent
no relations
everyone tryna be a tyrant

still dressing
like youd think i have a stylist
blowing gas
but we never uppin milage

snow fall
and the world is fucking silent
no nonsense
when the uber drive in

1am (prod. hateful)

produced by scottysplash
mixed & mastered by 9TAILS

lyrics:

feel like a fool
i feel like a fool
this is my 4th time being used
dont you hate it when they fuck you
and act like its you
act like i brought it upon me for muse
like i get off on the cruelty
like i enjoy the abuse
like the emotions would feul me
damn this girl been smart as fuck cause they do
she get the fling then she throw me
i dont even bruise
ive callused over all over me
arrogance
dot hurt like it used to
no
no
despite what ive been through were
gold
gold

girl you know im gone 
why you pulling up a leg onto the couch
this'll head south real quick no doubt
dry mouth red eyes passed out
greened out
homie took a half and beaned out
leaned out of the window
yonge street cheeks out
full moon no clouds
making mom proud
blue shirt black vest telling him to calm down
now im thinking how did we end up at your house
also why the fuck is all my shit at my house
it dont make sense
it dont add up
heard you walking now you all over the mattress
lemme ask ya
why the fuck you always kiss me with the mask on
we have fake sex
making fake love
getting caked up
just to wipe it all off
fuck the make up
fuck a quick nut
had to hold me down so you could chase a paystub
big bucks
picked the wrong target
i dont really have none
fam have a drink
i dont really want one
gimme bout 7 no 9 up front
lemme feel something
with a little bit of numb
oooo thats nice
if its under 35% i dont look twice
XO cognac like im derek wise
88glam "12" shots "on sight"
walking funny no cane
talking funny no mic
bar mans ear off talking no mike
handing me a water how im talking all night
feel like harry potter when the lightning strike
in my mind run home pump out 3 songs when im fried


look at that boy what a mess
why the fuck he working two years no cheque
run it to the ground
he'll be proud when hes dead yuh
he dont need a friend with all the voices in his head
100mg cold turkey off meds
now he taking LA while he miss his own bed
miss his whole family
miss the old camry
friends used to whip him in smoking 30x
but everybody saying hes next got him gassed
probably fly down there
and work work work no rest
make a little money no chains on his chest
fly back to the dot just to pay his mamas
bills with the bread
god bless
anything to help eleviate the stress

feel like a fool
i feel like a fool
this is my 4th time being used
dont you hate it when they fuck you
and act like its you
act like i brought it upon me for muse
like i get off on the cruelty
like i enjoy the abuse
like the emotions would feul me
damn this girl been smart as fuck cause they do
she get the fling then she throw me
i dont even bruise
ive callused over all over me
arrogance
dot hurt like it used to
no
no
despite what ive been through were
gold
gold

fool (prod. scottysplash)

guitar, production -https://soundcloud.com/poppytears

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s for jumping on this one with me  

"Behind Screens" full album: https://open.spotify.com/album/25XjozBMStYBDrlGk3wqHw?si=xAQ3iCJaTb6kz4hOhSMS0g

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/familypet
https://soundcloud.com/4ever-falling https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad
https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s

cover art: www.instagram.com/kenny_ravee/

Bandcamp link: https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/track/healthy-relief-ft-9tails-remastered

love you all

LYRICS: 

9TAILS:
not much i can do
pretty girls always needed more acceptance from you
i told her I'd
love if we ran away
cheap grams and cheap faith arent much of a reason to stay
and we could come back anytime but my souls had enough for today
enough with these moodswings i love you i love you but please go away
she feeds me real great
i can only wait so long
i can only show you once
december weather got my fingers numb
we end with the day
were gone with the sun

Poppy Tears: 

You call yourself a rockstar 
and you can't even play the fucking guitar
I know it isn't in your heart 
couldn't give two fucks about the art

we all fade away like a picture losing colour inside it's frame 
are we all waiting for the day, the day we look back upon what we made

like was it worth it 
Am I deserving
I'm still learning 
with death I'm flirting 

I slow my heart rate 
I've made that mistake 
feel my bones shake 
and find my own lane

✧ spotify ✧

healthy relief w/ 9TAILS (prod. poppy tears)

single off my EP

@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
@taxpurposes

9TAILS:
When I'm winding down
On my own at night
I think of the things that I control in life
I really hope majority I handle right
I shit out what to do and cross my fingers tight
Can I reserve a halo
Based on how my day go
If we talking whole life
Then send me to the charcoal
Send me to the devil
Stripped of all my medals 
It don't matter my credentials 
I'm stuck inside my mental
Like woah
Lemme out lemme go
Got a five star meal out in west to
Ion even got no shoes no coat
Cherry coke and some dominos fuck a dinner I can see frosty roads
I'll freeze 
Camping out in the east
Shit was a crazy 2018

I'm a cozy soul
Living in my cozy room
Bumping cozyboy
It got me in a cozy mood
In a lonely mood
I got some friends that's lonely too
We got each other though
We love our little lonely crew
Somebody loving you
I know your scared Cause you don't understand what lovers do
I know your scared cause usually they stay away from you
But hey theyre picking you
I wouldn't be surprised if they  might know the feeling too

Lay down
I know you got family problems 
But they not around
Let it out girl
Pout 
Cry, breakdown
I'll be here to help out
I'm concerned for ur health girl
We should eat out
You been skipping meals
Trust me I been down that road I'll make you stop the wheels
Calories are hourly with me you know the deal
Talking bout depression girl i just got off the pills
Questions bout prescriptions I could answer em for real
The headaches and the therapy you know I know the feel
Sitting up at night I keep on praying that you heal
I know you'll win my baby got a skin thats made of steel
Wonderwomen type deal

Honey berry air smell
I just wanna go now 
You just wanna go now
Ay

Lemme turn the light down
Lemme turn the bass loud
I'm just gonna close these drapes

Fried until my face melt
Artist like I'm drake bell
Cooking like it's Swiss chalet

Green from the glass gave me
Visions like it's splintercell
This shit got me feeling so great

Honey berry air smell
I just wanna go now 
You just wanna go now
Ay

Lemme turn the light down
Lemme turn the bass loud
I'm just gonna close these drapes

Fried until my face melt
Artist like I'm drake bell
Cooking like it's Swiss chalet

Green from the glass gave me
Visions like it's splintercell
This shit got me feeling so great

download

zzz (ft. 9tails & taxpurposes)

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle


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