Sins freestyle

blessed are the forgetful

produced by @notmorgn
with @cpt_sad and @guccihighwaters

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in the wind (w/ yesterday and guccihighwaters)

@guccihighwaters
@killedmyself

lyrics:
check the clock, 2 am and i cant sleep
scrollin down our photo album just to see our last week
ghosts up in my bed like you were laying in them last week
counting faces in my head like what you said is on repeat
i hope you feel the same in the morning

she said its over like it couldnt be
who knew itd end so cowardly
cant look me in the eyes
guess my stare is so damn heavenly
her kisses on my neck used to show my love so publicly
i miss her on my chest
like my heart, thats where it used to be
ive sown it on my vest
crawls away just like a centipede
i always tried my best
even that just wasnt good enough
she came through to confess
locked her up and threw away the key
depression will infest
hang me up just like a center piece
eroding at my brain
like she try and put the blame on me
but i never claimed to be
the one you wanted me to be
going through the motions
but i feel fucking emotionless
a minute to get mad, then ill get back to destruction
my head is blowing up just like a volcanic erruption
im always fucking up like an nes corruption
blowing down the ounces like i blow away my brain
i get out to escape from whats causing all this pain
friends and substance i abuse
in hopes to keep me all together
cuz without them i would fucking die
nobody lasts forever

i hope you feel the same in the morning
cus i don’t feel the same way any more bitch
im a ghost watch the rain while its pouring
2am i need u but you’re snoring
i need rest prefer a death bed
i need a hollow tip to penetrate my chest
i need to leave maybe then you’d be impressed
too far gone imma sleep on the grass
i stay lone and i hate it
i hate it
but your lips 
still taste still taste them
like come back ill buy u a gucci bag
u can play ur games if u let me hold your hand
please dont 
(please dont break my heart) 
ohh please dont
well is this not enough of destruction 
my body is sick of convulsing

Follow me <3

i hope you feel the same in the morning (ft. guccihighwaters) [prod. killedmyself]

prod. @notmorgn

new day new song new problem
new clothes it’s cold in autumn
leaves fall right to the bottom
i miss u but i won’t call you
bags on my eyes
they think that im high
you said you loved me
but then you said bye
i don’t care
the pain make me
i’m post death
till my heart stop aching
ill fucking scream till my voice box breaking
it’s fuck life till the reaper take me

do u wanna be mine
like i wanna be yours
do u wanna be mine
like i wanna be yours

i put in the work
no 9 to 5 
she get outta work 
im kind of hype
your girl was in my dm’s 
for the pipe
but im not a plumbing
so it dont feel right
this feels nice in my car
night ride
if the function sus 
then fuck i gotta slide
cus when i have anxiety
i wanna die
but when im by your side
it feels kind of nice
everything coming clear grey goose with the ice
i like that shit cold have me feeling kind of right
and for my heart you have that shit tied
when we kiss i get warm inside

bags on my eyes
they think that im high
you said you loved me
but then you said bye

do u wanna be mine
like i wanna be yours

do u wanna be mine

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//私はあなたなしで悲惨です//

thank you guys for all the love and support, especially lately. i've been going through a lot this past week & to know you guys are here for me really means a lot. we'll get through it together. we always do. i love you.

also, follow my boy 9TAILS
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
and my boy tothegood
@tothegood

follow 9TAILS

guardin x 9TAILS - nothing (prod. by tothegood)

on a side note, rest in peace lil peep he was a huge inspiration and his music really helped me get through hard shit last year. I'm glad to have met him, we talked about music it was a day i won't forget.

sample credits: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w6rDh75VHMs

prod. @notmorgn

im afraid you really can’t save me
but i still wanna lay with you until my visions fading
i have feelings no im not faded
i would wait a lifetime if you had the patience 
oh you cannot save me
im too deep in this
oh you cannot praise me
i’ve got demons in me

constant conflict 
with my own reflection
i ain’t got no sense
of direction 
when it comes to this
i just succumb to it
please enlighten me
all i hear is thundering
in a couple months
i hope to see some changes
maybe with this check 
i can get you that bracelet
it never happens my 
bank account is dead again
do you mind if we just kick it 
in my bed again
workin to hard 
to feel empty
im almost 20 but 
i feel like i’ve had plenty
wake up in a faze 
i feel like ecco2K
wake up everyday but
 i fight through the pain

im afraid you really can’t save me
but i still wanna lay with you until my visions fading
i have feelings no im not faded
i would wait a lifetime if you had the patience 
oh you cannot save me
im too deep in this
oh you cannot praise me
i’ve got demons in me

you cannot save me
im too deep in this
i have feelings
know i’d wait a lifetime

you can't really save me

@prodreaper
@guccihighwaters

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
kiss me in the rain or leave me at the front door
tell me you despise me tell me that you need more
tell me i'm a freak, tell me i'm insecure, mi amor mi amor

if i wanna dance with the devil i can ask
why you lock your phone baby tell me what is that
if you got an issue then you know i got your back
if he wants to meet you can say just, that

it won't come to floracion
i know that you kissed him i know that he put you down
he can find, someone else, he can throw, around

