happy birthday to me ig :/

so many days that my life turned out bad

so many nights that u been up in my head

its hard to not think about what u said

i cant forget that i used to take them meds

i hated waking up at 6am

when i could of been sleeping in

i didnt wanna go to school

but i went to see my friends

its my birthday in 9 days

but i dont really feel like my age

as a kid i didnt feel pain

like i do now


some people say when u get older

that your problems will fade away

its another birthday where i feel nothing

i know that it wont change into something

my birthday (ALL PLATS)

this song is the first of many - negligence

prod. peril
lyrics;

@fuckfenix

"fuck you, you creep!"
(WANT ME TO DIE)
i know you really want me to die,
can you even hear me when i cry
watch me commit suicide
i can see the tears GOING DOWN YOUR EYES!
never made you deicide
everytime i see you i just get shy,
i cry myself to sleep almost everynight..

@9vn-455345866

i tired so hard.. but ill never get through to you
you live you so far.. but ill do what you tell me to
CAN YOU HEAR MY CRYS?
DID YOU TELL YOUR LIES?
I FANTASIZE.. when you were mine
back we were so in love
back when my hand was your glove
where did it go wrong my love? (where did it go wrong my love?)

@dazingoff

why cant you just.. listen to me?
you put me through so much i.. gave up on everything
what we had BETWEEN US WAS GREAT!
i hate the way we showed eachother LOVE IT WAS WAS FAKE!
and all that i do.. is bottled up
all my emotions yeah.. IM SO SCARED!
but all that you do.. its fucked me up
i cant keep going on.. its not a fair

@fuckfenix

"fuck you, you creep!"
(WANT ME TO DIE)
i know you really want me to die,
can you even hear me when i cry
watch me commit suicide
i can see the tears GOING DOWN YOUR EYES!
never made you deicide
everytime i see you i just get shy,
i cry myself to sleep almost everynight..

want me to die w/ fenix, dazingoff, 9vn

scrap two

scrap four w/ Bruxely!

prod. me
@sideshowhan

girl i get where youre coming from 
but i dont think youre hearing me
i cry out for you its a flood of love
girl i think that ive fallen way too deep

im exhausted i think that ive lost it
tell me why you treat my heart like a target
been tryna rationalize why youre so heartless
i wouldnt have to suffer if you were honest

i wouldnt overthink if you were just honest.

honesty.

FLARE

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Zombie

pin my back into the wall
shoot a flare, i could save your heart
all i give, you just take it all
i've been barking
come & save the dog

chain me up
kill my love
i can't waste no time
clocks been ticking up
there's this elephant
in this room with us
oh so elegant
i still kill it i-

can't decide
if i'll wake up & see you & tear it all apart
tell me i was right
i'll never escape this feeling of tryna solve it all
(tryna solve it)
tell me it's all you want

lucille - mutt (snippet)

fenix - tongue twisted w/dazingoff

(@fuckfenix)

(lets go)

you've been running in my mind 
I've been calling out for help, no ones picking up the line (lets go)
huh, tell me am I really to myself? 
you're so tongue twisted, I'm so sick of all your lies (lets go)

I've been so alone for so long
you've been lying on my name you're so wrong
all you said, your words are so strong
acting so tuff? your girl sings my songs

I'm so done, and I have falled for all your lies
so stay on that side
and I'm stuck, I know I lost
its okay I know that I'm alright

when i sing can you hear the cry's? (fuck fenix)
I got this rope ill make it real tight
fuck a deal ill never get signed
I know you hurt me can you please tell me why?

(@dazingoff)

baby I've been using my time 
maybe you should do what I do and take my advice
I know that I fuck a lot of things up in my life
cussing on the phone, at 3AM and we acting like things are alright

you ask me questions that i cant respond to (ouuu)
I'm tired of putting myself on the line for you (on the line for you)
finding somebody else is going for hard for you (so hard)
its going to hurt me way more than it does for you (for you)

you said it was forever (forever) 
but it didn't last long
shits been bad since we're over
it sucks we never got along

(ouuu, ouuu ouuuu,)

time passes by, when I look back at you
ever since the day we ended I cant be myself without you
take the wind to around the corner, I hope it doesn't find me
all I wanted was some closer but you didn't have time for me

you want me to figure it out
baby why cant you do anything
you know never wanna fix it
hate me? baby that don't even make sense

(@fuckfenix)

I'm not a replacement I swear I'm not your toy
the music's getting loud, can you kill the noise?
tell me what's this all about? 
your always quick to run your mouth
you always see me in the west,
you never see me in the south

I was in my head I'm always going in and out
they tell me everything, I wanna know why your down
I tried my best but we all know how that turned out
I gave you everything I'm going down this damn route

I'm not as bad as they say
and I've been going quite, I've been going M.I.A
this silence in my head killing me everyday
so tell me what's this all about
so keep my name out of your mouth

fenix - tongue twisted w/dazingoff

MOG - Ain't Living Right

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