i cannot sleep without u in my sheets so i stay up all night just hoping that you’ll come back but theres nothing

I miss her :/ i wish i couldve been a better person for her :/

it'd be so awesome to have a longer version of this with like another verse or two

sadboii shit

Basse 24/7, JayFett1, DG / No Clue

prod. @notmorgn featuring @i_x_t_a_i_l_s

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFHw9ImuMok

guccihighwaters:

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

rot all alone cus i stay locked in my home
i only see the fucking light when my friends are getting stoned

i don't smoke that shit my brain to fucked up
if i could i would i always seem to the worst luck
anxiety embedded in my bones
when i turned 10 man i always felt all alone

9 years later you know im still floating
above the rough ocean treading in emotions
sippin on the potion plan to turn my ghost in
i will fade away no one ever fuckin knows me

9TAILS:

side note ps i would go back
to the scenes i keep seeing in my flashbacks
on the nights when i dream it never makes sense
cross the line and hurry back like im defense

breathe swallow air then i dive in the deep end
calmer under water love when everything is silent
seeing faces even when im not dreaming
tell me are they real i really hope that you can see them

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

side note (feat. 9TAILS)

9TAILS - Ill Try To Explain

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Ｉ＇Ｍ　Ａ　ＨＥＡＴＨＥＮ

//私はあなたなしで悲惨です//

thank you guys for all the love and support, especially lately. i've been going through a lot this past week & to know you guys are here for me really means a lot. we'll get through it together. we always do. i love you.

also, follow my boy 9TAILS
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
and my boy tothegood
@tothegood

follow 9TAILS

guardin x 9TAILS - nothing (prod. by tothegood)

produced by classixs beats found at www.youtube.com/channel/UCkNqXC7nc4gtHQ8cKU48iow

lyrics:

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

hit me with a feature boy just know this is art
come at me with garbage and ill rip it apart
honestly i been about it prior to you
and i dont need a fucking friend i need a drink and a dart

i dont even smoke but i think i should start
take a couple years and give em back to the dark
eliviate the pain and fucking take out my heart
eliviate the pain and give me back to the dark

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off

they want a love song
but i havent felt love in a minute
its been so long
truthfully im not sure if i was ever in it
but now its all gone
the people and the visions we both thought of as vivid
thought of as lucid
fuck all the bullshit
strangle and beat up and fucking spit on the cupid
im so gone
scotch and a spliffy had got me saying some shit 
i never dreamt of
sertraline pills im not an artist im a motherfucking
pill box
right now fuck the flashing lights i think id rather see a 
red dot
headshot
maybe its time that i met god

4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

i cant finish project
or put it in motion
everythings sounds shitty
by the damn second verse
got some real friends
sending me some warm texts

but its a shame that my phone dont work

i got debt on debt
u like my shit oh bet
i might not make it for a while
cause im fucked in the head
find me sleepin in bed
i got a 12 hour rest
imma wake up for an hour then go do it again
i needa wean off

give a fuck if im dependent on the meds
as long as i get up and think enough to make a track
its weird to have a thousand people screaming what i said
im good at working under pressure when im sad i write the best
smoke alot of weed but im addicted like its crack
i been rippin blunts until i feel it in my back
when you adopt the music you adopt it till u dead
your brain'll change and you can fire thoughts like your a gat

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

wean off (prod. classixs beats)

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ＧＥＴ　Ａ　ＣＡＬＬ　ＢＡＣＫ

//誰も長く滞在しない//

i keep looking for love in all the wrong places. maybe one day things will be different.

lyrics
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and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think imma waste

more time scrollin' down my timeline
wish that i could hop up in my whip and go to five guys
somethings gotta give when i'm sky high
i'm not something super in the uber playin' i spy
disappear from everybody for a while
cause the air is getting thick within the radius of miles
suicide is on my mind & i can't bare to even smile
i can only get a taste cause happiness is versatile

and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think that i

probably could've tried harder
i tend to fall in love too quick with everybody's daughter
take my heart and they begin to slaughter
i'm a fuckin' wreck and my neck is lookin' like every other
boy that they've been bruisin' for a bit
i've been smooth cruisin' catalytic tendencies are in
love is just a four letter word that don't mean shit
cause i open up a bit too much & they just wanna dip

they just always fall back
i don't think i'll ever get a call back
why the fuck i go through all that
just for what we had to fuckin' fall flat

in my sleep

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ＩＦ　ＨＥ　ＣＲＡＷＬＳ　ＯＵＴ　ＯＦ　ＨＩＳ　ＣＡＧＥ？