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
indecisive leaning on the vices i don't like advice, i just flip the light switch
sleep it off, overslept got missed calls, 
do not disturb on my phone got sick thoughts,

 mi amor, i wanna love you till my hearts sore, 
i was drowning in emotions, when i met you i really stopped choking
 but you deserve the world, i really mean that
i don't have it all, i know that you can see that,
 allot of things to explore, but i just want you behind this closed door

mi amor w/ guccihighwaters (prod.reaper)

prod. @notmorgn
featuring @guardinmusic

(guccihighwaters)
she said I look upset but girl 
there’s passion in this frown
cus i think i am obsessed with the all the 
love when your around
why they want smoke with me
not a stoner
when she’s not here im a loner
she too bad you can’t clone her
i live for her im a donor

i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

(guardin)
i'll stop breathing 
lie awake in the night fight the feeling 
fuck love i'm a mess for a reason 
six feet in the dirt for the season
i don't like this
life without the hue of your iris
erase your face embedded in my eyelids
patience paints the face of the silent 

sorry i'm not coming down 
elevated all around 
my conscience thinks i'm falling out
of grip i ripped the bong & now i'm

(guardin and guccihighwaters)
stoned beyond belief i know 
i fucked it up it goes to show 
that i get high when i feel low
please pick me up & take me home

(guccihighwaters)
i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

rather be a ghost (feat. guardin)

the homie @guccihighwaters

lyrics

(gucci)
I build static
I go crazy
Can't put it out if it doesn't sound amazing
and life's too fast baby hold me till it's over
tell me that you love me maybe once when you're sober
Don't wanna die as a memory
I can't leave without my legacy
Leave love letters lying on my tombstone
death is only physical I'd like to have a new home

Anxiety make my body go numb now
I sleep early withdraw on the comedown 
when I was younger it left me in hunger
but now I'm older 
desire to be under x2

(softheart)
you dont even care like you used to 
you aint even there like you used to be
hard like the usual 
you just give me stares like you're used to me

anxious probably up late
tryna hide my face
tryna bring it back
i was thinking that
life is always moving so fast
before you knew it had passed
doing better still bad

i guess im just scared it wont come
true so i dont think it
i swear its so lonely when its snowing
in new england
thought you called me it was just a 
dream was just a figment
of back when you would hold me 
like the only thing you need is
me 
is me 
is me
hate me you hate me so bad
its over hard to stay sober 
as i get older just grow colder
weed make it okay so i stay stoned
just like a boulder

chorus

anxiety (feat. guccihighwaters)

LYRICS: https://genius.com/Softheart-and-guccihighwaters-jealous-traits-lyrics

huge thanks to the homie
@guccihighwaters

instrumentation by: @noahwalker
mixing/mastering by: softheart
production by: softheart, vowl.

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Jealous Traits (feat. guccihighwaters)(prod. vowl.)

prod. by @notmorgn

i been climbing on this ladder for months
time has worn it down now i’m breaking the rungs
city smog blackening my lungs
I’m used to shitty days
this stuff just isn’t fun anymore
where did all the time go 
spent it with my eyes closed
spent it with some fake friends
dissing ain’t a typo
now my pockets fat
they gonna need some lypo
i always spend it fast
i make it back in a night though

self sabotage 
i’m with my entourage
cold shoulder
i don’t really wanna talk
and i don’t wanna stop
until i’m on the top
don’t want another thought
of when my bones will rot

self sabotage 
i’m with my entourage
cold shoulder
i don’t really wanna talk
and i don’t wanna stop
until i’m on the top
don’t want another thought
of when my bones will rot

i need excitement
something that could pump my blood around
i been fighting with myself every time i’m down
and i turned blue right at the bottom 
man you let me drown now they ask me 
why i never bring that girl around
done with that phase
i ain’t coming back aye
but the pain stays
tatted with the sad face
sit back look at all the damage
i never knew i caused it
but i saw it when you vanished
i really hurt myself for you
i cry i feel i’m just like you
and i killed my body
and i killed my brain
i’m a bag of bones baby
walking in the rain
i call it

self sabotage 
i’m with my entourage
cold shoulder
i don’t really wanna talk
and i don’t wanna stop
until i’m on the top
don’t want another thought
of when my bones will rot

self sabotage 
i’m with my entourage
cold shoulder
i don’t really wanna talk
and i don’t wanna stop
until i’m on the top
don’t want another thought
of when my bones will rot

self sabotage

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