thinking about her in the back of the bus

Luvvv dem gun sounds

what would u know abt being retarded
i throw my brain straight into the garbage
because im sofucking bad at social interactions
because i have such a strong passion for star wars
and also ww2 and ancestry and history 
and all these other things that normal people dont obsess over
i guess its just over
i guess its just over

im a fucking retarded loser i have no friends
i spend everyday inside on my computer i wanna die
the only girl that gave me valentines every year was my mom
i got bullied viciously i live in misery

oh my god i hate my fucking life dude

im anxious as fuck and im depressed as fuck and im suicidal
and i have been for a while
but its hard to wake up every morning and pretend its alright
but at least i have my favorite video game fortnite

why is my life harder because im autistic

can i come over
i wanted to show you my lego deathstar in my room
cause ur the girl im with lets watch revenge of the sith
and i can put on my anakin costume

can i come over

yayyy songg + @bloodsekai

prod me and sekai

lyrics:
(sillyemo124)
i wanna come over
even tho i barely know her
standing by her house 
looking like a fucking lunatic 
please open the door
I will not be a bore 
im not having any fun
i just wanna die 
wanna die

bed rot girl
shes so fucking lazy
bed rot girl
she drives me crazy
bed rot girl
the one that could save me
otherwise id be hanging

(bloodsekai)
woke up at ur house
idk what i'm doing here
showed me my way out
now ur looking thru ur car mirror

think i seemed to piss u off
didn't mean to do u wrong
would u say ur better off
if we hadn't met at all

got the sense that i could try
(i can try to try)
in ur life i'll say goodbye
(i'm really bad at lies)
tell my mom i'll be back
(i'll be back)
when u don't want me attacked
(and i'm still intact)

bedrot girl w/ bloodsekai

are you upset
just tell me how u feel 
ive been unkempt
but maybe i should pick up cigarettes
cus lately ive been feeling so upset

whats the problem lately?
am i the one youre hating?
my mind it keeps on racing
its fine i think im crazy

i'll knock on every damn door in marina del ray
till i find the right one and i can finally say
that i hate you
i hate you

i know im going crazy

coffee and candy houses
just bury me I know i'm unwanted 
the snow melts every summer
but i’ll be gone come december 

kill me come december 
i know this can’t go on forever
so i'll bury myself in your backyard 
and tear out my heart 
to put it back together

Come December

took the vocal version down cuz this song sounds better as an instrumental srry :P

the world as i knew it is gone

SOUL SAVED

Fractured

WATCH THE WORLD BURN - Ocean way mixdown

demos & throwaways (main is @h4rtbrkr)

i delete stuff alot and then spam upload and then reupload said deleted stuff

Luvvv dem gun sounds

h2rtbrkr