//あなたは私に死んでいる//

lyrics
--------
droppin' my friends like flies
i'm so mortified
i don't trust my sense of lust cause love ain't what i find
cue the voice inside
kill my fucking mind
smoke embellishes the curtains in my room at night
i'm just lost in my
head and i know why
you don't care but i declare this love will never die

i can help you isolate the fears you hide inside your brain
let it rain
i know pain
i know blood will always stain
i know crimson isn't cute when it's the color of your veins
what's a habit to a rabbit if he crawls out of his cage
what's a room key to a lock if all the doors just look the same
i'm so restless fill my chest with smoke and cyanide and shame
all my limbs work on a whim so please can someone light the flame
fuck my conscience gets so nauseous every time i hear your name

so you packed your bags that night
sewed up your wings to fly 
repetition kept me quiet but i got so high
nothing new in my 
realm i guess i'm fine
that's a lie
that's a lie
that's a fucking lie

how do you sleep at night?

follow redrose

trust me (prod. by redrose)

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//それを明るくする//

follow the homie taylor morgan 
@taylor

lyrics
--------
addicted
yeah i'm fucked up
sick of loving someone new
i'll fix it
no i won't but
at least i try and try until
you drop me back off at my house
and i call up my friends and they all gotta bounce
all alone with an ounce
imma smoke till i cry
with my eyes to the sky
i got you on my mind girl

i got you on my mind girl
& this time i'll rewind till you're my girl
life sucks waking up let my mind whirl
scroll down on your page & i might hurl
i hate when i do this to myself
write about a girl that's detrimental to my health
lost inside a state of mind where talkings only hell
and the closer that we get i lose my grip and start to yell 
i lose my shit quite often off in august on my cell
when i hit you up and told you that i'm outside of my shell
i hate the way you say you're fine
and i can tell it's just a lie
i'd wipe the tears right out your eyes
but we've already met our demise
so

addicted
yeah i'm fucked up
sick of loving someone new
i'll fix it
no i won't but
at least i try and try until
you drop me back off at my house
and i call up my friends and they all gotta bounce
all alone with an ounce
imma smoke till i cry
with my eyes to the sky
i got you on my mind girl

i'm not your enemy
i'm just a boy
you've got your friends
you say you're doing fine
but i can tell you're wrong despite
the way he kisses you at night
your smile shines so fucking bright
i think i need another light

addicted
yeah i'm fucked up
sick of loving someone new
i'll fix it
no i won't but
at least i try and try until
you drop me back off at my house
and i call up my friends and they all gotta bounce
all alone with an ounce
imma smoke till i cry
with my eyes to the sky
i got you on my mind girl

follow taylor morgan

addicted (prod. by taylor morgan)

ＴＵＲＮ　ＡＲＯＵＮＤ　＆　ＷＡＬＫ　ＡＬＯＮＥ

//私は十分に話していない//

lyrics
--------
when she goes i kiss her on the nose
tell her i love her so
turn around and walk alone
when she goes i smoke till i implode
coughing till i'm a ghost
i'm swimming to the coast 
where am i going
full of disgrace and self loathing
i cannot sleep without you in my sheets
so i stay up all night just hoping
that you come back but there's nothing
i guess i'm wishing for something
lost in a love with a girl whose a dove
and a crow of a boy that's been bluffing

i am just nothing
i am just nothing

when she goes i pick another rose
rip petals till i don't
that's just the way it goes 
when she cries i write another note
put it inside her coat
start clearin' out my throat

i never talk enough baby
trip over words like i'm crazy

follow taurusmoon

when she goes (prod. by taurusmoon)

ＳＥＶＥＲ　ＡＬＬ　ＴＩＥＳ　ＷＩＴＨ　ＴＨＥ　ＬＯＶＥ
Ｉ　ＷＡＮＴ

//古いルーツ//

ＦＯＬＬＯＷ　ＤＥＣＫＷＩＮＥ
https://soundcloud.com/deckwine

lyrics
--------
it's just like you
to fall back to your old routes
nothing is true
fall in love with someone new
and their face
& their eyes
their hellos
& goodbyes
you're chasing a high
and it's making me cry
i'm sick of the lies
don't tell me you'd die for me
just to lie to me
baby why do i believe?

when you tell me that you love me
no joke i've been cravin' your company
last minute you switched you don't fuck with me
that's rough kinda sucks but luckily 
i don't need you as much as i thought
sever all ties with the love i want
sitting alone in this restaurant 
with a ghost of a girl you'll forever haunt

she's not around no more
vacancy screams from my bedroom door
i cannot take this shit anymore
writing these words till my fingers sore

it's just like you
to fall back to your old routes
nothing is true
fall in love with someone new
and their face
& their eyes
their hellos
& goodbyes
you're chasing a high
and it's making me cry
i'm sick of the lies
don't tell me you'd die for me
just to lie to me
baby why do i believe?

follow deckwine

old roots (prod. by deckwine)

guitar, production -https://soundcloud.com/poppytears

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s for jumping on this one with me  

"Behind Screens" full album: https://open.spotify.com/album/25XjozBMStYBDrlGk3wqHw?si=xAQ3iCJaTb6kz4hOhSMS0g

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/familypet
https://soundcloud.com/4ever-falling https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad
https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s

cover art: www.instagram.com/kenny_ravee/

Bandcamp link: https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/track/healthy-relief-ft-9tails-remastered

love you all

LYRICS: 

9TAILS:
not much i can do
pretty girls always needed more acceptance from you
i told her I'd
love if we ran away
cheap grams and cheap faith arent much of a reason to stay
and we could come back anytime but my souls had enough for today
enough with these moodswings i love you i love you but please go away
she feeds me real great
i can only wait so long
i can only show you once
december weather got my fingers numb
we end with the day
were gone with the sun

Poppy Tears: 

You call yourself a rockstar 
and you can't even play the fucking guitar
I know it isn't in your heart 
couldn't give two fucks about the art

we all fade away like a picture losing colour inside it's frame 
are we all waiting for the day, the day we look back upon what we made

like was it worth it 
Am I deserving
I'm still learning 
with death I'm flirting 

I slow my heart rate 
I've made that mistake 
feel my bones shake 
and find my own lane

✧ spotify ✧

healthy relief w/ 9TAILS (prod. poppy tears)

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ＪＵＳＴ　ＣＯＭＥ　ＢＡＣＫ　ＦＯＲ　Ａ　ＤＡＹ

//多分いつか//

lyrics
--------
baby maybe you could come my way
if you want to you could always stay
it's not like you just to walk away
treat it like it's just another day 
pick up my phone
twitter i'm scrollin' all day i'm alone
walkin' outside
get in the whip & i drive on my own
saw the cd
spirals drawn on it you made it for me
cry by track three
grabbin' my pen & i puff till i'm free

truth be told i lost control a year ain't nothin' changed
you could be my everything just come back for a day
truth is that i love you so but lost you on the way
you cracked the door i swear you swore that things would never change
mortified by what's inside the demons in my range
grip my head pronounce me dead i'm turning in my grave
said goodbye i held you tight the night you drove away
no one ever told me that i'd never be okay

(travel your mind you'll see what i)

music video

someday

ＨＯＷ　ＤＩＤ　ＷＥ　
ＤＥＳＴＲＯＹ　ＥＡＣＨ　ＯＴＨＥＲ？

//私たちは病気です//

tysm to @jvbeats666 for creating this beauty with me
go show him some luv 

lyrics
--------
whiskey pour another cup
nothing like the feeling of getting so fucked up
off the last lost breath of a lover that you once
had but she ran with a man much better than yourself
i think i need help
i think i can touch the sky & grip orion's belt
taking off my vans full of sand and some shells
heaven ain't the place for me but i can hear the bells

they say that an angel is self defined 
so when i describe
the girl that lost her mind
the sky will probably cry
but the rain won't mind
if you cry too
feel alive when the sky makes the clouds move
raindrops fall but i fall harder 
light reflects off the water in the harbor
i don't care to compare what i'm told
to what i believe cause i'm still all alone


i've been tryna get back home
but i don't know which road
to take before i can awake from this nightmare
i'm cold
all alone
got the wind straight blowin' in my face i can feel it in my bones
if i smoke
will the clouds lift my body from this place cause i don't feel at home

what's a home without a lover
what's a road without another
how did we destroy each other
how did we destroy each other

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all alone (prod. jay vee)

9tails - I Cant See Anything (prod GHXST)

all the same

New page. Had some problems w this one. Come peep me @ https://soundcloud.com/LVGHST

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle


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